139 : Another Trap

And that's it.. something seemed to change as if someone had snapped their thumbs, and then everything changed.

My heart is free, like I really found freedom even though I was in his cage. My feelings feel like the rolling waves that continuously sweep the coast with a strong force. Like water that falls freely from a cliff and will not stop. A lot of nonsense goes through my head and I love it.

And like a road deprived of hormones, I'm always receptive to whatever he does, craving his touch and all the attention. His love, and the affection he gave. I tried to repay him by giving my love to him in the form of action.

I sat on his lap, his hands playing with my hair, while we watched the political debate on CNN. I couldn't even pretend to notice for a second with the hardness his butt pressed against me. Part of me knows what he's doing by denying me. I don't like it. Because it makes my chest feel tight and heavy.

And that makes me nervous.

And like a humiliating bitch, my lips went