My dad made small talks and they talked about how their day was... but I wasn't really paying all my attention to them. I was wondering what Kathy looked like. I cursed under my breath a thousand times for not checking her up immediately after she accepted my follow.
Why was I so du...
"Honey... Precious!"
Dad's voice snapped me out of my thoughts, "yes dad?"
My little brother laughed and I sighed, "sorry dad.. There's a new teacher at school and a lot of things are about to change..."
"Is this teacher a man..."
I laughed, "God nooo dad... no... a woman.. it's a 21 year old girl from the US..."
He smiled, "okay good.. because for a second I thought he was distracting you. By the way, I was saying Thembi's father gave me three forms for you to fill in and submit at the Mayer's house... one post from the local radio station, the second one is from Soweto TV and the last one is this sport news paper..."
I smiled, "yeyiiiiii interesting... I promise I'll fill them in daddy and take them there tomorrow."
"The closing date is friday.. baby please it's time you use this journalism degree of yours..."
So when I was 17 I passed high school and I registered at university to study journalism because my parents thought I was insane for wanting to concentrate on dancing only.
So yep I became a qualified journalist and after turning 21 I did a few internships and learnerships but that's as far as I went.. the nicest thing was that I got to meet some of the biggest politicians in the country, including the ex President of the country.
I loved writing as much as I loved dancing.. so it wouldn't be hard to actually do both.
I smiled at my dad,"I promise I will definitely fill them in the second I get to my bedroom.."
"Or you can text on your phone." My little brother said and I stuck my tongue out at him, "I'll definitely text on my phone..."
My dad laughed and got up to hand me the envelope that has these application forms he was talking about.
I washed dishes, made sure that Nick goes to bed and then went to my bed. I was already in my sleeping shorts and a tank. I set the envelope dad gave me on my headboard drawer and threw myself in bed not forgetting to grab my phone.
A small smile formed on my lips as I quickly tapped on my i*******m to check on someone who made me smile..
I realized that she was online but the last text was what she said under my video.
I went to her inbox and debated whether or not to text her.. I mean even if I was to text her, the fuck was I going to say? 'umh Kathy you made me smile so helllllo'??? God.. she'll think I'm a creep.
I sighed and groaned. God.. what should I say?
A small smile came back to my face when I realized what I could say as my first text. Without even thinking about it because I knew I'd end up stopping myself. I quickly typed:
"Hey Kathy... is that like short for Katherine?"
Then I pressed the send button and held my breath.
Right about now I had no idea how to explain the anxiety I felt waiting for her to text back.. I could feel my heart beat on my throat, sweat on my hands and most definitely my thoughts were so loud.
I was nervous as fuck it felt so weird. I mean why was I nervous. We didn't even know each other... but deep inside I wished to know her and for her to text me ba....
I didn't even have to finish what I was thinking in my head, my phone vibrated and I got a message notification on i*******m. Ahhh.. at least she doesn't think I'm annoying. At least she responded.
I opened my messages as calm as I could.... and oh boy I smiled when I saw what she said.
"Hey... maaan that was so close... it's actually Katharina... not Katherine..."
I was truly smiling like an idiot.. and then she started typing again.
So I waited...
"Oh and hey I want to apologize for commenting a lot.. I'm sure you think I'm probably annoying by now... really sorry..."
I fucken laughed, was she for real? Her? Annoying me? God she was adorable..
I quickly texted back:
"What? You annoying me? Impossible, you just made me feel really good about myself.. why would you think you're annoying. I loved and still love reading your comments. I mean it's good to have someone appreciate my dancing."
She quickly typed back and I smiled.
"Good to know I'm not that annoying, you'll probably get tired of me I swear...but for now since I'm not annoying you, I'll keep on talking..."
Then again I ran out of shit to say, I couldn't keep on talking about her not annoying I'd end up being the annoying one and deep down I did not want that.
So I changed the topic:
"So... where are you from Katharina...? Oh God is it weird that I said your name out loud in a Russian accent..? Are you from Russia?"
Then I waited as she typed back...
"Oh God...😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I can't stop laughing at that. You're sooooooo funny.. umh no unfortunately I'm not from Russia... I'm from Germany... born and raised there... you?"
