Chapter 42Doctor, how much longer do you think that she’s going to be in this state ?”You know what Mr Ethan , I think you should just go back home and rest. Maybe that way you will be able to think straight, because right now you look really stressed out and I do not think that it’s really good for you . I could hear the voices in my head as I have always been hearing all the voices in my head from day one but I haven’t really gotten the nerves to open my eyes .I didn’t know why it was so hard to open them when it should be easier .I have tried all that I could to go towards the light .I wanted to know who was talking and who was always there with me .I wanted to know who it was that was caring for me in such a state .I didn’t know who it was and it made me so curious .I know that regardless of what it was , I wouldn’t deny the fact that this person had been here all along and all that I wanted to do this time was see his or her face .For the longest since I have b
Chapter 43I didn’t know if I was just hearing stuff or Ethan was trying to be funny to me but I wasn’t finding his statement that funny but the protruding Tommy made it clear to me that this was reality and this wasn’t no joke .“ but i thought that you were getting married to me and I thought they you wanted to start a family with me and that was the only choice than I had , I had to tell them to keep the pregnancy , I had no choice than to do that , I did this for us , I thought that you will be happy if you woke up to this .I didn’t know that feeling I had in my heart at this moment , but I knew that whatever the feeling was , I wasn’t having it .The guts that he had to say that he thought that I was going to have a family together with him when he didn’t even try to protest my decision , but then he thinks that he could make decisions about my body .The fuck , this was just a fuckinh stupid plan and there was no way that I wanted it to expatsget to the way that it i
Chapter 44I knew that my words hit him so hard when I didn’t see him for the next two weeks .I was the one who had asked him to get out and never come in again since I was disgusted seeing his face , but I am still the same person who is dying to see him right now and I just wish that I never says those words to him in the first place , that the worst mistake that I ever did and wish that I didn’t do it , the last thing that I would go is hurt anyone with my words .I knew how much I loved Ethan and even though he could take up something like that without me being there , I had to understand that he had to do it .I was half dead and I wasn’t there to make that decision so he had to do that to save my life .My seconds thoughts on the abortion had been Nothing but crazy , I didn’t know what I was going to. Do .I asked the doctor about it and he told me that having that abortion would pose a big threat to my life , but on a second thought I still wanted that done .The fact
Chapter 45My husband and I finally settled and I can’t begin to tell you how relieved I felt .I knew that he did something crazy that I hate but I also saw his point and perspective for doing it and must accept the fact that he has also gotten a point .No matter how much it tried to look , I knew that I was definitely not going to leave this man , I wanted all the best for him and that is getting married to him , I was definitely going to get married to him and that is it .I didn’t know how long I had to wait before he came to take me away from the hospital .I felt sick to my stomach and I just wanted to go home .I knew that my husband was doing literally everything possible to make sure that I was well taken care of and it was just so shocking seeing this dude like him that I had never seen before in my entire life .I didn’t know how much more it had to be but whatever that it was , I felt it more and more , I felt every single inch of it . For the first time in a whine , I
Chapter 46Two weeks passed in a blink of an eye .I couldn’t believe that it’s been two weeks since I recovered from the hospital .I didn’t know if. I Was having the best time of my life but I knew that I was .I must say that Ethan had been the best fiance that one would ever wish for in their entire life .Not only has he been there for me but he has been showing what it takes to love a person and that’s the only thinking that I just can’t understand about him .My fiancée had asked me to stop going to work and promised that he was going to be going alone and wherever it was that I got ready , then I was degontky going to go back to work .But I know that going back to work meant it was after I had given birth to my baby .I couldn’t imagine how crazy and cruel it was going to be in that way .“ I didn’t know if I should keep on getting worried about it .I looked at my reflection and had one of the sweetest ideas that I never thought that I would get in all my life .Never
fianceee Chapter 48Ethan left the house and here I was all alone and by myself .As I sat in that room thinking about all the things that would happen to me , I just can’t help but imagine if my mom was to be in support of this .I knew that she would be here at this moment trying to make sure that I wasn't alone , but no, all of this isn’t going to happen because right now I know that I am all by myself for the first time ever .It hurts so much to know that my parents don’t care if I am alive or not , all that they care about is the fact that I am married to an older man and so no matter what I say or do , they will never be in support of it .As much as it hurts so much to see the one people that I care so much about turn their back against me I still can’t deny the fact that they have tried .I have always been the daughter that anyone would dream of having and seeing me go astray was killing them .This is my own happiness and I am not going to let what anyone had to say abou
