Meera ~
I washed my hands and walked out. Feeling a little content, I know I shouldn't have said this but it was fun until. Until I saw my own husband who told me to behave, is now cozily laughing with Hannerina. They both are standing so close to each other that he is not even realising that he putting a show of our marriage in front of others. I stood there in the middle, stuck as if my feet are glued to the floor, why would he do something like this in public? No, he can't make me or him a joke in front of world. I am now cursing myself for being a bitch to Mrs. Decker, my karma is hitting me back. I need to stop this, I have to stop this, I can't bear it. My body loosened as, I saw Derek my husband's best friend joining them in. I could literally make out the facial expression of Hanne bitch rina that she was clearly annoyed. Good. I thought of going in between them but didn't. Because I am already feeling out of place, these people are making me out the f place. Even though these parties are not new to me, but still they always make me feel uncomfortable. I don't belong here, I don't belong with these people. So I decided to sit on the empty sofa, and rested my back against the fluffly, and soft. Beckman's surely does have good taste in decorating home, it's the best I have seen. Cozy and homely. I sipped on my fruit punch, the cold drink soothed my nerves, calming me instant. I was still enjoying my drink, when I feel the sofa dipping beside me. "Enjoying fruity drink, huh? " I heard a manly voice, the voice I am very much familiar with. I look at my side and my eyes widened in shock or happiness, I don't know. "Ian--" I choked my eyes brimming with tears, blurring my vision, blurring everything around me. "Meera--" He whispered and without wasting any more time he took me in his arms and hugged me tightly. Tears spilled from my eyes, but I did not care, I could feel the several eyes on me, on us, judging us but I don't care. I just don't care. My best friend, my Ian is here, I have seen him after so long how could I not leap into his arms. When he is as important to me as my husband. When he is my life line, soul mate. I withdrew myself back and touched his face and he chuckled and wiped the water coming out of my nose. "You are still the same" He said and I tried to roll my eyes. "Cmon we have been apart for only six months and no one changes in six months. Atleast I don't". I lied, because I have changed in so many ways that I cannot describe. " How was rehab? " I ask, desperately. I want to know of his drug influence has gone or he is still under the influence of that unfortunate thing. Ian left for rehab to detox himself and to get better. And he hasn't looked better in year as he is looking now. He looks beautiful, handsome, amazing and healthy. He eyes the beautiful brown orbs which I love are now possess the same innocence as they did years ago. He looks like my Ian again. "Well, I am at the party and I am not drinking". He said and I nodd my head, praying that it stays that way. I could feel the eyes of my husband on me but right now I am just happy that my best friend is here with me. " Let's go out, it's suffocating here" He said and I was already up on my feet. I am so ready to get out of here. The chilly occasional breeze feels good in summer, it feels refreshing, even though England is not as hot as other countries but still global warming is doing it's best effect. "So, how is your marriage going? " Ian asks and sighed, I don't know what to say about my marriage, or is there even anything to say. "I am getting what, I deserve" I said curtly not giving him the details, because I don't want him to get into trouble with my husband because of me. He pulled me closer to his chest and kissed the top of my head, "You deserve the best, Meera, only the best. And I am always with you, remember" I smiled up at him because I know, no matter what I will always have him. I was still in his arms, when I was suddenly pulled back with force and my back hit the hard chest of the man I know. Abram. "Mr. Knightly, I must take my wife home now, she doesn't like being outdoors this much" He said and and holding my hand he walked me out. Ian was coming to protest but I shake my head, and pleaded him through my eyes. He stopped and then he was out if sight. I was thrown inside the car with a force, and my head banged against the hard window. My eyes watered at the impact. "Abram, it's not what you think, I swear" I pleaded , he looked at me with deadly eyes and I bit my lips. He looks angry, but why? I did not create a scene when he was chit chatting with that actress? Then why does he doing this to me. "Abram, he is my best friend, nothing more" I say in a pleading voice but he didn't pay any heed to my pleading. I don't know, where it came from but there is a fear inside, fear of what he might do to me once we reach home. I forwarded my hand slowly to touch his shoulder and suddenly I was half lying on the seat. His hand on my jaw, his eyes darkening in hot burning anger. He hovered above me and and I tried to remove him, but to no avail he lean down and bit on my neck and then sucked hard. A sob wreck through me "Abram please--" I pleaded but he continue to suck on the same spot of neck. He released me and whispered into my ear, something that no one has ever called me. "You are a whore". *** I hope you all enjoy the chapter. Thank you Love CeeCeeMeera ~I punch and punch and punch my fist on the dough and again did the same thing, hurting myself in process. Tears were blurring my vision but I kept on over kneading the dough. "You are a whore" . "You are a whore"."You are a whore" . That's what he called me, a whore. I have been called ugly, freak, fat, bitch but never whore, because I am damn fucking virgin. I always kept my distance from boys other than my best friend. But I and Ian are platonic lovers, there is nothing sexual or romantic between us. It's pure care and loyalty for each other. But he called me a whore, I know he hates me, but how can he use such a derogatory term for a woman, for his own wife. Do I really deserve to be call a whore? Do I really deserve all of this? Maybe yes. Because what Abram is doing to me is nothing compared to what I did. So, probably yes I deserve this, I deserve to get hurt, I deserve to get humiliated, I deserve to burn in his hatred for me, I deserve all of this for the sin I