She thought I was beautiful and funny...😊 Oh God.. could she be any cooler..?
"South Africa... born and raised with the monkeys..."
After sending that I thought I was an idiot.. I mean what if she runs away. What if she actually thinks I'm telling the truth and runs for her life thinking I'm a creep?
Okay I was basically overreacting and it got to me how I didn't know what she was thinking or how long she'd take to respond...
My phone vibrated..
I smiled and opened the message..
"😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 Ohh God please stop.. my stomach hurts like hell... Well I sorta Just imagined a kid version of you kissing a monkey... cute.. freaken cute I tell you."
My face was burning at least I was making her smile like she did me.
"I'm glad you're laughing. Thought you'd think I'm crazy..."
She quickly responded:
"I don't think you can go crazy... unless a Chris Brown song comes on.. then God your body would go crazy... that I know."
I smiled like an idiot and my phone vibrated.. a text from my best friend.
Bestie: Emergency 101... I fucken need you dude.. log in in w******p....
I bit the inside of my cheek and debated whether or not to leave I*******m. I mean it was crazy how this app was was finishing my data and right now I gave no care, I just wanted to keep talking to her.
I opened my w******p message and responded to my best friend.
ME: What ass? What's going on?
Then I logged out.
I went to I*******m.. I strangely didn't want this to end... texting her was fun.. and I had no idea how to tell her I want her numbers but indirectly. I didn't have the liver to say "I want your numbers.." I was too big of a chicken to do that...
I sighed and slowly typed:
"Unmm... hey Kathy, I... I*******m kinda sucks, so do you like have messenger or W******p where I can text you better than now..."
I looked at the text debating internally whether or not to do this. What would we talk about? We fucken barely knew each other... God. Why would she wanna text me more?
A knock on my door startled me making me press "send" on my phone
"Shit..." I cursed under my breath and turned, "daddy?"
"Fill those forms.. I'll go submit them tomorrow when I go to work...."
I sighed and put my phone down, "yes dad.."
Then like a good girl that I was, I took out the envelope and filled it in. I put the documents that were needed and then put everything back in there with a paper that's written
"ON THE LAST FORM THEY NEED YOUR SIGNATURE.. I LOVE YOU DAD..."
Then I went back on my phone.. I went straight to i*******m regardless of the 09 w******p notifications I had from my best friend..
She responded and the moment I saw numbers and a "text me on w******p" text.. I went insane. She fucken gave me her numbers? I mean I didn't have to dig deeper than that. Wow okay.. So I immediately saved her numbers and went to w******p to respond to her i*******m message...
ME: I swear I*******m really sucks.. by the way thank you for your numbers.. now I can chat well with you... and even probably see you.
Then I went to check my besties' w******p messages..
Bestie: So Paul just called this a date.. and I'm kinda freaking out..
Bestie: I want to know what to say dude..
Bestie: fuck Precious... I'm tooo nervous to go on a date with him alone... I know the old him not the new him...
Bestie: Precious where the fuck are you? I need you here and you're busy being an ass..
Bestie: okay you're not an ass, I'm just freaking out...😓😓😰😰😰😰 and I need you and you are not here..
Bestie: you know what? It's fucken over. You are not my bestie anymore...
Bestie: okay Precious I need you. Pleaseeee come back. I agreed to the date... but I have a suggestion.. 😋😚
Bestie: fuck you.... 😭😭
Bestie: I'm best friendless.. that's me😕😑
I laughed at all the shit she wrote then responded..
Me: Well, Paul has game.. stop being an idiot ... 😂😂😂😂 anyways you can dump them all bitch.. but not me, I'm your life.... yippie my bestie has a date😊😛🎉🎊🎇🎆.... so what suggestion did you have in mind?
Then I went back to talking to Katharina..
We talked a lot and literally about nothing.. well she told me she'd like to visit Africa once and I told her that I can always be her tour guide... I'd show her a few interesting places here.
The bond was there and it was amazing and what I loved most about us, was that I wasn't even lying about myself. I just openly told her the truth about myself even though I had no idea if there was a man or a creep on the other side.
around 11pm I then thought about checking her picture since I stupidly had no idea what she still looked like. I mean I opened her w******p profile picture but she was facing away from the camera..
