It was lunch, and Haley and I were seated at our usual table. My focus wasn't on eating, though, as I kept glancing around the room, looking for someone.Hayley, finally getting fed up with me not paying her any attention, sighed and poked me in the arm."What's going on with you today, Anita? Actual-ly, no. What's been up with you recently because today isn't the only day I caught you acting weird. Is some-thing wrong?" She looked around before leaning closer and whispering. "Is it the baby?"I winced and quickly covered her mouth. We were alone, and there wasn't anyone sitting too close, not to mention the cafeteria was as loud as usual, but it would mean hell for me if people found out. I'd have to do something once it started showing, but I thought I should at least tell people-meaning Mom and Evan-that I was pregnant before focusing on other details."I'm just wondering where Evan is," I admitted.Her eyebrows jumped up. "Wow. You two did grow close, huh? You're even loo
There was a knock on my door, but I ignored it. It wasn't the first time I'd heard it today, and it probably wouldn't be the last."Evan, can you come out for a minute, please?"My dad's voice was muffled by the door and the music I'd put on, and I was tempted to turn the volume up until he complained about it, then decided I was too lazy to be that petty."I'm busy!" I called back.Only, I wasn't. I was locked in my room because I wanted to be alone. I hadn't even gone to school, and Dad hadn't yelled at me about it, because I knew he at least felt guilty.It wasn't enough for me.I waited, but there was no word from the other side of the door, so I figured he must have gone back downstairs. I sighed and threw an arm over my eyes, the past few days still seeming unreal.With no more screaming arguments now, the house was silent, too silent, because Mom was no longer there. She didn't leave home, at least, not voluntarily.She found out Dad had started an affair with an
I just rang the doorbell and got surprised when the door was opened in the next second, and Evan was the one standing there."Um, hi," I murmured.I didn't know what to read in his expression when he just stood there and stared at me, but I figured he was at least surprised to see me there."Sorry-" I started to say, only to cut off when he suddenly grabbed my hand and dragged me into the house.I yelped and hurried behind him as he tugged at me, and we hurried up the stairs. He pushed me into a room and closed the door behind us, and I realized half a second later that it was a bedroom, most likely his. In the next moment, Evan whirled me around so fast I was diz-zy, then he wrapped an arm around my waist, drug my body harshly against his, and slanted his mouth over mine in a hard kiss before I had time to think."Mmh!"I let out a sound of surprise, my hands went up to his shoulders and clutched at him. I wasn't sure whether to push him away or pull him closer. Evan didn'
"Are you ready to go?" I asked.It was an hour later after we'd both showered and gotten dressed. Anita blushed, hugging herself as she shuffled her feet."I can just walk back."Even though I found her sudden shyness a little amusing, I just rolled my eyes at her."My place is further from school, and if you have to walk all the way home after coming here, how long will that take you? It's already this late, just let me drop you off."She pursed her lips, but I didn't miss that she wasn't all that displeased. I took my car keys and opened the door, but she still hesitated."Um, I know it's a little late to ask this, but there isn't anyone else at home, right?"I crooked a corner of my lips up but didn't say anything as I headed out. I heard her scrambling to fol-low me. I could have just told her my dad was home, but if he'd stayed downstairs then he wouldn't have heard us, and it wasn't like I planned to introduce them.After the past couple of hours, I was feeling re
I blinked as it dawned on me that I'd read the same line over and over again. Or rather, I'd stared at that same line for quite a while. I still had no idea what it said. I narrowed my eyes and tried to focus, leaned my head in my hand, but my mind wandered with the first word.Dammit.I rubbed a hand roughly down my face then went back to my attempts to focus. I leaned my head back into my hand, narrowed my eyes and stared at the page, but a few seconds later, my mind wandered again. Of course, it wandered to Anita, and the last time I was at her place.After another long moment of inattention, I growled to myself and leaned back in my seat to close my eyes against it all. I was at home, locked in my room while I tried to study. I didn't want my dad to walk in and bother me, and he couldn't if my door was locked. I knew he was mad at me, but the standard in our house was to ignore each other or argue, and I went for the former. I couldn't seem to get into the process, though.
This was dangerous. It was late already, and her mom could come back home at any moment. It wouldn't be the only time I was with a girl when her parents came home, but in this tiny apartment, I doubted I could find somewhere to hide or a way to escape so she wouldn't see me. I didn't care so much about myself, but I didn't want to get Anita in trouble.I couldn't stop myself, though, and decided it was worth the risk, if I got to find that heaven only Anita had ever given me one more time. Urgent need pushed me over the edge of sanity and I tugged her head back by her hair, gently, and leaned down to kiss her. I deepened the kiss, sliding my tongue into her mouth to taste. When I couldn't stand the wait anymore, when her sighs be-came an urgent, need-filled sound, I rolled her under-neath me, parted her thighs with my knee, and settled into the space between her hips."How does your body feel?" I murmured, kissing her neck.Anita hummed. "Good. So good, Evan..."It wasn't what
"You're seriously going to the library?"I scowled at the girl holding my arm. She was a cheerleader, and I knew her, but right then, I wasn't in the mood. Everyone must have noticed that I was avoid-ing Anita lately, because ever since I got back to school nearly a week ago, I hadn't approached her, and had done my best not to appear in her line of sight. I didn't think she'd come after me, she didn't seem like the bold type of girl, but I didn't like what I felt when I saw her, either."Just come and hang out with us," the girl said in-sistently. "The others are waiting.""I'm not going," I said irritably, tugging my arm out of her hold. "Just tell them I'm busy."I walked away without a look back. She must have been new in the cheerleader squad because she wasn't a girl I'd thought of dating before, and she wasn't a senior, but the team and the cheerleader squad hung out often, so I should know her, but I couldn't bring myself to think about it.It was time for lunch, and
Not that I was really worried about it. I wasn't planning on coming out the top of my class; it would be fine if I skated the bottom as long as I had enough cred-its to graduate. I had an account in my name with some funds, so I could always figure out what to do after graduation, even if I left home like my sister did, wheth-er or not I went to college. Still, it couldn't hurt actually to study. I wasn't in the mood for anything else, anyway.Chanel was quiet for a while, but she didn't leave yet, so I knew she wasn't done. I did my best to ignore her, but I was already distracted, and her sitting right there staring at me wasn't helping. Then, she sighed."Why are you being like this? Just what did that girl do to you that you're ignoring all of your friends?"I didn't speak up and tell her what I thought about them. I only had a few friends, as for everyone else, they were people I hung out with regularly when I didn't have anything better to do, and I didn't want to go home.