LOGINShare
Chapter 21
Last Updated:
2022-01-02 18:32:53'Huli ka'; With those words, Kirito dug deeper into his past. He remembered how hard he fought to prevent this marriage but he couldn't win. That broke his spirit to go against them.
"I don't want to marry," He told his mother.
"You don't have a choice. That's the main reason why you exist."
"Oh yeah- Then kill me!! But I won't marry her!"
It was like he lost his identity and became a complete different individual.
'I have died but somehow I still exist, visiting my own grave-- I feel sick!
Why did I have everything taken away from me? They took everything and left me with money-- but money won’t find my lost self.
I can't speak it. And I was aware, I must not. But, I don't know what happened in that moment, I felt so free and it just slipped. What have I done? It's reversing back--this woman is destroying everything I've worked so hard to build.'
Vivian pressed a band-aid on the cut over his cheek. He moved away.
Related chapters
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 22
Kirito slowly opened his eyes as sunlight fell gently on his eyelids. He looked at Vivian, sleeping beneath him, leaning on the glass door. He got up and rubbed his eyes. He felt the band-aid on his cheeks. He looked at her as the sunlight struck the window pane and lit up her hair."So, you won't hate me, huh." He sat in front of her "Anyways," He pressed his arms on the glass window "Thank you for listening to me when no one else did."'I feel strangely light today. Like, everything is cleaned up after a rainstorm' He thought as he looked up at the sky."Must be the weather" He said to himself. He heard his phone buzz and picked it up. He found Erika's texts.'Let's meet up today. My treat. I'll listen to everything you've got to say'He stared at the screen and then kept his phone aside. He got inside the shower "I didn't sleep that well in a while" He got out of the shower while rubbing the towel over his head. He picked up hi
Last Updated : 2022-01-02My Heart Hates Me Chapter 23
'Two lines which cross once, never meet again. Ethan and Vivian, they are nothing alike'Jericho wrote on a piece of paper while sitting on a bench in a park covered with snow, in the middle of the night.'Ethan is more of the pessimist type-- Someone who'd hit himself before life hits him. It's actually funny though, I received the order to get the job done twenty years ago, and now I'm doing it for the same role, just different people.Vivian on the other hand, she's bubbly-- I like her. We'd jam well. Too bad she's married already. Well even if she wasn't, I'm not the romantic kind of guy so anyways I wouldn't stay. I don't know what you're planning, Fate, but you're really twisted. Nevertheless, it's fun to watch over them. At least I'm not bored.And things will only get interesting from now on, the time is here. I can sit back and relax for a while' He wrote. He had an old calligraphy, cursive handwriting."Hey!" A guy stood before Jericho. T
Last Updated : 2022-01-02My Heart Hates Me Chapter 24
Kirito sneezed and blew his nose with a tissue paper. "Seriously, why would you go out in the rain after having a hot shower? You're so stupid!" Vivian pressed a wet towel on his forehead. He ignored her and dialed a number on his phone "Dad,""Sick again?""Yeah""You know, I think you're acting sick because you want to spend more time with your wife~""What the fuck are you saying?" He pressed his temples."So, when can I expect my grandchildren?""Never. Listen dad,""Yeah, I'll take over""Thanks""But the grandchildren--""Bye dad." Kirito hung up. Vivian made some chicken soup and brought it to the bed."Eat up""Idiot, I'm sick""I don't think the throat chokes when you're sick""No... F-..." Kirito looked at her. "F-...Fee- Fuck you, give it here!" He grabbed the bowl."Careful- It's hot!" The bowl slipped from his hand, she held the bowl."Leave it-- You'll burn y
Last Updated : 2022-01-02My Heart Hates Me Chapter 25
