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I lazily walked downstairs knowing fully well I won't be able to sleep, you won't either if your husband's brother whom you have slept with is two rooms away from yours.
I'm going crazy as my mind conjured different questions, why is he here? There's no way in hell I'm believing I have no place to stay shit. What if he's here to threaten me? I should have kept my legs closed. What if Javier finds out? I'm screwed.
I closed my eyes in a stupid attempt to let my thoughts go, I finally made it into the kitchen.
I switched the lights on, bending my head down because of the brightness of the light, once I got used to it I walked over to the fridge to get something to drink.
I held the handle, opening it as the cold air that accompanied the fridge hit my face hard as I stared at the stocked fridge in adoration.
I can defiantly get used to this.
"Can't sleep?" I turned around immediately as my heart skipped a beat, I set my eyes on a smirking Ace.
So much for avoiding him.
I bit my lips trying to keep my eyes on his face, not his naked chest.
Fuck it! Just a tiny peep.
My eyes scanned his muscular arm trailing down to his tattooed abs, the lightning of the kitchen was made for him.
"It's not cool to stare." I brought my eyes up immediately, I bit down on my cheeks as we locked eyes.
I turned around facing the opened fridge pretending to be looking for something, while in fact, I'm mentally cursing myself.
"You can't sleep either?" I rolled my eyes at my stupid question until a bowl of heaven caught my attention.
Ice cream.
"Yeah."I nodded on hearing his reply, raising myself up to get the bowl of ice cream, standing on my toes.
I hate being short.
"If I didn't know better, I'd say you are seducing me." His deep voice startled me, I rested on my feet pushing the big t-shirt down as my cheeks heated up.
Why can't this boy just go away?
"Let me help you with that." I shifted aside, keeping a safe distance from the sex god himself.
How am I supposed to live with him?.
"Have it." He winked at me.
"Thanks." Taking the cold bowl into my arms, I walked over to get a spoon.
"I'm just gonna go upstairs." The tension in here's crazy, I need to leave.
"Avoiding me? Good call." He winked, I walked away not giving a reply.
"My brother's one lucky dude, I'd tap that ass anytime, any day." I climbed the stairs faster as he started laughing.
"Relax, I'm kidding."I finally got upstairs, I could no longer hear him.
Why do I have a feeling he's going to ruin my marriage?
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"I have been avoiding him ever since that night." I took a sip of my coffee looking at an amused Gem, I don't know why I keep on telling her my problems, she clearly finds it amusing.
"You lucky bitch, you used to be the boring one in our relationship, now you are married to a billionaire and screwing his brother." My eyes widened as she grinned.
"I'm not..." I yelled, soon realizing people at the coffee shop are staring I reduced my voice.
"I'm not screwing his brother, it's only that one time and it was a mistake." She gave a devilish smile.
"Oh please, mistake? We both know you wanted his dick in that hole of yours."
"You are right, I'm a whore, it was not a mistake but now my marriage is at stake." I put the coffee down for I found no use of it anymore.
"Calm down Loren, you overthink things too much. Maybe he really needs a place to stay." I rolled my eyes at this statement.
"I'm scared shitless, Gemma. Javi is such a nice person, I don't want to hurt him. Can you believe I haven't had sex with him because of this guilt." Gemma spits her coffee out in shock.
"Girl, you are taking it way too far, poor sex-deprived Javi, you have to have sex with your husband." She glared at me.
"I know." I buried my hands inside my hair as I faced down.
"My shift starts at 2, I have to go to the hospital." I picked up my bag.
"Will you take care of the bill?" I asked picking my coffee.
"Of course not, you are the one that's married to a billionaire." I chuckled putting some cash on the table.
"Call me." She yelled as I walked away.
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"That will be all, your surgery is scheduled for Monday." I smiled at Mrs. Brooks.
"Thank you so much, Dr. Loren " She stands up.
"No problem," I said as she leaves. I looked at my watch, my shift would be over in the next 2 hours.
I picked up the office telephone, pressed a couple of buttons.
"Send the next patient in," I informed Julia, before putting the phone down not waiting for her reply.
Almost immediately, my main phone started ringing. I pulled it closer to me only to see it's Javier that's calling. I picked it up and put my phone on my ear.
"Hey love, how are you doing?" Javi's deep voice was heard.
"I'm good, you?"
"Great, can't wait to see you." Isn't he the cutest?.
"Are you going to be home for dinner?" I noticed the doorknob of my office being twisted.
It must be the patient.
"I think I'd be able to make it." The door finally opened, my heart racing as the person that accompanied the opened door left me in shock.
