FAE"Congratulations!"A moment passed before Carl reacted to my greeting. He turned to me, finally. But it was a second too long. I trembled as I waited, conscious of guests watching us at his wedding reception.When I saw his familiar face—my beloved's face—I almost burst into tears. But I couldn't do that. There were too many people around us—his relatives and guests who knew about us and my story, that I'd adored Carl Easton since I was ten.He looked dashing in his three-piece suit, this man whom I'd dreamed of for almost half my life. There was no guilt on his face as he possessively held Sarah's tiny waist. Sarah, his bride, was proudly wearing her white wedding dress for the occasion.And Carl's adoring gaze for his bride—my best friend—finally closed the door between my future and my past.I couldn't love him anymore. I couldn't even say if I ever took a break from my feelings for this man who regarded me with brotherly favor as I grew up. He was my late godfather's son. No,
FAEAbout thirty minutes later, I finally came out of the ladies' restroom, hoping I had successfully covered the marks of my crying bout with makeup and eye drops. I hoped at least I had, because there was nothing I could do about how miserable I looked as I trudged back to the wedding reception.But it was most important to me that I managed to calm myself. I had two more hours to spare before the party ended in the late afternoon. And after that, I could do whatever I wanted.As I got near the doors, I caught myself squaring my shoulders and straightening my back. I took a deep breath. I didn't want to look so defeated because that's not what I was. I could do all that behind closed doors, thank you very much.Right now, I had obligations I had to live through, even if it was the last thing I did. Two hours, that's it. Then I could wallow in my self-pity until the next day.Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed a tall man watching me from a distance.I sighed.Jigo, or Spencer Jig
FAEI snickered. It was a secret open to anyone, though it traveled through whispers. Her pitiful friend mooched off of her in between opening her legs to any man who could pay.Then my lips trembled. She was married now to Carl. She didn’t need to do that anymore, right? But he didn’t know. She had supposedly stopped when I took her in. Supposedly.Oh god, I was going to hate myself tomorrow. I would look at my life and see how pathetic it was. How naïve and stupid I was. But that was for tomorrow.Tonight, I just hated my situation. And Tom, for the creepy maniac that he was. Sarah’s sex buddy, the one she sneaked into my condo during the last bar exam review week. God, the unit reeked of sweat and sex, and I had to spring clean the next day.As stressed as I could be, I couldn’t think of sex to de-stress. And if I must? I would un-must if Tom was the last man on Earth to fuck.Oh god. I was drunk. Just thinking of this man and… eww. Akh.Tom and Sarah… and Sarah and Carl.I stopped
Fae"Okay," I whispered to him.I realized then that I had trusted him for as long as I could remember. Even though he was friends with Carl, he wasn't stupid or reckless. When they talked about his misdemeanors, they were just mischievous shenanigans, natural to young, precocious men. If not for his brooding looks, he was more agreeable than any guy I had ever met.Even more than Carl.Why didn't I like him instead?I closed my eyes as he took me from the bar stool into his arms, clinging to him while he lifted me like I was just a sack of cotton.And I liked it. It felt good being taken care of and loved like a little kid. My tears kept falling. Feeling so pitiful and heartbroken, I hid my face on the side of his neck. I raised my eyes when it became quiet around us, only to see we had reached the elevator. I lowered my head, feeling ashamed."Hey...? You awake?" he asked in a soft voice. I made a tiny sound. "Tell me what you're thinking.""You..." I replied, head low. "You know ev
Fae“Had it never crossed your mind that what you desired with Carl would never come to fruition? Fae, you possessed beauty, intelligence, and all the qualities that could make a man fall for a woman. If he truly had feelings for you, you would have known by now. You would have been together long before he even met Sarah.”Countless tears had streamed down my face, but now I was regaining composure though I still sniffled like a two-year-old in front of him. Jigo fetched water and Tylenol from the kitchen, ensuring I wouldn’t drown in my sorrow if he left my side for a moment. We started to talk. After a quick trip to the bathroom—apparently, even heartbroken souls needed to relieve themselves—I found myself back in Jigo's arms, crying softly now, finding solace in his gentle words because they held the same truth I recognized.And they were comforting."It was embarrassing... at the party," I sniffled. "I hate myself!""Shhh..." Jigo's hand rubbed my back rhythmically, providing comf
Fae"Jigo..." I whispered, reacting to what he said."Hmmm...?" he replied softly, his voice hoarse, his eyes attentive, as he began to caress my body.I gasped and buried my head in the pillow. I forgot what I was going to say as I felt his hard flesh, gliding between my thighs, teasingly touching the sensitive area. It was a different kind of sensation. A hot sensation. I never thought it would feel like this. I was all nervous, excited, and so... so curious.And I was on fire."Ohhh... Jigo...!""I know... it feels good, doesn't it?" His head swooped down to kiss my lips with a possessiveness that I couldn't help but feel. And I was kissing him now, a serious business, as our bodies began to mold against each other. My hips lifted and my legs wrapped around his lower torso. I could feel his manhood pressing against the warm space between my thighs. I gasped when I felt his tip slide into my ready wetness, then a little more, and a little more. Hot and hard. Alive. I thought, that w
