Lily
Today Rose and I turn fourteen. Mother and father are throwing a party as Roses request. Me on the other hand could have cared less. I didn’t want a party that would be full of people I did not want to see, Rose only wanted to see Ethan and her friends.I don’t have friends. It's better this way to not get attached to someone when you could be swept away at any giving moment.“Happy birthday, Lily,” My brother Wyatt says walking into my room.Wyatt has always been my favorite amongst my brothers. Wade found love with a girl that moved here with her family and Riley gave him the opportunity to leave if she did not wish to live this lifestyle. Wade had been working for Riley since he was ten years old; he would do anything Riley asked him to do no matter how difficult the request was.Jenny, the girl Wade loved, didn't want to give any babies she would have in the future away, so with Riley’s consent Wade left us last year.I miss him.“Thanks,” I half smiled at Wyatt.Wyatt hands me the small red box with a purple ribbon tied around it. I know what’s in the box the same as every year since I was nine: a charm for my bracelet. The Lycan Prince brought me when I was a toddler and never looked back. No calls, no visits, nothing but a charm once a year.“Why aren’t you at your party?” Wyatt asks, leaning on elbow on the bed.“That’s Rose's party, not mine,” I replied.I don’t like parties, dancing and music is not my thing. That’s Roses thing, mine? My thing is books.“Would it kill you to get your nose out of that book and at least make an appearance?”“It might,”Wyatt mutters a line of cursed words as he pulls the book from my hands and tosses it on the bed.“Hey, I was reading that,” I punched his arm.“You're going downstairs,”I shook my head as I fell back against my pillows and folded my arms over my chest.Wyatt shakes his head and stands from the bed with his hands held up in surrender.“I tried,” He says and leaves my room.I grab my book and continue to read the last chapter.……….A few weeks have passed since the party and since it’s summer we have no school. Rose begged me to go shopping with her at the mall the next town over for a new dress to wear when Ethan comes to see her tonight. When I refused her she used my love for books against me and told me they had a new bookstore only two doors down from the dress shop.I couldn’t pass up books, I’ve read all of mine and I did need new ones.Riley isn’t a bad person, he just does bad things, sometimes. I tried to get a part-time job but no one would hire me because of my age so my father asked him to meet with me and I told him how badly I wanted my own money so I didn’t have to depend on my parents' money.My parents worked hard for their money and I didn’t feel right taking it for books.Riley told me his beta’s mother owned a diner in town and she was looking to hire but no one wanted the jobs because of the low pay. Two days later Riley introduced me to Georgia. We talked for an hour and she offered me the job. Once I started as a waitress Rose and a few other girls decided they also wanted jobs so they could buy clothes.I make four hundred and sixty-five dollars every two weeks plus tips. Most days the tips are good but on slow days not as much. I’ve been saving every penny I earn, only spending twenty bucks every now and again on books.“Rose try this one on,” Beverly says, handing Rose a short pink dress. Her eyes lit up upon seeing it and she grabbed it and ran to the dressing room. She’s only gotten excited about every dress Bev has shown her. Beverly was to a beta of the west-gate pack three hundred miles from here. She also gets visits and phone calls.“Tell Rose I’ll be at the bookstore,” Beverly nods without looking up as her prime focus is on finding a dress.I told myself I was only going to buy one book if I was going to save enough money to escape from this hell hole of a town. If this so-called prince thinks I’m going to be his pet he’s wrong…so fucking wrong.I’m no one’s pet. Not his, not anybody’s.“Will this be it?” The tall woman with blonde hair asks.I nod.“That will be 85 dollars and 54 cents,”I bit my tongue.Damn it Lily you can’t be spending so much on books. But this is the last time I will buy them for a while. Four should last me for a bit……maybe.I reached into my purse to grab my wallet when an old hand put his card down.“Use this,” His rough voice sounds like he smokes a lot of cigarettes.“Uh, thanks but I can manage,” I tell him politely.He shakes his head. “I insist on it. It’s every day you see such a young beauty like yourself buy books, most reads from their phones,”“I prefer holding my books,”He nodded. “As do I,”“Thanks,” I tell him as he walks with me to the door.“Ms. Lily, have you opened your gift?”I froze. How did he know my name? And how did he know about the charm?No…….is this old guy the Lycan prince?