If you guessed, it's Ace.
What's he doing here? Why's he here.
"Hello, Loren are you there?" I came out of shock realizing I'm still on the phone with Javier.
"Can I call you later?" I said as Ace stood in his handsome glory.
"Su..." I cut the phone on Javi, facing my current situation.
"What are you doing here?" I asked immediately I put my phone down.
"That's no way to talk to a patient, Mrs. Grey, " I think his plan is to frustrate me.
"You are not a patient" I replied.
"I'm sick." He sat across to me.
"What's wrong with you?" I rolled my eyes, carrying out a file and a clipboard, took out my pen planning to write something down.
"Well, I'm sexually frustrated." I put my pen down and glared at him, he's pissing me off.
I need to set things straight.
"Look Ace, want ever transpired between us was a mistake, I want.." I was cut off rudely.
"You really don't take a joke, do you? It's fun when you get worked up, I'm just here because I'm bored." I breathed in.
"This is a professional place where people with actual problems come to, besides don't you have a girlfriend." According to Stacey, they are in love.
"I do?" He popped bubblegum in his mouth, making me look at my almost empty jar of gum.
"Yeah, Stacey?" Why am I even having this conversation with him?.
"Doesn't ring a bell." How can somebody look so sexy just chewing on a gum?.
"According to her, you guys met at my wedding rehearsal."
"Oh, that hot chick, she's crazy." That I figured out.
"Ace, you really can't be here, I need.." I soon realized he's not listening to me rather looking at my desk intensively.
"Ace!" I called out, he finally looked at me.
"Oh pardon me, I was just imaging you bent over this desk as I slam into you, hard, deep, and fast." My eyes widened as I processed his vulgar words, my heart racing. What's annoying is I feel myself getting wet.
Just then, his sexy laugh came on, making me a blushing mess.
"You really need to make jokes more often." His phone began to ring, rescuing me from the embarrassment I'm facing.
"I need to take this." I breathed out as he exited.
What's wrong with you Loren?
I crossed my legs tight, mentally reminding myself to keep my legs closed.
I didn't realize how long my internal battle took but Ace came back in.
"I actually came to drop this off." He pushed a jewelry box forward.
"Mum says welcome to the family." He winked before taking his leave. I opened the box to see a shining gold necklace.
Gosh! I'm so stupid, I'm here thinking he wants to have sex with me, while he actually came to drop his mum's jewelry.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid but I obviously can't resist him, so I have to find a way to get him out of that house before my marriage gets ruined.
It shouldn't be that hard right?
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ACE'S POINT OF VIEWIt took everything in me to prevent myself from acting like an animal and fuck Loren senseless. Gosh she looked so good in that black sleek blouse tucked into the white bodycon skirt, it's such a shame she hides those curves inside that huge white lab cloth.I thought with one fuck I'd get her out of my system but I want her more than ever. I know it's wrong, she's my brother's wife but she makes my betrayal worth it.So fucking worth it.Just thinking of her got me hard as fuck, I pushed the newspaper aside, after all, I'm paying no attention to it."Your coffee, sir." I looked up to the flirty waitress, well I'm more focused on boobs that are literarily on my face."Well, thank you," I smirked as she smiled seductively, pushing her boobs closer.Well, I don't mind."Do you need a
~~~"Hey." I snaked my arms around Javier's waist raising my head up to have a look at my image on the mirror in front of us."Hey." He turns around and places a kiss on my lips, a smile crept up my lips."How was work?" I looked up at him, this is what wives do right?."Boring as always, by the way, I for you something." He smiles pushing his hands into his pocket, I bit my lips waiting."Hope you don't want to ask me to marry you again?" I joked as I saw him pull out a box."I don't mind getting married to you again." He opened the box, revealing the most beautiful necklace I've ever set my eyes on."O my.." I took the box out of his hands having a closer look."Let me help." He takes it out of the box, I turned around taking a deep breath as I felt the cold necklace fall on my chest.