JigoHer eyes were closed now, her long black lashes resting on her smooth skin. Her cheeks were still flushed from our lovemaking.I smiled again. I couldn’t stop. So beautiful and adorably cute.If only she wasn't obsessed with Carl...Don't go there, buddy.But still, I went. What else could I lose? Carl was already married to someone else. It still shocked me, the way the last three days went. But Carl made his bed, and he would soon find out what kind of a bed it was he’s carelessly claimed.The important thing was that Fae was free now, regardless of what I thought about her or what we did together.She didn't move when I carefully let go of our embrace. Her breathing was deep and regular. She had fallen asleep. It took a moment to bring her to my bed. She settled on my blankets and pillows like she belonged. I watched for a moment, enthralled, but I needed to use the bathroom. I got up to leave the bed for a moment.The lamp was still on, providing a soft light to the bed and I
Fae"It was your first time," he said, as if I needed reminding. But he didn't seem upset that I didn't tell him.I breathed a sigh of relief. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you. Once we started, I just... I just wanted us to have sex."His hand caressed my cheek. "You guarded that for a long time. Was it worth losing it to me?"I laughed softly. "It is," I said with relief. “FYI, I don’t think I lost it. I think… I’ve given it to someone who knows how to take care of it. So, thank you, Jigo.” For setting the standard for me. The real question is—can I find another Jigo? Do I even know how to look? It wasn't like I expected this to continue. It was just a distraction for us both. I still felt giddy about last night. But I wasn't blind about this.He took a deep breath. And I bit my lower lip as I felt movement on the lower part of his body.Oops.Probably what they call morning wood?"You must be feeling sore," he said."A little, but not too much.""Let me see..."And under the blanket, hi
FAE“Drive safely,” I told him and gave him a peck on the cheek. He was already in his suit, and I was back in my robe, my knees a little wobbly. I planned to go back to bed and sleep the morning away once he was gone.“Yes, babe. If you promise you will eat your lunch on time, send me messages about your day, and not cry while I’m at the office.”I almost choked on my laugh before I pinched him lightly where I held him. He made a small noise as he grinned down at me cheekily, his eyes holding a memory of the heat we’d shared since we woke up.Then we stared at each other.I cleared my throat and pushed him away. “Go to work, please. I don’t want to be a bad influence on you.”“You’re going to be a good wife.”Ugh! He just wouldn’t stop! “I don’t know how to cook.”“I’ll cook.”I gave him a sweet smile. “You’re going to be a great husband, then.”“Marry me, babe.”I glared at him. “Jigo!”His eyebrows shot up. Then he pouted.Spencer Jigo Myrick was pouting.“Not calling me ‘baby’ any
FAEI stared at him in surprise. Okay, that was fast. That’s… good.“What will you tell your grandma?” I didn’t want to talk to his grandma about this. I might find myself saying yes because she could be that sweetly persuasive, and I really couldn’t say ‘no’ to her. That old lady had a steel backbone and liquid fire in her blood. Whenever I was with her, it was like facing a queen. Even if she smelled like expensive baby powder.I suddenly realized where her grandson had gotten his steel charm from. Ugh!“I don’t know yet. I’ll think of something,” he was saying. “As long as you continue to see me even if the family I belong to used to be connected to your father’s old crowd and, well… I guess I remind you of Carl, too.” He didn’t like that. I saw a muscle ticking in his jaw.“It’s not like that. I still want to see them. I will go to birthday parties and whatever event they will invite me to. They’re family. But in my professional life, I want to find my place on my own.”“Because y
FAE"Okay, okay..." I said, dumbfounded by his words."What is? It’s okay with you? You agree?""I agree. If you really want to try, when do we start?" I asked, exhilarated at how easy it was right now to succumb to him. She didn’t care later. And not caring felt good, too. Right, somehow. His face brightened. He even smiled a bit, looking relieved. "Date me?" he asked, his eyes fixed on my lips.I licked my lips. "You really want to date?""We’re already sleeping together. It’s only right, isn’t it?"I shook my head. "I don’t know. I don’t know how men think. You’ve hooked up but didn’t like them. We’ve also hooked up but suddenly you want to be exclusive. So I don’t know what we’re doing.""Fae… I don’t give a fuck how other men think. The only thing I care about now is you only think about what I think from now on."I gasped. "So demanding." Then I laughed when he pounced on me and pinned me to the bed. "Jigo!""I don’t know why I seem so stupid right now. I seem to be talking too
