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2022-09-13 23:14:48Hi lovelies,
I decided to take the rest of this month off from updating Kai and Benny’s story. This decision wasn’t easy. I had to take into consideration the time, effort, and love you’ve already invested in these characters even if we are only at the beginning of their story. I know it’s cruel to leave you hanging like this, but I am going through health issues that I can’t go into details about right now. If things go as planned, updates will continue in October. And please don’t worry, I will be okay. It’s nothing incurable or anything, but I don’t want to burden you guys with my personal problems. I’m really sorry and thank you for understanding. xx 9.13.22
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~Benny~ ‘I’m fine.’ ‘I’m okay.’ Justine asked me how I was six times through the drive back home; those were my redundant answers. ‘Home,’ I thought as Kai held the door open for me. It’s ironic how I consider this house my home. Where is home, anyway? It’s not the house nor the place where we live. It was my mother. Now that she’s out of my life, I am homeless. “Benny,” Kai gripped my arm. His hold was tight, but loose enough to give me a choice to pull away. I pulled away and took a deep breath, facing Kai. “Yeah?” I asked, putting on the smile I had perfected since the horror house. Dark gray eyes regarded me with an intensity that could melt glaciers. He didn’t speak. He just stared at me, scrutinizing me like I was an artifact in an auction. His gaze made me uncomfortable. I tucked my hair behind my ears, biting my lip. “I better go to bed-“ I gasped. He drew me in his arms, cocooning me with warmth. The stuffed monkey I got from the booth fell beside my feet. “Kai…” I b
Last Updated : 2022-11-01My Gangster Babysitter 27|Silhouette
~Benny~ The sand slipped between the gaps in my toes. Without proper running shoes, I was forced to run barefoot on the beach side. The moon cast pale gray light on the coast. Heaving a huge breath, I paused, bending forward with my hands on my knees. My toes touch the wet sand where the waves lap the beach. I couldn’t sleep. Memories of Kai and I kept me tossing and turning in my bed for days. It was past midnight. Apart from the crashing waters and the soft wisp of ocean breeze sweeping my hair, it was an eerie silence. Sighing, I extended to my full height. I need to get my focus together. I don’t even know if I remembered a memory or a fantasy. Kai is hot, sexy, and a real fantasy for women. Any woman with eyes would find him attractive. But everything was too vivid to be a product of my mind. Then I remember our conversation in his bedroom. The difference between his story and what I remember confuses the hell out of me. ‘Did Kai lie to me?’ Shaking my head, my thoughts dri
Last Updated : 2022-11-07My Gangster Babysitter 28|Breathless
~Benny~Inside the bathroom, I stared at my reflection. Dark circles framed my eyes, the result of my sleepless nights. My hands, gripping the edge of the counter, kept trembling. My skin was as pale as paper. I nibbled my lip, hoping to draw some colors back to it.There was no use in hiding my fear from Kai. I asked him to wait in my room while I freshened up. I don’t want to be alone.‘Will he stay with me for the night? What about tomorrow? Can I ask that from him?’I pulled the white robe closer to my body, tightened the belt, and stepped out of the bathroom. The bedside lamp cast pale warm light inside the room. Kai stood by the French door, peeking at the gaps in the thick light green drapes.He offered a gentle smile. “Hey.”“Hi.” I sat on the edge of the bed, rubbing my arms. It was room temperature, but my toes were as cold as ice. I rubbed my feet together, providing much-needed warmth. “Thank you for waiting.”He nodded, closing the curtains. “Don’t worry about it. Listen,
Last Updated : 2022-11-10My Gangster Babysitter 29|Brave Little Princess
~Benny~Sinful promises, primal need, and everything in between swirled in Kai’s gray eyes. My body hummed with need as I tugged his shirt over his head, tossing the fabric away. I bit my lip, my dainty hands mapping each ridge and hill of sinewy muscles.Kai watched me with hooded eyes, questioning.“Please,” I beseech, imploring him to give me what I want. I want to feel anything but these nagging fears in the pit of my belly. And at this moment, my body’s buzzing need was the only thing I could focus on. “Please… Kai.”This isn’t like the patio. I have no alcohol in my system. This is me offering myself to this man.Kai gently pressed our mouths together. He swiped his tongue across my lips, asking for entry, and I gave in. His searching tongue found mine, teasing me with delicate and playful strokes. The buzz in my belly amplified as his hand wandered, undoing the belt holding my robe together.He considered me in the light, pushing himself up. He guided the robe down my shoulder.
