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My Brother Is My Mate REGRETS.
“Are you speaking about brotherly love, Carmine?” “No.” He shook his head. “This is Gérard we are talking about, he doesn’t have such feelings for you, we both know for sure that you are his first love and he’s deeply in love with you.’ His words melted my heart. I smiled, and then it hit me. ‘What am I going to do, Carmine? Does this mean I can never be with him?’ He dropped his hands and put them at their sides. “I don’t know how to answer that. I know it’s hard, but the only thing I can tell you is that you should forget about him for the rest of your life and move on.” My frightened eyes widened. “Move on.’ I whispered. It was as if a bucket of iced water was poured on me. Wasn’t he the one encouraging me a while ago? Carmine gazed at me sadly? “Life is such a cruel place, isn’t it, Oceana?” He left. That’s it. I ran after him and Carmine ignored me and said no word. It devastated me. I should move on. That’s what Carmine said to me. He wants me to move on. How dare he p
Last Updated : 2023-03-14My Brother Is My Mate REGRETS (PART TWO)
I don’t care what the realms will say, I will just make up some stories about being sick and not attending the wedding and that would have been it. I don’t care what people would say, or neither do I give a fuck.Before the announcement of the wedding, which was a couple of three days ago, I had summoned Gérard to my chambers and begged him not to go ahead with this wedding.“Please, I would do anything. Don’t just go ahead with the wedding, I’m begging you.” He turned deaf ears to my pleadings and left.I knew he was done with me. His look was dark, as if someone truly finished him with me. I felt like I was some sort of nuisance; he didn’t care about my feelings; it hurt me.I broke down in tears and the only thing I heard was “I can’t cut off this wedding, the deed has already been done”. Those were his exact words.So, here I am listening to his wedding vows with the witch in her white wedding gown, holding his hands.“Oceana,’ The moron Kai whispered.Yep, the name suits him perfe
Last Updated : 2023-04-13My Brother Is My Mate DARK FATE (PART TWO)
“Ar…are….Are you serious right now, Oceana, you’ve….you’ve gone baffling, I can….can see…see that…that… you are going insane.” She attempted to go when I gripped her gown even more and pleaded with her with my eyes. “Don’t go, please,” I begged. “Please, just listen to me,’ hot tears streamed down my face. My makeup was ruined.I guess I looked like a mess right now. “I don’t want to ruin his wedding, Jessie. Please don’t tell anyone. He will be mad.”“Mad? Your life and his…his…wedding….wedding…which is much…much more important,’ she panicked. “Are you telling me to just stay and watch you, just because you don’t want to hurt your brothers?”“YES,’ I reacted aggressively. “I want you to just stay and watch me.”“Your brothers will kill me if anything happens to you.” She shouted.“They’ve already killed me and they keep blaming it for some sort of protection. They care about nothing but themselves.” I cried out. “They are thinking of their lives right now, abandoning me and putting it
Last Updated : 2023-04-13My Brother Is My Mate ULTERIOR MOTIVE.
She went silent as I got up from my chair, and Kai took a couple of steps toward me. I knew something was about to transpire. His approach, his aura, was quite odd. This isn’t a good one. “Congratulations on your wedding, Alpha Gerard, for I am so happy to see you and your newly wedded wife. Congratulations, once again.’ “Thank you.’ I struggled to speak but maintained my cool. I took an unnoticeable breath and felt mad within me. I can’t believe he is the chosen Alpha for Oceana, what were my parents thinking choosing someone like him? “You must have heard that Oceana is my bride-to-be,” he pridefully uttered I nearly rolled my eyes. He is really rude, as the rumours say he is. “Are you trying to say that I am deaf, to not know about your arranged marriage with Oceana, since you seem to know much more than me?’ I forced out a smile. He laughed. “I mean no disrespect, Alpha Gerard. I can see that I have offended you.’ “I mentioned nothing about you disrespecting or offending me
Last Updated : 2023-04-13My Brother Is My Mate SECRET AFFAIRS.