“How do you know my name?”“I know a lot of things about you,” He replied.Creepy.“Uh…..thanks for the books but I have to go now,”“Ms. Lily. My name is Sedrick, I am Prince's butler,”I stopped walking.I glance over my shoulder.“Is he here?”He shakes his head.“Afraid not Ms. He has been really busy, so he sent me to ask why you have not opened his gift?”I sighed with relief he wasn’t here….wait….how did he know I haven’t opened the charm yet?“How does he know I haven’t opened the gift?”Sedrick walks closer.“Why don’t we get you something to eat,” He suggested.“I’m not hungry,” I lied.“I must be getting back. Please open the gift once you return home,”I nod.Sedrick smiles at me and bows his head as he walks away.“Wait,” I call after him.“Yes, Ms?”“When is he coming for me?”I needed to know how long I have so I can escape before he arrives.“I’m not sure Ms. Lily, I do apologize,”………..Once I returned to Rose and Beverly Rose had just found a dress. We ate some burgers and headed home. I never mentioned Sedrick to any of them and I don’t plan to. Sedrick said the prince wanted to know why I hadn’t opened his gift yet. How did the prince know I didn’t? For hours now I’ve been staring at the red box wrapped in purple ribbon in my hand.Why am I afraid to open it? It’s a charm…right? He always sends a charm.Taking a deep breath I pull the neatly tied ribbon off the box and slowly open it.I raise my brows.A phone? He brought me a cell phone and it has an apple on the back.I hate apples.I grab the phone and flip it over and fidget with it and it finally turns on.Rose would have known how to use this thing she does have one all of the girls do even the boys, I didn’t want one before never had anyone to talk to, still don’t.So why would he buy me a phone?The phone dings. And I glance down at it.The text messages are read across the screen and touch the screen to read it.: Happy birthday Lily.So that’s how he knew I didn’t open it.I put the phone under my pillow and began to read my new books.“Lily, dinner,” My mother Josephine yells from downstairs.I sit my book down on my bed and stand on my feet when another ding comes from the phone.I grab the phone and see another text message I open it.:I see you opened my gift. How do you like it?Biting my lip on whether or not I should reply it’s rude not to and these things are expensive according to Rose. But he told Riley I’d make a good pet.I tap on the screen and it lit up and I send him a quick reply.:It’s okay but the constant dings from you are disturbing me when I read.Dots appear on the screen and seconds later another text.:There’s a button on the side. If you push that down the phone will be silent.I looked and sure enough there was the button I pushed down and silent mode appeared at the top of the screen.:Thanks. Not trying to sound rude or anything but why a phone? What happened to the charms?…:I figured you were getting too old for them and you would like this more plus I can talk to you. Figured you wanted to know about me before you came here.“Lily Rae Monroe. Come down now,” Mother yells again.I slipped the phone into my pocket and ran downstairs.“Sorry mother.” I say taking my seat I take the phone from my pocket and hold it under the table.“Lily, since you're last to the table you know the rules,” mother says as we all join hands, well everyone but Ethan he doesn’t believe in god he says werewolves believe in the moon-goddess, which is weird but that’s his choice we don’t judge anyone for what they believe.We bow our heads.“God, we thank you for this food by your hands we are fed. Give us lord our daily bread, this we ask in Jesus name, amen,”“Amen,” everyone says but Ethan of course.That's the same thanks I give when it’s my turn to give thanks. It's my favorite. I place my hands under the table to check my phone and I see multiple texts.:Did you figure it out?:Lily?:I’m going to say since you're ignoring me you did.I type a quick reply.:Sorry, my turn to say grace, before dinner and yes I did. You know….you know my name but I don’t know yours.“Lily?”“Huh?” I looked up at Luke and frowned.“Someone not paying attention,”I narrowed my eyes on my brother.“Sorry, what did you say?”“I was just saying that if you keep your grades above average you’ll get into a good college,” Luke smiles with encouragement.“Luke, you know she won’t be going,” My father Kurt scolds.“That’s the plan Luke,” I reply.I glance back down and text is waiting.I hesitate to open it so I really want to know? To know him in any way? I’m leaving as soon as I get enough cash.I opened it.:Archer.Not knowing really what to say I text back and say.:Lily.…:I know.I pressed the button on the side of the phone and the screen went black and I sat quietly and ate dinner.“Lily, do you want to go with Ethan and me to watch a movie at the park? They have a big screen and everything,” She says with excitement.I shake my head.