Meera ~The universe has brought down,the stars on the Earth. But still my heart is not happy Because It has come without him. The image of that woman sitting on his lap, flashed across my eyes and she shut them close tightly, and a lone tear escaped from her eye. Falling on her red hued cheeks. My chin wobbled, and lips quivered, tear drops falling onto my lips. My heart is in pain, a kind of pain I never felt before, not even when I committed the greatest sin. Finally a sob left from my mouth and I cried, sobbing my heart out, holding the railing of my balcony tightly. I am once again standing in my balcony, in a starry night, stars blinking, glittering, moon shining high above in the sky. I feel like as if it is moking me, telling me that I do not deserve the moon nor its moonlight. I look up in the sky and licked my lips, why? I stared at the moon questioningly. Why it has to be me? Why can't you shimmer my life with your light? Why does it have to be always dark? I questi
Meera ~"Oh, god--" I swiped the mop on the glass like floor, making it shine with my hard work as maid. The work my husband gave me. It's been three weeks since I am the only maid of this house, I do everything from cleaning to cooking, laundry to dishes, I do everything whole day. And at night I wait for my husband , so that we can have dinner but just like everyday he never comes. And I eat alone. Today won't be any different, a smile broke onto my lips as I remember the thing I do, in my solace. I quickly completed my work and took a shower, wearing a cotton sky blue maxi dress, the only thing which fits me now, and combed my hair in a low bun. I put the heavy anklets around my ankles, and turn on the music. I close my eyes and swing my hands and feet in rhythm, syncing with music. This is what brings me peace, dancing. I move my body, feeling the music in my veins, the beat thrumming into my heart, rushing blood to my face. I was about to take a jump, when I heard a shatte
Meera ~"Stop ! "A loud sound boomed in the Hall, resonating the walls, I turn my head to my side and saw my husband standing at the doorway with emotionless eyes and clenched jaw. He moved his feet and walked inside the Hall, and finally a smile broke onto his lips, i look down, is he going to embarrass me too. I prepare myself for it. For another humiliation. "Good evening, ladies" He spoke in the sweetest manner, possible and everyone greeted him back. "Mrs. Asher, don't worry I will buy you new pair from the same brand" He spoke . "Meera, baby--" My heart thudded inside my chest as he addressed me sweetly, a shiver roll down my spine as he hauled me in his arms. I wrap my arms around his neck and look at him in the eye, blue against amber, for a moment I forgot everything and let the butterflies swarm into my belly. He is so handsome that my eyes teared up again at the beauty if this man. For a moment, I only saw the old Abram, who was so sweet and getle to me. My saviour.
Meera ~"I have invited some of my friends over, make sure everything is perfect" He said, in a deadly calm voice and I understand the underlying threat in his order. And I can't beat to defy him anymore, because he has something which can ruin me more than in front of the whole world. I meekly nodded and walked out from his study to my room, to get ready for today. I have so much prepare and do. After showering, I wore comfy cotton shorts and a loose t-shirt, braiding my hairs and putting my flip flops on, I walked out of my room and went towards the kitchen. Today I decided to make Italian alfredo cheese pasta along with garlic bread, with my signature Tiramisu. People envy my cooking because at such a young age I can cook better than anyone. And that too delicious food. I don't know where time went while cooking, but it was done finally and its time for me doll up and look presentable for tonight. I took a short but a shower with fragrance , so that I don't smell and Abram d
Abram ~I threw the files on the table and rubbed my temple, as migraine started to erupt inside my veins like, a hot volcano. "I will get the right file, sir" I heard the timid voice of my manager and glared at him "Why the fuck do you think, I have enough time just to check which file is wrong and which is correct, huh?" I seethed. "I am sorry sir, please forgive me, I will get the right file right away" He said and I banged my fist on the table " Just get the fuck out and one more mistake , and you will be fired" I gritted out at him, making him cast his eyes down in fear. "I am so sorry, sir" He apologized again, and walked out of my cabin. I sat on my chair and rubbed my temple. First at home, I have to deal with that bitch of my wife, and now at office with these, careless employee. And this fucking migraine, I am fucking sick of everything. She has made sick of everything. Her face, the amber of her eyes, her everything irks me and burns me to no extent. Her innocent faca
Meera ~" She took my Abram away, mama. She took my Abram away from me. I hate her, I hate her, I hope she dies, I wish she dies. I want to kill her, -- I want to kill her"I killed her, my curse came out to be true, I killed my sister, she is dead because of me. I snatched everyone's happiness, I snatched her from everyone. I snatched her from him, and took her place. I deserve what happened to me. I deserve every ounce of his hatred. I touched my gauze covered forehead, and a tear left from the corner of my eyes. If not for Usher, those dogs would have killed me and eat, but wouldn't that be convinient, it's not that I am wanted. My parents hate me, my husband loathe me. I wish you were here Charlotte, I wish you were here to take care of Abram. He has changed, I have changed him, he is burning in his hatred for me. I know he is not at peace. He is hurting his soul to hurt me. And I couldn't save him, because I am the sole reason he is ruined. "Pegion--" My heart skipped a beat
