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Letting Go

Penulis: Phoebe Phoenix
last update Terakhir Diperbarui: 2023-04-26 19:32:53

Ace POV

"Ace, I'm sorry. I don't know what to say." Elise stood at my kitchen island as I emptied all my cabinets that had liquor. I don't fucking care how, I just needed my head to stop thinking.

"I'm fine!" I blurted out opening a bottle of gin. Whoever hosted this fucking place must of had a lot of alcoholics because I could easily drown myself for days.

"You're not fine. Do you want to talk about it?"

"No! Go away!" I just finished off the half of bottle of gin then opened the vodka.

"You're going to be throwing up all night."

"I'm fine with that as long as I don't remember who I am." I chugged the vodka, but then Elise grabbed the bottle from me spilling half it over the floor.

My hand just as quickly reached her neck squeezing her airways tight. "I'm not in the mood to be babied right now. I don't need help and I don't need you. Get out!" I released her neck then left her in the kitchen coughing.

"Asshole!" She whispered.

I sat on my couch with legs opened wide and head laid ba
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