The wounds of loss are painful.
The memories that remain will be even more suffocating.
But life must go on, even though the heart seems numb. Although the body seems to have no soul.
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Felicia deliberately took a longer leave to restore her heart and body after losing Jayden. She didn't do much, just kept contemplating under the covers or flipping her cellphone. Read the messages from Jayden that will remain in their memories, as well as the photos that will remain there. Even though Jayden is gone.
Felicia got out of bed and came out of her room.
Quiet.
Looks like Emily is out.
Felicia also decided to go to campus. Just to look around and just get some fresh air.
Once she arrived at her old campus, Felicia didn't feel the fresh air, but her lungs became so tight. Various memories played there. Especially during the last year they were close because of a joint study. A year of closeness that left so m
The days keep changing. But Felicia's heart still felt such a deep wound that it still hurt when the memory of Jayden flashed across her head. All she could do was take a deep breath in order to relieve the pain radiating in her chest cavity.Felicia is still working as usual. If she used to work normally, this time she worked even harder. In fact, she often works overtime just to complete her not too much work. But the girl did a lot of other things including research projects made by the company where she worked. Because Felicia will get more money if she succeeds with her research. Maybe her savings will increase faster and she can go back to college as a pharmacist. Even though the reality is that her enthusiasm is not as big as before, she still has to continue her studies so she can create her own pharmacy and get a job with better prospects in the future.Moreover, Felicia now has to fight alone. Maybe when her relationship with Jayden was still bad, at least Fe
Glen looked at the simple house in front of him. He has been here several times since moving to Jakarta one year ago. Yes, of course because Felicia has started her pharmacist course again and the girl just took her pharmacist oath today. Even though he was just silent in front of the house, Glen continued to ensure that the girl always came home safely. He had never been inside that simple house. To be precise, not yet.But this time, Glen felt the time was right. Felicia has graduated from pharmacist college and is looking for a new job, which means that he can carry out the last mandate Jayden gave him.Married Felicia.Glen had never met Felicia in person. It's not that he doesn't dare. He was just lazy and felt so hard to meet the girl. After all, what good reason to see Felicia? While he is only Jayden's cousin. It was impossible if he immediately said he would marry her. Felicia will surely be shocked and may not believe it.So, the first step befo
Felicia looked up at the skyscraper in front of her. She also sighed in resignation and tried to be optimistic about the interview invitation email she got two days ago. Previously, she also received news from several pharmacist classmates who were in her age if their campus had recommended several students to companies and hospitals. So it is very likely if you get an interview call. And about the hospital owned by Jayden's grandfather, maybe just a coincidence.Because it is said that companies are looking for workers who have a lot of experience, and Felicia is on the list of students with a lot of experience. Moreover, Felicia has often worked part time and the last time she worked as a Quality Control staff at a large pharmaceutical company. That is very good enough to make her CV attract many companies.After entering and exchanging identity cards for visitor ID cards, Felicia was directed to the seventh floor. She also obeyed. So far there is nothing
Again, that afternoon Felicia sat beside Jayden's grave. The place has become her favorite place for the past year. Since she has returned to Jakarta. Even though Jayden is no longer in this world, but that man will still be in her heart."What are you really planning, Jay? Even in your critical moments, you still have time to think about me. Even though I couldn't be beside you at that time. Is this all really what you want? Can I find other happiness? without you?" muttered Felicia as she stared at the mound of dirt in front of her.Felicia ruffled her hair at once. How can she agree to a marriage like this? With a man she doesn't know very well. He even admits that he doesn't like women? Why would Glen want to marry her when he doesn't like women? Is this just a trick of Glen to cover up his identity, which may have a disorder? But why does it have to be her? Why did he have to carry the name of Jayden?.........Felicia looked at the back of her mothe
Part 79After work, Felicia was actually taken by Glen to meet his family. It turns out that Glen only has a mother and one younger sister, Gladys. Well, as Felicia knows, Gladys is the girl who made her misunderstand Jayden a few years ago. Even though they were not close in the end, Felicia finally knew that the girl was just Jayden's cousin, but Gladys looked awkward when she saw Felicia sitting next to her older brother.A middle-aged woman with a youthful face and brownish hair, making her look very elegant. Her face was very similar to Glen. Looks like Felicia got to know where Glen's handsome face came from."I'm Sally, Glen's mother. And this is Gladys, Glen's sister," explained Sally. "So, you Felicia?" asked the woman who was Glen's mother. She has been smiling kindly since Felicia's arrival here. "Are you Jayden's ex-girlfriend?""Y-yes, aunt." Felicia was a little nervous. At first glance she realized that the faces of Glen's mother and Jayden
