Chapter 73: Life is not fair

Aniston's POV (present)

It was the first time I thought of ending it all. I just remember standing outside my bedroom door with this giant heavy weight on my chest and the thought of going to bed and never waking up again sounded appealing...so appealing that for a moment I imagined standing on the edge of a bridge and just fall to a permanent sleep but that wouldn't be fair to a lot of people.

Papa would lose a child, Markle and Anisa a sibling.

It didn't seem fair but what about my life or anyone's life was fair.

Everyday good people find themselves doing things we never thought we would do, being people we never thought we would turn out to be while assholes like Nick get to live happily ever after. Nothing about this life screams fair and I should be used to it by now but each time life knocks the air out of my lungs and I am left standing outside a mansion reliving the most painful part of my existence, just struggling to catch my breath.

I can't breathe. I am struggling and I ca