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~Kai~ Benny snuggled closer to me. Her naked body, warm and smooth, kept my own awake. I badly want to jerk off or at least get under a cold shower. But Benny had one arm draped over my chest, legs tangled with mine, and kept me in place. Her cheeks lay on my bare chest, and her breath tickled the hair on my chest. Don’t even get me started with how good she smelled. She smelled of sex, something sweet, and everything unholy. I waited for her to fall deeper into her slumber before gently untangling our limbs. ‘What the fuck am I doing?’ Sitting at the edge of the bed, I stared at her naked form and lifted the covers to her chest. ‘I don’t fucking know.’ Benny is a demilitarized zone, and I set my head willingly for the guillotine by touching her. Klaus was the executioner. I closed my eyes and rubbed a hand over my face. I could see Klaus’ burning gaze once he found out I touched Benny. He’s like a brother to me, but Benny is practically the princess of the Martinelli clan. A lo
Last Updated : 2022-12-10My Gangster Babysitter 31|It’s All Fun
~Benny~ Surprise crossed Kai’s face. His gray eyes, dark and dilated, narrowed to slits as he peered down at me. “Are you messing with me, Princess?” he growled. His voice was raw with arousal, and his cock jerked in my hands. I glanced down at it, fascinated by its beauty. My fingers could hardly wrap around its girth. All eight inches of meaty and veiny length. I know my body would stretch once we do the deed, but would it hurt? I shivered at the thought. My insides throbbed from the memories of his fingers moving in and out of me. It was so good. He was so good to me, and I wanted to do the same. “I don’t know what you mean. You have to tell me what you want.” I looked up at him innocently, smirked, and moved to take him into my mouth again. Kai groaned, fisted my hair, and kept me from doing so. “Ah!” His eyes were so dark they were almost black. “Don’t play games with me. You know what I want.” My eyes watered. If only he knew I was only doing a scene I read in a romance n
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~Kai~ The words were on the tip of my tongue. This thing between Benny and me was anything but ‘all fun’ for me. My words obviously affected her. I better choose my words wisely around her from now on. She could lie, but her eyes showed a mixture of surprise and pain. But before I could set the record straight, my phone vibrated on the counter. Like a child caught with one hand inside the cookie jar, my heart leaped in my throat. If Klaus had called yesterday, I would pick up the phone in a heartbeat. Benny glanced at me with furrowed brows when I let the call move to voicemail. Klaus would want me to call him ASAP. I know the drill. “Is that okay with him?” Benny asked. “What?” I tossed the potatoes in the bowl, making sure I seasoned them well. Benny removed her mittens, leaned on the counter, and sipped her coffee. “You ignored his call and let it go to voicemail,” she said over her cup. Satisfied that all the potato wedges were evenly seasoned, I set aside the bowl. I n
Last Updated : 2023-01-07My Gangster Babysitter 33|Unnerving and Refreshing
~Benny~Through the glass panel in the kitchen, I watched Kai speak with Klaus over the phone. He had his back on me. His shoulders were relaxed, but from how he was heaving deep breaths now and then, something was going down.I hope Klaus doesn’t order Kai to take me where he is. I’ve considered Kai’s words while I put the potato wedges in the oven. Giving him a chance had been the best plot twist of my story, yet I’m hesitant to do the same with Klaus and Markus Martinelli. They’re blood, and they kept me safe from Dominguez. I finished my coffee and washed the cup in the sink, blowing a sharp breath.‘Easier said than done.’ It took a life-and-death situation for me to let Kai in.I was setting the table for breakfast when Kai walked in. The salty breeze accompanied him as he opened the back door.My heart lodged in my throat, and I looked at him to assess what the call was about.He smiled. “What’s with the face?”I should have been relieved that he was joking, but he was a man w
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My Gangster Babysitter 95|I Kinda Love This One
~Benny~ In the pregnant silence that followed, Klaus’ grin morphed into a frown of confusion and rage, then a mask of indifference. His emotions were suddenly sucked into the black hole of his passive expression as he pushed from the chair, eyes trained on Kai and me. Rylee’s hand covered Klaus’, gripping the knife he used in cutting his fillet. I sucked in a breath. His hands were terribly shaking. Worry raged in my mind. Kai, on the other hand, was as calm as the August wind. His thumb was even drawing circles on my knuckles beneath the table. Like an emotional iceberg, Klaus turned, exiting the dining room towards the lawn. A few moments later, a motorcycle heading for the estate’s entrance rumbled until the sound faded. “I think that’s our cue to leave,” Ghost murmured. “Thank you for inviting us over.” And the rest of Klaus’ men followed him out. Markus, Rylee, Kai, and I remain sitting at the dining table for twelve, with empty plates and glasses. This dinner started so wel
My Gangster Babysitter 94|Is That All?