fianceee Chapter 49As I stood right in front of my father , I tried my best to listen to all the trash that he was saying before blowing out .No matter how many times he tried to make it make sense to me I still don’t get it and I am finding it so damn hard to understand why he was pushing the wedding to be more faster than it already was , I couldn’t bear it no matter how much I tried to .The thought that my own ex was going to be my step mother haunted me , I thought that all of it was a joke but my father was really going on with on .This war one of the many reasons why he actually did care about my mother and the only thing that he cared about was his goddamn sef .I could never imagine that this could ruin everything , I made just a simple mistake and this is how he decided to pay me for being the one child that had taken care of all his stuffs all this years shd no matter how much I tried I could never accept it .Ethan my dad walked towards me and just before he cou
My marriage was fast approaching and so was my baby bump growing in the speed of light .What I still don’t understand is how I am being able to accept the fact that I am getting married and saw nothing wrong in it .The girl that I knew will never get married this easily and most defiantly not to a man she had just met .They saw evrything happens for a reasons and I really do hope that this one is for a good course , because I just can’t stop thinking of all the things that I have to do now .Being his wife is something that I had always dreamt of , I wanted it to be this way and I actually wanted to know how it felt being married .I didn’t care what anyone had to say about me getting married to this man , the last thing that I think I care about right now is what anyone has got to say about me .Firstly all that I care about , they could simply go to hell , there was nothing that was stopping me from this marriage , I am so head hills in love with him ahd I just want to spend t
fianceee Chapter 60 All the days of my life and me getting married and involved with this man .I never thought that a day will come that I will go back to that one ex that I hated so much to the core .It is quite amusing how u have to go bank to the things that I said that I would not go back to .What must one have to go through all of this stuffs , I must know .From what it may be , I know that I can never trust that man , he was the Jewett person that I wanted ti trust at this moment .That night he looked at me straight in the eye and lied to me .I didn’t know if he thought that he was smart emoji to hand that covered up , but he didn’t do it , I am the one who had to go with the public’s humiliation shd the insult .As much as I don’t want to belive that it was true , a part of me still fight want to let the story go .I knew that for every lie there must be a truth and what if he was lying to me .I didn’t want to think that the same man that I thought wad going to c
fianceee Chapter 59The ride back to the airport had to be the worst that I had ever taken in my entire life .The fact that I had to act like evrything was okay and smile so that I sounded burst out crying sooner or later was the most defeating part of it .How I felt at this moment was compared to Notbing .I will not deny the fact that I was totally broken by his words and the way he spoke to me .The fact that he didn’t regard me ad his mother wad the purest form of torture that I had to go through .One more thing that I had never thought about wad if all of this was ever going to world.I shouldn’t have just gone to his house , what was I thinking when I decided to get that stupid .I could bever had imagined that things were going to turn out this way no matter how junk I try to put it .I think that I have done the worst thing that anyone will think of at this moment .So much pain , how I felt at that monentb.I should never open my mouth and call myself a mother because I
fianceee Chapter 58 Jayden, I think we really we need to talk , I know that you hate so much right now that you can’t even stand my presence but we really need to talk this out.I am your mother and I will always be , just give me a chance to show you that I really care about you and I promise you are not going ti regret it for anything , those are not just mere words , I words , I promise that I wouldn’t deny that .I was scared , the look he had on his face didn’t look like a forgiving one and he looked more pissed than I had ever expected bim to be , maybe because I never had this high expectation for him . I never knew that the news that I created was this bad , the looks that he had on his face , those looks I’d disgusting like I am some monster that he didn’t want a thing to do with me .I guess that is my reward for being the stupid mother that no one will ever ask for , I dumped his ass and now I am back to act like I did nothing .Jayden .Jayden .You know wha
