CHAPTER 54IRENE'S POVMy heart break was anticipated all this while, and like in a way it had been like a ticking bomb waiting to explode over my face. Still I could feel every bit of it as it traveled down the nerves of my skin downward through the part that felt pain.At first I had looked at the phone not knowing what to expect before I clicked, yet my gaze was heavy, angry even, and I wasn’t sure how I was going to control the outcome.I knew what to expect but that was only because the message that came with the pictures had stated, it was easy to guess.While one part of my heart was screaming at me to just delete, another was curious to see what it was all about.I glanced at the sky outside that still held the sun in a way that looked so beautiful, but I didn’t believe that this atmosphere, though tinted with a bit of anger, was about to be totally torn apart and ruined.In fact, it looked like I'd prefer not to open it at all-Fuck my curiosity though.I sighed. “Why am I
CHAPTER 55JAMES POVOne way or another I was dealing with something far more than what I was at the moment.I might try to show how courageous I was on the outside, it was just a mirage to what I felt deep down in my mind.In my mind I felt my soul was in shambles as I was trying so hard to wrap my finger around what just happened but couldn't no matter how hard I tried.The last It remembered was getting drunk and walking with Addie to her home.Perhaps, that was where the trouble had been. Maybe I shouldn't have gone in with her since I knew how manipulative she could be.I could remember everything within me reminding me of how much of a bad idea it was, but then I had ignored the feeling I was getting and went ahead without listening to my mind.A wave of awareness ran down my spine when Irene gaze settled on me from across the table. At that moment we were still barely trying to come back to the term we used to be and she was still proving difficult.She came as a warm and annoy
CHAPTER 56JAMES POVI was dealing with one of the dark sides of women—And that was their ability to come to decisions pretty fast.Wonder why the hell won't fury!It was barely twenty-five hours and she was right there at the edge of the stairs—trying to get one back.I shook my head at the fact yet my eyes stayed glued on her dress.Black, seductive, and with the perfect slit up in a thigh.There was no way I am letting her leave the house that way…no fucking way.I could almost see her soul glittering over it. Irene's dress was perfect for whatever she was planning to do.Was she planning on getting back with a stranger just to get at me?My eyes trailed her again this time starting from her heels, to her hair piled on the top of her head and no makeup but red lipstick that still found a way to make her hotter.This was that moment, one that came with heavy-desperate heartbeats, it was the past few seconds since I saw her, and I was still having a hard tr shutting my fucking mouth.
CHAPTER 57IRENEThe stairway was more of something made from flicker of my memory, there at the staircase looking down at the men, to every other thing —From a glass lamp on a side table that cast the area in dim light to the one that shone in their eyes, one in delight and the other shock.The room was bright enough to see the flicker of impatience behind James' eyes.I blinked and rolled my eyes, mostly from the look I was getting from James.If he had thought I would stay there and stand by while he acted out of proportion he was wrong.It wasn't a very hard decision to make, when I reached my room I had paced it's length thinking of what to make of the whole issue.The thought that he had cheated with me, with his lover was complicating my heart and mind and soon enough I had walked into the bathroom and soon enough I was out already dressed and ready to go.When he glanced over and met my gaze, I could see that he looked into his eyes as if he’d felt me observing him.He wa
CHAPTER 58IRENEAs it turned out, it looked like I was the best at making mistakes, as right there at that minute I looked to be edging toward making another one.While every synapse in my brain was screaming out at the fact that I was about doing something silly, I ignored the feelings I was getting as my mind was filled with another feeling I intended to get rid of.The bitterness in me was hard to control, every common sense in me was questioning my need to follow Nathaniel home due to the controversial past we had both shared but at that moment I could deal with anything but not the hate I have with James.Nate had cocked a brow in a cavalier way. “You sure?" He seemed to this notion or rather feeling that James could pop out of anywhere and here I was under theimpression that he had enough guts to take me home with him.I needed to be convinced as I already made up my mind, my heart fluttered so fast in a manner that couldn’t be considered healthy.Every second that passed it
CHAPTER 59IRENEA kiss would do many things to a man, but here I was kissing a man that isn't James and feeling so guilty about it to my disgust.To start with I had come all the way to get him to make love to me as an act of revenge but still, I couldn't see eye to eye with him as James looked to have taken most part me be body and soul.He had left me so addicted to him in a way I had no total control over and that was even the basic aspect of my problem.There were so many things that I wouldn't admit to, numbering to thousand, to all point out to the fact that I might be a bad liar.Kissing him was purely platonic…That was the more recent lie I was telling, and it seemed more like the truth to me than every lie I had ever got to tell.It was either that or James had kissed every nerve on my lips till the only thing I desired was his lips alone or as it turned out to be Nate might just as well be a bad kisser—Who knows.Still I wasn't going to let him have the last laugh.Maybe
