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30|Beg For It
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2024-10-29 19:42:56
CastielHello, lovelies. This chapter was longer than what I usually write. I hope it makes up for my absence. [even just a little bit] A lot of things have been going on in my life lately, and it is affecting my creativity. I can't promise a daily update right now, but I will try and update on a weekly basis. Ily and thank you for staying with Kai and Benny. xx
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My Gangster Babysitter 31|It’s All Fun
~Benny~ Surprise crossed Kai’s face. His gray eyes, dark and dilated, narrowed to slits as he peered down at me. “Are you messing with me, Princess?” he growled. His voice was raw with arousal, and his cock jerked in my hands. I glanced down at it, fascinated by its beauty. My fingers could hardly wrap around its girth. All eight inches of meaty and veiny length. I know my body would stretch once we do the deed, but would it hurt? I shivered at the thought. My insides throbbed from the memories of his fingers moving in and out of me. It was so good. He was so good to me, and I wanted to do the same. “I don’t know what you mean. You have to tell me what you want.” I looked up at him innocently, smirked, and moved to take him into my mouth again. Kai groaned, fisted my hair, and kept me from doing so. “Ah!” His eyes were so dark they were almost black. “Don’t play games with me. You know what I want.” My eyes watered. If only he knew I was only doing a scene I read in a romance n
My Gangster Babysitter 32|Playing House
~Kai~ The words were on the tip of my tongue. This thing between Benny and me was anything but ‘all fun’ for me. My words obviously affected her. I better choose my words wisely around her from now on. She could lie, but her eyes showed a mixture of surprise and pain. But before I could set the record straight, my phone vibrated on the counter. Like a child caught with one hand inside the cookie jar, my heart leaped in my throat. If Klaus had called yesterday, I would pick up the phone in a heartbeat. Benny glanced at me with furrowed brows when I let the call move to voicemail. Klaus would want me to call him ASAP. I know the drill. “Is that okay with him?” Benny asked. “What?” I tossed the potatoes in the bowl, making sure I seasoned them well. Benny removed her mittens, leaned on the counter, and sipped her coffee. “You ignored his call and let it go to voicemail,” she said over her cup. Satisfied that all the potato wedges were evenly seasoned, I set aside the bowl. I n
My Gangster Babysitter 33|Unnerving and Refreshing
~Benny~Through the glass panel in the kitchen, I watched Kai speak with Klaus over the phone. He had his back on me. His shoulders were relaxed, but from how he was heaving deep breaths now and then, something was going down.I hope Klaus doesn’t order Kai to take me where he is. I’ve considered Kai’s words while I put the potato wedges in the oven. Giving him a chance had been the best plot twist of my story, yet I’m hesitant to do the same with Klaus and Markus Martinelli. They’re blood, and they kept me safe from Dominguez. I finished my coffee and washed the cup in the sink, blowing a sharp breath.‘Easier said than done.’ It took a life-and-death situation for me to let Kai in.I was setting the table for breakfast when Kai walked in. The salty breeze accompanied him as he opened the back door.My heart lodged in my throat, and I looked at him to assess what the call was about.He smiled. “What’s with the face?”I should have been relieved that he was joking, but he was a man w
My Gangster Babysitter 34|Something Special
~Benny~I have little clothes to choose from, so I settled for white denim shorts, a gray vintage shirt I bought from the wharf, and my ever reliable sneakers. Since Kai said it would be an afternoon stroll, I tied my hair in a high ponytail and put light makeup on.I stared at myself in the mirror. This look is not something I would wear on a first date.My forehead creased. ‘Is this a date?’‘Should I ask Kai if this is a date or if he’s just being nice to me?’Grabbing the plaid long-sleeve shirt from the bed, I walked out of the room. Whether this was a date or not, I didn’t want to be that girl who takes forever to get ready.‘We’re cool,’ I thought as I rounded the corner to the living room. But my breath snagged when I saw Kai leaning on the open door. He was scrolling through his phone and holding a bouquet of roses. My footsteps were light, which gave me time to study him. He was sporting a dark rose-printed shirt, the first three buttons undone, tucked into washed-off jean
My Gangster Babysitter 35|First Time
