Self harming goes together with being depressed right? Well I been depressed ever since I had the abortion, it's been over a year but I hate what I did, my boyfriend Tyrese whom I been with for 6 months thinks I should talk to someone but I'm talking to him so I don't get why he keeps saying I should talk to someone....even though I'm in college my mom still wants me living with her and it sucks...im with Tyrese now just chill and no we haven't been there yet.
" why do you hate your father so much?" I asked him coz his forever complaining about his father not doing stuff for him which lead him to being in gangs, he shrugged
" his just not my typa dude...you coming with me to the college welcome party? it's gon be epic" he says looking excited, I sighed
" I wanna go but you know how my
***friday afternoon***I just came off to get Lee from school,we heading to my mama to get Cory and probably chill for a while,LEE been so silent since Bree isn't around " ay lil man, what you thinking about over there?" I asked him As we got inside, he shrugged, I shook my head. I looked around for my mom to find her outside with Alexa and Cory. " what's up " I greeted." I know you are not talking to me in that manner" mama said" yeah me too" Alexa said smirking" how are you beautiful woman doing then?" I asked, we talked, Lee said hello to Alexa today, its a progress "why are you here this early?" I asked her" I have th
***friday Night ****I finally have my own scene dang been waiting for long. Anyway me, Cole,Marlene,Tyrese and Rosa just got to this college party, it's 8:48pm and the party is already off the hook...I looked around to see my bro at the DJ stand with his ' old' girlfriend Rina....no shade she's good looking,smart and inlove with Junaid but damn her family is just too much hence that's why I only tolerate Rosa." want some to drink?" Cole asked me and the girls.we nodded,the guys went off to get us some to drink." so here's what's gon happen,since everyone is pretty wasted already ,we gon play alil spin the bottle game to lighten up everybody's mood- coz what we planned up got smashed once they got wasted" Marlene ssays making me nod,but Rosa looked way too far from here"
***saturday morning ****Hakeem and I are getting ready to go back to the hospital, Lee got up at 5am saying we gotta hurry and go see Bree she's bored I'm like boy she ain't going no where, plus she had a surgery to get to at 8 and it's now 6am...soon as she gets better I'm really going to find whoever did this to my family. " Hakeem can you please get Cory ready? I already fed him and bathed him" I asked Hakeem as I was getting dressed...ain't nothing he haven't seen here" and stop starring and hurry up" I said smirking" why you gotta get dressed infront of me man? " he mumbled" I didn't tell you to come in here now did I? So please " I said" whatever -ay Lee get your ass in here" he yelled getting out my room. I laughed coz I kn
Taking care of George is not that hard to do this days,its been over a month now since he been out of the hospital, I got him a wheel chair coz his and Alexa's medical bill was over the top and couldn't cover other things and with Alexa losing her job it kinda creates another atmosphere on the medical side,but she still comes everyday to make sure he okay I mean bitch I'm his girl I can take care of my man...but I aint gon complain all that.George still works but at home, selling houses online and his new 'assistance ' covers the show casing of the houses which is fine by me as long as the bitch knows her place coz I don't mind cutting up a bitch...it's Friday and I'm having lunch with my cousin Brandy who been telling me about my baby daddy ever since we got here " I told you not to take his sorry ass back but you never listen" I huffed
Another sort of mess up in this place.since the college party things has been tense around this place, I still don't like the fact that Rina gave a small boy some Oral damn, she may be older than me but I'm still her man " so we ain't going to talk about this? You've been avoiding me since it happened, I told you we was drunk and I was salty " she explains" you gon be late for work, I think you should leave right about now " I said going back to watching Football...while stealing some looks at her when she gets dressed, my baby got some hot ass body" you looking at me like that but you refuse to touch me, Junaid grow up it happened can we just put it behind us?" she pleaded getting back in bed" I hear you baby,how about you give me what you gave him " I said seductively honestly I h