“Come Lily, you never do anything with me, I'm your twin. You’ll miss me when I’m gone,”Rose has never been good at hiding emotions like now you can see the sadness in her eyes and my stomach twists at her words and I know she’s right I do need to spend more time with her.“Fine, I’ll go,” I tell her and she jumps and squealsI cover my ears.“I’ll go grab my sweater,” I say heading for the stairs.“Grab mine to please,” Rose yells after me. Such a Rose thing to do. I love her but she’s lazy.I grab our sweaters and send Archer a quick text.:Going to see a movie with my sister and I think her boyfriend? Anyway, I’m leaving the phone at home so I’ll talk to you later maybe?…:Take the phone.I reply.:Bossy much? I can’t text and watch the movie besides the phone dying and I can’t charge it at the park. I’ll send you a text as soon as I get back, promise.Why did I just say that? I don’t need his permission. He doesn’t own me like he thinks he does.I plug the phone in and place it under my pillow and head downstairs.…………After the movie, Rose wanted a milkshake so Ethan brought us to the ice cream parlor. We chatted and laughed. Ethan's not as bad as I thought he’d be and he seems to care for Rose or he’s good at pretending.“Ethan, you seem real nice, but how do I know for sure you care for my sister?”“I love your sister, she's my mate,”Ethan says but he hasn’t taken his eyes off Rose.She blushes.“Mate?”Ethan’s forehead creases.“Yes, do you not know about wolves?” He asks.“She never would listen when our parents tried to tell us things. Lily is what you would be stubborn and hard headed, yet she’s the polite person with the biggest heart,” Rose tells him and she smiles at me.“Listen, it's late. I’m going to head back to you to have fun,”I was enjoying myself tonight but I didn’t want Ethan to bore me to death with his stories on werewolves.……….I take the phone off the charger for four hours and it should be charged up. My eyes widen when I see all the texts and missed calls.Shit.:It’s not up for debate, take the phone.:Lily?:You did not disobey me.:Something you need to know about me. I love when people disobey me, I get to punish them. Is that what you want, Lily?I swallowed hard as I read the last message.:Don’t say I didn’t warn you.I tap on the screen to reply.I’m sorry.…:You will be.I put the phone back under my pillow and climbed in bed. I try to have one night of fun for the first time in my life and now I’m going to be punished? I shake away the thoughts that he can't punish me, first of all, I’m fourteen and second of all he doesn't live close so how is planning on punishing me?I push the thoughts out of mine and close my eyes. I have a headache all of a sudden and I need to sleep it off.Instead, I find myself thinking about Archer which is crazy given the fact I know nothing about him besides him being bossy.I try to imagine what he looks like as my eyelids become too heavy and I fall into the deep ibis of darkness.“Lily, phone for you,” Mother walks into the living room to tell me then she walks back to the kitchen. Wade and Jenny are coming to visit, Mothers has been cooking for hours now. “Hello?” I pick up the phone.“Lily,” “Wyatt?”Wyatt was breathing heavily like he’d been running and now he was out of breath.“Yes, look Lily. I don’t have much time,”I frown what the hell is talking about? He doesn't have much time?“Wyatt, what’s wrong?”“We did it, Lily. Noel and I ran off,”I gaped.Wyatt fell in love with Noel, the girl that Riley brought. I’ve told him countless times he didn’t need to be seeing her if Riley found out he’d kill them both.“Are you crazy? Riley will kill you,”“His men’s been chasing us. Look Lily, I called to tell you, I didn’t abandon you. But I deserve to be happy and Noel makes me happy. No matter what happens I will always love you,”Tears stung my eyes. It sounded as though he was saying goodbye.“I love you, too,” A sob slips past my lips.“I have to go now
My Lycan Prince.Chapter three.The world is still moving around. It's like everything is in slow motion moving around me in blur. My family talks to me but I can’t hear them. Wade has been walking me to and from bed since last night. Jenny and Rose help me dress, I can’t do it every time I breathe it hurts and when I close my eyes I see Wyatt’s face and the horrible death he suffered for a girl he loved so I don’t sleep.I’m sitting in the front row of St Walters Catholic Church today for Wyatt's funeral and the thought of never seeing him or hearing his voice again has fresh tears stinging my eyes. As Father Dugan finishes the door to the church opens and Riley walks in. My eyes are on him as I watch him take a seat on the right of the church in the second row. The nerve of this bastard is unreal.My mother stiffened but she didn’t say anything nor did my father. Three days of walking like a zombie and endless nightmares and sleepless nights I stood on my feet and walked off balance