“If anything should happen to my sister, I will kick your fucking ass.” “Then both clans will go to war. Lord Gerard, your parents made a collaboration with mine, they wouldn’t sit down after hearing you….’ He reminded me. “I don’t give a damn. I haven’t spilled so much blood in a while. Fighting thousands of wolves will sharpen my talons.’ “Are you asking for war, Lord Gerard?’ “No, I am asking you for peace but don’t provoke the beast, or else you will be my prey if anything happens to Oceana. Control the tail between your legs, Alpha, or else, we are gonna have a big problem.’ We both glared at each other for a couple of minutes before my father interrupted. “Alpha Kai and Gerard.” He called, but our gazes were still fixed on each other, ignoring him. But I knew my father must be furious about Oceana’s attitude. As for Kai, I know what he wants and his ulterior motive. However; he is not getting that from me or Oceana. Oceana’s Pov. She was all in hysteria, with tears in h
Last Updated : 2023-04-13My Brother Is My Mate SECRET AFFAIRS (PART TWO)
Jessie and I gasped in shock. “Stay put, Alpha Gérard, don’t interfere…” “Don’t command me,’ he strictly uttered. “We are both in the same position. The only difference between us is that I’m not sleeping with my mate. You are sleeping with yours, keeping it a secret from the entire clan. You are having an affair, lying to the lady you are married to, that you are her mate. I wonder how the Lycan Pack will feel about such disgrace occurring in the family. I guess they aren't as wise as they claim to be to have noticed what a perfect liar you are. Aren’t you a disgusting piece of shit as well?” “I have no words for you, Alpha Gérard, you don't know how tough the bond can be.” “Well, I have an idea how the bond can be. I’ve been through it and I know how exhausting the bond can be. You don’t need to tell me, kiddo. We all got our secrets, we all don’t want to tell, let anyone know about it, so I completely understand,” Gérard uttered. I was dumbfounded. Then he continued. “But don’
Last Updated : 2023-08-14My Brother Is My Mate HEARTBROKEN.
Gérard laughed and patted her long hair. “Don’t worry, he’s just a nice alpha.” I wasn’t nice. “He’s tired from a lot of work, that’s why he’s like that.” He persuaded her. Tired from a lot of work? Is he joking or what? And the idiot really listened to her brother and happily hugged him like a kid who just won candy for doing well. To my surprise, she waved at me before leaving. “Have a good night, Adolph. Don’t let the bugs bite you, sweet dreams.” Huh, was she saying all those words to me? Bugs? Dreams? I scoffed and nearly laughed at her funny expression. “Gorgeous, it’s time for bed.” Ocean nodded. He then carried her in his arms as she tagged along with him, giggling. As they walked away, she waved at me once again and wrapped her little arms around Gérard’s neck. Wow! She was a spoiled brat. I don’t know what came over me, so I went to see her and found out if she was sleeping, maybe check on how she played because she was quite fascinating to me. However, what I sa
Last Updated : 2023-08-14My Brother Is My Mate YEARNING FOR THE ALPHA.
“I don’t want to talk right now. Please leave me alone, Jessie. I have a lot on my mind.’ I dashed to my bed, making sure the door was tightly shut and making sure no one was entering. You might think I’m some miserable Alpha who only runs to her room and cries her eyes out, acting like a child when she faces a problem but I am at a loss here, my mate is being taken away from me, in front of my eyes and I can’t do anything to stop it, he was all I had. I had been searching for him for years, and I had finally found him. Instead of him being together with me, he is with someone else and stupidly in love like he claims he is. I hate him so much. I wish he wasn’t my brother and my mate. A month had passed, since Emily and Gérard got married, it broke my heart and tore it into a thousand pieces, what was I supposed to do I couldn’t come out of my room. I could only sob and curse Gérard a thousand times for abandoning me, he didn’t care or give it a second thought on what he was about
Last Updated : 2023-08-14
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My Brother Is My Mate NOTHING HAS BEEN THE SAME ANYMORE.
