Caspian PovEarlier this morning I lie in that position until morning and I am perturbed by sunlight streaming through the window. I did not get a wink of sleep. I force myself to sit up. We have a lot to do today and I especially have to venture out into the human world. I run my fingers through my hair, I can feel the start of a headache. It will be annoying if I have it for the rest of the day. I will try to take painkillers after breakfast. I try to take a quick bath and make my way to the kitchen only to see that I am the last to arrive. Everyone is already seated and Damien makes some conversation about how late I am.I don’t even know what I say to this as I walk to my seat. My head is thumping as I start to eat. I feel Ashton’s gaze on me, our eyes meet and I look away. I am sure I must look like a mess.I try to eat as fast as I can. I finish before everyone and stand on my feet, instantly interrupting the flow of the conversation but I don't remember there is a conversati
Ash POVI groan loudly, it is evening already. I don't know why I agreed to this but I regret it now that it is time. However, I can't chicken out of it, I already promised Bennie I will be there.Also, the only reason I don't want to go is that I don't want to see Flavia. I am in no mood for whatever drama this will turn into. I just want to stay in my room and sleep.However, I can't because I tend to make promises without thinking too deeply about them and now, I cannot back out.I hear a soft knock and then it quickly turns to pounding. I don't need anyone to tell me who the barbarian behind the door is, I know it is Kay.I pull open the door, glaring at him. He is dressed in running shoes and a tracksuit. The tracksuit top is zipped down and I can clearly see a white round-neck top underneath."Ah, you're ready." He says with surprise.I sneer at him, "Is that why you were knocking like a madman because you thought I wouldn't be ready?"I push him out of the way and walk past him
Ash POV"I heard my name." Vi said. "It came from your mouth, didn't it? I knew it, only you will be so disrespectful.""Head beta, I promise I didn't mean any disrespect. I was just letting Ashton know that even though I'll make an exception for her, you own my lips."I don't know which of us were more surprised, Bennie or we the viewers to the splitting knock that landed on the top of her head.I can swear I heard her skull crack. "Ooh," everybody exclaims.Bennie immediately grabs her head as she screams out in pain. "Ahh," her voice echoes in the empty field."Since you have so much energy, I guess you don't mind running two extra laps around the field?""What? That would be five. I can't possibly run five laps and still have enough energy to spar.""Six," Vi replies."Huh?" Bennie asks, she briefly stops rubbing her hair and looks up at Vi."Every time you complain, I'll add another lap.""Six is already…" I cover her lips with palm, shutting the rest of her words."She will do i
Ash POV"Which category do you belong to, Bennie?" I ask, peering at her face as I speak."Oh look, we are at the pack house. You should go in, I am sure you're exhausted as F. I will see you tomorrow. Ben, wait up!"I blink rapidly as Bennie rushes off. There is no doubt about it, she is obviously avoiding my question."Well, that's wasn't slick." Kay says as we both watch Bennie zoom off."I guess it is safe to say, it's not something she likes to talk about." I say, watching as her frame becomes smaller."Yeah," he replies and walks to the door."Do you know anything about it?" I ask, genuinely curious.Kay freezes and turns to look at me. "I don't know and even if I did I won't tell you."I glare at him, "I wasn't asking so you'll tell me. I was asking to know just how secretive it is." I do want to know about her but I don't want pry if it is uncomfortable. Hell there are things I will probably never tell her. It's annoying that Kay is looking at me like I am going behind her ba
Ash POVIt has been five days since the incident where Kay kissed me. My relationship with Caspian has only worsened since then. Even though he lives right next door, I only see him during mealtimes and as usual, he ignores me.In the space of five days, I've gone from concerned to worried to annoyed to sad to angry. I've tried ignoring him but that didn't help my case. Now, I have decided to go confront him and ask what this is about.I pinch myself, grabbing a huge part of my skin and I pull in an attempt to tell myself how bad of an idea this is. It hurt, it hurt more than I anticipated.I quickly cover my mouth at the scream that is threatening to erupt. After the pain subsides, I start toward the door. I stop with my hand on the knob.I shouldn't go out but I know if I don't do it now, I most likely never will and I don't want it to continue like this. Did I do something wrong?I want to apologize about this so we can move past this and this can return to normal. It's annoying an
Ash POV"No, you didn't. Why do you think that?" Caspian asks. He is holding the door open and I can see inside his room.My eyes widen a little at his response, he sounds cold and detached. It feels as though someone stabbed my heart with an icicle. I want to run to my room and forget this ever happened but not before I try to make the situation between us slightly better. It grinds at my gears and I really hate the distance."I don't know," I scratch my head and look away. "It just looks like you're ignoring me." I want to be angry at him but he didn't just start ignoring me. Something happened and he is likely still angry about it.It doesn't make any sense to me as I think we are already past this but I want to be sure there isn't something else I need to apologize for.Caspian sighs, "Come in." "Huh? What?" I ask. I'm sure I heard him wrong. I didn't think he would want me in his room.He grabs my arm and pulls me inside his room at my slow reaction. He closes the door behind