CHAPTER 60JAMESUnderstanding a woman is like flipping through chapters of a great book, each with a twist to it.It was the same scenario at the moment, I was trying so hard to understand this woman and she was making it more complicated.One moment she is all sweet and trying to understand her is a bit easier and the next she is acting up again and I have to start all over from the start.I was still trying to process what had happened between Addie and myself when she was acting In a manner that is so irrational.While I blamed my anger for this, it didn't take away the fact that I was still confused about the whole situation.Like all women I had met one time or twice in my life, she was quite controversial.The Truth of this is a hard pill to swallow for me, and could we explain why I was having a hard time dealing with her.She had barely walked out and my heart was raging already as It didn't take long for me to realize that it was going to be a very long night, one that i
CHAPTER 61JAMES POVI could feel light streaming through the windows as I was standing right there with a cup in my hands as it looked as thoughthe dark sky was falling right there upon us.I hated my thoughts, because they merely thought about one thing at that moment, something that still shared the comfort of my home with me.Reaching toward the other side of the room with the glass in my hand my gaze found her outside at the park making a call.I felt something jack-knifed in my chest. The fact that she had been this way ever since that night: Making secret calls at weird places and weird hours from the kitchen and now to the parking lot came to my mind and instead of feeling me with relief, It felt to me something entirely different. I ran a hand down my face. Damn. I’d wanted a wife and this is what I got —A fucking catastrophe waiting to happen.After leaving the table here yesterday, I had made just one thing top of my list and that was to find who she was cheating in me wit
CHAPTER 135JAMES.I wouldn't have been this worried if I didn't get her text that looked to be in distress, it was hardly twenty minutes that she walked out when suddenly I got a notification on my phone beeping in an emergency.She had been complaining about having weird calls and texts and it was Marcus' idea that we set the safety app up, so we would be able to track ourselves.I was still on the phone talking to Marcus and telling him about the sudden appearance of my mother when the notification came in.As I made my way down the stairs, as fast as I could an awful squeak cut through theair and somehow settled under my skin.I made my way out and saw that she was nowhere around the garage.My phone beeped again with a live location this time, slowly I could see the red round indicator moving away and hitting the main road.At first I thought she might have been going with my mother to heaven knows where,but looking around I saw her purse laying in the ground. My heart skipped ma
CHAPTER 134JAMESIt was still hard for me to believe everything that was happening, well that doesn't matter. I was prepared to make sure she spent the rest of her years behind bars for how she acted out toward me.I couldn't believe that I had been dragged into all of this and was naive all along.It was only two months since I got out of my accident and things had been almost perfect between us.It looked as though we've come to a mutual understanding in fixing anything that was going on between us.We just had to fight it — We just had to fight the fact that we were two people not willing to give into admitting flaws.It was hard to ignore her. Whenever she was near, an invisible string pulled me toward her in a way that we couldn't resist. Gradually we were building back what looked to be broken. It was the only sane thing at that moment as it was impossible for us to just get ourselves back immediately.The feel of having do close left a vibrating feeling behind with the promis
CHAPTER 133JAMESThe first thing I noticed when I fluttered my eyes open was the fact that I was in an empty room which I did not seem to recognise. I winced at the harsh light coming through the window and instantly closed my eyes back up.For some reason I couldn’t turn my head an inch. Even the thought of doing that made me wince in pain. A frustrated grumble escaped my throat at the fact that I was clearly clueless and oblivious of my surroundings and there was nothing I could do to change that except to wait for aid which didn't seem to be coming.Judging by the stiffness of the bed I laid on and the feeling of Iv on my hand, I came to the conclusion that I was in a hospital bed. If that didn’t confirm it then the terrible headache I was having and the pain I felt all over my body definitely did.“For how many hours have I been laying down here” I wondered in silence. Giving up on all attempts to get myself up and waiting for anyone to walk into the room. Judging by the light co