Am I not ready for marriage? She crazy. Alexa been avoiding me for the past weeks since I asked her to marry me...talking about she ain't ready that can only mean one thing she don't love me but mama trying to tell me otherwise " I hear you" I mumbled" but do you understand me boy,she been through alot...be glad she's even talking to your ass at this point " mama says I stale faced her" so I should wait for her to be ready? When is that gon be? She's basically avoiding my ass so bad now that we never talk or see each other "" have you shown her that you mad?" I thought about it then shrugged " that girl knows you angry that she said no,only way to fix this is to talk that lil girl, figure it out. You know I miss having that badass child here " she said referring to Cory
It's been a couple of weeks since my talk with Hakeem, and I must say we trying to become close and I'm trying to put my fears of getting hurt again,i haven't seen or spoke to Connel in two weeks...and he avoiding both me and Bree which is pissing me off for real. I'm at work, I work as as a waitress at some small diner around my area yeah I know what a downgrade from what I did but it pays the bills. I'm almost out, I clock out at 4 so that I can get my kids from school. I decided to out Cory at school too so that he can learn how to talk before he turns two" ay Chris I'm about to go out mind taking the last table for me?" I asked one of my new friends" yeah sure- I heard you not coming in tomorrow, problems?" he asked I shrugged" not really but I just want some time our fo'real plus I got a doctors appointment " I sai
It's the next day, I feel so angry at Hakeem for what he did to Alexa last night and I'm waiting on his ass to tell me what was wrong with him. His laid up on the bed and I really cannot wait anymore, I went down my stairs to get ice cubes with water/ cold water. I went back to where he was sleeping, it's 12 pm and I'm waiting on mama to come talk some sense into Hakeem.i poured him with it over his head" shit what the fuck -!" he screamed making me laugh " the fuck is wrong with you? " he yelled again and I mugged him" son dont get fucked up - go clean yourself up before mama gets here " I said leaving him to be...I went downstairs to find Shamika and my baby Karren in the lounge"Oh hey, I was about to come up but K baby wanted to play -hows Hakeem? " she asked making me sigh
As if my life isn't hard enough as it is, Victoria goes and does a thing like this: cheating...on my brother. Now I'm beginning to wonder if the twins were fathered by Addie,i really doubt. I'm now on my way to her house to talk to her atleast to know why she didn't tell me nothing ,,yeah I changed from going to see Snow I'm not ready for her yet...not at all let me deal with one thing at a time.I knocked, She opened but then rolled her eyes " what are you doing here Alexandre? " now it's my turn to roll my eyes " if you here to lecturer me shame you're was-".I just had to cut her off" you know you're wrong though " I said sitting on the couch crossing my legs " why are you doing it knowing it's wrong?" I asked." oh please like you don't know" she snapped, I looked at her cross eyed
Hope y'all remember me...Alexa and Tori's best friend from way back, I own a club yes and few restaurants around this town so I'm making my money. I'm a newly mother to my precious Diamond who's now a couple of months old I must say her daddy being around is really giving me a piece of mind and I can finally say I'm resting well enough my glow is back...yes her daddy Benedict who else...even though I know he loves Brandy I know he loves his kids a lot too which is why his living with me now for the sake of Dia getting the feeling of her daddy being around ...But now his been talking about leaving and that's not sitting right with me Dia isn't even 4 months yet,I'm not saying I'm not capable of taking care of my own baby alone but I do need help...Dia cries a lot and I mean a lot so it does frustrate me always " Renee I'm leaving, ill be back later on are you gon be good? " I raised my h
" I said I'm telling her tonight, Junaid I'm tired of you and your games.cant you see that this is going to ruin my sister!?" Rosa yelled at me making me put my hands upI'm tired of both of them really they fucken stress me out" yo stop yelling, she don't know nothing if you wanna stop what we got on say that don't you dare tell her anything you want her to be stressed and lose my seed like you killed yours?" I asked she kept quiet " that's what I thought!" as I started getting in my clothes I'm sick of this I'll rather deal with Rina's bullshit than Rosa at this point, yeah the fucking is good cause Rina ain't giving me none..." you're leaving? What am I gon do with all the food I cooked?" I looked at her like really,i shrugged" that's all on you ma- im out!" grabbed my shit and le