So I gathered so much strength to type..
ME: Hey Kathy... mind sending me a picture of you? 🙈
KATHY💯❤🌈: a unicorn one?
I smiled, she wasn't saying no..
ME: as long as I'll see your face...
Kathy sent you a picture..
I opened it and almost dropped my phone. Okay maybe I'm exaggerating a bit but fuck if you were me you would too.. she was wearing a pink and white onesy, yes pink and white believe me, it had that unicorn horn on the head.. she was smiling a bit and that showed her on dimple on her left cheek...her sky blue eyes... God I felt like I was taken to another planet when I connected my eyes with hers.. her long black hair showed on the sides. She was fucken beautiful... I looked at the picture a bit closely and sighed... did people this beautiful fucken exist?
She texted again.
KATHY💯❤🌈: I really hope you don't get scared away. That is what's supposed to be my "scare you away picture.." and I am so surprised you didn't check my pictures on i*******m since I did you.
God.. I was lost for words... she was breathtaking.
I quickly reaponded..
ME: oh fuuuuuck.. sorry.. You're beautiful. God you're beautiful Katharina.
KATHY💯❤🌈: I.. well thank you..haha that's crazy but thank you.
We then talked about a few things... and about each other. I told her about my annoying little brother and she told me about her annoying bother and amazing sister. She was 19, her brother 18 and her sister 15..
It was fun talking to her I was shook when I found that the time was 1am..
ME:
let's sleep...we will talk tomorrow okay.. thank you for tonight it was amazing talking to you...❤😘I had no idea what was happening in my head but I didn't want to stop. It was amazing to talk with her. She was amazing.
....
The following day started the same at others. Getting my family ready and sending them off. I trully was happy that daddy decided to take the forms wherever they were wanted.
I'd have more time to myself.. and probably a cute little birdy from Germany.
So my bestie and I were supposed to meet after my class today..
I left a morning message for Kathy and left for school.
I found myself looking at Layla but I'd look away when she was about to look at me. I had no idea why she suddenly looked interesting or whatever.. but I couldn't stop myself.
"Hey babe..." Chris whispered and I jumped, "Chris.. don't sneak up on me like that.."
"I'm sorry. How are you...?"
"I'm okay..thanks.. you?"
"I'd be good if you could..."
"Chris mind if I steal my best friend..."
Godness.. I have never been sooo happy to actually see someone like I was when Julia pitched. I wasn't ready to turn him down ...again.. it was tiring but my bestie showing up like this was a blessing. A sign from God that I shouldn't even be talking about Chris in a relationship way. I hugged her, "I love you so much.. I missed you.."
She pulled away and looked at me confused, "you saw me yesterday.."
I took her hand in mine and pulled her away, "the fuck... I forgive you for the stunt you pulled... so what suggestion did you have in mind?"
Last night she left me hanging when I asked what she was going to suggest.
My phone vibrated a number of times I couldn't ignore it..
A smile formed on My face when I saw who they were from..
KATHY💯❤🌈: oh God I had one of the most beautiful dreams ever... and you was there cutely watching me.
KATHY💯❤🌈: morning beautiful human.. I hope you also slept like me.
God I was blushing. She dreamt about me? This girl..
I typed...
ME: God if you could see my face right now.. you'd...
"Babeeeeee. Like I was saying... I need you there with me... please.." my best friend said pushing me with her shoulder to get my attention...
I smiled on my phone and continued typing.
ME: God if you could see my face right now.. you'd think I'm getting sick. Stop making me blush giiiiiirl...
Then I sent it...and she typed back immediately... I was smiling like crazy...
"Precious.. please say yes.. say yes to coming with me.. I can't do this alone... please.."
I had no idea what she was talking about but I knew she wasn't going to let this be. So I sighed, "okay babe.. I'll come..."
She jumped and pulled me into a hug... "you are the best.. I'll go tell Chris that you said yes to our double date.. I can't wait..."
Wait..
Fuck wait.. She said double what with whoooo?
"Julia... wait..."
"He'll be happy to know you said yes to this..."
