LOGINLily Thompson
I tore my gaze away from the man standing before me, focusing instead on my daughter, who beamed up at me with unwavering excitement. Her innocence was a soothing balm to my racing thoughts, grounding me in the present moment.
Taking a deep breath to steady my nerves, I mustered a smile for her sake and knelt down. "Thank you, sweetheart," I said softly, reaching out to ruffle her hair affectionately. "But why don't you go inside and start on your homework? Mommy needs to have a little chat with our guest."
My daughter's smile faded for a moment, her brow furrowing in confusion, but she nodded obediently and scampered inside, leaving the two of us alone on the porch.
Once she was out of earshot, I stood up and turned my attention back to the man standing before me, the man whose presence dredged up memories I had long buried beneath the weight of time.
"Ryan," I whispered, his name a ghost on my lips as I struggled to find my voice.
He nodded, his gaze never leaving mine. "Lily," he replied, his voice tinged with a mixture of regret and longing.
For a moment, neither of us spoke, the silence was deafening. But then, with a tentative sigh, Ryan took a step forward, closing the distance between us.
"I never thought I'd see you again," he confessed, his voice barely above a whisper. "But fate has a funny way of bringing people back together, doesn't it?"
I couldn't help but laugh, the sound bitter and full with pain and anger. "Fate," I repeated, the word heavy with irony. "More like cruel irony."
Ryan's expression softened, his eyes filled with an unspoken apology. "I know I hurt you, Lily," he said softly, his voice thick with emotion. "And I'm sorry. I've spent years regretting what happened between us, wishing I could go back and make things right."
I wanted to believe him, wanted to let go of the anger and resentment that had festered in my heart for so long. But old wounds ran deep, and forgiveness didn't come easily.
“Ryan, I really don’t want to see you here” I said, trying hard to block out all my emotions “please leave”
“Lily, I won’t leave you again no matter how much you push me away. I’ll always be here for you and your daughter” he said sounding genuine but I wasn’t about to fall for the same trick he used years back
“Oh, really, where were you when I needed you the most, why weren’t you there for me” I said, raising my voice, tears almost dropping from my eyes “now you appear all of a sudden and think I’ll let you back into my life, into my daughter’s life? You really must be delusional
My daughter comes back to the porch probably because she heard me shouting at Ryan and sees my eyes teary and instantly knows that something is wrong
“Mommy, what’s wrong” she said, looking up at me
I immediately get on my knees and give her a hug “nothing is wrong, my love. Just go inside, mommy will be with you soon”
“Will uncle Riri be joining us for dinner?” she asked
“Uncle Riri? Who’s that” I asked. Totally confused
“Your new husband” she whispered into my ears and giggled
So, she abbreviated his name to Riri. She looked so excited and it was contagious but too bad I’m going to have to ruin her excitement for our won good
“No, uncle Riri will not be staying for dinner” I said and her smiles and all her excitement completely vanished “he has some work to take care, right Ryan?”
I stood up and looked at him signaling him to agree with me and just leave and he does
“Uhm yes, Bells, I would love to stay but I’ve got some urgent work to attend to. I’m so sorry” he said
Bells? So they gave each other nicknames. How long did they stay on the porch waiting for me?
Isabella ran over to him and held his left leg with her tiny hands
“Please don’t go uncle Riri” she begged “can’t your work wait just for today?” she pleaded
Ryan looks at me pleadingly hoping I'll change my resolve but I don’t. I won’t give him that chance to break me all over again
When I don’t agree, he picks up Isabella “I’m so sorry, Bells” he says and she wraps her hands around his neck and starts crying
I quickly rush over and take her away from him and hold her in my arms. Isabella has always been a cheerful child. This is the first time in four years that I’ve seen her cry. What charm did Ryan use on my baby girl?
“It’s okay my baby. Uncle Riri will stay for dinner” I found myself saying.