~Benny~I practically salivate watching Kai prepare a charcuterie board of cured meat, cheese, fruits, nuts, and small slices of bread with peanut butter and jelly on the side.“You’re good at this,” I said, hugging my knees closer to my chest because, at that moment, I believed my heart would leap out of my chest and do a happy dance around the picnic blanket.No one has ever done something like this for me before. He wanted to do something special for me, and he nailed it and more.He lifted his gaze towards me, a satisfied smirk on his lips. Honestly, I hadn’t stopped grinning either; my cheeks were already hurting.“I should thank my best buddy Google then,” he murmured, standing up.The picnic blanket was laid under a huge tree. There was a pile of firewood and a huge camping bag resting on the base of the trunk. Before the temperature plummeted, Kai already had a fire going and set lamps around the picnic blanket.Everything about this afternoon was so perfect I didn’t want it t
My Gangster Babysitter 36|No Going Back
~Kai~I meant what I said, but I packed a tent just in case things went my way. I didn’t want to seem too eager, but a guy could hope, right?Four solar lamps hang on the oak tree, casting pale yellow light on my task. I’ve assembled hundreds of tents in my lifetime, but this one is proving to be a testament to my abilities. My hands fumbled with the rods. I feared I might have ripped the material at some point, but I nonetheless secured the tent.Benny sat crossed legs on the picnic blanket, hugging a pillow. The fire still burned. The orange glow illuminates the storm of emotions in her eyes.Pausing at the edge of the blanket, I offered her a hand.She stared at it, bit her lip, and a moment of hesitation crossed her face. She held all the reins tonight. It would suck if she changed her mind and chose to go home. I’d nurse the worst kind of blue balls in the history of mankind, but I’d do as she asked. She blinked it away and placed her hands in mine.She had already cleared out th
My Gangster Babysitter 37|A Moment
~Benny~ He stared down at me, midnight eyes wide as a saucer. What I said put us both in a trance; I wanted to slap myself in the forehead. I released him. Kai gripped my wrist and lifted both above my head, one above the other. His fingers cuffed them in place. He clutched my throat, raising gooseflesh of fear all over my skin, but loose enough so I could breathe. It was a power move. He’s in control. He isn’t holding back. Fear, excitement, and lust swirled in the pit of my belly, kickstarting another torrent of need in my center. “What did you just call me?” Dark eyes pinned me with a primal need. This… this is the Kai I’ve been looking for all night. Keeping a straight face, I repeated. “Daddy.” It came out of nowhere. Well, that’s a total lie. I had been fantasizing about this since yesterday. It was everything I dreamed of and more. Kai chuckled darkly, fisting his cock. “Again, my good little girl,” he growled. Flames of desire lapped my entire body, feeling the bulbou
My Gangster Babysitter 38|Aftermath
~Benny~ Catching himself, Kai pulled out of me in a swift and efficient motion, rolling onto the side. I grimaced, my center gaping at his absence, already missing the feel of him. ‘You’re mine,’ he said. What did he mean by that? Is it his claim on me or a claim on my first time? Like a trophy, a prize? I heard of men collecting women’s virginity, listing them down like it was a game. As though deflowering women gave them bragging rights, a boost to their ego. The desire and electricity between us occupied my attention, and I hadn’t considered the aftermath. Discarding the condom, he sat up and stepped out of the tent in all his naked glory. We left the tent entry open, the slow fire crackled outside. His actions felt too distant, colder than the wind coming from the ocean. Where was the attentive and caring guy from before? Vulnerability enveloped me. I reached for my shirt and sat up, tugging it on. I raked my hair and took a few calming breaths. My heart hammered in m
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My Gangster Babysitter 95|I Kinda Love This One
~Benny~ In the pregnant silence that followed, Klaus’ grin morphed into a frown of confusion and rage, then a mask of indifference. His emotions were suddenly sucked into the black hole of his passive expression as he pushed from the chair, eyes trained on Kai and me. Rylee’s hand covered Klaus’, gripping the knife he used in cutting his fillet. I sucked in a breath. His hands were terribly shaking. Worry raged in my mind. Kai, on the other hand, was as calm as the August wind. His thumb was even drawing circles on my knuckles beneath the table. Like an emotional iceberg, Klaus turned, exiting the dining room towards the lawn. A few moments later, a motorcycle heading for the estate’s entrance rumbled until the sound faded. “I think that’s our cue to leave,” Ghost murmured. “Thank you for inviting us over.” And the rest of Klaus’ men followed him out. Markus, Rylee, Kai, and I remain sitting at the dining table for twelve, with empty plates and glasses. This dinner started so wel
My Gangster Babysitter 94|Is That All?
