Chapter Seven: The rest of my life

“How are you?”Alex asked. I was lying on her twin-sized bed next to her. I should have gone home, I wanted to go home, but I could not bear the empty house. I thought I would find comfort there but when I walked into her room…so I ran over here, I ran over to my best friend.

“I don't know. I feel numb.” I whispered. I had thought I would cry for hours over my mum but the tears had dried up and no matter how hard I wanted them to fall they stayed dried up.

“I know you're hurting over your mom. I could never imagine what it feels like to lose your mother. But that's not what I'm talking about.” She turned over on the bed and faced me.

“What are you talking about then?” I asked, genuinely confused.

Alex cleared her throat and looked at me uneasily. “How do you feel now? especially after meeting your father.” She asked and watched me curiously.

My anger returned swiftly and bitterness enveloped me like a thin shroud.

“How could she do that?” I asked, my voice filled with bitterness.

“How could she what? Who are you talking about Seli?” Alex asked confused.

“My mother…how could she invite him back into our lives, after everything he did to us?” The tears that had stayed dammed up began to shroud my eyes. I wiped them away, I did not want to cry anymore.

“Whatever your mother did, she did in your interest,” Alex said wisely, but I did not need her wisdom at that moment.

“That man did not deserve her respect, he never deserved her love.” My voice was getting louder and I could bearly control myself.

“That's the thing Seli, you don't have to forgive him, you only have to let your mother's will be fulfilled. Allow her to ride her wolf into the moon without fear for your safety.”

“You don't understand Alex. You don't know what it feels like. You said it yourself.” I said stubbornly and sat up from the bed.

“Yes, I know I don't!” Alex exclaimed, “But you have to at least try. For your mother's sake.”

“You don't have to say anything, I was already compelled by the Alpha to go with him.” I sadly said. It seemed everyone wanted to see the rear of me.

“Wait, then why did you make me waste my hard-earned words of wisdom?” Alex joked and punched me on my arm. I looked at her with eyes that did not see. On another day I would have punched her back and we would have wrestled to our heart's content but not today.

“Did you see the bitch he came with?” I asked. The woman had angered me with her mere presence. And that was another reason I hated the man. Was he so stupid? he must have known I hated him but he still felt it was ok to bring my mom's replacement back home with him to her funeral.

“Who? His chosen mate?” Alex asked while rummaging through her bedside table.

“Y,es his ch,osen whore.” I spat hotly.

“I thought she was pretty cool, and pretty Good looking too,” Alex said with a smile.

“You're a bitch.” I spat at her angrily.

“I Know.” She said obnoxiously still rummaging through the table. I picked up a pillow and threw it at her. It bounced off her head, sending her falling down the bed. She landed with a heavy ‘thud’ and I broke down into a fit of laughter.

“Hey!!” She yelled from the side of the bed.

“What gives?” I could not see her but I could tell it hurt.

“Still think she's pretty cool?” I mocked. Alex's head shot up from the other side of the bed right next to me.

“The coolest!!” She yelled and swung a pillow I had not seen in my face. I fell back on the bed with a groan.

“Ow!!!” I cried. It had only been a pillow but Alex was extremely strong, her family members were alTimberwolveses and Goddess knows she had their strength.

“Ohh grow up.” She said with a smile. I debated within myself if it would be alright to hit her back. I felt like having fun on the night my mother died would be the ultimate form of disrespect to her and everything she stood for, it would mean that I never really loved her enough. The tears threatened to fall once again.

“Hey, did I hit you too hard?” Alex asked worriedly. But it wasn't her, even though her sneak attack had hurt like hell.

My mind ran back to the time my mother had still been here with me, my mind found solace in a memory.

“My flower.” She had said. “ When I leave, when I go…”

“Don't say thaMomom!” I had said. It had been the early stages of her cancer and she had several episodes of random hallucinations. “It's not the same as when humans have it. You're a wolf!!” I said In a stern voice.”

“When I go,” my mother continued almost as if she had not heard a word of what I had said. “I want you to move on, I want you to enjoy your life, I want you to be a normal girl.”

I had argued with her over that. She had tried to make her passing less painful but I had been too young and too blind to see.

“Seli?” Alex asked. she looked dowattt me from the bed she was standing on with fear written all over her face. “Are you alright?”

My hand grasped the pillow next to me and I swung it at full force. It connected with her face heavily and she flew from the bed and landed on the floor with another heavy ‘thud’ that resounded everywhere.

I gasped and brought my hands to my mouth. There was no way that girl wasn't hurt.

“Alex?” I called while peeking over the side of the bed.

“Oh, it's on.” She said and flew straight at me.

The sun shone through the windows and landed painfully on my face. I squinted my eyes and shielded my face with my palm. It was morning and not just any morning, the morning I left my pack. Alex was no longer on the bed next to me so I was certain she had to leave early for work.

I wrote her a note saying my finagoodbyeye and got up to shower. When I was done I got into my plain jeans and pink shirt before stepping out of the room.

“You ready?” Alex's mom asked.

“Ready as I'll ever be,” I replied and sighed. We stepped out of the house to see my father his little whore already waiting for us, but that was not what shocked me. The entire pack was standing right behind them. The tears that had been dammed up now threatened to fall.

Alex walked out of the crowd and came to me.

“You've been my best friend all my life and even though we've had our differences I still want you to know that I love you, and I always will.” I cried when she pulled me In for an embrace.

“I love you too,” I whispered. I loved them all.

“Have this,” Alpha Jasper said while extending his hand to me. He had something covered inside.

“Your mother's wolf tag, it's now yours.”

I took the little necklace and wrapped it around my neck.

“Thank you. Thank you all.”

I turned and nervousness came upon me like a hurricane, my childhood was over. I won't see the little stream or the woods or the little pups at play.

The rest of my life had just begun.