"I knew it."Thabata's voice, surprisingly, is not high and squeaky. On the contrary: it is low and cold, like a growl.Joshua stands up. Emanuele does not move from his seat, but speaks:"Thabata, it was just a hug.""Shut your mouth, you fucking bumpkin. How dare you still try to say anything?""Thabata, there's nothing to worry about. It's not what you're thinking," Joshua tries to explain."Of course it isn't! Because I'm not thinking anything, Joshua. I saw it.""We were just talking.""And what was that conversation, if I have a right to know?"The two don't answer immediately. The details were very intimate, and it went straight over both of their pasts. Emanuele looks discreetly at Joshua. Did Thabata know about his relationship with that family member? After all, they had been together for almost three years.Due to her hesitation, Thabata sneers:"And you said you wanted to clarify the situation... Everything is crystal clear to me. I knew I couldn't trust you!"Emanuele tri
Emanuele feels her heart racing, her fingers turning to butter. Did she hear right? Was she imagining or daydreaming again?Joshua raises one of his eyebrows. He is waiting for her answer. It was not imagination.He had really asked if her feelings for Johnny were stronger than her feelings for him.But... What did Emanuele feel for Joshua?"I...," Emanuele begins, feeling her cheeks heat up from embarrassment."Relax. If you don't want to answer, don't answer.""But-""It's not like it's going to interfere with anything.""I... What?"Joshua sits down on the couch, looking at Emanuele. The girl remains standing leaning against the wall."Even if you feel something for me, and I'm not saying you do, you and I couldn't be together.""Why not?" The indignation in her tone of voice catches the attention of the current owner of the apartment.He seems nervous as he answers, though he disguises it as best he can."I don't know. Maybe because I just ended a three-year relationship and becau
Three weeks had passed.Joshua and Emanuele did not touch any more delicate subjects. The redhead decided to look harder for places where she could work in person, although she could not find any.Thabata had also disappeared from the map, despite her threats to destroy the social life of both Emanuele and Joshua. Johnny respected the space of his inspirational muse, and although everyone thought they were in some sort of relationship, he made it clear to everyone that there was no pressure on them to take anything public.A routine was fixed: Joshua went out to work some days of the week, Emanuele went out to look for a new job and/or to go out with Johnny, the two of them lived together in peace and there was no longer any awkwardness between them.Although Emanuele sometimes thought that her roommate was jealous, she couldn't stop thinking that he had already made it clear that they would never work out. And also, how to relate to someone so complicated, who changed his moods all t
Johnny takes a deep breath. It was never easy to remember this person, much less talk about him. It took him three months before he could leave his room and eat and talk like a human being. His parents had tried everything by then: psychological counseling, self-help books, and even spiritual help from the pastor of a nearby church.But what really impelled Johnny to try to recover the flame of his life was none of these things.Sitting in the park, the young man didn't try to disguise his tears or the look of weeping and pain he felt when remembering that very special person. Looking up, he began to speak."She was my best friend."Emanuele almost has a jump. Yes, he had a best friend, and their friendship was shattered because of Thabata's manipulation! He had told her that at the meeting a few weeks ago.He continued:"We met when I was ten and she was eleven. At first, both my parents and her parents thought we would have some kind of romance when we got older. But that never happ
Upon hearing Johnny's response, the girl simply stops breathing. Her eyes widen.The people outside, passing back and forth, seem completely distant. The sound of cars, birds, children playing on the swings and seesaws... All that becomes irrelevant. The boy sniffles again as he explains, in a mixture of despair and amazement:"That day we met, when Joshua and you were walking back to the building.... I just laid my eyes on you and... I felt something extraordinary. A kind of calling, of connection. I don't want you to think that I'm making an excuse for this what we have, whatever it is. But I simply knew that I needed to stay by your side. Anyway."Johnny takes a breath and continues:"When I heard your name, then, I felt everything around me spin like I was on a merry-go-round. It was like... It was as if the universe was telling me..."His tears won't stop flowing. Emanuele also gave up trying to hold back the tears. She had no idea how impactful her existence was to him."When I
Emanuele was in the living room of Johnny's house. It was the first time she had been there. The girl was feeling strange, but she couldn't exactly say why. Maybe it was because she had never been welcomed anywhere, always having to deal with insults and nasty comments from others. Deep down, maybe she was expecting more attacks.After hearing the story of Johnny's friend, Emanuele couldn't simply refuse the request to meet his parents. It was obvious that the redhead meant a great deal to him. That feeling was so strange. Usually she had to make an effort to seem useful or have her opinion validated, but he listened to her and respected her unconditionally.The girl heard the sound of footsteps. It was Johnny's sister, the teenager with the blue hair. She smiled at Emanuele:"Hi!""Hi," Emanuele smiled back."I'm glad you're here. My brother won't stop talking about you for a minute, I was beginning to doubt that you were real."The two exchange giggles. Then Johnny's youngest says,
