I saw how the sun sank already on the horizon from the front window of our home. In our fancy living room I sat on the couch with my feet dangling over the armrest, a glass of wine in my hand and a book propped up against my legs to keep me company. I loved the view from this spot because it was such a lovely one that took my mind off all the shit that had been going down lately.
I felt the weight of my feelings more when my gaze landed on Lucas. His eyes were fixed on the laptop in front of him. His fingers were flying across the keys with a speed with his brows furrowed in concentration. His hair was tousled messily from where he'd run his hand through it repeatedly, until I thought of speaking. "Lucas," I almost whispered his name."I have an idea... Can we go out of town next weekend? You know, get some time away,""So that we can bond again. Just to at least get some fresh air? Away from stressful work." I saw how his hands stopped typing on the laptop, still he didn't look at me."I can't Dianna, can't you see how busy I am? I don't have time to rest or to go at any lengths to escape work, so there's really no reason for us to go anywhere," "If you really want, you can go alone to the place you want." My heart ached because this time I failed to get even a moment of his time so that I could at least be with him where we were not only thinking about work problems. Even so, as I always do, I just hid it with a simple smile."It's the same excuse you've told me the last time I asked you to spend time with me. Lucas, we also need time for each other, maybe life shouldn't revolve around our jobs let's," I said calmly. His eyes narrowed, the right hand that had been tapping on the laptop was now resting on the papers at his side."Can't you see this paper works, Dianna? I can't waste any time. Be mature enough. We are married, we are not teenagers anymore!" The last sentence yelled in frustration as he threw the papers back on his desk."A-Alright! Chill, honey... I won't force you if you're really busy. All I want is for you not to tire yourself too much by working." I put down the book I was holding and then stood up to walk towards him."I'm sorry, okay?" I started to massage his shoulder, but it wasn't working very well. He kept shrugging me off as if I was some kind of parasite.The pain in my chest increased with the pressure on my lungs as a wave of anxiety washed over me like an ocean."I'm fine, Dianna. I just hope that you understand how much I love my work. I'm just going to rest for a while." He stood up from his seat, after closing his laptop. And I was left there watching him climb the stairs until he entered his room and closed the door.Lucas and I have been married for three years, we've had a happy marriage, but I've noticed that for the past few weeks something seems to be different about him.He used to be a loving and caring man who always makes me smile. He is that man who can hardly take his eyes off of me, that's why my mother-in-law always tempted him not to come home to them, and that temptation was also one of the reasons for speeding up our marriage.That's the Lucas I've known and loved since we were in high school. But in the past few weeks he seems to be quickly becoming irritable with me, I feel that he is moving away. That's why even if I want to be happy in our life, I can't do it because I'm confused.I don't understand some changes in his behavior. When dinner came, I immediately went up to the second floor of our house to tell him that we were about to eat. He immediately opened the door for me."Honey, dinner is ready. Let's eat together.""I'll just get dressed, I'll just follow." I smiled, after he closed his bedroom door again, and waited for him in my kitchen.We had a quiet meal, every minute I couldn't help but look up at him, until I couldn't stop asking."Lucas, do we have a problem? I mean, it's been a while since I noticed something about you.""You seemed distant, honey. It's like you are getting colder to me as the days go by." He sipped on the tea that I had brewed for him, his eyes never leaving mine now, but it's different from before.They used to be so warm and full of life but now they're so dull. So empty, just like the room itself that was once filled with the love and happiness he once shared with me."It's just because of my work, Dianna. There's some projects I'm working on right now and the deadline is approaching quickly so I need to get them done." He gently caressed the surface of my hand, and after smiling sparingly at me he went back to eating.I understand how much he loves his work. He's indeed a hardworking man, one of the things that I admire about him. I respect it, I really do. And I appreciate that he makes these efforts for our future."I understand you, honey. The job we have is just as important to us, but...""I-I just miss the old days, the old us." I noticed that he took a deep breath before looking up at me again."I also miss those moments, Dianna. I've just been really busy these past few weeks.""Besides, I'm doing everything I can to speed up my work, so I can pay attention to you." I nodded, somehow it was as if I felt the Lucas that I loved before, even for the moment we just talked for a while.Although he has a reason why he is lacking time for me, I still can't help but wonder if the job is really the reason for all of this.I want to know the truth behind his grumpiness, why he seems so distant. I just feel that there's something mysterious about his mood swings recently. I don't want to make him upset by asking questions out loud. That's why it might be better if I just quietly find out everything by myself.I hurriedly grabbed my things and then I followed Lucas just as he had just entered his car. "Honey, wait!" I caught my breath when I stopped. I was about to speak again when he got ahead of me. "By the way, Dianna..." "I can't drive you through your work because I have something important to go to." My shoulder fell down as I sighed for the second time in a few minutes. "H-Huh? You can pass me by like you used to do or even do that first, after all I'm not in a hurry." He picked up his key and momentarily removed his arms that were resting on the steering wheel of the car. "Dianna, you have your own car. You're just putting me into hassle. It's not bad to drive yourself sometimes," he said when he opened her mouth as if to protest again. My gaze dropped, my feet pulled back from his car. I pretended not to be hurt. "Ah, you're right! That's actually a good idea. It's been a long time since I went with you because you prefer to pick me up." "Alright, be careful. Chat me later