Part 80Once the wedding ceremony was over, Felicia was brought home to the Glen family. Even though they should be able to stay in a hotel that is in the same building as their wedding hall. But Glen admits that he can't sleep unless he's in his own house. Felicia did not want to comment. After saying goodbye to Emily, she got into Glen's car and went home with the man.There is no chat between them. Glen focused only on the road in front of him. About half an hour later, they arrived at a mansion in a modern style with a gray and white color concept.Felicia was invited to the top floor, where Glen's room was. For a moment Felicia was frozen in the doorway of Glen's room and just stared at the man who had just turned on the light and loosened his tie."Want to sleep outside? I'm fine, but I'm lazy if my mom will comment later. Moreover Glady is super nag. Do you want your first night here to be bothered with them?" Glen asked with a flat face when he sa
Part 81It turned out that Glen had actually taken Felicia to their new home, which was located in a residential area not far from the hospital where they worked. The house with a minimalist design and a large yard looks quite comfortable. The furniture inside is complete even though everything is covered by white cloth and looks like it has not been used for a long time."I bought this house two years ago. Just as a place when I don't want to be disturbed by my family," said Glen as he pulled one by one white cloth and sat on his soft sofa. "Do not worry. I just bought all these things a month ago, before we got married and were always diligently cleaned by the people my orders. It turns out that I will use this house too. If Jayden hadn't asked me to get married, I might only visit this house once a year." He looked at every corner of his house which was indeed very clean even though he had not lived in it for a long time."Then where is the person who likes t
Part 82When he returned home, Glen saw that his house was dark. He was sure that Felicia was asleep. He also walked to the top floor, where his room was. The man glanced at the room right next to him, the room he had made for Felicia. The door to the girl's room was slightly ajar and from here he could see Felicia asleep on her bed with a curled position. The man smiled faintly then pulled the door closed slowly, so as not to make a sound that could wake the girl.Glen himself went into his room and lay down on the bed. Another reason he bought this house was actually on purpose for his marriage to Felicia. He was just afraid that he could not treat the girl well in front of his family or that Felicia might not b
After Shanum and Abizar returned home, they immediately took a break to maintain their stamina for the long journey tomorrow night."Would you like to make coffee?" Shanum asked when she saw Abizar leaning back on her bed."No need, honey. After all, I can't sleep early. We're going to have a long trip tomorrow.""Yes, too." Shanum then went to his closet and took a suitcase to pack his clothes and Abizar's clothes."Aren't you tired, just packing right away?" asked Abizar, who left his place and intended to help his wife."Not yet sleepy yet, Mas. So let's just relax tomorrow."Abizar nodded in agreement. He also helped Shanum put their clothes into the suitcase. Abizar remembered something and immediately took it from his briefcase. "Oh, yes. Here." Instead, he took out a medium-sized paper bag to his wife."What is this, Mas?" asked Shanum who looked confused.
"Num. Are you busy?" asked Keanu, who suddenly opened the door to Shanum's room. Making Shanum a little surprised because he was writing a medical record book belonging to his last patient."Mas ih! Greetings first grandfather. Just shocking." Shanum even grumbled. Luckily his heart is very healthy.Keanu even smiled amused. "Assalamualaikum." He also complied with the wishes of his friend."Waalaikumsalam." Shanum finally smiled. "Why is that, Mas? I just finished practicing anyway.""Uh, yes, tomorrow you want to take a honeymoon leave. You must be busy packing, right?" asked Keanu."Not really. It's just relaxing, after all, it's night. What's wrong?""Let's go with Haidar," said Keanu, making Shanum's forehead frown."What's wrong with Mas Haidar?""Troubled. Just broke up. Pity the person is staring at the park e
Haidar sighed and stirred his macchiato latte blankly outside the cafeteria window on the tenth floor. From here he can see a view of the city of Jakarta and the bustle of traffic jams on the highway. He was downhearted after a long and tiring night's service. Plus the relationship with Meta is still stuck and there hasn't been any development. Moreover, to convince Meta's parents that he could become a good priest for Meta, would be very difficult. Not sure yet, he was rejected outright.What's wrong with being a widower, anyway? Just having been married before doesn't mean he's a bad priest right? If it is the way to part, the period must be forced? Everyone's life path is different. Of course, all of that has been outlined by fate, right?"What's wrong? Troubled?" Keanu's voice made Haidar raise his head and grunt harshly.Menstruation chuckled, "it's really easy for you to say.""Why? What's the problem? Here, M