That’s why to avenge the death of others. He had to die and I would seize the clan for myself. That is my wish and my command, Amoux.’Amoux smiled and bent the knee before me.“Yes, Alpha Ivy Thorne. Your wish is my command, brother.”Carmine’s Pov.“Dad, look what Mom bought for me.’ Chloe rushed over to me with her toy.I smiled and hugged her as I patted her back, dropping the presents I bought for her.As a kid back then, I dreamed of not having a child, and neither did I think of having one someday. I’ve always wanted to be alone with the person I love and die in old age.My wishes might sound lonely to most people, but it doesn’t to me because that’s what I want.And besides, I’m into men and not women, so it doesn’t matter, anyway. I tried to be the perfect Alpha who everyone will look up to, and it worked out perfectly because of Gerard.He was my rock who gave me a leaning shoulder whenever I wanted to cry. My father was a ruthless man who wanted his children to live up to hi
My Brother Is My Mate LOCKED MEMORIES.
She gasped with her hand on her mouth and muttered.“Gerard.’What? Who? Where?Who is she calling Gerard? What is she talking about? Why is everyone so weird here in California?“And who might you be?’“Aunt Jessie, do you know him? He’s the one who tied my shoelaces.’The so-called Aunt Jessie came to me and held my shoulders.Why do these wolves here in California have a habit of touching a stranger’s shoulders?I pulled her hands off my shoulders. I don’t like it.What the fuck is going on here?“It is you.” She exclaimed. “Gerard.’“Who is who?’ This was hilarious, but I didn’t want to laugh.“Where have you been, Gerard? Do you have any idea what you put Oceana through? She has been looking for you for the past six years. You can’t keep tormenting her like this. If she did anything to you, please forgive her Gerard. Please and this is…”“What are you talking about? Who are you and first of all, my name is not Gerard? I’m Ivy Thorne, and I don’t know who you are.’ I kindly pushed
My Brother Is My Mate DEJA VU.
“I’m talking and you are asking irrelevant questions, huh? His elder brother has been living in America for five years since then. He returned just to meet up with the clan because he’s an heir. He is not Gerard. Cut out this crap of yours. I don’t want to see you close to my best friend and his brother again. I will have you dealt with.’“Garold…”“I don’t want to repeat my words again, Oceana, behave your fucking self.’ he walked out on me and slam the door shut.I sighed and fell to the floor feeling exhausted and I haven’t had my bath properly since yesterday.I must reek of heat.Ivy’s Pov.I wiped my sweat off my face and neck as I entered the penthouse in my workout clothes.My parents were having breakfast, and the place was sort of noisy.“Hey, Ivy,’ my mom called out to me.“Hi, mom.’ I went to her and kissed her on the cheek, and greeted my father as well. I hugged my siblings and cousins.“Eww. You are sweating, bro.’“Yeah, I need to take a bath, cousin.’“You could come
My Brother Is My Mate STERN WARNING.
“But you were the one who came to the room. You should have switched it off before lying down.’I rolled my eyes at him. “Should I kick you out of my room?”“No.’“Then get your ass up and lock the fucking door.’“Alright. Alright, before you eat me up, bad wolf.’I smiled and closed my eyes.“Please don’t leave me, Gerard. I will do anything to make us stay together.’“I heard you threatened Emily, Oceana. What the hell are you doing?’“Must you always get mad at me for everything? I did what I had to. She called me a whore.’“That’s why you kept her in prison? Are you mad or something?’“I’m not mad. You are my mate, Gerard. I will not hand you over to her. You are mine.’“So have I become some property that you have to not let me go.’She grabbed my collar with tears in her eyes. “Please, I love you so much, Gerard. Be my mate and I will never let go of you. I will fight till my last breath. I’m ready to face the pack now. I don’t care if we are siblings. Siblings fuck each other,
My Brother Is My Mate UNSETTLING AURA.