Joshua didn't even blink as he heard the simple, yet practically deadly words in his ears.Emanuele continued, still not having the courage to face him immediately."She didn't go into details. She didn't tell me what disease it was, or why this so-called miraculous recovery was possible. But... But that's it, she wants to stay by this man's side and-"Joshua stands up quickly. The girl notices that he has his cell phone in hand, probably dialing Alexandra's number.Emanuele feels she should stop talking, but she simply can't."Do you think ... That this is possible? I mean, that someone who is practically dying can have a chance of continuing to live?"The man looks at her. There is hatred shining in his eyes."Maybe. But I won't allow that to happen."He puts his cell phone to his ear and is silent for a few seconds. Then he practically roars in frustration and throws the device on the couch."I can't believe this. I just can't!" he shouts, outraged.The girl says nothing. Joshua pa
Joshua's intoxicating, sensational touch was exactly as she remembered it.He was strong, domineering, and very sure of himself. He knew exactly what he was doing, the sensations he was provoking, and he seemed to be an expert at it. Emanuele could barely hear the voice of her own conscience amidst this mess of wonderful sensations, which made her murmur and moan.One of his hands landed on her thigh. She had never, ever been touched like that. She usually burst out in nervous giggles and was embarrassed all the same. But there, at that moment, she was completely surrendered.Joshua took Emanuele on his lap, still kissing her.She didn't know where they were going, although from her guess and the smell of wood and cinnamon, they were in his room. The girl with dyed hair, or almost, since the dye was slightly faded, felt her body resting on a soft mattress. She still didn't have the courage to say anything, and her neck was being nibbled by Joshua, who also couldn't say a single word.
. . . . . . . . FIVE MONTHS LATER . . . . . .Emanuele looked at herself in the huge full-length mirror. The girl hardly knew where to look, which detail to care about first.She didn't know whether to look at the beautiful hairstyle in her now dark brown hair; her natural color.She didn't know whether to look at the impeccable makeup on her face, which made her even more beautiful and radiant than she was feeling.And I also didn't know whether to look at the beautiful white dress, simply cut, adorned with small mother-of-pearl beads. Despite the simplicity of the outfit, it was undeniable to say that the bride looked divine that day.Smiling, she turned around in front of her own reflection. Her heart was pounding with happiness, and she felt the stars in the night sky outside wishing her good luck. The curtain behind the door opened. A short, pudgy girl smiled sympathetically as she entered the room, openly admiring her."Miss Parker, you look beautiful!"Emanuele smiled."Thank
The old man falls to his knees at the same instant. Emanuele runs to him and hugs him tight, but Joseph does not respond. Instead, he seems to be doing his best not to scream as loud as he can."Dad!" The girl says."Adriele died? I had two daughters, and one of them died? Is that it?! Is that what you are telling me?!'Emanuele tries to hold back her sobs, but she can't. Instead, she says:"Yes, Dad. I'm really, really sorry. It all happened so fast! I lost my mother, my sister, and now... Now you are all I have left. You are literally all I have as family!"Joseph can't say anything for a while, only cry. The two of them are shaking very hard. Sarah, when alive, said that Morgan couldn't get the proper reaction, that he was too broken inside. But now he seemed quite emotional. I wonder what had happened.The smell of her father, enveloping Emanuele's nostrils, is soothing and familiar. In a snap, she remembers that the same scent enveloped her when she was in the arms of death, tra
Convincing Crimson to enter the police database to find her father's address was not that difficult.In fact, Emanuele was quite surprised when she had to use only one of the six rehearsed arguments. The old man shrugged and said that at that point it was no longer worth trying to pretend not to act unofficially from time to time.What really took a lot of lip from the redhead was convincing Joshua not to go with her. The girl knew that he only wanted to protect her, but Emanuele was very assertive in her arguments. She needed to do this alone, face that part of her past, and see if there was any possibility of fixing it in her future.Sarah had said that he was in a depressive spiral, and that when he saw her he could not react properly, and that it hurt her.Emanuele then prepared herself emotionally. She would not be disappointed or resentful if, by some chance, the man who at one time taught her a beautiful lullaby did not remember her... or was not touched by the moment.The youn
