Lecture Me

Ember’s POV

“Since this has been all you have wanted to do throughout the weak and even going weak to bring Grace here to plead your case, let me hear it” I scornfully began.

“Baby…”

“Your time starts now and you have just 15 minutes to give me a reason valid enough to explain why I saw you with that woman and why she is pregnant for you too!”.

Still on his knees, with tears rolling down his eyes he continued pleading for forgiveness.

“I never cheated intentionally, I just didn’t know how to come clean to you about it, I was ashamed of myself and our vows that I failed to keep”.

“A mistake you say or it only became one when she became pregnant?”

“Tell me Xander, What part of it was a mistake, the part where you poured your seeds into another woman or the part where she got pregnant and your secret had to be out!”

“It’s not that, Babe…”

“Lecture me!”

“I just didn’t know how to tell you, Ember…I thought I was doing the right thing by keeping it away from you so I spent nights…”

“I knew this office stories were becoming too much so this is what you have been up to, you were not only avoiding me and feeding me with lies of last meetings and being tired but also fucking another?” I said cutting him short.

He opened his mouth probably to argue before shutting it up, “No amount of sorry can make up rt I have put you through but I would do anything to earn your forgiveness”.

“You know I would never intentionally cheat or try to hurt you, Ember” he added, holding onto my leg tighter.

“Lies…of all days to find put that you cheated, it just had to be on our anniversary? I had hoped you’d protect your family from harm but you had exposed it to the wolves, bit by bit we are losing the last thread on which our marriage stands”.

“No, we can fight this baby…I know no explanation can justify my actions but I didn’t consciously choose to hurt you” he started, I gave him a listening hoping he had a reason valid enough to make our marriage worth fighting for.

“I was in the pack's ritual meeting fully intoxicated, when he met Ellie, I didn’t mean to but she was on heat and that is how we managed to have sex” he continued and he didn’t need to add that he went to meet her more than once as I could see it in his eyes.

A tear slipped out as it made me realize that our marriage wasn’t worth fighting for…he might have hated the fact that he cheated but it couldn't erase the dent.

He had made a mistake but going back over and over was him stabbing him over and over again.

“Does she have your mark?” I managed to ask, promising myself not to break in his front.

“NEVER!” He let out immediately before adding, “I would never do such an outrageous thing”

My petty side wanted to add but you could lie to your wife thousands of times to slip in dick to a girl you fucked in heat.

Although he had said it all, I felt that there was something he wasn’t saying…something that I was certain would break me.

“I can prove it too baby” he added casing me to cork a brow at him.

“If at all I had marked her, the bond would make you feel pains, have you felt pain?” I wanted to roll my eyes at him but I nodded.

“So, about her baby, if you didn’t mark her what do you plan to do about it?” I asked unable to hid my curiosity.

“I don’t know...” he began making my face fall, knowing that he was going to have his first child from another woman made me jealous.

“I did make a promise not to have the baby removed as it would destroy the partnership the pack enjoys with the Ellie’s father, Alpha Roland”.

His name rang a bell as I remember Xander pleading that I escorted him to the gathering but I had been so tired…if only I had followed him that day maybe this wouldn’t have opened.

“So, you are keeping the baby?”

“Yes”

The woman in me began to nurture thoughts of possibilities of things that could happen, if the child is allowed into their pack.

I needed no one to tell me that I needed to have Xander lay with me as soon as possible, so we could get our own child, before all the attention is given to the forbidden child.

“You shouldn’t doubt my love for you, Ember” he began, pulling me out of thoughts.

“I saw you and fell in love with you without having to be bond to you by the goddess, I knew that you were going to be my wife and mother of my future children”

Someone already beat me to the latter so I wasn’t going to be the only mother of his children.

“People are seeing and beginning to talk, it is obvious that they are beginning to question our marriages together”

“I am sorry to have exposed us to this but nothing would happen to our marriage”

A knock interrupted us and Xander’s beta, Caleb entered.

“Alpha...” he began looking at me cautiously before adding upon being urged by Xander, “Ellie is here to see you”

Without saying any word, he left causing me to sigh, our marriage was already in people’s mouth and I had to fix that.

Xander opened his mouth but I interrupted him by taking his hand in mine gently, “let’s go see the woman carrying your child”

In as much as I was hurt, I wasn’t going to let this woman break my home.