~Benny~Hiding my excitement that Kai and I were finally engaged was like wearing a mask of indifference all day. Rylee caught me too many times grinning like a demented fool to myself, and all those times, I lied about why I was on cloud nine. She knew it had something to do with my weekend escapade in LA, and she’s trying to find out why.But Kai said, for his safety, I had to keep my mouth shut about our engagement. It’s because of Markus and Klaus’ stupid bet. I’ve been on a mission to get Rylee to spill hints about what was at stake.“So…” I bumped Rylee’s hip with mine. “Do you know what Klaus has been up to these days?”Rylee pinned me with a sideway questioning glance. We were in the kitchen, preparing dinner for the family and our guests. Klaus invited his team to celebrate successfully putting up MiRa Investigation and Security. He named his security company after Mikael and Ramona.“He’s always up to something.” Rylee turned back to the three fillets in the cutting board, s
My Gangster Babysitter 93|To Be Reminded
~Benny~I tripped once and almost fell on the bathroom floor while freshening up and changing into the red baby doll I bought specifically to seduce Kai. My heart drummed in my chest as I entered the bedroom; Kai sat on the edge of the bed.His gaze lifted to mine, a crease on his forehead, his eyes traveled down the length of me.I shifted in my bare feet, chewed my lip, and wondered if I’d get punished for not following his instruction. The danger lurking in those darkening gray eyes should bother me as he took in the thinness of my dress, but I felt the opposite. It stirred my libido to life. A zeal for the dark promise of his heavy-lidded gaze started to brew in my belly.I didn’t wear anything underneath this see-through dress. My nipples were pebbled hard, poking through the fabric, yearning for some relief that I knew Kai could give.“Come here,” he commanded in a low growl. My pulse quickened. This is what I want. This is what I’d been waiting for since the night I confessed
My Gangster Babysitter 92|You
~Kai~“Can we have sex now?” Benny grumbled with a pout.The beer I was sipping went down the wrong pipe and came out of my nose. That shit fucking stings. I coughed, slammed a fist on my chest, and stared wide-eyed at Benny. “Damn, baby. Warn a man, won’t you?”We had moved to the balcony. Benny’s bare feet rested across my lap as we languidly drank our preferred alcohol. Wine for her, and I was on my third bottle of beer.I planned to make love to her. My cock had been knocking on my pants since she arrived, but I didn’t want to come as a sex-starved man when I was anything but.We discussed our plans for the next few weeks and agreed to keep our engagement a secret for now. If my assumptions are correct, Klaus will throw a fit if he loses the bet. And I don’t want to be around when that happens. That man does not deal well with losing.Benny blushed, crossing her arms over her chest. “What? We haven’t had sex since Paris. That was two months ago. I thought you won’t be able to get
My Gangster Babysitter 91|Turn of Events
~Kai~New York dragged longer than I anticipated, effectively slashing the prospect of seeing Benny before I flew to LA off the tables. Klaus dipped into the business of private security. He had the team secure office and training facilities, permits, and background investigation on the staff, which will continue the process we’d started. It had to be strategically planned, from putting up private security to hiring our people and targeting our market. After the fiasco with Dominguez, Kino, and Davide, Klaus had been particularly meticulous in hiring employees. Cleansing Martinelli Holdings was a grueling process, like weeding the garden so the flowers could bloom, and bloom did the company did. And Klaus saw the need to have his own legal private security for all their businesses. As the current security manager of Martinelli Holdings, Klaus tasked me to establish security in their newly opened hotel. Even with Klaus’ people working with me, I was hands-on in every step that neede
