Lyla practically sprinted out of the hotel, her heart pounding in her chest. The curious glances people cast her way made her feel utterly ashamed, as if everyone could somehow see right through her, knowing exactly what had just taken place in that room.
It wasn’t until she reached her dorm and slammed the door behind her with a resounding ''bang'' that she finally lifted her head and allowed herself to catch her breath. Her lungs ached from running, and her breaths came out in short, sharp gasps. She stood there for a moment, listening to the sound of her own ragged breathing echo in the silence. It was Friday night, and her roommates were out, leaving the dorm quiet.
It took several minutes before her breathing steadied and the haze of panic lifted. Only then did she notice the sticky discomfort of sweat clinging to her back. Her shirt was soaked through.
She headed for the bathroom, desperate for a shower. As she peeled off her clothes, she caught a glimpse of herself in the mirror and froze. There, on her pale skin, was a thin, faint pink line across her lower back and hips—a mark from earlier that evening.
The Shadow Master hadn’t hit her hard, but seeing the welt brought back the memory of the sting, the shock of that first strike, and the strange sensation that had accompanied it. She reached behind her, tracing the mark with her fingertips. The skin was slightly swollen, warm to the touch. As her fingers brushed over the welt, a faint, electric tingle shot through her body, making her shiver involuntarily.
What surprised her most wasn’t the discomfort, but the fact that she didn’t dislike it. In fact, there was something oddly satisfying about the feeling, something that tugged at a long-buried memory.
Suddenly, she was six years old again.
That morning, while her mother was in the kitchen, Lyla had sneaked into her parents' bedroom. Like any little girl curious about her mother’s makeup, she had wanted to put on lipstick, to pretend she was a princess. But she had twisted the entire tube of lipstick out, and as soon as it touched her lips, it snapped in half.
Panic had flooded her young mind. In a rush, she flushed the broken lipstick down the toilet and carefully replaced the cap on the empty tube, pretending nothing had happened. Her mother hadn’t noticed. She had called Lyla down for breakfast, taken her to school, and gone to work as usual.
But all day, Lyla had been consumed by guilt. She knew her mother was thrifty and rarely used the lipstick, even though it was a cheap one from the supermarket. The weight of her guilt made her squirm in her seat at school and avoid her mother’s eyes when she returned home.
The next morning, her mother discovered the clogged toilet. Using a plunger, she fished out the broken lipstick. Furious, she had called Lyla’s name in a voice that shook the walls.
That was the day Lyla experienced her first s/panking. Her mother, red-faced and angry, pulled her over her lap and delivered several swift smacks to her butt. Lyla didn’t remember the pain itself anymore. What she remembered was crying, the way she had sobbed and screamed, as though all the guilt and anxiety from the previous day had been released with each tear.
By the time the s/panking was over, the guilt had evaporated. The shame of breaking the lipstick had vanished, replaced by a strange sense of calm. The punishment had lifted the emotional weight from her shoulders.
Now, standing in the bathroom with the faint welt on her skin, she realized how similar the experience had been. The physical punishment, though painful, had brought with it a strange sense of release. It was a phenomenon she understood well as a psychology student—how physical pain could sometimes release emotional tension, a concept that had been used in religious practices for centuries.
Despite knowing this intellectually, Lyla had always harbored a bias against BD/SM. She had never considered how it might fit into the psychological framework she had studied. But after tonight’s encounter with the Shadow Master, her perspective was shifting. Ideas for her essay fluttered at the edges of her mind, like a puzzle piece falling into place.
The Shadow Master!
The name echoed in her thoughts. She glanced up, meeting her own reflection in the mirror. Her fingers were still resting on the welt, and the sight of herself touching it made her blush with embarrassment. Her mind flashed to the Shadow Master's profile picture, the image of a hand strikingly similar to the one now grazing her skin.
“Oh, God,” Lyla groaned, covering her face with her hands. She didn’t know if she should hold on to this night as something significant or try to forget it altogether.
One thing she knew for sure: there would be no more encounters with the Shadow Master. She had made up her mind. Whatever had happened tonight, it was over. She would not go down this road again.