Shanum blinked when she heard the alarm sound. He also opened his eyes and tried to focus his gaze. His head turned to Abizar who was still fast asleep beside him. He stretched out his hand to move Abizar's burly arms that hugged his waist.The clock was still four in the morning. Shanum is used to getting up at this time. Especially since getting married and often doing bed activities with her husband. Of course, she has to take a bath, plus prepare breakfast for her husband. Troublesome? Not. Because this is lifelong worship for Shanum. And he did it sincerely.The woman who was almost twenty-six years old then got up and opened the curtains of her house which showed a blue sky. He then went into the bathroom and cleaned his body. Only then did he wake Abizar."Hmmm. Five more minutes," said Abizar hoarsely as Shanum rubbed his head and called out his name as usual. The woman's way is very gentle to wake her husband. Shanum never
One month after the wedding of Shanum and Abizar, they haven't gone on their honeymoon yet because of limited time off. Even though Abizar is the owner of the hospital where he works, Shanum doesn't want to be arbitrary with the power that her husband's family has. He still follows the existing regulations in the hospital including leave allowances and a schedule of leave that must take turns with other doctors.At first, Shanum was no longer interested in her honeymoon. After all, he was always with Abizar. They've done it often. For him, the honeymoon is only a difference in place when he 'does' what a newlywed usually does.As Shanum guessed, 'Abizar is strong'. She was overwhelmed by it. Even though he is lucky that he has about seven days off in a month, Abizar will stop doing it. Although in the end the man was grumpy on his own and clung to her.Tonight, Shanum has finished cooking the chicken opor and Balado potatoes accordi
Shanum looked at the screen of his cellphone which displayed a test pack image with two red lines on it. Also, the gratitude caption was written by Tiara. After two months of his marriage, his wife Keanu became pregnant immediately. Making Shanum happy to hear the news."Mas. Look. Tiara is already pregnant. Alhamdulillah," said Shanum with a smile that was clearly printed on her lips.Abizar smiled and then rubbed the top of his wife's head gently. "Later you will be so dear. We will love our grandchildren to our parents," he said with a meaningful smile.Shanum pursed her lips. "Yes, Mas. Yes, let's sleep. Tomorrow you go to work in the morning, right?"Abizar grabbed Shanum's hand so that the woman came closer to him and hugged him from behind. "Sorry, because I'm so busy because the surgery schedule is getting busy."Shanum smiled understandingly. Since a month after getting
Upon the return of Shanum and Abizar from Solo. They are getting busy with their wedding preparations again.Jasmine invited Shanum to go to a salon to get her face and body treated. Shanum feels like being with his own mother. Jasmine looks very fond of him like his mother used to love her."You are already beautiful. But you still need care, especially if you will become a wife. You know that actors are even more creepy. So you have to keep Abizar's eyes fixed on you," Jasmine said reminding her when she and Shanum were both scrubbing her whole body in a well-known salon. The massages on her body felt comfortable and immediately calmed their minds."Yes, Mom." Shanum swallowed his own saliva at the word someone who wants another husband. Even though she really believed that Abizar could not be like that."Abizar is exactly his daddy. They are both loyal but we don't know in the future. Mommy hopes that Abizar can
After a long process and a bit of the usual fuss finally, it will pay off with a wedding party that has been prepared in such a way. And immediately next week is the day Shanum has been waiting for. Namely his marriage to Abizar.Invitations have also been distributed, the building has also been ordered for food. Seserahan has been ordered. Just prepare yourself.There is one last wish of Shanum to Abizar before their marriage takes place. Namely visiting his father's grave - Yudha, as well as asking for blessings for the smooth running of their marriage later. It has been a long time since Shanum went to Solo to visit his father's grave, even though after every prayer, Shanum never forgot the prayer for his late father, Mother, and Mas Haikal.So today, Shanum and Abizar go to Solo. To shorten the time and effort, they departed by plane. Jasmine and Januar let out a smile for their two children. They also understood that Shanum mus
"Mom. Dad." Abizar hugged his parents when they met at the station. "How was the trip?""It's smooth. It's been a long time since I took the train," said Jasmine as she tucked her hair out of her headscarf. "Shanum. Come here, dear." She stretched out his hand on Shanum.Shanum smiled shyly and walked over to Jasmine and hugged her. "How are you, mom?""Alhamdulillah, it's fine. How do you guys prepare for the wedding? What's missing?" asked Jasmine, who looked enthusiastic."Let's go to the car first, mom. We'll tell you on the road. Or want to stop by for dinner first?" asked Abizar, dragging his parents' suitcase."You can. Mommy is also hungry. Mommy just wants traditional food. I think eating chicken penyet is good. I'm feeling dizzy." Jasmine held her own head."How can I not be dizzy. Every day I can't wait to come here and prepare for her son's wedding," said Januar, who was