My Gangster Babysitter 90|Take Control
~Kai~Kissing Benny had always been out of this world, always better than the last, and tonight it was sweeter, hotter, and steamier. Maybe because our feelings were finally out in the open.I struggle to pull away from her, remembering where we are. It was fifteen minutes before eleven. Although I wanted more time with her, keeping my word to Markus was at the top of my priorities.Still breathless from my kiss, Benny toyed with the ends of my hair. She was on her tiptoes, lips plump and red from my sucking and nibbling. My hands circling her waist dug into the exposed skin of her tank top, drawing her closer.“Are you sure you don’t want to take me back to your hotel?” she asked coyly, desire sparkling in her eyes.I groaned, grabbing a handful of her ass, rubbing her against me. “Stop, temptress. I promised to get you home by eleven. This is me keeping my word.”A sultry smile tugged at her lips. “Technically, you did.”She was playing me, and it’s fucking working. I missed her so
My Gangster Babysitter 89|Thank You
~Benny~I fought off the smile that was about to tear my face in half, watching Kai slow his motorcycle to a complete stop in the mansions’ roundabout. He was the image of a magazine model in his rugged jeans, vintage gray tee, leather jacket, and biker boots. His hair had been mused to perfection as though he ran his fingers through them a couple of times; either way, he looked good enough to eat.He grabbed the bouquet of roses sticking out from his backpack and jogged the stairs until he stood before me on the threshold.“Hi.” His blinding smile made my heart swoon. “Hey,” I greeted back breathlessly, taming my prancing heart and knocking my ribcage walls.He offered me the flowers, and their soft scent instantly hit my senses. He hesitated for a beat, biting his lower lip before dipping and planting a gentle kiss onto my mouth. “You look beautiful.”Heat bloomed on my cheeks, and I was glad an hour of fumbling over my closet paid off. He told me to dress casually; I ended up with
My Gangster Babysitter 88|Overthinking
~Benny~“He asked me out on a date!”Without even a hello, I dropped breathlessly into the couch of Tracy’s office.She smiled at me, her inquisitive brown eyes roaming over my face. From the floor-to-ceiling glass window where she stood, her heels tapped against the sandstone floor as she strutted towards the couch opposing mine.Tracy was in her late thirties, her doll-like face made her look younger than her age. “Did you say yes?” she asked encouragingly.I sank further into the couch, tipping my head back onto the backrest. “I haven’t given him an answer.”It had been a week since Markus’ birthday. Since then, Kai and I have been talking every night, shooting messages back and forth during the day. Our late-night conversation had been the most anticipated part of my day. I waited for his messages and calls like a love-sick puppy.“Is something holding you back?” A slight frown creased Tracy’s forehead. “You’ve been waiting for him to ask you out.”Sitting up straight, I mulled ov
My Gangster Babysitter 87|Is This Okay?
~Kai~My brain went to a gruesome war against my body. Every cell in my body wanted to deepen this kiss, plunder her sweet mouth just like I pictured every day since she left. My brain understood my need, barely muting a protest that we were in a public place, a gathering for her father’s birthday, no less.Reluctantly, I ended the kiss. Benny’s mouth chased mine as I pulled away. My cock jerked. She wanted that kiss as much as I did.I kept my hand around her waist, staring down at her, admiring the red stain on her cheek.Heartbeats passed, yet my mind needed convincing that she was really here. I cupped her jaw and skimmed her plump lips, opening my mouth to speak, but she beat me to it.“I love you.”My heart stills. “What?”Her emerald eyes widen as dinner plates, as surprised as I am. Mouth gaping and closing like a fish out of water, she pressed her eyes shut, gathering her bearings.I was still recovering from her confession when she said, “but we can’t be together.”My wide e