Kurosava walked in the halls of the building's parking lot, while looking at his phone."Kirito's wedding album," He looked at the pictures."Could this get any more interesting?" He stopped and looked into his phone--a picture of Kirito and Vivian together cutting the wedding cake.He drove out as Jericho sat on the railings of the building and looked at the car with the book in his hand."Should I let this happen?" He then touched his choker "Sorry guys, I'm bound by the law"Vivian was sitting at the dining table, chopping a few onions for the dinner. Suddenly, she heard Kirito's voice."What are you doing?" He asked as he stood behind her."You're back from the office? I was just preparing the dinner." She wiped her tears. "I'll go wash my face" She kept the knife aside and went to the bathroom. Kirito looked at the chopped onions."Onions, I swear one day I'll make you cry" Vivian returned back and picked up the bowl of ch
Last Updated : 2022-01-02My Heart Hates Me Chapter 26
"Alright, Kirito didn't invite me home so I'll invite myself!" Kurosava said while standing in the lift. "I hope I don't disturb them in the middle of something"Vivian sat on a chair near the dining table and wrote something on a piece of paper. She opened the fridge and suddenly, she heard the doorbell."Kirito's back" Vivian shouted as she ran towards the door. She opened it and all her excitement vanished away. "Yes?" She asked nervously. It was Kurosava, he looked at her in shock."Vivian!" He held both her hands together."Do I know you?" Vivian asked."No! But you will. You're prettier from up close," He brought his face close to hers. She grew uncomfortable and moved away."I'm sorry. Bye." She closed the door but Kurosava held the door and made his way inside the apartment."Excuse me?!" Vivian stepped back."I came to meet Kirito. Is he home?" He asked."Oh! You're Kirito's friend?""Friends? I'm his unc
Last Updated : 2022-01-02My Heart Hates Me Chapter 27
Kirito ran down the stairs as he called the ambulance and reached the car. Vivian's eyes were shut and she lay on the pieces of glass, peacefully. Her mouth was bleeding."Vivian!" Kirito shouted as she picked her up and pressed her head on his lap. He removed the pieces of glass from her hair and pressed his hands on her face."Vivian, talk to me! Here! See, I'm here. I'll never leave you alone. You shouldn't either, right?! I dumped Erika, I won't cheat anymore, I won't even drink or make you work! I'll give you everything-""You can't have everything-- Where will you keep it?"Slowly it started raining and the blood on her body began to wash; drain away with the rainwater. Lucus stood beside Kirito, staring at his watch. It seemed he was inaudible and inconceivable by the living."Alright, let's go now--""You can't leave yet. Not you too, Vivian" Kirito said. Lucus stared at Kirito "I don't want everything. I want you, Vivian."
Last Updated : 2022-01-02My Heart Hates Me Chapter 28
Kirito sat beside Vivian's body, holding her hand into his. He looked at her face as he squeezed her rough fingers. Vivian's soul and Lucus sat in front of him, staring at him. Kirito's face was expressionless."Kirito, let's go home now. It's almost morning." Mrs. Hiomi said."Vivian is normal now. She'll wake up in a day or so" Mrs. Garnette said.Kirito just looked at Vivian."Brother?" Aoi looked at Kirito. He slowly got up and walked out of the room. Vivian ran after him barefoot as Lucus just stared at her. Suddenly, the book had a clock drawn on it and it began shining with the ringing sound of huge church bells. He looked into it and disappeared into black clouds.The next moment, he was in the middle of a terrace, somewhere in Beijing, where a teen girl was ready to jump down. He sat beside her and the girl took a deep breath. He imitated her and finally she jumped."Some people beg me for life while some are wasting it like it's no
Last Updated : 2022-01-02My Heart Hates Me Chapter 29
