02 •• Jerk In Loss

|My Marriage Is A Contract- Craving The Girl He Always Wanted| 

  °Chapter Two° 

•JENNY DARLINGTON•

Week later, I finally moved into the new apartment. Fortunately for me the house agent had gotten it within days and I was able to pack the things I could and left the ones that had memories of the both of us. I did not want the memories of my past living with me at all.

I sat down at my work desk and looked at the piles of emails that was waiting for me to answer, I had left them unanswered througout the weekend. It was not easy juggling with moving out and taking care of a kid, not to add trying to get the new apartment to my liking.

And now I have to deal with the constant feeling of loneliness. No one to talk to and chat with. I don't want to say I am depressed. I wanted to make sure I was not. I knew I had to be strong for my kid and I.

I began to scroll through them on my laptop and replied to the ones I could and left the rest for the tomorrow to discuss with my project manager.

After I was done and my back ached a little, I rose to my feet and walked outside for some fresh air. I had dropped Johnny at Diana's place since he stopped going to school for a while. I will have to think about how to get him to a school I can afford. I did not want to ask for any help from my mother at all. I wanted to do this on my own and prove to Stanley that I could. He labeled me to be weak once and I had never thought of it. Now… I think I will have to give him a reply.

I decided to make a little dinner for Johnny and I. I was soon done with it and placed it on the table. Diana came just in time to drop him. Steven had followed her and I could see the worry that creased my foster father's head. He had been so worried when he was told about my divorce with Stanley. I had even begged him not to meet Stanley for an explanation.

"So how are you doing?" He asked me.

I managed to pull up a smile and nodded my head. "Trying to get everything to normal. Everything is good." I replied.

He came forward and engulfed me in a tight hug. "You can do this!" He cheered.

I chuckled slightly and looked at Diana who smiled. 

"Will you love to stay for dinner? I made some." I asked them.

Diana sniffed in the air. "Oh, I had already smelled it but we can't. We have to get back as soon as possible. Linda is bringing in her kid for babysitting. And you know how mad she will be if she doesn't meet us at home." She said.

I was really sad. I was beginning to feel like a burden to them now. I binked my eyes and gave a slight nod.

"We will get going now. Take care." They said and Johnny waved at them. They left and it remained my kid and I.

That night, after we were done with dinner, as I laid Johnny close to me. He whispered in the dimness of the night. "Mommy, daddy?" 

"Daddy's gone." Was all I could mutter before falling asleep.

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THE next morning, I dropped Johnny by at Diana's house and went to work. If the sad faces I was seeing was something that scared me as I walked through the company's hall way, the way my project manager was staring at me was enough to have me falling into deep depression.

"Boss… anything the problem?" I asked her slowly.

She gulped softly and opened her drawer. She brought what seemed like an envelope and my heart leaped with joy that I was finally going to get the advance I had been pushing for.

She dropped the envelope on the desk and curved her hands then she looked up at me. "Jennifer, you have been a hard worker. In fact, out of the whole workers under me, you have been the most obedient and enduring. But…" She trailed with hesitation.

I knew it. After good words, if 'but' were to follow it, something bad or rather worse is about to happen.

"The company had taken in a new policy and it included limiting the number of workers. Which means that you are part of those who were let off the hook." She informed me. It was obvious she did not like it too.

"You mean to say fired?" I asked her, surprised at the way my voice came out strong and sharp.

She let out a deep breath and started. "See…"

I picked the letter from the desk and shook my head, not wanting to hear I was some kind of special worker. I was already miserable enough. "Thank you for your words of encouragement. It helped me through my job here. I am pained that our partnership has come to an end. Hope in the future, we can partner more." I said to her and she stared at me, not getting what I was doing.

Good. She can't understand.

If only she knew how my heart was breaking and how the thoughts of surviving these few coming days were bugging me, she would beg the bigger boss to let me continue. But I lifted my chin and walked out of her office.

Heads turned towards me and I paid them no attention. Everyone can cry but I won't. I knew that they had noticed the way I behaved at work these past days but none of them had any idea of my divorce. At least that saved me some face.

As soon as I exited the building and entered cab, I let out the deep exhale and let my head fall back. Things has just gotten worse for me. And I don't know how to deal with it.

I was deep in my thoughts when my phone vibrated against my pocket. I pulled it out and saw that it was Diana that was called.

I clicked the answer button and her agitated voice came through. "Jenny, Stanley is here and he wants to take the kid with him."

My eyes went wide and I jerked forward in fear. "What?! Don't let him take Johnny at all. I am headed there now." I stuttered out and ordered the driver to turn around.