She's finally asleep again, leaving me alone with my thoughts. I felt a bit uneasy as I lay there beside her thinking about my next move. When I insisted Zak and Tyler bring me here, they weren't exactly on board, but they understood my need to get to her. Their reason for not wanting me to rush things is that there was no set plan in mind.But I couldn't not come to her once it came to light that Janie and her dad, along with Mary and the others, were planning to not only harm her but take her life. The fear I felt in that moment overshadowed everything else, and all I could think about was getting to her, if only to stand in front of her, protecting her from the danger.They weren't planning to rush right out and harm her, but for me, it made no difference; even a second more away from her after hearing that would've been too much for me to bear. But as usual, I didn't think about what came next; I just couldn't ignore the need in me to be next to her.Tyler and Zak had offered to ha
"Ryder?" Her voice sounded groggy with sleep."I'm here baby girl.""I thought it was a dream." For a few seconds more, she held on tight until she came fully awake and reality set in. Then she tried easing away from me, but I wasn't yet ready to let go.I knew that once I did, the fear would be back in her eyes, and it was killing me that, once again, I'd handled things so poorly. I should've waited until things were settled, but still, how could I have done that, knowing she was in trouble?There was no threat of immediate physical danger, and I knew I had to take things slow and be extra careful with the way I handled things in the next few days. I came here knowing that I would have to leave her physically for a few days at least, but I couldn't wait to reforge the bond that had been broken. Now I was having second thoughts about my strategy.There was no hope for it, though, no turning back, and all I could do was make sure she knew that I won't ever leave her again, that I was he
As expected, she wasn't handling the news of Rachel's betrayal very well. I held her through her crying jag, which broke my heart into pieces, and then I had a time of it getting her to calm down and not do anything rash once the tears were over.She wanted to confront the other woman as soon as she returned in a day or two, but I had something better up my sleeve, something I was hoping she'd agree to not only for her sake but for my own peace of mind as well.Since I couldn't stay here with her just yet, there was no way I wanted her here alone, so when she took a trip to the bathroom to wash her face, I made a quick call to the guys with my suggestion, but since we didn't have a lot of time before she got back I didn't exactly get an answer from them, not that I needed one in this situation. As long as it was about her safety, I wasn't about to take any chances, and I was almost certain they'd see things my way. So I waited for her return to put my plan into action and hoped for th
"So, I don't understand; how did you come to be here? Do you know Ryder's new friends?""Yes, of course, come on upstairs and have a rest, I bet you have a million questions, and we didn't get to talk a lot the last time we met." I felt very calm in her presence, almost like you'd expect to feel after a long day spent at the spa being pampered.When she led me up the grand staircase to the largest master suite I'd ever seen, which seemed to be the only room in the house that had been decorated in any way, I followed without complaint. This room was gorgeous, and I noticed that it had many of the things I would've liked and chosen myself, which meant Ryder had done this. But how did he know that I would agree to come here?"Your young man told us what you liked, and we had it taken care of. It's a bit rush, and he did say that you would be redecorating at some point, so don't mind if it's not exactly as you would've liked.""Are you kidding? It's gorgeous; I love it." Even the green cur
"Where's Ryder? I want Ryder.""I'm sorry, ma'am, but you're not allowed any visitors at this time.""Well, has he called? Has anyone?""I'll have to go check in a minute." I don't even remember how I got here or what happened after I collapsed on the floor.My hands were tied to the hospital bed and bandaged, probably to keep me from tearing at the flesh on my face, which was only now starting to settle down from that awful itching and burning that was driving me insane.I'd already answered all the questions the doctors had asked, like where I'd been in the last few days or if I'd tried anything new and such, all to which I'd answered no, and their seeming ignorance as to what was happening to me was only adding to my fear. I tried to tell them about the flowers, I even tried to get them to read the message on my phone, but it was gone. Now they probably think that I had indeed lost my mind.I'd heard them whispering about closing off our home as if it were contaminated or something,
"Did you eat?" I didn't want to take time away from her to go deal with everything she'd shared right now. And besides, my plate was already full to the brim, and I could do with a break. It didn't help that the only person I really wanted to talk to about everything that was going on was the one person I wished to keep that ugliness away from."No, I thought I'd wait for you." She blushed, and I kissed the tip of her nose, wondering how long it would be before this feeling of giddiness went away. I hope never; I hope I never grow to take her and our time spent together for granted again. I still get a hitch in my heart at how close I came to losing her forever.In fact, it still feels like a dream come true that she's even talking to me, and that welcome I just received is something I thought it would take me years to earn. Not that I'm complaining, one of the things I knew about her is her forgiving heart and how easy it used to be for me to get back into her good graces, but this ti