~Benny~Hiding my excitement that Kai and I were finally engaged was like wearing a mask of indifference all day. Rylee caught me too many times grinning like a demented fool to myself, and all those times, I lied about why I was on cloud nine. She knew it had something to do with my weekend escapade in LA, and she’s trying to find out why.But Kai said, for his safety, I had to keep my mouth shut about our engagement. It’s because of Markus and Klaus’ stupid bet. I’ve been on a mission to get Rylee to spill hints about what was at stake.“So…” I bumped Rylee’s hip with mine. “Do you know what Klaus has been up to these days?”Rylee pinned me with a sideway questioning glance. We were in the kitchen, preparing dinner for the family and our guests. Klaus invited his team to celebrate successfully putting up MiRa Investigation and Security. He named his security company after Mikael and Ramona.“He’s always up to something.” Rylee turned back to the three fillets in the cutting board, s
My Gangster Babysitter 93|To Be Reminded
~Benny~I tripped once and almost fell on the bathroom floor while freshening up and changing into the red baby doll I bought specifically to seduce Kai. My heart drummed in my chest as I entered the bedroom; Kai sat on the edge of the bed.His gaze lifted to mine, a crease on his forehead, his eyes traveled down the length of me.I shifted in my bare feet, chewed my lip, and wondered if I’d get punished for not following his instruction. The danger lurking in those darkening gray eyes should bother me as he took in the thinness of my dress, but I felt the opposite. It stirred my libido to life. A zeal for the dark promise of his heavy-lidded gaze started to brew in my belly.I didn’t wear anything underneath this see-through dress. My nipples were pebbled hard, poking through the fabric, yearning for some relief that I knew Kai could give.“Come here,” he commanded in a low growl. My pulse quickened. This is what I want. This is what I’d been waiting for since the night I confessed
My Gangster Babysitter 92|You
~Kai~“Can we have sex now?” Benny grumbled with a pout.The beer I was sipping went down the wrong pipe and came out of my nose. That shit fucking stings. I coughed, slammed a fist on my chest, and stared wide-eyed at Benny. “Damn, baby. Warn a man, won’t you?”We had moved to the balcony. Benny’s bare feet rested across my lap as we languidly drank our preferred alcohol. Wine for her, and I was on my third bottle of beer.I planned to make love to her. My cock had been knocking on my pants since she arrived, but I didn’t want to come as a sex-starved man when I was anything but.We discussed our plans for the next few weeks and agreed to keep our engagement a secret for now. If my assumptions are correct, Klaus will throw a fit if he loses the bet. And I don’t want to be around when that happens. That man does not deal well with losing.Benny blushed, crossing her arms over her chest. “What? We haven’t had sex since Paris. That was two months ago. I thought you won’t be able to get
My Gangster Babysitter 91|Turn of Events
~Kai~New York dragged longer than I anticipated, effectively slashing the prospect of seeing Benny before I flew to LA off the tables. Klaus dipped into the business of private security. He had the team secure office and training facilities, permits, and background investigation on the staff, which will continue the process we’d started. It had to be strategically planned, from putting up private security to hiring our people and targeting our market. After the fiasco with Dominguez, Kino, and Davide, Klaus had been particularly meticulous in hiring employees. Cleansing Martinelli Holdings was a grueling process, like weeding the garden so the flowers could bloom, and bloom did the company did. And Klaus saw the need to have his own legal private security for all their businesses. As the current security manager of Martinelli Holdings, Klaus tasked me to establish security in their newly opened hotel. Even with Klaus’ people working with me, I was hands-on in every step that neede