Meera ~"What the fuck have you done, Abram? " I blinked my eyes and watch, Derek marching towards my husband. I look at Abram, who was stood there mum, emotionlessly, as if he didn't regret what he has just done. "You have no saying in what happens, between a husband and wife, Derek. Stay out of this" I heard him and watching him walking out my room, like nothing happened. "I am sorry, Meera, he is not a right state is of mind, you don't deserve this" A sad chuckle escape from my mouth, at what Derek said. A man who is not my husband is feeling sorry for me, he thinks I don't deserve this. Maybe this is what I deserve, because my pain is nothing in what Abram is going through. Derek is right, Abram is not in his right state of mind, he is going through loss of his love, he is in grief. I touch my cheek again and my eyes brimmed with tears again, but I can't shake off the fact that he slapped me. He had abused me, something that is so unusual to expect. I have seen this scene h
Meera~"YOU ARE MY WIFE" he growled against my face, I cupped his face and looked at him in astonishment.He held me, and a I pulled him, placing my lips against him warm ones. We didn't move, as if everything froze, time ceased as my lips met his. I grab the back of his head and caressed his temple making him slowly open his mouth and I locked our lips. Sealing them together. Breathing. I feel like this is the first time I am breathing. I felt warm liquid trickling down on my cheeks, and I realized it was his tears. He is crying. He is crying because of me. I retrieved back, but he pulled me back and slammed his lips against mine. Taking my hand in his, he put it on his heart and I gasped in his mouth, because his heart, it was beating so fast that I feared he might have an attack. He withdrew his lips and rested his forehead against mine "don't ever stop kissing me, pigeon". He murmered. "Make love to me" I said against his mouth. Without thinking twice I claimed his lips,
Meera~"Today was Charlotte's birthday but you killed my daughter and now celeberating your birthday. I wish you had died in her place".I fisted my hands, trying to prevent myself from sobbing. Do they really think I am celeberating? I don't even like my birthday. But I didn't know Abram was planning, until this beautiful black dress arrived. And this is the first time, my birthday is being celeberated. There is someone, who thinks I shouldn't die. Someone who wants to see me alive. Even if for pretense, someone still sees me for me. "God, I hate your pathetic face" he spat and I flinched at his harsh tone. He raised his hand, and about to land it against my cheek, like always. I close my eyes, waiting for the slap. But it never happened. I watch in shock as my husband punched on my father's face and the old man staggers backward, falling on his ass on the marbled floor. A gasp escaped from mama's mouth and she rushed to help him. I looked at my husband agape, his nose flaring,
Meera~I looked at stars in the dark sky. They are barely any, today. They were dim, there weren't any shine in them. I wish I could give them some light, so that moon doesn't snatch their identity. But it can't be possible, because moon is only one, but stars are countless. Moon doesn't need anyone to make it shine. "Happy Birthday Lottie". I smiled at the moon, my sister would have been 27 today, if she were alive. But--" Happy Birthday" . I heard an awkward voice of my husband and I slowly look at him, he was standing, in front me. He didn't meet my eyes, because just like me he was also looking at sky. I didn't say anything and averted my gaze from his face. "I love stars, they light up everything" He said and I frowned at him, getting defensive for my theory. "No. Noone loves them" I said. "I don't know about others, pigeon but I love them. Because everyone can claim the moon. And stars they are millions, and you choose one yourself and it becomes yours forever. "He s
Meera~"Wake up, please".I whispered, my hands gently stroking his soft brown locks, fingers caressing his warm cheek. Three days ago, that dreadful night became the worst day of my life. When I saw him lying in the pool of blood, heavily injured, I swear I felt my soul leaving me. I never felt what fear was until I saw him in that situation. And now he hasn't opened his eyes in three days and it's wrecking me. It pains me to see him like this. Not able to see his beautiful eyes, or hear his voice.I kissed on his fractured hand, when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I look back to see who it was and my eyes hardened. "What are you doing here, Davin?""I am sorry, please forgive me" He pleaded, sadness looming over his grey eyes and it hurts to see my best friend like this. He tried to grab my hand but I backed away before he could touch me. A sad sigh escape from his lips and he started to bite on his nails, a habit when he is nervous. "Meera, I love you, I care for you but you
Meera~Judgement. That is something I always feared, always felt defenseless against judgement.And right now I could feel him judging me, the way his eyes are drilling holes in the back of my head. But he has no right to judge me, when he himself does bad things. I still remember how he beat up Ian that day. Last night, he held me in his arms and I spent the whole night sleeping on his lap. My cheeks heated up, at the memory of the morning when I found myself on his lap and he was already staring at me. He didn't sleep. I don't know where he got this obsession of continuously staring at me, when he abhored the fact that I even existed. And his care, his touchiness is giving me hopes, hopes of him loving me. But I know they are going to shatter because he will never love me. And not after seeing my real fae that night. I spun around and found him already looking at me. There was no judgement in his blue pools. That I feared. Just the emotion that I don't want to acknowlege.
