My heart skipped a bit when I read that text. It was the best thing yet not thee best because she didn't have a good day. I mean I could relate.. my day was also upside down..
I went straight to my room and started video calling her.
'heeeeeeey'
A fucken smile in my face spread wide as she came in view on my screen. She was wearin a white shirt with a USA flag.. I laughed a bit since she was in Germany, "hey baby... how are you?"
She shook her head and sighed, 'not as good.. I had a fucken awful and long day.... how about you? How are you?'
I cleared my throat trying to figure out how I was really feeling. It was weird a bit. I felt something towards Kathy everytime we talk and thought of her every second when Layla touched me..then I felt weird
I couldn't believe what I did. After kissing Chris I immediately left without talking to him or listening to what he wanted to say.On the other side, her eyes... I could feel them on us, on me as I made my way out of the studio I felt so empty, weird and lost..I quickly got a taxi and went home. I felt sick.. physically and emotionally. I was tired...I had so many questions in my head. It was clear.. It was so clear that this was wrong... but how do I go about? Where do I start?I've seen people get hurt, I've seen them get killed, discriminated, be picked on... could I handle that? Could I handle the hate from people I valued, people I love, people who have been here from me from the start? The church? My best friend? My father? Everyone?I couldn't...As I imagined everyone turning away from me I couldn't... I couldn't do this. I couldn't follow my heart. I couldn't do
I jumped away from Layla and turned around, "hey...""What's happening here?" She asked with her nose ached you'd swear she was disgusted by the sight."We are dancing...?" I said already not in the mood for what was about to go down."Really? Her lips are literally on your neck and you are telling me that you are dancing. Precious do you think I'm dumb.."Layla got up, "Umm.. calm down.. I wasn't trying to get her pregnant... like she said we were about to dance..""I thought you had shit to do when you left early this morning, leaving me behind..""I did Julia and this is it.""Her sucking on your neck.. I thought we talked about this. You stay away from her.. or do you want me to tell the whole church about this..."My heartbeat... I could literally feel it and I felt like if I looked at my chest I'd see it pumping in and out of my ch
I quickly got home and started cleaning up the mess that was left by my little brother and so called best friend.I smiled a bit when I realized that she cooked. Great, minus one thing for me and more time with Kathy..My phone startee ringing and I answered, "dady...?"'I just got your brother a bus to go to Umtata... I'll be there a bit late waiting for it. You can just put my food in the microwave...' I smiled, I love my brother with all my heart, but a break from him is a blessinh, "thank you daddy but I'll stay up.. I have a few things to do and something to tell you. So I'll see you when you get back."'Is everything okay?' He sounded worried. Aww my poor old man."Daddy.. we will talk when you get here..."'okay I'll be there soon...' "Wait.. did you pack everything that he'll need?"
"Shit I'm tired... I just couldn't wait until we sit down.."I smiled joining her as we sat by the couch at Nandos, "yeah my legs are killing me. If I can't dance, then it's your fault."She laughed, "oh God I'm so sorry okay... can we order something before I go further with my apology.. I'm thirsty and hungry.."I took the menu and checked what I wanted, I wasn't that much hungry but I just wanted something to drink, it was July and cold but darn noo, I was craving for something cold."Can I have an appletizer.. then I'll know what I want..." I said to the lady in front of us and Meagan ordered something in the lines of a cream soda.We kept in looking at the menu and Meagan laughed, "I'm thinking full chicken."I joined her too by laughing, "if you are that hungry you'll end up eating me too.. should I be scared.."She looked at me and bit the inside
KATHY🌈💯❤: As you wake up, I want you to know that you are beautiful and smart and funny and are an idiot. Someone out here really cares and loves you.. Thank you so much for allowing me to be a part of your special life. Good morning and all the best for your interview... I love you.❤ I woke up to that text causing me to smile like an idiot.The message was sent around 23:59...Fuck.. this is thee greatest way to actually wake up.I typed back.ME: you are just thee best. I swear. Waking up to this soothed my nerves and made me the happiest girl alive. I sent the message amd got up to go take a bath. I was really feeling amazing after that message from Katharina..The bath didn't take long because I just wanted to be out and for this day to be done with. As much as I was excited about the interview I was