I stared at the mirror studying every detail of my purple lace dress, I twirled a little bit bringing my right leg forward admiring the slit.I placed my hands on my waist slowly moving down my hip, absolutely in love with the way the lace hugged my skin, now the only problem I have now is the cleavage.It's too revealing."Gem, I think I'm going to change." I tiled a little bit still looking at myself in the mirror."I'll murder you if you do, you look amazing." I turned to my sweet mouthed best friend still in a battle with the fake eyelashes.I was going to reply but my annoying ringtone cut me off, I walked towards the sound, stopping in front of my study table.It's Javi."Hey," I muttered after I swiped the red button on my phone."Hey, love." Javier's voice came up, I put the phone on loudspeaker before dropp
~~~~~~"Were you just coming out of my brother's room?"It's Javier.I stood there completely shocked and frozen.I'm screwed.I turned around as my heart literarily drops, setting my eyes on a neatly suited up Javier."Huh, I- I was just checking if Gemma was in there, you know, crazy night." Lies rolled out of my tongue smoothly, my heart beating so hard it won't be a surprise if pops out anytime."Well is she in there, did they have sex?" If not because of the state of panic I'll be amused with Javier's attempt to gossip with me."N- no she's not, she must have left early this morning." The fact that we are staying longer in front of Ace's room scares the crap out of me, what if he comes out?."Why are you in clothes?" He questioned further."Going to put it in
~~~"He wants sex, don't blame him though 2 weeks of being married no sex, tragic. This vacation is leading to pound town and you have to be ready, I going to pick you up at the hospital in an hour for lingerie shopping.""My shift doesn't end till 3 and.." I was interrupted by my ever sensitive best friend."Great, I'll pick you up at 2." Hanging up before I could give a reply. I dropped the phone on the finely furnished wooden table of my office, burying my fingers in my hair, my head down, eyes closed thinking about how drastically my life as changed over the past few weeks.I wouldn't say I had a perfect life but I loved my life, in my dream job, surrounded by an amazing friend but now it's just... it's just, I don't even know what's going on with me, who I am.I have never been this reckless, cruel, lacked self-control, I'm disgusted with my self, my person.~~~~ 
~~~~~"You know it's not cool to stare." I'll admit I've been staring but it's for a good cause, or however you'll put it. It's my attempt to make him talk since I'll obviously not say a word.And it worked.After an hour in my room completely bored out of my mind, I moved to the living room to watch a movie, and apparently I met Ace still on his goddamn phone."M-me I'm not staring." If my stuttering at first could be ignored, I'll say I'm good at this lying game but of course someone's better."Yeah right." With his short and simple words, the room went back to its intense silence.So much for wanting him to say something."Glad you guys are not trying to eat each other up." I surprisingly watched as Gemma image surfaces.How did she get in?"Hey, Ace." She called out, Ace gave a nod towards her
~~~"How's your vacation?" Gemma wiggles eyebrows, I rolled my eyes bringing my phone closer."If it's going great I won't have time to facetime you." We arrived at Manhattan early this morning only for Javier to leave the minute we entered the hotel room, promising to be back in the next two hours for a tour but guess who ended up alone for a lot more than two hours, it's 11:15 right now, no call no nothing. So much for trying to work on our boring marriage."Ouch, what's happening?""Javi is out here working and I'm alone in the hotel room.""Bummer.""Yeah, I was going to surprise him with the lingerie and all." I had to remove the lingerie hours back, it's absolutely uncomfortable."Sad." I raised my eyebrows at her reply."Okay, what's going on?"
~~~I feel so dirty, my head aching my entire body hurts, I'm tired of crying, I'm tired. I closed my eyes as the water from the shower falls on my body, I could feel the tears rising up again this time I let it fall, I need some kind of release, I need to cry.I continued scrubbing my body inflicting more injury on my already bruised body not wanting to come to a realization that it's the memories of last night that needs to be washed away.I want to forget.The scary thing is that the memory sticks forever.Many questions ran through my mind as I watched the man that inflicted so much pain on me than any other person in my life sleep this morning.Was that the real Ja
FEW WEEKS LATERLOREN'S POINT OF VIEW"Hey." I awkwardly muttered, covering my baby bump with my coat. I slowly bent down holding the flowers on my right hand, looking at the tombstone before placing it on the grass.With a sad smile, I stood up while holding my baby bump."I sat in the car for hours because I didn't think I had the courage to be standing here but here I am, here I am." I repeated. I don't know why I just kept on staring at the birth year and year of death.Too soon."I am sorry, it's all my fault. It's all my fault that you are gone and I can't do nothing about it." I looked up trying to prevent the incoming tears from falling, I promised myself I would not cry but it is becoming harder.My eyes went to the other grave beside the one I am standing on, it's has Ace's dad name boldly written on it."Co