"Fuck...." I said and my phone vibrated...
I checked it out.
KATHY💯❤🌈: I bet you are over beautiful when you blush.. if that makes sense.. but it does in my head.
I sighed....
"the fuck did I get myself into!"
I couldn't believe what I just got myself into. How could Julia do this to me? She didn't even mention a double date or this Chris dude. She kept on saying she couldn't do this alone.. and now that I said yes she tells me that Chris is involved.I felt a tap on my shoulder and turned to Layla, "hey... got plans? Wanna come hang out with me and my friends..."I furrowed my brows at her and she pointed on her right and I saw two girls a one boy.. "umh.. you want me to be the odd one out?"She laughed, "no... you won't be that..come on."I looked over my best friend as she hugged Chris. She turned to me and waved, "I'll text you later, love you..."I waved and mentally said, "whatever..."Layla cleared her throat and I jumped a bit. She smiled, "so...?"I looked at my watch, it was 3 pm, my brother gets
I got in a taxi and went straight home. My head was all over the place and I knew one safest place I always feel good at.I cooked when I got home and then I had no fucken idea what to do... I wondered if I should text Kathy even though I wasn't okay. I mean I missed her.. Then I wondered if I should text my best friend.My phone notifications came on when I switched on my data..I went to my messages first since there was a text.. it was from an unknown number and it read:.....9863: Hey I got worried and I don't do that often. I hope you're okay. I really do. Layla🎉I saved her numbers and went to check my w******p messages.Bestie: Hey.. we will fetch you tomorrow at 5pm.. the movie starts at 7 but we wanna get good first. And I need you to help me get something during the day. I m
I quickly got out of the uber taxi I requested at the mall and headed inside.. the lights were still on so I knew my brother was probably watching tv. It was around 8pm, daddy was probably sleeping.I unlocked the door and got inside.."The movie doesn't end until 9.." My little brother said the second I walked in.I rolled my eyes, "okay Mr time teller... what's playing?""Avengers... wanna join?"I kissed his cheek when I reached him and he wiped himself making me roll my eyes, "nope.. I have to call someone..""Kathyyyyy..." he said singing and I walked towards my bedroom and ignored what he said, "switch off the lights when you're done..""Yes grumpy granny..."I shook my head a bed a bit and locked my bedroom then texted a little birdie on the other side of the world.
Chris and I walked to Burger King. He was smiling like an idiot and his dimples were showing. God this guy was so cute, why didn't I have feelings for him?He opened the door for me and we got inside. The coldness of the winter was really hitting us.. I turned to him, "so, what do you feel like having..."He smiled, "for real... you're actually taking me out and paying? I mean I can pay..."I shook my head, "I'm paying. So what do you want...?"He squinted his eyes cutely at the board and started reading, then he pointed, "umh.. that burger please..."I told the lady in front of me and said she should make it two..."Sitting or take always...?" The lady asked and I looked at Chris, "do you mind if we chill?"He shook his head and took the slip on my hand, "go check for a place upstairs..."
