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Bölüm 73: I Don't Feel Like I Belong Here
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2024-10-17 19:41:40× Dixie ×
Coming back to the pack feels like being dragged through old scars. The kind that itch under the skin, never fully healed.
Everywhere I look, there’s some memory waiting to punch me in the gut. The training field, the old barn, hell, even the stupid flowers in the garden remind me of something cruel. I can’t escape it.
It’s not fair that I’m stuck here, reliving this while everyone else moves on like it’s nothing. I’ve told myself that a hundred times. I should be stronger than this, but the past doesn’t let go so easily.
And then there’s Trix. I mean, what is his deal?
One minute he’s the guy who made my life hell, the next he’s acting all nice, soft even. It’s like he’s flipped some switch, and now we’re… talking. Like actual talking. No growling or snide remarks. And honestly? It scares the hell out of
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