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW"Javi, please put the gun down." Ace voice came again this time calmer, my heart beating fast at each passing moment as the gun moved back and forth between me and Ace."Shut the hell up, that's not going to work again, I am not stupid." He yelled, anger evident in his eyes, one can tell it is only a thin thread that is holding him from completely loosing it."You know what? Both of you get the hell up." I slowly got up so did Ace, he pulls me behind him which I didn't like.I did notice Ace eyes constantly flickering from the ground and back at Javier, I followed his eyes only to see the gun which he dropped earlier.I froze at the thought of what he's about to do.Is he trying to get himself killed?Ace is obviously not thinking straight before he can get to the gun,
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEWHis reaction to my words makes me what to rethink my decision but I have to stay strong if not for me but for the child I am carrying."I understand your decision but if you could just hear me out." He spoke so softly."What do you what to tell me exactly? Hmmm, that you have been lying about Louisa's death, Zach's and you didn't think of giving me a heads up that your brother is a psychopath that killed his ex-wife. But what do you care as long as you can get in my pants." I am pissed, I really don't know what to believe."That's not true, Loren and you know that." He leaves the couch, standing right in front of me."I don't really know anything at the moment." I am tired of everything, everyone."One question Loren, if I came t
ACE'S POINT OF VIEW."Bet you didn't know, Louisa was in love with you, she was madly in love with you right from the start, she was going to leave me because of you." I froze at his words, staring at him in disbelief.Th-that's impossible.I raised my head only to notice the gun being pointed at me.I gulped hard, trying to process it all.He's lying, he has to be.He let out a low laugh, turning the gun back to his head."Always oblivious aren't you, Ace Grey loved by all yet he doesn't know." I didn't know what to say or think."Since we were kids, she loved you more than a friend. Louisa had always loved you and I had always loved her." My breaths soon became forced, realizing how everything is my fault.
ACE'S POINT OF VIEW.I watched her walk out of the club like something heavy just hit hard on my chest, I found my self feeling uneasy at each retracting step.It hurts that I hurt her, I wanted her to feel what I'm feeling by saying those things to her but it just became worse, I feel worse.I'm an ass. It's not her fault that I fell in love with her, it's not her fault at all. All this is my fault.My heart took control of my legs, I found myself outside the club looking for her so that I could apologize, tell her I didn't mean what I said.I finally spotted her car before I could get to it, it started moving. My head is telling me to go back into the club but my heart has other plans.So I got into my car and stupidly followed her all the way back home.
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW I looked over my shoulders to ensure that Javier is asleep, it's been 2 hours since Ace texted for us to meet. 2 hours of pure anxiety, I'm so anxious as I wonder what he's thinking right now? Is he mad at me?. I have made up my mind I'm going to tell him everything, I don't want to lose him. I just can't. My life is already fucked up as it is, I just want to the runway as Ace suggested. I'm done playing a cop, things are way bigger than me now, I have this lookout for my unborn child. Unborn child. I couldn't help but smile at the thought, I can not think of a better man to be with when welcoming this baby to the world. Excitement replaced my worry, no matter who the father is,
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW. All I could do was take rapid breaths in and out, feeling like if I don't breathe for a second the weight on my chest will rise up to my throat, tighten it and choke me up until I give out. I sat frozen on the bathroom floor, staring at down at the black tiled floor, fearing that moving an inch would mean facing reality, a reality that I'm damn sure I don't face, I can't face. Many thoughts have run through my head, thoughts I'm not proud off and it's eating me up alive. How can I be this stupid, this can't be happening to me, I don't miss my pills, I mean I don't think I did. Gosh, I'm so stupid. I don't want to be pregnant, I can't be, my life's a mess and its all my fault. I pretty sure the water in my eyes has run dry, totally b
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEW. "I love you." My heart skipped a beat, while processing his words. I stared right into his eyes, my heart hurts just staring at the admiration in his eyes. I tried not to let the incoming tear drop but its hard just staring at the expectation in his expression. I bit my lips in a stupid attempt to ensure that I don't say something stupid, silence filled the room. He broke the stare, the smile that was once on his face disappeared slowly, breaking my heart. What's wrong with you Loren? I finally moved, I slowly placed my arms around his neck, lifting my feet up a little bit, staring directly into his eyes. I leaned in placing my lips on his, he didn't move for a second, my heart beating hard as my closed my eyes, he soon puts his ha
LOREN'S POINT OF VIEWI walked into the boutique, giving a tight smile to the cashier and at the corner of my eyes I spotted Leah, I looked away immediately, pretending to shop.I took out some clothes not paying attention, I walked over to where Leah is at pretending not to see her."Loren?" I turned to feign surprise."Leah," I called out, pulling her to a hug, which is super awkward.Leah could be the key to knowing what job my dear husband is actually involved in. She was able to slip once, I can get do it again."What are you doing here?" She asked."I shop here all the time." I lied."Really? I own this place." I gasped, trying to look surprised.