FAE I lazily moved. Multiple orgasms before Jigo finally reached his peak, even after he’d warned me it was going to be quick. A bunch of bullshit. He had the stamina of a carabao.He laughed while I pouted and told him that. He showered me with kisses and hugs. He tickled me and nibbled on me. We weren't talking about anything serious. Not talking at all. Not much. But he kept touching me and kissing me as if he was trying to make up for the days we missed this, and I let him, not caring that the morning was slipping away. It was more than enough, but I wanted all he could give me. I wanted him."Jigo, your phone is vibrating again," I eventually told him. The gadget was resting on the nightstand and had buzzed a few times.He sighed, burying his face in the crook of my neck and shoulder while holding me tightly against his body. If I could only shout it down to people passing on the road down my window how good this felt.I know, I know. I’m shutting up already.After a few moments
FAEI made sure that there were no visitors in my condo the next day—just in case Jigo thought of coming by and ended up having to do the 'wrong door' trick again. I positioned myself in the living room so I could hear the doorbell if it rang. I couldn't shake off my restlessness, and I knew it wouldn't go away until I saw him again.But not a single soul wandered to my door all morning.In the afternoon, I spent my time filling my small canvases with acrylic paint to distract myself. It helped, as I enjoyed painting, as long as they were just small projects to fill up a day or two while I thought about what to do next with my life. By the evening, I had three good specimens drying on the easel, and I felt so proud of myself.That evening, I found myself in front of the TV, binge-watching the final season of my favorite show 'Suits' because I was tired but couldn't fall asleep.Then I was jolted awake by the sound of the doorbell. I dozed off on the couch without realizing it.I glanc
FAEI had three close friends who had no connection to Carl or his circle.Joanna had been my best friend since high school, and we attended the same university. I met Kacey during college. Pam, on the other hand, I encountered at a party after we had both ditched our blind dates and ended up chatting at a bar until the early hours.It turned out that Pam and I were studying at the same university, although in different colleges. After I introduced Kacey to Joanna and Pam, they immediately hit it off. Joanna worked as an accountant, Kacey was a businesswoman, and Pam was a doctor. We were all in our mid-twenties. And single ladies.It was hard to say how significant this was, as my friends were not only beautiful and intelligent but also had successful careers. Kacey and Pam loved going out, so they often joined Joanna. Carl was my excuse for being single, obviously. The three of them regularly went on dates, but there would always be something that didn't click. They wanted to find b
FAEThe next day, I woke up to a new ceiling, which would have a new fan to be installed until later in the day. I took a deep breath and surveyed my surroundings. The noise was different here, but so was the silence in the unit. It was a different day, a different place, and the scent of Jigo on my pillows... And I was newly minted. Brand new.In that moment, I felt a flutter in my chest, a mix of sadness and joy. I could bid farewell to the sadness now. I got out of bed to start my new day.I had my breakfast outside. I couldn't forget Jigo's instructions before he left last night and the chat message that woke me up. He told me to eat on time. I craved pancakes from the Pancake House so I quickly showered and on denim shorts, cotton t-shirt and running shoes drove and ate there. And I ate well.I went to the mall again to buy the basic items for redecorating. I even bought small, blank and framed canvases and acrylic paint tubes to create small paintings for my new condo. I bought
FAE"What is it?" he asked, sounding curious but with a smile on his face."Jigo, you're not the only one who's a first… you know… intimate someone for me.” I went ahead of that, awkward for the lack of term for what to call him. “You're also my first kiss!"He blinked, looking at me. "What...?"I laughed at his bewildered expression. "You're my first kiss. I realized I haven't ever kissed any man on the lips. Well, I wished to have kissed... never mind. But you're the first of… everything. So far. Wow!"He gazed at me for a moment, then took a deep breath. "Thank god you never kissed him. Or you wouldn't be with me right now because he would surely want more of this." He tried to kiss me again, but I pushed him away gently, placing my hand on his chest."Just to set the record straight, I'm not implying that because you're my first in everything, I'm looking for a commitment, okay?""No, it didn't even enter my mind," he said, innocently shaking his head while pulling me closer by th
FAEHow to get dazed with your eyes closed?If I opened my eyes, I knew I would still be captivated by the rotating fan on the ceiling atop the bed. Jigo melted like jelly on top of me, and we were messy, but again it was the greatest kind of messy. Our hearts continued to race against each other, our chests pressed tightly together, and I felt nothing but contented bliss and boundless wonder."Wow..." I finally managed to say after swallowing to moisten my dry throat. "Just... wow..."He lifted his head, grinning as he looked at me. "I know..." He raised his hand and gently caressed my cheek, momentarily controlling his excitement. I was too sensitive. "I debated for so long whether to come to you. I know you need to be alone... but I can't stay away for long." In a more intense tone, he confessed, "It may just be an excuse… Lola Leah sending me. If it weren't for that, I would find other reasons to come to you."I remained silent for a moment. Then he slid beside me, stood up and he