My lycan princeChapter four.“Lily, you don’t have to go with him,” Wade assures me. I nod my head.“I know. Archer told me it was my choice,”Wade furrows his brows.“Why didn’t you tell me that you’ve been talking to him?”“Yeah why did you keep this a secret?” Jenny chirped in.I shrug my shoulders.“I’m not sure,”Wade pulled up at the airport and my phone dings.:I’m behind you.I glanced up from the screen and Wade's eyes were on me.“He’s here isn’t he?”I nod.Ding.I glance down.:Will you come with me Lily?I closed my eyes and inhaled a deep breath and exhaled.:Okay.I replied and got out of the car Wade grabs my bags and walks me toward Archer's limousine.“Lily, no matter what you can call Jenny and me and we will come to get to you,”Nodding my head I embrace my brother.“I love you Wade,”He tightens his hold on me and tells me that he loves me so much.Archer opens the door and Wade's body tensed.I take steps toward Archer and Wade grabs my shoulder.“I’ll come and
My Lycan Prince Chapter five.I‘ve never in all my life seen a place so beautiful. Isla Martago is far from a small island, it's a huge island in the middle of the ocean. It's so breathtaking….the beauty of it.The breeze that comes off the water is cool and it ruffles through my hair as I hang further out the window to get a better view of the city. Buildings stand tall along with statues and a flag. It's a gold flag with a black crest in the middle along with the name Isla Martago. Archer hasn’t said a word since we got into the limousine but that goes two ways I guess and I haven’t said anything to him either but I have been kinda busy staring at this beautiful place that I get to call home. The limousine maintained a good speed as the driver whipped in and out of lanes earning some honks from cars he had cut off. The sun was setting making the ocean look like the burnt orange sky. I inhaled a deep breath closing my eyes, imprinting this picture in my mind. Wyatt would have love
My Lycan Prince.Chapter six.Archer softly squeezes my shoulder.“Lily, we’re here,”I open my eyes and sit up.“Sorry I fell asleep on you,” He shakes his head.“It wasn’t a problem. Shall I show you to your room so you can shower and lay down for the night?”I nod my head.After being on the plane for hours my legs are killing me along with my back.Archer climbs out of the limousine and reaches his hand for me. I take it and thank him as I climb out.It’s dark, very dark but the ‘Palace’ as Archer called it was lit up and what he called a palace was a castle-like mansion that looked to be centuries old. Archer doesn’t let go of my hand as he leads me through the old and very heavy doors.I stopped in my tracks and my eyes widened.The main entrance had not one and not two but three grand staircases and the ceilings went on for miles. The palace was filled with ancient artifacts and paintings and it was decorated with modern architecture with wooden floors. “Wow,” I breathed.Ar
My Lycan PrinceChapter Seven.My eyes flutter open and I close them at the blinding light of the sun coming through the window. I groan and roll over covering my head with the blanket. I'm still exhausted. I wasn't ready to get up…not yet. “Are you going to get up and get ready for the day?” The sound of Archer's voice I snap my eyes open and glance around the room until my eyes land on his crystal blue eyes staring at me with amusement. That’s when I noticed I wasn’t in my room then I remembered I came to ask him for water last night and I ended up staying with him because I couldn’t sleep without seeing Wyatt’s face but laying in his arms and I was able to fall asleep without the recurring dream.“You must be wondering why I slept here,” Archer shook his head.“The thought never crossed my mind,” He replied.“Really?”He nods.“Bad dream,” Archer doesn’t say anything as he stands there staring at me. He’s dressed in a dark gray suit with a blue tie that brings out the color of
My readers I am so sorry I have not updated I have been diagnosed with Lupus and it’s really taking a toll on my body as well as my mind my hands have been hurting so bad I can’t write my doctor is going to start me on treatment on march 27th 2023 and hopefully once that kicks in I’ll be back to normal again I do apologize for any inconvenience and if all goes good I will be back up and writing soon but as of right now I am physically and mentally exhausted and I’m always in pain but I wanted to let you all know what was happening and that I’m not just ignoring you all or the updates I’ll reach out soon With love Bj