There was a lot to be done, not just me turning up at the house. I had to call Janie's dad and my manager, and anyone else who would be affected by this change with the pretense that I cared. Things had already been worked out where I'd have an excuse for not being here and not being able to spend any time with Janie at the hospital since she was in quarantine. This was all explained to me on the way to the house, and I don't know how many times I asked the question of whether three little girls had really planned all this.It seemed so meticulous, calculated even, that it was hard to wrap my mind around it. My only answers, though, were usually grunts and nods, if that, and I was left to draw my own conclusions. I was driven around to the back of my home, a place I don't think I'd ever seen before we filed out of the three vans that came.We snuck inside without being noticed, and it was then I was told that the men in hazmat suits who were going to show up were part of Lyon's squad a
"You straight? It's time to get out of here. Be sure to take everything you need because you won't be coming back here for a while." Tyler came into the room to find me standing there, lost in thought. Every once in a while, I'll get hit with a flash of memory that I wasn't sure was real, and I'll have to stop and think it through to make sure that I wasn't having some type of withdrawal effect.Right now, though, I was thinking of the best way to play this. I have to think about Elena with my every move now, and since she didn't know what I was involved with, the way things may look to her, and the way the press was going to play this, it could very well set us back.I kept my head down as we left because there was nothing more fun than reading everyone's thoughts on what I was feeling or doing. No doubt the headlines will read that I was bereft and heartbroken or some other such crap because they'd been conditioned for the last five years to believe that I was deeply in love with tha
I saw it as soon as I saw her walking towards the car. Even from this distance, her eyes gave it away. It’s amazing that after all that time apart, I can still read her so well. I knew from the looks of things that she’d spent the day worrying about someone who didn’t deserve it; in fact, I knew it would be like this even before I left her because that’s just who she is, and still, I’d let her go to work like that. I have to do better than this. This was one of my many failings from before, not protecting her even from herself. She’s so brilliant in everything else, always knowing the right thing to say or do, that it was never really needed, except when it came to herself. For everyone else, she’s a champion of causes, the one you want next to you in a fight. As long as the fight is for someone else.I’d seen it, time and again, the way she’d put herself last to take care of others and had taken advantage of that fact a time or two myself. Something I am now grievously ashamed of. Of
“You’ve got the wrong guy. Don’t you people know who I am? Hey, I’m talking to you; answer me, dammit.” They ignored me again like they had the last ten times I said the same. I’ve been repeating that refrain or some variation of it since they threw me back here with cuffs on and no regard for my comfort. At first, I tried telling myself that it was because of my disheveled appearance that they didn’t recognize me, but then I remembered that they’d called me by name in the alley, and that line of thought went nowhere, but only worked to heighten my fear and desperation.I was trying hard not to shit myself while worrying about the cameras that were bound to meet us as soon as we reached the station. “Hey guys, give me a break here; you know I’m not good for this; you should be out there looking for the real killer. At least let me get cleaned up before you take me in. I can’t let my fans see me like this.” Nothing, it was as if I wasn’t even there.I haven’t even had time to digest th
In moments of clarity, I kept telling myself I could bounce back from this, that things were not as final as they seemed, and then my head would become filled with all the ways I’d been wronged, and I’d get so mad I could throw up. All the way back to my childhood home with the two strange men upfront, silent as the dead, ignoring my questions, all I wanted to do was scream.One moment, I felt hopeful and ready to fight for what was mine, and the next, I didn’t have the energy to keep my eyes open. I knew it was partly because of the long drive the night before and partly the drugs messing with me, and still, I couldn’t help taking a couple more just to numb the pain.All I could think about was how hard things were going to be, how people were going to laugh at me, how low I had fallen. No matter how much I told myself to think positively and not give up, those were the only thoughts that seemed to want to hang around, and so they lingered.It wasn’t long before the pills started to d