“It is not, Carmine. I knew my mate when I saw him. I felt the bond when I touched him. My wolf was alive for the first time in years. Please believe me, I need to see my mate. I beg of you.’“Calm down, the way you are in a hurry will not bring back your mate. You need to calm down, go home and take a fresh bath and relax. Tomorrow you have to come meet me so we can talk about this, okay?”‘`What do you mean talk about this, Carmine?" she yelled at me. “There’s nothing to talk about. I saw him with my eyes. We need to go see him. His name is Amoux, and he is Garold’s best friend. Or we can follow him, then we will track him.”“Did he say his name is Gerard?’Oceana shook her head. “No. The Amoux guy called him Ivy. And I need to know how he is called Ivy. I need to search for Gerard. Tell him we have…”“Oceana.’ I held her shoulders and sighed.“Go home and let’s talk about this tomorrow and then we will find out who he is.’She agreed.“Carmine, is that you?’I looked upstairs, and
My Brother Is My Mate DON'T YOU REMEMBER ME? (PART TWO)
The wind blew through our clothes as we both stared at each other, but his eyes were black and he looked so much like Gerard, something felt off.No, he was Gérard. I can never forget about his scent.“Gerard.’ I murmured, burst out in tears and hugged him. “Where the hell have you been? Why did you disappear from me like that? Please, Gerard, don’t leave me like that again. I can’t take it anymore. Please don’t leave me anymore. I don’t know how I will survive without you again.’I pulled away from him and looked at his face, but instead of seeing a warm smile from him.What I saw was a furious expression.“Who the fuck are you?’“What!’He sighed. “Like I don’t understand, why will you cling onto me like that?!’“Gerard.’“Do I know you? You just met a random wolf and hugged him? If you are a whore, I understand, but can you keep your silly thoughts to yourself? I don’t want to see you. I don't even fucking know you.’“What are you talking about, Gerard?" I asked in a shaky voic
My Brother Is My Mate DON'T YOU REMEMBER ME?
However, Kai was found dead on a pole and his elder brother, Garold, volunteered to make Oceana his wife.After the deed was done, I also discovered I was pregnant as well and the thought of telling Oceana and Carmine about what happened destroyed me.Oceana’s Pov.“Get off me, young lady. Are you on meds or something?’ His voice was quite broken and scary when he spoke.Gerard’s voice had always been deep, calm, not harsh.I took my hands off. His aura was very different.“Who are you, are you not Gerard?’He frowned and scoffed. “Who are you, Alpha, since you don’t have a name?’They looked so much alike, but why is he so different?“My name is Oceana Daciana, from the Mackenzie Clan.” I responded.‘`Oh, you must be Garold’s wife, the stubborn woman who is in love with her ex-boyfriend?’ he mocked.Garold must have told him Gerard was my boyfriend instead of him being my brother.I didn’t want to believe this.I was sick and tired of this. How could I believe he wasn’t the o
My Brother Is My Mate TRAUMATIC INCIDENT.
I smiled. “She is doing well. Though I haven’t heard from her for a couple of months.’He gave a slight frown. “But your daughter goes to her home all the time, right?’“Most times.’ I responded. “But Carmine picks her up most of the time at her home.’“Oh, I see,” he agreed. “But you guys are still best friends, right?’ he teased.“We are still close, but Oceana is sort of shutting me out again, I think. I bet she still hasn’t forgiven me because of Carmine. She thinks I took advantage of Carmine’s dick and had his daughter. But I am to blame for everything.’“Why do you keep talking about the past? It’s been five years, Jessie.’As long as the past lives in our lives, we can never forget it.”“They are best friends for sure,” he nodded. “Nolana and Chloe.’“Yes, they are, and they get along so well.”“Yeah, you are right,’ he agreed.“Whenever I think of the past, I still feel sad and broken, Adolph. A lot of things happened on a whim and I couldn’t do anything to save Oceana fr
My Brother Is My Mate HE WAS NOT DEAD.
“I’m sorry.’ glancing up at the person I knew who the person was.I was dumbfounded.In my whole life, never did I expect I was going to meet him again.“Gerard.’ I whispered and his eyes widened, staring deeply at me.“Is that really you?’He questioned. “Who are you?!’I grabbed his collar with rage, filling up and rushing through my veins. “Who am I? After all these years, you finally show up here? Tell me, why the fuck are you here?’ my eyes instantly filled with tears so much I was broken.The sound of my voice, my gritted teeth could be heard, tears flowed down my cheeks.All these years of enduring sufferings and going through hell broke me.But he didn’t look bothered at all by my tears and stood still as if nothing was touching him.Why was he so calm?Gerard was alive? How come no one told me about him?No, it can’t be.I saw his dead body before they buried him. What the heck was going on? I'm getting tired of all these bullshit.I was fucking tired of seeing all this. Th