Meera~"Calm my mind? Why don't you just say that my presence is suffocating you? That I am ruining the precious sleep of your nights and you just want me away from you".I knew it, my yesterday's action would damage our already broken relationship. God, he doesn't even want to be near me anymore. What have I done? I ruined everything. I pleaded him through my eyes, because I don't want to be away from him, not anymore. A yelp of pain escape from my mouth as he yanked my hair and twisted them in his hold, my scalp burned. He pressed his nose against mine, breathing hard, his grip thightened and a lone tear escape from my eye. "Put this straight in your skull pigeon, that neither you are going away from me, nor I am sending you away". He said, his lips meeting mine, but he didn't kiss just breathed on them. My body tingled at his burning touch. " Your best-friend wanted to spend his birthday with you and you are going, that is final" He said, his lips skimming on my neck. My he
Abram~Cold. The coldness of her absence in my arms felt chilling in the warm morning. The warm sunrays peeked through blinds but all I could feel was bitterly cold. Doesn't she like being in my arms? While I crave to be in hers all the time even when she never held me in her arms. I tilted my head slightly and sighed as the right side of the bed was empty, but it was wrinkled, the clear evidence that she was indeed here, slept in my arms all night. Soon wife, soon you will love sleeping beside me instead of leaving me as if I am some whore you spent night with. The bathroom door clicked open and she walked out wrapped in white plush towel like a cute bunny. Her eyes met mine, and she took a deep breath, clutching the towel tightly, as if trying to save herself from my heated gaze. I smirked as her round cheeks reddened. My gaze followed her as she disappeared in the closet and then eternity later she peeked out of the door, only to let out a curse, as her eyes met mine. I p
Meera~"I am engaged to Abram, Meera. It's time for you to go away, darling".She flashed the big diamond and I could feel my heart shattering piece by piece, bleeding in process. My chin wobbled as silent tears flowed from my eyes. " Meera--" I heard his voice and I got up from the floor, and walking inside I grabbed the flower vase and smashed it across her head. "Meera--" I didn't listen to him, not anymore. I grabbed her hair and twisted the bloody locks in my hand, I banged her head on the wall again and again. "He is my husband, only mine".Her painful screams filled in the room as she cried in pain. I brought her face closer to mine, blood dripping from her head. "He is mine" I spat on her face, and grabbing her hand I stared at the diamond ring in disdain, he gave this to her. He broke our marriage.I tried to pull out the ring from her finger, but as if it was stuck, it didn't come out "he will never be yours" I screamed while tears flowed from my eyes. I snapped her fi
Meera~"Davin"." Meera--" I lunged at him and punched him on the pretty nose he have, and grabbing his hair in my fist I scratched his face. Until he grabbed my hands and pinned them above my head, our breathing hard, my chest heaving up and down, but the sight of his bloodied nose gave me a good satisfaction."I am sorry" He said and and I glared at him "release my hands" I gritted out. "Promise you won't beat me again?" He asks giving me that innocent look through his grey eyes. The bastard even had the audacity to change his voice along with that fucking mask. I sighed and nodded my head, and he released my hand from his tight grip. I got back on my seat "you scared the shit of me Davin" I said, still trying to catch my breath. "Sorry, Mia but I am glad I was the one who got you, and don't you dare to pass through that kind of place again, its not safe" He said. "Drop me home" I said feeling drained out with all that happened in this span of time. First Soumya, then Derek an