Caspian POV“…If you don't want what I am offering it's expected that I should stop offering, hence the avoidance." I am rambling, I know but I am basically giving her an ultimatum and I don’t like it either.I could have guessed all the possible reactions she would have to my words but not once would have guessed this. My face falls immediately and I leave the seat and rush to her side.I fucked up. There is nothing else I can say about this except the fact that I messed up big time. I made her cry. That was not my intention. I wanted to get my feelings across in the best way I knew how to and I made her cry. The wheels in my head spin as I try to clean up this messed up situation.I raise my hand to touch her face, I wipe the tears falling out of her face. "Please, don't cry." I say. "I am sorry. I didn't mean to make you cry."I don't know what else to say, I didn't anticipate for this. I anticipated that she would stomp out and I have already thought of what I would say to stop h
Ash POV"I would greatly prefer it if you didn't compare me to that dickhead. I would never do something like that to you. Not in a million years."Caspian's words warm me from the inside out. He touches the side of my face and I lean into his warm hands.I can't comprehend why I was scared anymore. Scared of letting him in. It wasn't like he has done anything to make me think he couldn't be trustworthy.I wince slightly, I thought the same about Conall and he betrayed me and there is also a high chance he betrayed my brother too."No, don't do that." Caspian says. "I can tell you are thinking of bad thoughts. Think only of me. I want to be a part of your life. I don't think I would be able to stand it if you decline so don't."Caspian runs his hand through his hair. "I don't want to tell you to trust me with your heart but let me show you that I can be trustworthy."What is this? I can feel my eyes water. Nobody has ever said that to me. I can feel his words reverberated in me. I don
Ash POVIt has been more than three days since the birthday party. It went off without a hitch. I had so much fun I can barely remember the incidents except that Caspian refused to let me out of his sight. He said I was too beautiful to be left on my own, according to him someone might kidnap me. Even though there was no chance of that happening, I did like the fact that he was all over me. It did get annoying at some point but he didn't stop me from having a good time.However, even though I had a swell time a couple of days ago, I am in bed with the sheets to my neck and a fever band on my head. I fell sick. It's a full moon today and the patrol is compulsory but Caspian is missing out on it to stay with me. I feel awful, he is the alpha of the pack but I am keeping him away like this."You know you don't have to stay with me. It's just a little fever, I will be fine on my own." I say as he changes the fever band on my forehead.He glares at me, "The fact that you think I would le
Ash POVIt's my birthday, I am actually more excited than I thought I would be but it wouldn't have been possible for me not to be excited not with the enthusiasm Claire has shown as the birthday party planner."You don't have to go this far Claire, I can handle this," I say as she forces me to take a seat in front of my dresser."Absolutely not. It is your birthday, there is no way I am gonna let you dress up by yourself.""But…""No buts," Bennie says and holds up two different earrings. "Which do you think will match perfectly, Claire?""Huh? Aren't you supposed to ask me?" I yell out."Nah, I am pretty sure the designer is the one who decides.""It's my day, don't I get to decide anything?""Of course not. Leave everything else to us. It's your day," Bennie says, wiggling her brows. "You're not required to do anything. Let the adults handle this.""Wait, what do you mean adults? You're just a couple of months older than me." I glare at her."Still older," she smirks.I glare harde
Ash POVI move my head even faster and he grabs my hair to pull me off him. I don’t understand what this means and I hold, not letting him pull me off.“I am gonna…” he blurts out and I feel him spurt against the back of my throat. I swallow before I realize what is happening.“Did you just swallow?” Caspian asks as he pulls back my head with horror in his eyes.I smile up at him, nodding. “Why? Spit it out.”“I can’t,” I reply. It wasn’t exactly my intention to swallow. I can taste it at the back of my throat and it tastes gnarly.“Why did you swallow it?”I stick out my tongue, “It tastes weird.”“Don’t say that,” Caspian says with an embarssed expression and I burst out laughing.He grabs my cheeks and pinches them a little too hard, stopping my laughter immediately. “Ow,” cry, “That hurts.”“Serves you right.”I try to kiss him and he shrinks back in fear. “Nooo, I don’t want to taste it.”“I swallowed it,” I glare at him.“You didn’t have to,” he says and looks away.I raise a
