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Hormones

Author: Phoebe Phoenix
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Alley POV

Holy shit, what was that? The fact he pushed me away didn't even register as a rejection. The way he just kissed me was like feeling the earth shift below your feet. Was it even possible to feel this way at only 16?

I looked up and saw his face full of regret. This was killing him. I know he didn't want to hurt me and with his reputation I'm sure that is exactly what he would do. Get what he wants then move on to the next chick. A part of me really wanted to believe he wouldn't do that to me but we have never been this way with each other.

What do we do with this? Casual hook up? I know he won't date me. I don't think he even knows how a boyfriend is supposed to treat a girl. Either way I wasn't losing him.

I pushed my sandwich to him and took his. "Eat. I promise no hot sauce on that one." I gave him a small smile then bit into my half.

"Alley we can't do this?"

"I know you're all racked with guilt. I promise I'm not expecting anything from you and I know if I say stop
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