It had been three days since Vivian's operation. Kirito had a meeting with the doctor."Vivian has depressed brainstem reflexes" The doctor said as he looked at her report."What's that?""The brain turning responses off--Such as pupils not responding to light, no responses of limbs, except for reflex movements, no response to painful stimuli and irregular breathing. The person is still alive, but the brain is functioning at its lowest stage of alertness.""You mean a coma?""Yes. So, we'll set up a life support""A life support?""It's any combination of machines and medication that keeps a person's body alive when their organs would otherwise stop working. However, people who are using a life-support device don't always recover. They may not regain the ability to breathe and function on their own.""Till when do you think it will last?""That is unpredictable. It can last for few weeks, months or even years,"
Last Updated : 2022-01-02
Latest chapter
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 65
"I'm sorry I couldn't save us all" Vivian said with a sad smile as she looked at Ethan. "But I can," Maya said as she walked towards them. Lucus and Fate looked at her. Her hair grew longer and turned golden from brunette. Her eyes turned blue, just like death. Ethan looked at her with surprise. "It's you" He said as he looked at her. "Who is it?" Vivian asked "...The girl that saved me from drowning that day" Ethan said. She pressed her hand on his face "Do you know why you couldn't die after all those efforts?" She asked as she looked into his eyes and his eyes turned light blue too. "I saved you, everytime" She said "I shall do that today too" Her yellow wings opened from her back and her white key appeared on her neck "Who are you?" Vivian asked. "Just like you are Death's blood, Ethan is my blood" She said with a smile as a white book appeared in her hand. "The Bulosum... I knew it" Fate said. "Life..." Lucus said. She tou
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 64
As Kurosawa got up, Lucus raised his hand while holding his Antabulam in it. "The reaper's pride- Come forth my scythe!" He said but nothing happened. Fate looked at him with surprise. He looked at his Antabulam."Why isn't it working?" Lucus said and Kurosava started laughing like a madman."Ahahaha!!" He laughed for a minute continuously as everyone stared at him "That's right... I couldn't die. And how could I? Everything I wanted could not be mine and above that-- I even lost what I had! And you know who is responsible for that-- You! Ethan Evaganza! I was always more talented but I was never given what I deserved!People were always unfair with me! Such people who cannot respect art and talent deserve no place in this beautifully rotten world! They must be killed for better people to take their place! You were no better but my own sister betrayed me over you!She broke her promise of giving me the company and threw me and Maria inside that old mansio
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 63
"Maria" Kurosawa said as he held his sick wife's hand. Her skin was moist and sticky. "You shouldn't come here often. What if you catch this disease too? You know it's infectious" She said."Nothing will happen to me. I will take you abroad and we will cure you" Kurosawa said as he looked into her eyes."That sounds like it'll take a lot of money. Leave me just like this. You don't have to do anything at all" She said."My sister is rich. And once I inherit the company, it'll be alright. I'll have the money for your treatment" Kurosawa said as he squeezed her hand.She moved it away "Don't touch me, you might get infected" She said. He hugged her "I don't care" He whispered in her ear..."What?" Kurosawa said as he stood in front of Mrs Hiomi, inside her room as the maids dressed Kirito's hair and fixed his clothes."I've decided. Kirito will inherit my company and Aoi will inherit their father's company" Mrs Hiomi said.