CHAPTER 132IRENEThere was just one wish in my heart and at the tip of my tongue. That all these was a dream and I will wake up back in my apartment but I knew it wasn’t. This was real, this was my reality and I will have to face it no matter how cruel it might seem.I sighed for the umpteenth time watching as the nurses did their job. I had been sitting here for the past hours, waiting for some form of miracle to happen and James to wake up, I just refused to let the fact that he was going to die into my heart. I just refused to agree that I am going to lose him forever.“No! Absolutely not!” I chanted to myself, shaking my head vigorously in the process. James is strong, he is going to survive this. There is no way in hell he was going to die after all he had gone through. It just wasn’t meant to be like this. James is not supposed to die. NoI stared down at his face, his calm and peaceful face and I realized just how much I missed him. How much I missed looking into his eyes and
CHAPTER 131IRENEMarcus stared at me intensely from his side of the table, swirling his spoon around the plate of food in front of him. His gaze seemed to be directed at me but in reality he was deep in thought with his hand supporting his chin.I was still a bit sick but it was not as severe as it used to be so I had no trouble just sitting down and watching him think, waiting for him to spit out whatever was taking up most of our time together.After a long moment of silence, he sighed heavily, dropping the spoon from his hand and turning to face me completely now. “Irene?” He called.I did not honor that with a reply, instead I just looked at him to tell him I was present and listening to whatever he had to say.“How are you doing?” He inquired. It might sound like it was just a normal question but I could feel all the underlying questions from just looking into his eyes. The unspoken question was actually “how are you dealing with everything? How is your sanity now that James is
CHAPTER 130IRENE“I’m tired of everything, I want James back and I can’t leave without him and I feel like I’m dying.” I said almost choking on my own tears.Marcus was so comforting as he was quiet as he let me rant all I want in his embrace. It’s been so long since I had someone to hug like this and now that I got someone I didn’t want to let go.“I want him back, I can’t let Addie have him forever because I won’t be able to live without him.” I said crying deeply as gently wiped off the tears from my eyes.I finally released myself from my self bondage grip and it was then I remembered the blood of Marcus' body.He looked at me worriedly which made me shiver as I had a very unusual feeling inside of me.“W…what happened to you? Why are you covered up in blood?” I asked, looking at his hands which were covered in blood. His white shirt was also covered in blood but I couldn’t spot any injury on his body.“It’s not me, something happened to.” He said calmly holding my two hands like
CHAPTER 129IRENEI felt like screaming my lungs out to ease the intense pain I was currently feeling in my head but looking at it logically, screaming might only increase the pain so I refrained from doing so.Instead, I squirted my eyes to reduce the amount of light entering into it which in some weird way is only adding to my pain. My heart kept pounding in a way it had never done before, at least not when I am fine.I clutched onto my duvet for dear life, still shivering and gritting my teeth despite the fact that I was under layers of bed coverings. My throat felt so dry and the thought of passing anything through it at the moment made me gagged, but considering the fact that I had vomited more than I could count during this short period nothing came out but air.Overall I felt terrible and after a long moment of denial and thinking it was probably stress which would be gone if I just rested, I finally reached the conclusion that I was sick and I would need to see a doctor in or
CHAPTER 128IRENEI looked around lazily and picked up my phone to check the time. It was already evening and I groaned wishing I woke up the next morning.Now I had to Dave the burden of actually being in this life which was enough of a burden on its own. Everyday I wished it was the next because I wanted to get over everything.By now James would have been engaged and my heart ached as I thought about it. I sniffled hard because I didn’t want to start crying again.The love of my life was getting engaged to someone and it wasn’t me, he was the only one I wanted and now he belonged to someone else and there was nothing I could do.It became hard for me to stop myself from crying so I undressed and went into the shower.I turned on the warm water and gently scrubbed my body like there was no life left in me again.Everything felt so slow and I felt there was no use for anything again, it was all useless now.I got out of the shower and got dressed into a big top and walked out of the
CHAPTER 127JAMESI looked around and the sight of everyone cheering all in my name was so disgusting to me, especially since I didn’t want any of this to begin with.Everyone who walked past me would wave at me but Ignored most of them anyway as I was trying my best not to flare up because I was very upset.My sister noticed this from across the room and our eyes met, I looked away but I knew she was still going to come over anyways.She smiled at me and walked gently approaching me.“Why aren’t you putting on a smile? It’s your happy day. You should be happier than anyone here.” My sister said gently patting my suit like she was about to dust something off it.I looked around the crowd in the area and now the whole hall was jeering with noises from each corner of the hall.“When is this going to end?” I scoffed with a big frown pasted on my face.I didn’t even care about all of these arrangements and all the guests here because I was not happy with any of it.“Look over at your beau