“Do you want to call out today? Tell them you’re not feeling well?”“No, I can’t do that to the others, they have lives too, you know, and they didn’t sign up for my personal drama. I’ll be fine, Ryder, don’t worry about me.” I had to say those words because what else was I going to say? But deep inside, I was a mess and trying very hard to hold onto my sanity.I find myself caught up in a melee of troubling thoughts that don’t sit well with me, and there was no time to think it all through because I had to go to work and be my best in front of the cameras, not giving away any of what I was feeling. It's enough to make me throw up.If it were up to me, I’d go back to bed and pull the covers over my head until it all passed, but I don’t have that option. I thought I would be happy to see my enemy brought low. I’d imagined it a million times over the years, every time I hurt, each time I thought of him with her. I’m only human, after all, and someone else was married and living with the
“We’ve got sound.”“What, they let you back on the island?”“They don’t know we’re back in.”“I’m pretty sure Russo had a hand in this.”“You would be right; only he could pull off something like this. That’s why we need him on our side.”Another ingrate. “You still haven’t told me how you found every one of us.”“Well, I was doing your job.”“I’m not looking for fuck.”“You found Lorde.”“He found me.”“If you say so.”“I’m not in the mood for your hoodoo bullshit.”“It’s the law of attraction, Lyon; they’re all coming home. Don’t you find it strange that the kids in Cali all found each other without knowing about their ancestral past? We should talk to Catalina about this; I’d love to hear her take on it.”“You talk to her. I ain’t saying shit to that kid.”“You’re just salty because she’s your carbon copy but in a cuter package.”“Kiss my ass. By the way, if she has those lions on that island, I’ll leave the whole lot of you there to get eaten, dumb ass.”“They were taken back to wh
What in the world is going on? Am I having an episode, or is this really happening right now? Things seem to be moving very fast one moment, only to slow way down the next, and everything is all out of place. My head was still spinning from my earlier rush of anger, and I could tell that any second now, I was going to lose my breath or have a total meltdown.Ryder looked just as confused as I was, and the hand that I’d used to slug her with stung as he held it gripped tightly in his. There was way too much to unpack here, not least of all the things Janie had revealed in the video we’d all just watched.My chest felt tight as I fought the urge to attack her again, but I knew as much anger as I felt, she was not the only one to blame here. I could lay it all at her feet for sure since she was the idiot who couldn’t take no for an answer. But I have to ask myself, had it not been her, would they have found someone else? From what I see, they would’ve used anyone to serve their purpose; s
I should’ve seen it coming, but even I didn’t think she was this stupid. Janie flew up from the chair in a rage and went after Elena, talons bared and teeth gnashing like something out of the wild. And before I or either Jared or Travis could reach them, Elena swung and knocked her down with a punch to the face. The screeching was almost unbearable in the empty room as it bounced off the walls like an echo.Elena, my little angel who I believe has never hurt a fly, stood over her and pulled her hair back hard with her hand raised, ready to wail on her again, but then she suddenly stopped and jumped away from Janie as if she’d been prodded by something. Unfair as it was, I was about to let Janie have it for whatever it was she had done to hurt her, but then Elena spoke, and it was the horror in her voice that had me stepping forward to take a closer look.“What the hell? What happened to your face?” I almost laughed at Elena’s question, thinking she was being facetious since she was the
“Where are we going?” She whispered the question as we were being driven through the quiet early morning New York streets by the two very stoic men up front.“I have no idea; they didn’t say. Are you nervous?” She turned to look out the tinted window while keeping her hold on my arm, where she had hers wrapped around my elbow.“Not really. Isn’t that strange?”“I know what you mean. I was thinking the same thing earlier.” I don’t feel this at ease around men I hire myself and have known for years.“Have you noticed, though, how quiet the street was when we left the apartment?”“It’s early.”“Yeah, but this is New York; there’s always someone outside, no matter how late or how early it is. I don’t think there was even a pigeon on the sidewalk.”I’d noticed that, too, and didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to spook her, but I was pretty sure the two men up front had something to do with that. I wouldn’t be surprised because all of Lyon’s men seem to have some sort of tactical trai
The phone rang just as I came out the shower. I’d been in there for much longer than was necessary, thinking about the way my life had changed so drastically in only a few short weeks. It seems impossible, and I still find myself having these moments where I want to pinch myself to make sure that it’s real.In that space of time, I’d gone from wishing for death to wanting to live more than anything. From living in the worst kind of hell imaginable to being the happiest I’ve ever been in my existence. The only thing plaguing me now was how easy it had been for me to lose everything the last time and worrying about how not to let it happen again.I doubt I’d be such an ass twice, but I hadn’t expected things to go south the last time either, and that’s what’s worrying the hell out of me. How blind I was to the people and situations around me. Drugs had played a part in it, sure, but I won’t use that as an excuse for the mess I’d made of our lives.I wasn’t in any hurry to answer the phon