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 62
"Who is it now?" Vivian said and looked at the clock. It was about to be eight in the evening. Fate looked at the door.Vivian touched the doorknob "Don't open it" Fate said. Vivian turned towards her. She took her Grecabulum and Vivian's Antabulam in her arms. "Fate--" She stood with her back pressed on the front wall. Vivian looked ahead at the doorknob. The doorbell rang again. "What is it?""I don't know. But, I'm scared" Fate said "I don't wanna know what's behind that door" Fate said. He pushed the doorbell for the third time. Vivian grew sweaty as she moved away from the door. Fate pressed her pen between her teeth.Finally, he began hitting the door "I know you're in there, Vivian" He said with a smile. Vivian recognised his voice "Why are you here?" She asked as she moved further behind."I'm here with a gift, Vivian. Open the door""I don't want it. Go away""Don't say that, Vivian. I'm here to apolog
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 61
Maya mixed something in the beer bottles and kept them inside the fridge. She left for work after that.After some time, Ethan got up and looked around "Oh... I slept..." He looked at the time. It was evening. He moved towards the fridge and opened it "Beer? I thought she threw it. Well..." He took a can and drank some of it.He immediately threw up "Gross!" He said. He threw it in the dustbin and tried another can. Then another, then another. He finally gave up and slept back....Vivian kept the piece of paper inside an envelope and pressed the stamp on it. Sejok pressed the horn "Hurry up, Vivian!" He said.She took a deep breath and kissed the envelope. She posted it on her way to the party. They got down on the red carpet. Every celebrity was there. The paparazzis surrounded her and camera flashes followed up. Other celebrities began whispering among themselves.Maya looked over from the crowd and saw Vivian surrounded b
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 60
Ethan was forced to shave for his makeup to go smoothly. Maya touched his wet face right after he shaved. "Hmm... Good skin, prez!" She said."Now, close your eyes" He looked reluctant but she was stubborn and irritating so he just did what she told him.She sprayed a hydrating spray on his face and hence commenced the make up! "I'm shocked you didn't say something like "Guys don't put makeup"" She said in a grumpy voice while applying the base of the makeup."I've seen male models too," He said."...Male models wearing lingerie--""I've been invited to certain business firms and fashion shows so no. Thankfully I haven't seen that yet and I hope I never do" Ethan said."Okay done! Next- Highlighter!" She said as she searched her purse. She applied the blush on his cheeks and then applied the highlighter. She did the contour and an eyeshadow."Now~ I'll just put on a lip balm. Sunny Peach is like my favourite shade" She said as she app
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 59
Vivian and Fate stood face to face. Vivian couldn't understand what fate was trying to tell her and Fate understood that."There are three divine angels- Life, Fate and Death. Rest all are made by them. All other angels were mortals before except the three divine angels. They are angels by birth.We are strictly prohibited from interacting with mortals. We can talk to their souls, but not in their consciousness. About a few hundred years ago, Death broke that rule. He killed a human girl before her time because he fell for her. He learned then that he could keep the soul away from the stairs if he tore away the page of the Antabulam. So, he did that. She would go around with him everywhere. Just like you followed him everywhere after you died, she was just like that.She didn't like the name "Death", so she named him "Jericho". They both loved each other dearly and soon she got pregnant. The child wasn't an angel, it was a mortal girl who had Death's blood in he
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 58
Maya picked Ethan up on her back and walked towards his apartment. "You aren't heavy at all for a man, prez! Tell me your secret diet!" She stood in front of the apartment's door. "Is this it? 6556?" She asked as she looked at the door. He nodded. "What's the password?""The same number," He said. He seemed completely wasted."Dumb" She opened the door and walked inside "Wow!" She said as she looked at the mess "My house is the same after any breakup or after some makeup disaster!" She moved towards the bedroom and lay him on the bed.She removed his wet shirt and threw it aside. He slept instantly. "It's so hot and suffocating here!" She opened the balcony door. "Much better" She removed her wet one piece and wore one of Ethan's shirts from his wardrobe. She looked at the lower section of the cupboard and found a woman's clothes."Prez! You're living with a girl!?" She exclaimed "And still your house is so dirty! You both must be lazy or she must be a di
My Heart Hates Me Chapter 57
Fate walked towards Lucus with her Grecabulum in her hands as he stood on a road in Romania, looking at a dying cat "She has forgotten that she is an angel" Lucus looked at Vivian's Antabulam."In that matter, she's just like you," Fate said. Lucus looked at her as she sat beside him."I thought of them today, it pissed me off," Fate said "We are mere spectators. You shouldn't interfere anymore, Death""Can't we prevent this?" He asked."That's for her to decide. Shall mortals decide which blue gate they'll take? Either that blue will calm them like the ocean or drown them like their fate""Ocean... No matter harmless or calm it seems, it can kill somebody" Lucus said "It hurts like hell to see her hurt""Well, she is like a rolling stone mediating between her two lives. But, a rolling stone gathers no moss,""Yes. But it certainly gains a certain polish,""I don't know what to say..." She looked at the cat."Everything