The silence in this house can really apply to one of the colleges library, back at home,guest room...atleast free food,get to be with my family ,Sunday evening chilling with my sisters just before I go to my hell home" so you telling this whole week she hasn't said none to you at all?" Brandy asked making me nod, Alexa is acting like a child right now" have you tried asking if she's alright?" mika asked making me look at her like she crazy" man for what? - I came clean to her didn't I? What more does she want from me?" it's getting old.." sympathy it's what you're forgetting, be a lil sensitive to this matter,this girl you fucked is her friend so obv-"." they were not friends wh
I miss having Hakeem around, now I have to go through this pregnancy like every other pregnancy I went through alone...I know I should forgive and forget about what Hakeem said when I was temporarily blind but I can't. But I am willing to work us out one last time that's if his still interested. I'm heading to Connel and shamika's house to talk to Hakeem,Brandy told me his been living there the past few weeks." Alexa? - get in, uh Connel isn't here if his who you're looking for" mikae said opening the door for me,i don't hate the girl, but I don't like her either." in here for my fiance I heard his here" I pointed out getting in and yes he is here being a couch potatoes " hey a Hakeem can we talk? "" let me give you some privacy " yes trick please...Hakeem gave me a look but still p
Things just got heated up in this house, who the hell does Brandy think she is stopping Ben from spending time with his son my son finally learned how to say daddy I mean come on she mustn't be this selfish or I'm gon fuck her up soon..." Benedict I swear to you,if you listen to Brandy's ass you won't see your son no more"". I said you need to spend some time with him too,imnot with Brandy now,i told you I'm withReneeI can't look afterKarrenright now" I rolled my eyes" whatever, if you're not back by next week believe me you won't see him no more" I said hanging up, I groaned, Hakeem has been living with me for these past few days well it's the days after the dinner party we held for Alexa,which didn't go so well,im just happy she can se
Hey yal I'm Onika Delia Poland aka Snow, I wasn't introduced nicely I think, yeah I'm the one who basically forced this guy named Hakeem aka Danger to fuck me ...I didn't know he was with my girl Alexa, but two days ago I really didn't think I was gon find out that Alexa is the wife he was referring to but what the hell I won't say anything unless he say some I don't wanna break my friendship with Lexi this quick coz this girl is nice to me and she got me this job at the diner since I got kicked out from working at the bar for getting pregnant yeah its tough outchea.I have a meeting with Hakeem later on, he said some about going to church with his family and stuff I must say I thought I was gon be a single mother coz that's what I wanted but bumping into Danger got me feeling some typa way about needing my baby girl's dad around if yal know what I mean I mean we not seeing each other it
I knew coming to this party was not gonna go well,but hearing my husband to be saying that I'm a burden because I got stupid enough to get pregnant and heat I should have been checking my health more maybe I wouldn't be blind now hurt me,it really cut me deep" Alexa crying about it won't help baby,youve been crying ever since Tori brought you here,tell your mama what happened" my mom doesn't stop asking me questions, I came here for a peace of mimd.I been laying down ever since, well yes crying because I'm hurt and it's not like I have anything better to do with my blind self " mommy I'll be fine,please call Connel and ask how my kids are" I asked still crying in bed with my head on my pillow"alright,i made something to eat,Tori told me you left without eating, I'll bring the food up here and help you -" " I'm not hungry- can I be left alone?" I asked waiting for an answer I heard her sigh so she's really down now I know " just know that I love you child, I'll come check onc
The day is finally here, how can she believe that I will forget her birthday out of everyone, since he mother told me she never did anything for her b day since having them kids I just thought it's only right that I do this for her and to show her that we appreciate her, that I really am lucky and blessed to have her in my life...She may be blind now but it's just temporary...planning this party went left only because I had to leave everything in Brandy's hands I hope she got everything right because I'm now on my way with Alexa and Cory to the venue, even though she may not see I hope she feels the spirit and the love. " one last question where the hell are you taking me? " lex asked" relax we'll be there soon " I said trying my best not to look at her face,i know she's pouting now" I promise we almost there" I assured her