After her shower, Lyla felt utterly exhausted. She decided to skip her usual study routine and go straight to bed. It was the best night of sleep she’d had since starting her PhD—dreamless, with no worries about her dissertation or the looming meeting with her advisor.
When she woke up the next day, it was nearly noon. It was Saturday, but PhD students didn’t get weekends off. Lyla hadn’t checked her email since the previous afternoon, and when she opened her inbox, it was filled with forwarded messages from her advisor. They were undergraduate papers, sent to her for grading as part of her teaching assistant duties.
Surprisingly, the pile of work didn’t bother her. The long, restful sleep had left her in a good mood. She quickly washed up, made herself a simple breakfast, and packed her laptop, heading to the library to get some work done.
The campus was quiet on Saturdays, and the library nearly empty. Lyla found a seat by the window, opened the first student paper, and began reviewing it.
She hadn’t been working long when a voice behind her broke the silence.
“So many grammar mistakes. If I were your teacher, I would’ve s/panked you already.”
Lyla’s heart jumped, and she spun around in her chair, only to meet the mocking gaze of the Shadow Master.
Lyla quickly scanned her surroundings, ensuring there was no one nearby before she lowered her voice and angrily asked, "Are you following me?!"Taking advantage of her confusion, Carlo had already pulled out the chair across from her and sat down with a lazy grin on his face. He looked slightly tired, as if he hadn't slept well, but the mocking smile never left his lips. "Following you? I don’t have time for that. I’m here to catch a thief."As he spoke, Carlo pulled out his phone, and on the screen was a map with a flashing red dot. The location it marked was precisely where Lyla was sitting—in the library."What do you mean?" Lyla snapped, her irritation growing. "This is a university, not some cheesy soap opera set. I told you I didn’t want to see you again!"Carlo's grin widened, clearly enjoying her frustration. He wasn’t in any rush and answered leisurely, "Someone took my car keys, and I followed the signal to find the suspect. Isn't that what catching a thief is?""Car keys?"
She knew all too well that the Shadow Master was simply trying to provoke her. It was all part of his psychological game—shaming her, making her angry, and then luring her into submission. But Lyla, a psychology major, prided herself on not falling into his trap so easily.“Please,” she said, her voice calm and collected, “You know I’m not into this game. This was just a scientific experiment. Instead of wasting your time on me, why don’t you find someone who can truly submit to you?”She added sharply, “And please, don’t come to my campus again to discuss this. Let's try to resolve this in a decent way, Okay?”“Why not?” Carlo took a few steps closer, his expression laced with mockery. “Do you feel humiliated? Why feel ashamed of something you enjoy?”“I told you—I don’t enjoy this game,” Lyla repeated, trying to sound firm.“How do you know you’re not into this game?” Carlo’s smile grew even wider. “Why can’t you admit that my s/panking helped you sleep well last night? You can’t ev
In the days that followed, Lyla felt an incredible sense of relief. On the academic front, having broken through her psychological barriers, she suddenly found herself brimming with inspiration. Her progress with the research group’s project advanced smoothly, and everything seemed to fall into place. On the personal side, she hadn’t seen or heard from the Shadow Master at all. It was as though he had taken her rejection to heart and finally left her alone.Strangely, Jessica had also been ignoring her. Other than briefly seeing her during department meetings, Jessica seemed to go out of her way to avoid Lyla, acting as if they had never been friends. Lyla couldn’t shake the thought that maybe Jessica had started dating the Shadow Master. Maybe, under his influence, Jessica had decided to distance herself from Lyla as some kind of punishment. Every time this thought crept into her mind, Lyla felt a confusing wave of emotion rise up inside her. It was hard to pinpoint exactly what i