The sun dances on the curtain on our kitchen's window, and its golden rays shine in the room as if it were an open day. The scent of fresh flowers fills the entire house, the air is fragrant with their sweet fragrance, the birds chirp happily outside of our windows. I put the apron on my body as I move around the kitchen. I'm humming while I prepare breakfast. It's something that I do for him most of the time. I took a moment to look at the clock hanging above the refrigerator, and I smiled because it was still early, I was sure that it would be Lucas sooner or later. I admit that Lucas often stays up late or overtime in his work, I hardly ever see him take his eyes off his laptop. We often don't even talk because he falls asleep right away, that's why I wake up even earlier so I can prepare breakfast for him. I can't help but be singing while cooking, I'm sure he'll be happy again when the fragrant smell of what I'm cooking for him comes out later. I get a mug to prepare a cup of
"Dianna, I'm pregnant!" I was clutching my chest when my office door slammed, as Chelsea handed me a pregnancy test with a positive result. My eyes widened. "Oh my gosh! It's definitely good news, Chelsea. I'm happy for you and Dave." "Congratulations!" I added and returned the pregnancy test to her. She was happy to sit in the chair in front of my table. "Does Dave already know?" "Actually, not yet. I just found out, and I'm still thinking of a way to make it unique when I tell him." "You're the type who will really cry when he finds out!" "Dianna, I'm really happy. I mean, it's a different feeling when you find out you're going to be a Mommy soon." I saw the glow on her face and smiled. She was so happy, it's too obvious. Well, who wouldn't? "I'm sure that no matter how you tell your husband that, his smile will reach heaven." Her gaze became even wider, her eyes seemed to contain stars. "Oh, I'm sure of that too! How many times have we been rocked, and finally now it was wo
He gently strokes my back as I lay down in bed, holding me close. His lips move down to the crook of my neck as his hand moves up and down my bare thigh. "Oh, Lucas..." "I want to make you happy, Dianna. I want to give you a child." His soft lips continued to caress my neck, down to my chest. "You're so beautiful, honey." My body arched, when I started to feel 'him' in my womanhood. "It makes me want you even more." My fingers dig into his shoulders as his mouth presses against mine passionately. My heart races in a rush and I feel like crying out with happiness as he pushes me onto my back with a kiss so powerful. "Ohhh, L-Lucas..." I closed my eyes, I bit my lip when I felt his length. My body trembled, as he continued his movement, his lips could not be removed from my chest. We exchanged hot kisses and deep moans until I felt the heat that came from him take over my being. "Mmm..." I slowly opened my eyes because of the strong sunlight coming from the window in our room. I
"I-I'm sorry, Dianna." He stopped and faced me. My forehead furrowed as he stepped closer to me. "Sorry?" "Dianna, please don't make it a big deal." I felt the weight of my feelings. "Don't make it a big deal? Lucas, it is a big deal! I can't believe you, for the first time you didn't remember my birthday." I wiped the tears from my cheeks. "Excuse me, will I be too dramatic if I say that I am in pain today because my husband just forgot that one of the days that is important to me?" He put down the bag and then came closer to me, then he held and gently caressed my hands. "I'm sorry alright? I just lost my mind because of the amount of work I do at work." My lips trembled, even if I wanted to accept his reason right away, I couldn't because he had already hurt me. "Is it really just your job, huh, Lucas?" I noticed that he was stunned, but now he touched both of my cheeks. "O-Of course, Dianna. I just forgot now, didn't I? And I regret that I forgot your birthday. I really do.
"May I know your name?" I already turned my back at him when I heard him ask that, causing me to face him again. "By the way, I'm Dylan. I am a new investor here at Rodriguez company," he extended his right hand while introducing himself to me. "Oh, so you are one of my husband's new co-worker then. I am her wife, Dianna," I also introduced myself with a soft smile, shaking his hand lightly. "Wow! I am a bit disappointed. I thought you were my soulmate already." My lips parted for a moment, but later I just laughed at what he said. "Just kidding! It's really good to meet the beautiful wife of our Mr. Rodriguez." He flashed me another charming smile which made me blush slightly. "Thank you, I must admit, you are quite handsome yourself." He let go off my hand and chuckled. "Well, I have to thank you for the compliment. I mean, I have always heard that you're quite the beauty. You know, I also know your father. He's an amazing CEO of one of your companies somewhere in New York, ri
As the sun started to go down, I picked all my things as I was preparing to go home. Lucas promised me just this morning that he'll go home earlier from work, so that we can have our celebration of our anniversary later night. And I want to make more efforts for this, because I noticed how he also does his best every year to make this day memorable, sweet and full of love.As I opened the door of my office I was shocked to see Chelsea there with some of my staff. "Opps! You are not going home yet, Dianna. Remember, we are going to celebrate my pregnancy!" Chelsea said in excitement. I scratched my senses, I almost forgot. "Let's celebrate at the bar, tonight!" she added enthusiastically, the others agreeing. "At the bar? Why there, Chelsea. Don't tell me—" "No worries, because we'll just dance there, drink juice, no wine. Kill joy is forbidden, we shouldn't miss it." "Guys, Chelsea, I have something to tell you," I tentatively began. "Tonight is actually our anniversary. Hmm...
I called him several times, but if I couldn't contact him, he turning off his cell phone. The food had lost its heat, the candles had been consumed by the fire, but I didn't even see his shadow until I fell asleep. I just woke up to a noise I heard from the garage. I stood up in a hurry, and then I ran the distance so I could look through the window and that's when I saw him getting out of the car. The front door opened, and my pulse quickened as I stood there, waiting. He entered, tired and the expression on his face seemed indescribable. He glanced at me, and then gave me a tired smile. "W-Why are you are late again, Lucas?" My feelings were filled with dread. I'm afraid that what came out of his mouth is the reason that he forgot again, especially since this morning he promised to come home early. "Happy Anniversary, honey..." he greeted. He approached me, hugged me for a moment and then put down the things he was carrying. I felt a lump in my throat, but there was something