Anything for Isabella even if it meant inviting this monster into my house, just for her sake
“Uncle Riri, you’ll stay?” Isabella asked through tears and sobbing from my arms
“Of course, bells. I’ll postpone my meeting anything for you” he said
She was so happy that she jumped down from my arms and gave him a big hug
“Yayyy, thank you. Now come along, I want to show you my room and my toys” she said, dragging him inside
God, I hope I don’t regret this decision
Lily Thompson I forced my face to stay still. No flinch, no tremor. Just a blank stare. If she wanted a reaction, she wouldn’t get it from me. The man I’d called father all my life—his shadow, his anger, his rules—wasn’t even mine. And the man who was mine, the one who thought about me enough to leave me a will, had been gone before I could even open my eyes to him. I dug my nails into my palm under the table, hard enough to sting, just to anchor myself. My throat wanted to close, to choke on the ache rising up, but I swallowed it down. She couldn’t see that. Her eyes searched me, like she was hoping for some soft crack in my armor. I kept my face smooth, my tone clipped, my shoulders straight. “After he died, I was twenty nine with a newborn,” she went on. “Your grandparents were gone. I was alone. I met him, the man I later married when you were ten months old. He was charming. He was patient with you. He brought diapers and soft toys. He told me I looked tired and that
Lily Thompson I stared at the number written in my mother’s neat, careful handwriting on the envelope for a long time. I eventually picked up my phone and slowly her number into my phone keypad The digits blurred and came back into focus. My thumb hovered over the call button, then moved away, then hovered again. Isabella was in the living room humming to herself while she cut paper crowns out of colored sheets. Ryan was in the kitchen doing the dishes, sleeves rolled up, forearms wet. He knew I was postponing calling her even after I had decided I would call her today. He probably saw when I dialed her number in my phone because he looked over once and gave me a small nod. It wasn’t a push. It was permission to take my time. Somehow, that made it easier to breathe. I pressed the call button before I could change my mind. It rang once. Twice. “Hello?” Her voice was small. “It’s me,” I said. The words felt heavy. “Lily” “Lily.” The way she said my name made some
Lily Thompson I couldn’t stop staring at the envelope. Even after Isabella climbed into the back seat, chattering about how her teacher had praised her drawing in class, even after Ryan buckled her in and started driving, even after the rice sat half-eaten in my lap, the envelope lay there like it weighed more than the car itself. I wanted to throw it out the window. I wanted to rip it into tiny pieces. I wanted to pretend it didn’t exist. But I couldn’t. Because whatever was inside had already cracked open a hole in my chest, and ignoring it wouldn’t patch me back together. “Mommy, are you okay?” Isabella’s little voice floated forward. I forced a smile in the rearview mirror. “I’m fine, sweetheart.” Her eyes, too much like mine, studied me for a second before she went back to pulling out her crayons. Kids knew when you were lying. But she was kind enough not to call me on it. Ryan didn’t speak either. His eyes flicked to me at every red light, his jaw tight, like
Lily Thompson Her face. I didn’t think I’d ever see it again outside of nightmares. And yet here she was, standing right infront of me, eyes wide like she was afraid if she blinked I’d vanish. For a second, I forgot how to breathe. My throat closed, my heart slammed so hard it hurt. My hand twitched toward my chest, as if I could press the panic down. “Lily,” she whispered, like saying my name too loud would break the fragile moment. I took one step back. Ryan looked between us, and I hated the pity in his eyes. He didn’t understand. He couldn’t I kept my eyes on her, anger burning through the fear. “What are you doing here?” My voice shook, but I didn’t back down. “Please,” she said, hands twisting together. “Just let me talk. Five minutes.” “No.” I shook my head. “You don’t get five minutes. You don’t get anything.” My chest burned as I looked at her, the woman who had given me life and then cut me out of hers like I was nothing. “You don’t get to stand her
Lily Thompson The second she stood up to walk up to me, my legs moved even before my mind could catch up I grabbed Theo and started moving. I didn’t stop to think. I didn’t give myself a second to process. I just turned and walked fast, too fast to look normal but not fast enough to count as running. My chest squeezed, my throat closed. The courtyard blurred, students’ faces smearing into streaks of color. My palms turned slick with sweat. She was here. My mother. The woman who disowned me. The woman whose voice had haunted me every single night, whose silence afterward cut deeper than any blade. She was here, standing in the courtyard of my college like the past hadn’t already crushed me once. “Lily!” Her voice cracked. The sound of it clawed at me. I knew that voice. I had once lived for it. I had once done everything to make her proud. And now it made bile rise in my throat. “Lily, please, just wait! Just let me talk to you!” I walked faster. My heart bange
Lily ThompsonI’d made harder decisions in my life—signing away my pride in a contract, for one—but this one still knotted my stomach.College.It should have been simple. Choose a school, enroll, finish what I’d started before everything went to hell. But no matter how many shiny brochures I flipped through or how many “fresh start” articles I scrolled past online, one name kept coming back like a bruise I couldn’t stop poking.My old college.The place where everything began and ended. Where I laughed too loud in dorm hallways, scribbled notes I never got to use, kissed Ryan in stairwells when we were supposed to be studying. Where I first found out I was pregnant. Where he left me.Part of me wanted to torch it, never set foot near those halls again.But another part—the louder, angrier part—needed to.If I can walk through those halls and not break, I told myself, then I’ll know I’m stronger than the girl he left behind. I’ll know I’m not haunted anymore.So that’s where I was goi