BESTIE: I talked to Paster Zondi and he agreed to come pray for you so that you can find the right path... you're straying from the word of God.. you're walking away from him. One day you'll understand that I am doing this because I love you... you are my best friend and I don't want that to stop. So on Thursday afternoon we will go to his place.. he has an opening after the late prayer with the youth. I pray you come with me...." My jaw was literally on the floor as I read the text from my so called best friend... you know a person who I thought would never turn their back on me.You know sometimes when shit happens we sometimes are lucky or blessed enough to have people who are in our corners.I remember back in high school when some girl wanted to beat me because her boyfriend kept asking me out. As if it was my fault that the dude couldn't leave me alone.Julia came through a
'oh really... what the fuck is wrong with people there? I mean I get it... but still, what the fuck is wrong with them.. and I thought Layla was fine though ..'I sighed and adjusted my phone well making sure I don't even hold it. I was so mad at the incidents that took place earlier. I got home, cooked and then video called Kathy after bathing.And now I just finished telling her how shitty my day was and she was actually really helping break this down."Well I thought she was fine too but turns out she's not. Fuck... why is my life like this? I discover that I'm gay and then everything turns upside down."'look baby can I just say something about Layla, she's probably going through a lot.. you said it yourself she seemed off when your ex best friend said all those things to her. Maybe they are true...' I shook my head, "baby I don't care if they sre true or not, I would
KATHY💯❤🌈: Okay so I know you're definitely sleeping but I want you to wake up with thee biggest smile on your face. Thank you for last night, I pray you didn't feel pressured into it, but it was fucken amazing. Good morning beautiful Princess and have an amazing day... take it easy on Layla. I yawned as I read a text from Kathy, the second I read the line about last night my face flushed. I couldn't believe we did that and I couldn't believe how amazing it was even though it was a first to me.I quickly typed back..ME: Hey baby.. Morning and I hope you slept well. Last night was amazing and I did willingly. Yeah yeah smart pants I'll give Layla a chance if she comes talking to me.. I love you and let me go bath... I wasted no time. I got up, fixed my bed and went to take a bath.My body felt a bit refreshed.. The smile on my face grew
TWO YEAR LATER...Life is full of surprises.. All the fucken time.I suppose you think I'm now married with a white cute cat, a black dog and a baby on the way.. well if you actually thought that you are definitely...Wrong ✖❌✖😛Right now, I'm an editor in chief for Laura's online magazine. It turned out that my hardwork really caught her attention and I was impressing her every second.But it wasn't like that for the past two years. It was up and downs, confusions, love back, moving on and finally being content with who and where I am.After the encounter I had with Layla in the office, things turned to the way I never even thought they would.For a week I was depressed at home but did my work as expected... and to my surprise Layla refused to listen to me. Now, people at work thought we were still dating because she'd come
It's been a week and I haven't seen Layla, she wanted to talk to me. Called Julia a thousand times since my phone was with her but I couldn't bring myself to seeing her. I felt sick to my stomach, the thought of her made me feel so sick..The images in my head were killing me. Seeing her hovering over her ex like that, I wanted to yell or scream.. just to ask her what she was doing.Did she text me that on purpose so I can find them in bed...? But then I thought about if for the past week and realized that she didn't. It was the ex all along who texted me with her phone, knowing very well what her plan was and how she wanted to walk in on them. Julia talked to me and made me see things. From the first fight, she's been feeding Layla these lies so that she can be trusted and finally she was and then she took us down.I was so mad at Layla for letting the only person she promised not to allow do this to us, I was so mad at her
It's been a week and I haven't seen Layla, she wanted to talk to me. Called Julia a thousand times since my phone was with her but I couldn't bring myself to seeing her. I felt sick to my stomach, the thought of her made me feel so sick..The images in my head were killing me. Seeing her hovering over her ex like that, I wanted to yell or scream.. just to ask her what she was doing.Did she text me that on purpose so I can find them in bed...? But then I thought about if for the past week and realized that she didn't. It was the ex all along who texted me with her phone, knowing very well what her plan was and how she wanted to walk in on them. Julia talked to me and made me see things. From the first fight, she's been feeding Layla these lies so that she can be trusted and finally she was and then she took us down.I was so mad at Layla for letting the only person she promised not to allow do this to us, I was so mad at her