For a few seconds, all Emanuele can do is stare at Joshua. The two of them are still naked, and the distance between their bodies is as minimal as possible. "What?" she asks, softly. I wonder if she had heard right. Had her emotions stunned her enough for her to hear such a request?He gives a quiet laugh, then opens a confident, sentimental smile."Will you marry me?"The girl immediately sits up, leaning against the headboard of the bed. She covers her own nakedness with the blanket, still looking at the man, who also sits down."I..."Several things go through her head.The first was that no, she could not get married. Not in that life and not ever. All the misfortunes that had happened to her, all the horrible and unfortunately scarring traumas that were etched into her skin; all that made marriage itself a terrible idea.According to the books that the young woman read, especially during her teenage years, marriage was the union of two people. Total commitment to each other, com
As soon as he closes the door, Joshua gives warm, soft kisses on the sensitive skin of Emanuele's neck. The man sighs, almost intoxicated with passion, and murmurs:"I love the way you smell."With all the delicacy and romance in the world, Joshua props the redhead's torso on the bed, leaving her legs and feet touching the floor. He caresses her over her clothes. Emanuele moans."The last time we were together like this, I gave only a demonstration of what might come next. Remember?"He stimulates her further with the tip of his thumb, in subtle, gentle circular motions. "Those were the words of a man overcome with desire, and even lust, if I am willing to admit it. Today I may again have those feelings in my body, but... there is a difference. Now I am sure that I love you."Still with his thumb on Emanuele's clit, Joshua kisses her eagerly; the movement of his tongue is smooth and warm. Murmurs come out of her throat, as if the teacher is delighting in that moment.Emanuele's hands
The winter dawn is cold.A month has passed since Emanuele saw her sister die. One month, and even then, the memory was still latent and terrible.The girl had already been to therapy, but the nightmares continued to torment her. Joshua didn't know what to do anymore, since every night at two o'clock in the morning the girl's terrified screams woke him up.The teacher got out of his own bed in the dim light. The clock on his cell phone said it was one hour and fifty minutes, that is, ten minutes before the nightmares began.Standing up, taking care not to make any excessive noise, Joshua opened the door to his room, going towards Emanuele's door.But the door was open.Frowning, the man approaches the room. Her bed is empty.Still not making hasty decisions, Joshua goes to the living room, equally empty. His heart only slows down when he sees the girl sitting at the table, drinking a glass of water. She watches him without saying anything, then goes back to sipping the liquid.Slowly
Joshua immediately embraces Emanuele as soon as she, still very tearful and emotional, leaves the room where Sarah is being held. She clings to the man's clothes, sobbing terribly. Her eyes are swollen and red. "I am here," he murmurs. "I'm right here, my love." The girl can barely respond or say anything. A man wearing religious robes appears. He is middle-aged and wears thick-rimmed glasses. In his hand is a Bible. The man's voice is patient and docile, and he uses all his politeness as he approaches Emanuele. "May God's infinite mercy soothe your heart, child. I am so sorry for your loss." Apparently, the priest was already very well informed of the situation. The girl does not respond, only sinks even deeper into the chest of Joshua, who makes no mention of letting go. The policeman in charge of Sarah's surveillance accompanies the religious man. That was the protocol. Before being formally executed, Sarah would have the right to console herself and at least try to ensure a se
The next day dawned gray, cold and absolutely silent.Of course, cars were still passing by, people were leaving their homes to go to work, and children were going to school. But the noise present, that typical sound that Emanuele's ears were used to, could not penetrate the enormous bubble of silence that surrounded her.The call from the delegate the day before was an answer she had been begging to receive, but now that she knew that her sister's last wish was to see her, an unbearable weight had taken over her heart. Sarah was going to die. And all they had together were brief, monitored, timed conversations.Emanuele looked at herself in the mirror. She was wearing a black overcoat and pants of the same color, as well as dark boots. Her dyed red hair was tied up in a tight bun, and no matter how hard she tried to disguise her swollen face, red from crying with makeup, it was still obvious to anyone paying a little more attention. Joshua appeared in the doorway, wearing dark soci
Emanuele could neither sleep nor eat properly in the days that followed.All the girl could do, and at the massive insistence of Joshua who took care of her whenever he could, was to take a few naps and, very begrudgingly, put food in her stomach. He always tried to be as close as possible, even though he needed to work.With the insurance money, Joshua was able to recover almost nothing from the old apartment, so he opted to buy new furniture and decorate Alexandra's apartment, or rather his apartment. Doing this, however, seemed pointless and even disrespectful, since the present moment was one of mourning, not of celebration.When the man apologized for his attitude, Emanuele just shrugged and continued to stare at some fixed point on the wall.They did not sleep together. Each stayed in his own room most of the time. Joshua tried to get close to her physically, but he was content to give her a respectful cuddle and caress to comfort her. It was not the time for them to get close l