My Gangster Babysitter 90|Take Control
~Kai~Kissing Benny had always been out of this world, always better than the last, and tonight it was sweeter, hotter, and steamier. Maybe because our feelings were finally out in the open.I struggle to pull away from her, remembering where we are. It was fifteen minutes before eleven. Although I wanted more time with her, keeping my word to Markus was at the top of my priorities.Still breathless from my kiss, Benny toyed with the ends of my hair. She was on her tiptoes, lips plump and red from my sucking and nibbling. My hands circling her waist dug into the exposed skin of her tank top, drawing her closer.“Are you sure you don’t want to take me back to your hotel?” she asked coyly, desire sparkling in her eyes.I groaned, grabbing a handful of her ass, rubbing her against me. “Stop, temptress. I promised to get you home by eleven. This is me keeping my word.”A sultry smile tugged at her lips. “Technically, you did.”She was playing me, and it’s fucking working. I missed her so
My Gangster Babysitter 89|Thank You
~Benny~I fought off the smile that was about to tear my face in half, watching Kai slow his motorcycle to a complete stop in the mansions’ roundabout. He was the image of a magazine model in his rugged jeans, vintage gray tee, leather jacket, and biker boots. His hair had been mused to perfection as though he ran his fingers through them a couple of times; either way, he looked good enough to eat.He grabbed the bouquet of roses sticking out from his backpack and jogged the stairs until he stood before me on the threshold.“Hi.” His blinding smile made my heart swoon. “Hey,” I greeted back breathlessly, taming my prancing heart and knocking my ribcage walls.He offered me the flowers, and their soft scent instantly hit my senses. He hesitated for a beat, biting his lower lip before dipping and planting a gentle kiss onto my mouth. “You look beautiful.”Heat bloomed on my cheeks, and I was glad an hour of fumbling over my closet paid off. He told me to dress casually; I ended up with
My Gangster Babysitter 88|Overthinking
~Benny~“He asked me out on a date!”Without even a hello, I dropped breathlessly into the couch of Tracy’s office.She smiled at me, her inquisitive brown eyes roaming over my face. From the floor-to-ceiling glass window where she stood, her heels tapped against the sandstone floor as she strutted towards the couch opposing mine.Tracy was in her late thirties, her doll-like face made her look younger than her age. “Did you say yes?” she asked encouragingly.I sank further into the couch, tipping my head back onto the backrest. “I haven’t given him an answer.”It had been a week since Markus’ birthday. Since then, Kai and I have been talking every night, shooting messages back and forth during the day. Our late-night conversation had been the most anticipated part of my day. I waited for his messages and calls like a love-sick puppy.“Is something holding you back?” A slight frown creased Tracy’s forehead. “You’ve been waiting for him to ask you out.”Sitting up straight, I mulled ov
My Gangster Babysitter 87|Is This Okay?
~Kai~My brain went to a gruesome war against my body. Every cell in my body wanted to deepen this kiss, plunder her sweet mouth just like I pictured every day since she left. My brain understood my need, barely muting a protest that we were in a public place, a gathering for her father’s birthday, no less.Reluctantly, I ended the kiss. Benny’s mouth chased mine as I pulled away. My cock jerked. She wanted that kiss as much as I did.I kept my hand around her waist, staring down at her, admiring the red stain on her cheek.Heartbeats passed, yet my mind needed convincing that she was really here. I cupped her jaw and skimmed her plump lips, opening my mouth to speak, but she beat me to it.“I love you.”My heart stills. “What?”Her emerald eyes widen as dinner plates, as surprised as I am. Mouth gaping and closing like a fish out of water, she pressed her eyes shut, gathering her bearings.I was still recovering from her confession when she said, “but we can’t be together.”My wide e
