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Ninety four

Author: AY WRITES
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CHAPTER 94

JAMES

Happiness was such a distant word now, I no longer feel like I could portray any type of emotion any longer. Everything seems to be just uninteresting and dull to be. My whole life itself is so doll right now.

I loved Irene, I still do and watching her just easily getting out of my life was the worst moment that keeps replaying in my head even after so many years.

Normally people would say with time, scars fade but I tell you that is not true. Far from it honestly. Grief is a type of emotion that would never fade from your heart, the least it can do is to die down. You can feel okay now, ready to face the world and then the next minute your emotions are all over the place, rolling over something that had happened ten years ago.

The heart is cruel and selfish. It just doesn’t care about whatever it makes you feel, all it wants it’s to be given what it's carved or it keeps putting you through hell.

My heart so much craved for Irene. I tried as much as I could to contain
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