fianceee Chapter 57 I walked around the room in a panicked state , obviously scared of how evrything was going to turn out if I didn’t do anything right now .A part of me didn’t want to do a thing , I fine want to fight back after all I was the one who had that choice and that decision years ago .It was my choice that I be in this situation that I am in now , what really matters if the fsctbthat I left him to his own happiness if that is what he wants , I could never take that away from him , even though I know that I have tried .It hurts and never did I think that it was going to feel this way, I always thought that it was going to be way more than I thought and maybe I could just do something with my time and spend more time with him as it went but never did I think that he was going to fail out even before my first planned hatched .I hated myself for leaving right now snd for the first time ever I wished that I hadn’t left .I could clearly remember his face that day when I
fianceee Chapter 56 Ethan didn’t spend the night with me .Maybe he thought I am a fool and was so happy that he gotten one foolish girl , but I can only be foolish once and not twice .I wasn’t going to let any man use me , not again , I couldn’t tell where he was or who he was seeing at this time of the night that had to make him leave me all alone without any care in the world .I had just confronted him yesterday and he told me that whatever it was that hated was saying was a bloody lie but I fear that. It might nit even be the case .The bastard was lying , the fact that he had to leave the house at night proved it all .I looked at the time , it was still 4am in the morning , he left around 12:15 the moment he thoufht that I was already asleep and the bastard hadn’t return till now .Isn’t he too stupid to think that I will be a fool and not listen to what his son had to say to me , I mean who can be a doll twice .If there anyone who will be dump twice , then I don’t t
fianceee Chapter 55I think that we should do this more often of what do you think.I never thought that I will miss you this much, it’s so good to have you back Ethan , I have tried my text to make sure that I get you back but I haven’t been able to but now that I am have , I am most greatefuk and o am not going to stay this opportunity for granted .I love you so much and evrything that I do , just know that I do it for you and you will always be my biggest support system .I pulled off evrything off me as I stood up from the bed , when I turned all I could see was her naked figure , something that I loved so much but seeing it just now didn’t bring out what I thought that I wanted , it was just there and fir the first time in a long whine , i didn’t feel that thing that I felt whenever I was in with this woman , I should have known better , it could never be the way it used to be no matter how much I try .I dragged the smoke and blew it out while I watched the moonlight from
fianceee Chapter 54 My father was standing right outside my court .I knew that look that dad had on his face , I knew that he was so mad at me, but the girl was going to find out either way and I wasn’t going to let her go through the mess that I put her through the first time which wasn’t right for me to do .I could do right by her the first time and now I am not going to sit here and watch and let things happen , I am not going to do that .I didn’t want to see my dad , I didn’t want to see this, he had betrayed me in the most inhuman way that anyone can treat their child but yet he thinks that he can just show up at my house and then scream his lungs out just headed he got a new wife who is no other than my ex and was expecting me to be so scared of him, that isn’t going to happen , not now or ever , I don’t think so .As I walked out of the house , our eyes ran into each other , the great hated running deep in the both of us , I must admit that I have never seen him the wa
fianceee Chapter 53I had been waiting for Ethan to return back home for the whole day and this was the longest that he had stayed put .I will say that I was worried but I could never say that , I didn’t know if he was doing something and most importantly I didn’t want to disturb him for anything in this world but I had my questions that I wanted to ask and I didn’t know how long , I could bear this but I know that I really need ghost damn a swear and I. Better get them .After waiting for about the whole day , the one person that I had been waiting for , drone in .I felt a sense of rush inside of me she’s he drove in. I didn’t know why I was feeling that way. I didn't know if I was excited to see him or if I was just being nervous about what he was going to say if I asked him about it .I wanted to know what he had to say, that was the only thing that I had in mind and better sure he had a better answer to why Jayden will come in here and try to put him as the bad person .I kn
Tessa was sitting in the car and going through her phone when I arrived .I still wondered how she was able to sit out here without feeling tired or anything .She didn’t bother to call or even text me that she was tired of editing but she was just so patient .A part of me that I just don’t understand , I didn’t know if she loved me or not or if she was just faking it all but what I know is the face that never had I felt worried my entire life the way I was feeling right now .Once Tessa saw me approving the car , she suddenly sat upright .I knew that look on her face and I knew that she was tired of waiting for me but was just trying her best to keep it on a low .So what are you going to say happened today because of I still wanna understand I know that you took a long time and you are not going to tell me that you came back here without no good news to share , that can’t be true and you know it do trust me when I say that I am so ready to listen to all that she said .“ What wer