KATHY❤💯🌈: hey, I had thee shittiest day.. can I video call you now or are you busy? My heart skipped a bit when I read that text. It was the best thing yet not thee best because she didn't have a good day. I mean I could relate.. my day was also upside down..I went straight to my room and started video calling her.'heeeeeeey'A fucken smile in my face spread wide as she came in view on my screen. She was wearin a white shirt with a USA flag.. I laughed a bit since she was in Germany, "hey baby... how are you?"She shook her head and sighed, 'not as good.. I had a fucken awful and long day.... how about you? How are you?' I cleared my throat trying to figure out how I was really feeling. It was weird a bit. I felt something towards Kathy everytime we talk and thought of her every second when Layla touched me..then I felt weird
I couldn't believe what I did. After kissing Chris I immediately left without talking to him or listening to what he wanted to say.On the other side, her eyes... I could feel them on us, on me as I made my way out of the studio I felt so empty, weird and lost..I quickly got a taxi and went home. I felt sick.. physically and emotionally. I was tired...I had so many questions in my head. It was clear.. It was so clear that this was wrong... but how do I go about? Where do I start?I've seen people get hurt, I've seen them get killed, discriminated, be picked on... could I handle that? Could I handle the hate from people I valued, people I love, people who have been here from me from the start? The church? My best friend? My father? Everyone?I couldn't...As I imagined everyone turning away from me I couldn't... I couldn't do this. I couldn't follow my heart. I couldn't do
I jumped away from Layla and turned around, "hey...""What's happening here?" She asked with her nose ached you'd swear she was disgusted by the sight."We are dancing...?" I said already not in the mood for what was about to go down."Really? Her lips are literally on your neck and you are telling me that you are dancing. Precious do you think I'm dumb.."Layla got up, "Umm.. calm down.. I wasn't trying to get her pregnant... like she said we were about to dance..""I thought you had shit to do when you left early this morning, leaving me behind..""I did Julia and this is it.""Her sucking on your neck.. I thought we talked about this. You stay away from her.. or do you want me to tell the whole church about this..."My heartbeat... I could literally feel it and I felt like if I looked at my chest I'd see it pumping in and out of my ch
I quickly got home and started cleaning up the mess that was left by my little brother and so called best friend.I smiled a bit when I realized that she cooked. Great, minus one thing for me and more time with Kathy..My phone startee ringing and I answered, "dady...?"'I just got your brother a bus to go to Umtata... I'll be there a bit late waiting for it. You can just put my food in the microwave...' I smiled, I love my brother with all my heart, but a break from him is a blessinh, "thank you daddy but I'll stay up.. I have a few things to do and something to tell you. So I'll see you when you get back."'Is everything okay?' He sounded worried. Aww my poor old man."Daddy.. we will talk when you get here..."'okay I'll be there soon...' "Wait.. did you pack everything that he'll need?"
TWO YEAR LATER...Life is full of surprises.. All the fucken time.I suppose you think I'm now married with a white cute cat, a black dog and a baby on the way.. well if you actually thought that you are definitely...Wrong ✖❌✖😛Right now, I'm an editor in chief for Laura's online magazine. It turned out that my hardwork really caught her attention and I was impressing her every second.But it wasn't like that for the past two years. It was up and downs, confusions, love back, moving on and finally being content with who and where I am.After the encounter I had with Layla in the office, things turned to the way I never even thought they would.For a week I was depressed at home but did my work as expected... and to my surprise Layla refused to listen to me. Now, people at work thought we were still dating because she'd come
It's been a week and I haven't seen Layla, she wanted to talk to me. Called Julia a thousand times since my phone was with her but I couldn't bring myself to seeing her. I felt sick to my stomach, the thought of her made me feel so sick..The images in my head were killing me. Seeing her hovering over her ex like that, I wanted to yell or scream.. just to ask her what she was doing.Did she text me that on purpose so I can find them in bed...? But then I thought about if for the past week and realized that she didn't. It was the ex all along who texted me with her phone, knowing very well what her plan was and how she wanted to walk in on them. Julia talked to me and made me see things. From the first fight, she's been feeding Layla these lies so that she can be trusted and finally she was and then she took us down.I was so mad at Layla for letting the only person she promised not to allow do this to us, I was so mad at her
It's been a week and I haven't seen Layla, she wanted to talk to me. Called Julia a thousand times since my phone was with her but I couldn't bring myself to seeing her. I felt sick to my stomach, the thought of her made me feel so sick..The images in my head were killing me. Seeing her hovering over her ex like that, I wanted to yell or scream.. just to ask her what she was doing.Did she text me that on purpose so I can find them in bed...? But then I thought about if for the past week and realized that she didn't. It was the ex all along who texted me with her phone, knowing very well what her plan was and how she wanted to walk in on them. Julia talked to me and made me see things. From the first fight, she's been feeding Layla these lies so that she can be trusted and finally she was and then she took us down.I was so mad at Layla for letting the only person she promised not to allow do this to us, I was so mad at her
