This was dangerous. It was late already, and her mom could come back home at any moment. It wouldn't be the only time I was with a girl when her parents came home, but in this tiny apartment, I doubted I could find somewhere to hide or a way to escape so she wouldn't see me. I didn't care so much about myself, but I didn't want to get Anita in trouble.I couldn't stop myself, though, and decided it was worth the risk, if I got to find that heaven only Anita had ever given me one more time. Urgent need pushed me over the edge of sanity and I tugged her head back by her hair, gently, and leaned down to kiss her. I deepened the kiss, sliding my tongue into her mouth to taste. When I couldn't stand the wait anymore, when her sighs be-came an urgent, need-filled sound, I rolled her under-neath me, parted her thighs with my knee, and settled into the space between her hips."How does your body feel?" I murmured, kissing her neck.Anita hummed. "Good. So good, Evan..."It wasn't what
"You're seriously going to the library?"I scowled at the girl holding my arm. She was a cheerleader, and I knew her, but right then, I wasn't in the mood. Everyone must have noticed that I was avoid-ing Anita lately, because ever since I got back to school nearly a week ago, I hadn't approached her, and had done my best not to appear in her line of sight. I didn't think she'd come after me, she didn't seem like the bold type of girl, but I didn't like what I felt when I saw her, either."Just come and hang out with us," the girl said in-sistently. "The others are waiting.""I'm not going," I said irritably, tugging my arm out of her hold. "Just tell them I'm busy."I walked away without a look back. She must have been new in the cheerleader squad because she wasn't a girl I'd thought of dating before, and she wasn't a senior, but the team and the cheerleader squad hung out often, so I should know her, but I couldn't bring myself to think about it.It was time for lunch, and
Not that I was really worried about it. I wasn't planning on coming out the top of my class; it would be fine if I skated the bottom as long as I had enough cred-its to graduate. I had an account in my name with some funds, so I could always figure out what to do after graduation, even if I left home like my sister did, wheth-er or not I went to college. Still, it couldn't hurt actually to study. I wasn't in the mood for anything else, anyway.Chanel was quiet for a while, but she didn't leave yet, so I knew she wasn't done. I did my best to ignore her, but I was already distracted, and her sitting right there staring at me wasn't helping. Then, she sighed."Why are you being like this? Just what did that girl do to you that you're ignoring all of your friends?"I didn't speak up and tell her what I thought about them. I only had a few friends, as for everyone else, they were people I hung out with regularly when I didn't have anything better to do, and I didn't want to go home.
Hayley led the way into her house, and I followed dejectedly. She paused after closing the door, listening, before she turned to me with a nod."Okay, no one's home. Go up to my room, and I'll follow you with drinks."She headed for the kitchen, and I made my way up the stairs. I'd come to her place often enough since we became friends that I was pretty familiar with her house. In her room, I tossed off my shoes and sat on the bed, leaning back against the headboard. I stared at my lap, playing with my fingers, only looking up when Hayley entered the room."Here," she said. She held out a can of soda to me, then sat across from me, keeping the other one to herself. "Sorry I don't have a lot of snacks in the house. How are you feeling?"I sighed, listlessly pulling the tab on the soda can, then taking a sip."Not very well," I admitted. "You already know my life is a total mess.""Did something happen?"I arched an eyebrow. "You mean, besides the inci-dent that happened at
"His parents are still married, though, right?" Hay-ley asked."They are, but there's talk of divorce now, and his mom isn't at home anymore. Now that I know, Mom isn't keeping anything from me at all. She keeps saying she's going to marry him when his divorce comes through, even though Evan hates her. Well, he hates both of us, now."Mom, for being a whore, and me for being the whore's daughter. It left a bad taste in my mouth every time I thought of it, but I couldn't wash away the words so easily, and I couldn't even refute them because it was true that she was dating a man she knew was married, and it had been going on for a while."I'm not going to console you just because he hates you, you know."I looked up at Hayley and found her pouting at me."Why wouldn't you? Your friend came to you for comfort. Hayley, you're my only friend."She huffed. "It's nice of you to remember that, but was I in your mind all that time you got to spend with Evan, huh? You've been ignorin
I hurried back to school. When school let out, I'd gone with Hayley straight to her place because it was close to the school, so going back took me about fifteen minutes. I followed his directions in the text and went to the football field, one of the few places in the school I'd never stepped foot in during my years in high school.Evan had practice, and he wanted to meet right af-ter. Time had already passed so I shouldn't have to wait long, though I didn't know how long practice was sup-posed to last, to begin with.I could see them practicing long before I got close. Besides the team and the cheerleaders, a few students were sitting in the stands watching the practice. I headed over and took one of the lower seats, apart from every-one else. I frowned over at the field, looking through the running bodies and trying to figure out which one was Evan. I did find him, but only because I glimpsed his name on the back of his jersey.My eyes followed him as he moved around the field
I wanted to say yes so, I could walk right into my room and go to sleep, pretend that I never saw them to-gether. My stomach and larger appetite gave me away, though, my stomach let out a growl as the scent of the food hit my nose. I didn't eat much at lunch because I was so preoccupied, and Hayley only gave me a soda, so I was really hungry."You can come and join us," Mom said. "Sit on the chair there."I didn't want to join the awkward atmosphere since I knew my presence was what made it awkward for all of us. Still, I closed the door behind me and went to sit in the only other chair in the room as Mom and Carl settled themselves on the couch."Go ahead and serve yourself, take as much as you'd like. We're almost done."I nodded and did as she said. I wondered if I could excuse myself to my room, anyway, because they were being silent and sent stares at each other like they wanted to get back to whatever they were talking about. Only, they didn't want to be impolite and send
Mom and I walked into the diner and found an empty table for two."I didn't think we'd get time for it right now?" I admitted.Mom smiled at me. "Things have been hard for both of us recently. I think we both need this."I wasn't going to argue, even though she didn't know just how hard things were going to get yet. The scent in the diner had my mouth watering, and I hadn't realized I'd been craving pie before we walked in here.A waitress stopped by our table and took our or-der. It was the same thing we always got when we came out, a slice of pie. Mom's jobs didn't pay a lot of money, and we couldn't afford to eat out with all the bills, but Mom could at least splurge to get us both a mug of hot chocolate and apple pie once every month. We'd turned it into something we did for fun as a family of two. I wasn't feeling it this month, but I wouldn't say no to ap-ple pie."You look like you haven't eaten in ages," Mom laughed, watching me dig into my pie.I shot her a smile,