Ash POVI am kneeling on the bed with my legs across Caspian. He is sitting on the bed with his back against the bed’s headboard. He is hard as a rock underneath me and I feel him press against my sensitive parts. I can swear I feel him grow some more and it takes me everything not to squirm against him. His hands slowly make their way up the back of my shirt, I try to keep still as his warm hands caress me. They slowly move from the back to the front until cups my breast with his hands. I break the kiss and lean on his shoulder as I try to catch my breath. His hands on my chest don't slow down and all I can do is hold on to him as the waves of pleasure carry me away. I am supposed to be in charge, why am I the one panting against him while he is in perfect state? Without thinking I softly bite the side of his neck and Caspian groans against me. I bite harder and he curses. I suck on his neck and he squeezes tighter on my breasts.His fingers pinches the tip and I gasp, I throw my
Ash POV"Wait for me," he whispers directly into my right ear. I feel his breath on my ear and the side of my neck, it sends shivers down my spine.I nod obediently and he pulls away from me. I watch him while rooted beside the door. He doesn't turn around and I keep watching him until the bathroom door closes.I put my hand to my chest, it is beating so hard I am sure he heard it before he left me. I groan and climb to the side of the bed.I slip between the sheets and pull the cover sheets all the way to my face. My face reddens as I think of what will happen when he comes out. I cover my face with my palm and close my eyes."Oh no," I mumble. I can't quell my excitement.I sleep on my side with the sheets pulled all the way to my head. It's a little hard to breathe underneath it but it hides my face.After what feels like forever, I hear the bathroom door open and fight the urge to peek out of the sheet. I hear Caspian bustling around in the room and then I hear his footsteps appro
Ash POVI don’t know who is more surprised by the kiss but Caspian recovers quickly as he presses me against him and kisses me hard.I pull away from him gasping for air. "We should go inside," I say with my head down."Indeed," he says with amusement and kisses the top of my head.He removes his hand from my waist and grabs my hand. He pulls to the door and holds it open until we both go through the door.I immediately smell cooking but Caspian doesn't let me go and just pulls me through the living room and to the stairs. We stop in front of his room and he still holds me tightly."Caspian," I say gently as he opens his door."Yes," he responds but doesn't make any attempt to look at me."Let me go to my room and clean up. I will join you in a moment." I say as gently as I can even though I am fighting the urge to smack the back of his head."No," he says without any explanation.I open my mouth to protest and he pulls me into the room and shuts the door. He closes the gap between us
Ash POV"Just be happy with the person you like and stop being so stiff and let someone love you." She says with a bright smile."I can let someone love me, stop saying weird things." I glare at her."Oh really, I can tell you're the one with the issues in the relationship because Alpha sounds like he wants to keep you all to himself. I mean anyone with an eye can see that.""He just has a protective streak," I say with a pout."Protective my ass. Do you see him lifting me in my arms? Why do you think I thought something was going on between you two?" She smirks knowingly.I sigh, I want to tell her my fears but I will have to tell her more than I want to and I don't think I am ready for that."I do think it's a good thing," she says when I don't say anything. She looks to the corner of the room and screams out. "Holy smokes! Look at the time. Vi is gonna have our heads.""Oh my goodness," I say, following her gaze. "It's past five. What's Kay doing?"I rush out of bed and yo the war
Ash POV"Claire!" I cry. "I can't breathe.""Oh my God. I am so sorry." She says and immediately lets go of me.I lean forward and go into a fit of cough which subside quickly, thankfully. I take a deep breath and lean back on the couch."It is fine," I smile faintly at her.She still looks worried and she leans on to check my face. "Are you okay?" She asks.I nod, "Yes, I am.""Sorry about that," she chuckled awkwardly. "I just wanted you to know how sorry I am.""I get it and thank you for apologizing.""It's no problem." She said and gave me a hug before standing to her feet. "Let me know if you need anything."I nod and she waves and skips away. I sit on the couch for a couple minutes and I remember that I did not reply to Bennie.I quickly shoot her a reply apologizing without giving out any details. I don't want to explain on the phone if I am going to explain in person.As soon as I am done replying, I head upstairs. As much as I want to check on Kay I know it is better to give
Ash POVI hear the sound of the microwave go off as I start to send out a reply. As I stand on my feet I hear the sound of someone coming into the kitchen. I turn around to see Claire and I instinctively freeze as the memory of the conversation I had with Caspian pops in my head. For a millisecond, I am stunned and at a loss for words. "Ashton," Claire says and walks into the kitchen.The sound of her voice snaps me out of the trance and I manage to smile as I say her name. "Claire, good morning.""Rough night, huh?" She says with a soft smile."Not really," I say and turn away from her. "I was just lazy." I stop in front of the microwave and pull out my meal. Boy, does it smell heavenly.I blow a mind kiss to Damien and make my way back to the table. I see Claire is also seated and my stomach knots up but I immediately ignore it and go to sit opposite from her.I dig into my meal but she doesn't say anything, just sits watching me eat. I frown but I don't comment, I just pick up my