Ever met the devil, look them in the eye and have them actually tell you off? I mean you don't know this person and have nothing against them.. but they show up and they become the devil your mother warned you about.Sometimes life is just asdfjkl;.. it's confusing and shocking. I mean one least thing could happen and you'll be left stunned for the longest time.While on the other side, love is swepping you like a whirlwind and leaving you probably wanting for more or shuttered..My relationship was the best. I was thankful everyday that I gave the girl a chance and it was the best feeling ever. Everything was going amazing and I couldn't be happier.She was starting to actually film the show she was presenting on and I was going to be made permanent at work(hopefully) .. but my girlfriend said she would talk to Laura before my internship programme ended, so that if I get hired permanently, I know th
CHAPTER FIFTY - JEALOUSY...'sex makes you look so fucken amazing I tell you..' Meagan laughed on the screen of my phone and I rolled my eyes, "please stop. I will not hesitate to fucken hung up.. or worse bring back your ex-lover.."The smile on her face immediately faded and was soon replaced by a frown, "you are a joy killer. You should be proud of yourself.. why the fuck bring my ex into this.."I laughed. She was a bit sensitive when it came to talking about Tanya... "okay I'm sorry babe..""And how long will you use Tanya against me..? I thought she was grown and cool okay.. don't blame me for other people's odd minds."I didn't blame her, I just warned her and she refused to listen and screamed "Tanya loves me" now they were over but after one huge ass shitty thing went down.So Meg says the first month was amazing when they moved to Paris, which was January and Tanya found something to do while Meg went on
Saying goodbye to Meagan on the 27 left me feeling like shit. I ended up stuffing myself with wine and ice cream for two days (bought by my girlfriend) and cried to sleep. It felt like I was losing her like I lost Kathy. But she promised to keep in touch.. and might I add she was so fucken happy when Layla and I told the gang that we are together.. Everyone was happy saying "It's about time" like darn they been waiting for me to close the cirlce.After that though, work was on each side of my shoulder. Apparently the permanent staff decided to take leave and a few were left being helped by me and two other interns, which meant interns had double work now.. So I was at the office a lot or at events and what sucked more was that Layla was travelling a bit... which ended in us not spending lot of time together. But since she was dancing for Rouge's performances and I was covering some New year party with all those big artists.. it was by luck that I was actual
I felt hands pull me closer and warm legs intertwine with mine. My head was on her chest. I smiled involuntarily. If you had asked me this seven months ago; "do you see yourself waking up next to Layla and loving it?" I'd have totally fucken screamed a huge ass "NOOOOOOO"But today here I am entangled together with thee girl I never thought I would be. I mean Layla has always been drop dead gorgeous.. first time when I saw her I thought Oh God that girl was hot as hell... I had this little crush until I saw what she did to girls and the crush disappeared immediately being replaced by a feeling I couldn't even describe.From then I wasn't that much of a fan but she surprisingly was the one to come rescue me when I was fighting my own demons.. I hated and loved her at the same time... because all that shit made me weak for her again.She was a lot...from the past seven months I've really known her.. at first she was this
"God pumpkin can you finish up?" Layla called out from outside the bedroom for the 100th time.. and I sighed, "can't a girl get ready in peace please..""You're going to your home not some party in Sandton.." she complained and I laughed while applying lipstick on my mouth."Relax... I'm done.."She walked in the bathroom and snuck her hands around my waist from behind then she looked at our reflection in the mirror, "you look beautiful.. as always.. you don't even need that thing on your lips.."I smiled and looked at her in the reflection, "oh really now? Wanna help me remove it?"She laughed and pulled away from me leaving me cold, "don't tempt me babe.. we will end up missing this Christmas dinner thing.. I'll have you as my dinner.."My body immediately grew hot thinking about what she was saying. God it turned me on so much. Just t
"Give love chance"... they said... "what have you got to lose."My heart was beating so fast on my chest and I had no idea how to go about this. Do I blurt it out? How the fuck will things be after that? I mean we stay together after all.I sighed and Layla cleared her throat, "are you okay?"I nodded my head way too quickly, "yes ...yes... why are you asking?"She smiled, "you just seem wrestled by something.. like you're internally debating with yourself about something..""Maybe...""What's up? Wanna talk about it?"Okay so this was it, it was my chance to say this. I love her and I want us to give this a try.. to see how things will go.Shit..Shit.."Precious...""Layla... can I ask you something..?" I said and she looked at me before stopping at a red traffic light