Ever met the devil, look them in the eye and have them actually tell you off? I mean you don't know this person and have nothing against them.. but they show up and they become the devil your mother warned you about.Sometimes life is just asdfjkl;.. it's confusing and shocking. I mean one least thing could happen and you'll be left stunned for the longest time.While on the other side, love is swepping you like a whirlwind and leaving you probably wanting for more or shuttered..My relationship was the best. I was thankful everyday that I gave the girl a chance and it was the best feeling ever. Everything was going amazing and I couldn't be happier.She was starting to actually film the show she was presenting on and I was going to be made permanent at work(hopefully) .. but my girlfriend said she would talk to Laura before my internship programme ended, so that if I get hired permanently, I know th
CHAPTER FIFTY - JEALOUSY...'sex makes you look so fucken amazing I tell you..' Meagan laughed on the screen of my phone and I rolled my eyes, "please stop. I will not hesitate to fucken hung up.. or worse bring back your ex-lover.."The smile on her face immediately faded and was soon replaced by a frown, "you are a joy killer. You should be proud of yourself.. why the fuck bring my ex into this.."I laughed. She was a bit sensitive when it came to talking about Tanya... "okay I'm sorry babe..""And how long will you use Tanya against me..? I thought she was grown and cool okay.. don't blame me for other people's odd minds."I didn't blame her, I just warned her and she refused to listen and screamed "Tanya loves me" now they were over but after one huge ass shitty thing went down.So Meg says the first month was amazing when they moved to Paris, which was January and Tanya found something to do while Meg went on
Saying goodbye to Meagan on the 27 left me feeling like shit. I ended up stuffing myself with wine and ice cream for two days (bought by my girlfriend) and cried to sleep. It felt like I was losing her like I lost Kathy. But she promised to keep in touch.. and might I add she was so fucken happy when Layla and I told the gang that we are together.. Everyone was happy saying "It's about time" like darn they been waiting for me to close the cirlce.After that though, work was on each side of my shoulder. Apparently the permanent staff decided to take leave and a few were left being helped by me and two other interns, which meant interns had double work now.. So I was at the office a lot or at events and what sucked more was that Layla was travelling a bit... which ended in us not spending lot of time together. But since she was dancing for Rouge's performances and I was covering some New year party with all those big artists.. it was by luck that I was actual
I felt hands pull me closer and warm legs intertwine with mine. My head was on her chest. I smiled involuntarily. If you had asked me this seven months ago; "do you see yourself waking up next to Layla and loving it?" I'd have totally fucken screamed a huge ass "NOOOOOOO"But today here I am entangled together with thee girl I never thought I would be. I mean Layla has always been drop dead gorgeous.. first time when I saw her I thought Oh God that girl was hot as hell... I had this little crush until I saw what she did to girls and the crush disappeared immediately being replaced by a feeling I couldn't even describe.From then I wasn't that much of a fan but she surprisingly was the one to come rescue me when I was fighting my own demons.. I hated and loved her at the same time... because all that shit made me weak for her again.She was a lot...from the past seven months I've really known her.. at first she was this
"God pumpkin can you finish up?" Layla called out from outside the bedroom for the 100th time.. and I sighed, "can't a girl get ready in peace please..""You're going to your home not some party in Sandton.." she complained and I laughed while applying lipstick on my mouth."Relax... I'm done.."She walked in the bathroom and snuck her hands around my waist from behind then she looked at our reflection in the mirror, "you look beautiful.. as always.. you don't even need that thing on your lips.."I smiled and looked at her in the reflection, "oh really now? Wanna help me remove it?"She laughed and pulled away from me leaving me cold, "don't tempt me babe.. we will end up missing this Christmas dinner thing.. I'll have you as my dinner.."My body immediately grew hot thinking about what she was saying. God it turned me on so much. Just t
"Give love chance"... they said... "what have you got to lose."My heart was beating so fast on my chest and I had no idea how to go about this. Do I blurt it out? How the fuck will things be after that? I mean we stay together after all.I sighed and Layla cleared her throat, "are you okay?"I nodded my head way too quickly, "yes ...yes... why are you asking?"She smiled, "you just seem wrestled by something.. like you're internally debating with yourself about something..""Maybe...""What's up? Wanna talk about it?"Okay so this was it, it was my chance to say this. I love her and I want us to give this a try.. to see how things will go.Shit..Shit.."Precious...""Layla... can I ask you something..?" I said and she looked at me before stopping at a red traffic light