My Lycan Prince Chapter Eight.Archer was busy this whole week and I’ve barely seen him. I’ve also been doing research on price schools and they all have outstanding programs. Since Archer is going to pay for it I’ll let him choose the campus. As long as I get to attend a school it doesn’t matter which campus I go to. Wade and Jenny are coming over soon for some lunch by the pool and cooling off in clear blue water. Wade wants to get to know Archer better honestly so would I but he is always working and it’s hard to know someone if they are never here.The way my mother always talked about Archer scared me. I wanted to run away but he explained to me I was never going to be a pet and he had no plans to buy anyone that day but something made him change his mind and he brought me. I no longer have the desire to run away from him. He wants me to get an education and chase my dreams- whatever that might be.I still haven’t forgotten what Riley did to Wyatt. If it's the last thing I do,
My Lycan PrinceEpilogue two. Ten Years Later…Avery Cole.Coming back to the island was something I told myself I’d never do. Not after Grandpa Dwayne and My father wanted me to go into their business. I didn’t want to make a name for myself and that’s exactly what I did.I had my name legally changed to Avery Cole instead of Martago. That last name carries with it a power that I wanted to possess but I wanted to gain that power on my own with my own name.I left the island at eighteen and went to college in California. I haven’t left the state since. After I finished business school I got my first job and from there I went on to create my own company Cole Enterprise. It only took me six years to do it. Both my parents were proud of me for what I have accomplished but I still dreaded coming back to the island. But my sister Sierra is getting married to some high school sweetheart and begged me to come. There’s a reason I left the island. It wasn’t because of the family business.
Epilogue Five-Years Later……“Lily, don’t forget Whitney is going with Sierra and I to the movies. Avery refuses to go,” Archer tells me.“He’s a teenager with mood swings,” I smile at him.Avery has changed a lot over the years, the things he used to love to do he hates now and he refuses to go anywhere with us as a family unless we force him to go. Since Sierra has Whitney going with her today I won’t make Avery go. “I know. We could have hung out while the girls played games before the movie,” Archer shrugged. Dwayne and Clara took a two day trip to the beach for their wedding anniversary. Archer and I are minding after Whitney.Clara hated to leave Whitney behind but like I told her she needs time to be with her husband and not have the baby around. Archer and I took a couple of days to ourselves last month. It was so nice and we enjoyed the little bed and breakfast.“I can try talking to him,” I tell him, turning to head up the stairs.Archer grabs my arm and pulls me back sh
My Lycan Prince.Chapter Sixty-One.Four Years Later…..“I’m so glad we’re finally having lunch with just the two of us. It’s been a while since we’ve had a girls day out,”ound i Clara said, taking a sip of wine. She’s right. It’s been a while since we’ve had a day for us. With being wives and mothers finding the time to be just us is hard. But I’m glad we found the time.“Me too.” I told her and as my eyes glanced around the room they landed on a familiar face, one I’ve seen from the dream where Archer died. I didn’t think much of it at first but now…it couldn’t be a coincidence could it?“Hold on. I’ll be right back,” I told Clara. She nodded and started looking through the menu. I walked over and stood at the table where the woman sat alone eating her meal. She was just as beautiful as the last time I saw her.Flash back from the dream.“Clara. You can’t be serious? I told you I wasn’t ready to start dating so soon,” Clara shrugs her shoulders. “Too, Late. Your date with Matthew
My Lycan Prince.Chapter Sixty.As I stand in front of the full length mirror in my old room in the palace. The plain white mermaid cut wedding dress fits my body like a glove. This dress suited me better than the ones in my dream when I was Marrying Mattie. The dress may be plain with just lace but it’s beautiful. Archer has never asked me to change who I am. He doesn’t demand I wear makeup to make me look more attractive or tells me not to eat so much because I’m getting too fat. Archer loves me for who and what I am.Lily Monroe.I’m far from perfect but who’s perfect these days anyway? I helped Clara plan the wedding with Archer. We've spent the last six months doing nothing but wedding things. My hair is curled and falls down my back. Archer doesn’t care about my hair, he cares about what makes me happy. Clara applied a thin layer of eye shadow and mascara and a touch of red for my lips. I don’t like makeup but I made an exception for today. Clara and I decided to go with a w
