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Chapter 168: Dreamless Sleep (Ryder's POV)

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(Ryder's POV)

Staying by Kate’s side, I watched her battle the internal demons conjured up by the vision. Her eyes were blank, staring into the abyss as if searching for answers in the emptiness.

I tried to comfort her, my words echoing in the quiet room, but it was as if she couldn’t hear me. She was trapped there, still in the vision, replaying it over and over in her mind.

“It wasn’t real, Kate,” I whispered, trying to reassure her. I hoped my words would get through to her, but so far, she barely acknowledged my presence aside from the fact that her hand was gripping mine tightly.

“It was just a vision. It doesn’t have to mean anything,” I went on, desperate to soothe her and pull her back from the edge.

She remained silent, her face pale and her hand trembling slightly in mine.

I wasn’t sure whether she believed me or if she was too lost in her own fears to respond or maybe she wasn't even hearing me at all. I felt helpless, unsure of how to reach her. The only thing I could do
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