“No, that’s not what happened,” Lyla instinctively defended herself. “I threw the coffee away before I left.”“Wait…” She suddenly realized something was off and looked at Jessica suspiciously. “How did you know my USB drive was ruined?”Jessica’s face showed no signs of unease; instead, her smile grew bolder and more arrogant. She didn’t answer Lyla, merely watching her with a gleeful expression, savoring her helplessness and despair.A chill spread down Lyla’s spine. “It was you?!” she asked in disbelief. “Why would you do this?”“Why?” Jessica echoed with a cold laugh. “I should be asking, why you?”“Why me? What do you mean, why me?” Lyla was utterly confused.“Why did Dr. Cole give such an important project to you?” Jessica growled, her expression twisting with jealousy. “I’ve been here longer! Why didn’t he pick me?”She paused, her voice lowering to a bitter snarl. “And the Shadow Master... why do you get to date him while he rejected me?!”Lyla was stunned. The once-friendly f
She pulled out her phone and opened the website she hadn’t visited in a while, typing a quick message to Shadow Master: Are you there? I need your help.The familiar profile picture was grayed out, and there was no “typing” indicator at the top of the chat window. The lab was eerily quiet, much like her phone, with only the sound of her own heartbeat echoing in her ears. Should she apologize first? Or get straight to the point about her problem? Maybe she should even ask what he did to Jessica to make her so vengeful?Countless thoughts raced through Lyla’s mind, each one dismissed as quickly as it came. She sat there for what felt like an eternity, staring at the screen. Just as she was about to give up and think about other solutions, her phone buzzed. A message from Shadow Master appeared in the chat: How dare you contact me?It was just like him—arrogant and overbearing. Yet despite the coldness of the message, Lyla felt an overwhelming sense of relief, as if she had found her lif
"My God," Lyla exclaimed with a burst of excitement.Even she didn’t quite understand what she was so happy about. It was as if Shadow Master hadn’t just spoken to her in that commanding tone, but rather, had called her gently. The sudden appearance of the silver-gray sports car felt like a beacon of light, illuminating hope for Lyla, who had been surrounded by darkness.She stuffed the USB into her bag and grabbed her laptop, racing downstairs as fast as she could.Carlo was already seated in the driver’s seat, and without a second thought, Lyla jumped into the passenger seat, as if lingering for even a second longer would cause the magical car to vanish, turning back into a pumpkin.“Where are we going?” she asked breathlessly.Her voice was drowned out by the roar of the engine, and Carlo didn’t answer. He slammed on the gas, speeding away.It was midnight, and the roads were nearly empty, giving the car the freedom to race at breakneck speed. Lyla had never ridden in a car that fa
Shadow Master was in a room at the end of the hallway. When Lyla entered, she saw him sitting at a workbench, three computer monitors in front of him, along with some tools. Her laptop and USB drive lay there, disassembled.Carlo turned around and said casually, "The water damage is too severe. It’s not going to be fixed anytime soon. Sorry, can’t help."Lyla nodded calmly, already mentally prepared for this outcome. "That’s okay, I appreciate your help anyway." She stood by the door, looking a little lost, unsure of what to do next.If it had been her own fault, she would have owned up to it, facing the consequences with optimism. But in this case, she felt nothing but frustration and injustice. Lyla always prided herself on being strong, but now, the emotions she had been holding back were surfacing, and tears began to well in her eyes.Carlo drummed his fingers on the desk, his expression growing more serious. “I don’t see this as a bad thing. The harsher the punishment, the deeper
Lyla lowered her head and mumbled, her voice barely a whisper, “Let me go first.”Carlo sighed, releasing his hold and pulling Lyla up from the desk. “Do you need coffee and snacks before you’re ready to talk?”Lyla knew he was joking again, but she didn’t dare retort. Instead, she massaged her wrist and took a few steps back, putting some distance between herself and the dangerous man in front of her. She didn’t feel safe until her back was pressed against the doorframe. Only then did she start recounting everything that had happened that night.Carlo leaned casually against the desk, resting his left hand under his right elbow, his right fingers thoughtfully stroking his chin as he listened closely.“Wait, who is Jessica?” Carlo frowned, trying to recall anything about a person named Jessica.“What? You don’t remember?” Lyla was shocked. The man who drove Jessica into hysterics, who manipulated her into framing a labmate, couldn’t even remember who she was? “Jessica! The labmate I