My Lycan Prince.Chapter Fifty-Nine.I stood from the couch and walked to the kitchen and grabbed a glass and held it under the faucet. I gulped the water down, my throat was so dry.I heard the front door open and close and I sighed.“I’m in the kitchen Mattie,” I said loud enough he would hear me but wouldn’t wake Avery. I rinsed out the glass and sat back on the drainer.“Who’s Mattie?”I froze. I closed my eyes tightly and shook my head.No. It’s not him, don't let your mind play tricks on you. If you keep this up you're going straight to the psych ward.His finger wrapped around my hips and he squeezed. His hot breath tickled my ear.“Answer the fucking Question Lily. Who the fuck is Mattie?” Archer asked again.I shook my head.“This isn’t real. You’re dead.” I said aloud, it was more for myself than him.Archer flips me around but my eyes stay closed to be afraid of what I’d see if I opened them.“What?” He said.Tears had already begun to run down my cheeks. I know this isn’
My Lycan Prince.Chapter Fifty-Eight.It’s been three weeks since Dwayne gave me Archer's ring. Three weeks I’ve thought about nothing but Archer's death. I’m not sure why Archer felt the need to ask me to marry him. I never once mentioned marriage. I was just happy that he loved me.Mattie saw Archers ring the night Dwayne gave it to me. He asked me where I got it and I told him Dwayne gave it to me he only nodded his head, never said anything further. I asked Mattie why he wanted to marry me when he cheats every chance he gets it. His answer? Oh you’ll love this one.“I’m marrying you because I love you. But what you don’t give me they do, so it’s a win win for the both us,” I just rolled my eyes at him. For as long as we’ve been together I haven’t once slept with him. I don’t plan to either.With only a week to the wedding I’ve been spending time with Avery. He seems happy that Mattie will be in his life and he will have someone to look up to.Avery doesn’t know about Mattie’s c
My Lycan Prince.Chapter Fifty-Seven.“She’s having a mental breakdown?” The voice I heard was not familiar and sounded like he smoked two packs of cigarettes a day. When no one spoke his raspy voice hummed.“They won’t tell you the truth. She’s family, they don’t want her locked up. But yeah I believe she’s having a breakdown,” I knew that voice. It was Mattie’s. How could he do this to me?I still can’t speak. I can’t even lift my arms or try to defend myself. I’m a helpless sitting duck.“I wouldn't say she’s having a mental breakdown. She just can’t seem to get out of the grieving process. It’s been years since he died,” Clara said.“Ah, I see. It’s not that she can’t get out of the grieving process. It’s that she has yet to grieve, she probably hasn’t let it sink in that he was gone. We can start her on some depression medication and I would suggest seeing a psychiatrist. This will be a long and painful process for her.” “Thanks Doctor,” It was Dwayne who spoke this time.“Th
My Lycan Prince.Chapter Fifty-Six.It’s been three months since I accepted Mattie’s proposal and I have hated myself ever since. Clara was excited and started planning the wedding the next day. The date is set for only four months from now. I’m not sure what I’m feeling at this point. I’m too numb to let it all sink in.Avery was happy with the news as well; he thinks of Mattie as a father. I don’t know why that breaks my heart like it does ... .but does my heart ache watching them throw a football back and forth. Clara wanted me to meet her for wedding dress shopping today. I didn’t wanna go but you know Clara she would have just dragged me here whether I like it or not. “Wow. Lily, this is the one,” Clara nods.“I agree,” Rose smiles with tears in her eyes.Jenny couldn’t make it today. I wish she could have been here.The dress is beautiful. Ball Gown strapless heart shaped neckline, with lots of crystals. This wouldn’t have been my choice of dress but I don’t care I just want
My Lycan Prince.Chapter Fifty-Five.The whole island was talking about the accident that happened two days ago. The deadly crash that took two lives. Why was everyone talking about it? Well you see one of the men that died? Was very well known on the island; his name was released hours after the crash. Archer Martago.My whole world came crashing down when Clara called me with the news. I was in complete shock. I mean there was no way that Archer was dead, it just couldn’t be there had to be some kind of mistake. But there wasn’t. Archer was gone.Avery didn’t take the news well, and he hasn’t stopped crying since. Me? I’ve been back in that dark place. I haven't eaten or talked that much since. Trapped in my own twisted head that has led me back down this darkness this time around I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.How could there be any kind of light for me after this? How can I ever find happiness again? Archer and I were doing great. He kissed me and told me that h