I was back in bed five hours later, just waking up from my nap, one of the effects of the medication I'd taken this morning. And miraculously I'm fine.Now it is noon, and the warm sun illuminates the beautiful city of Prague. Even though it was winter, the beauty was even more dazzling. And while I was enjoying the sight in front of me, something inside my heart was buzzing, giving out things that were so preposterous for my brain to accept. About all the things I wanted to do with Rhysand, about all the romantic fantasies that were always in my head, and I really cursed myself for it.He's a killer.He's a psychopath.He's a mafia.Much blood was in his hands, and will always follow his path.And he was prepared for the consequences, he wasn't afraid to admit it, saying it was all he deserved. How can I entrust my life and my love to such a man? To the dirtiest, worst, most hideous and dark man? The red flag that walks over the world, and has everything in its hands? I shouldn't. My
We arrived at the villa late at night, went back for a walk around Petrin and then had dinner at one of the expensive restaurants that served all kinds of Czech food. And then straight back to the luxurious villa he owns. He didn't wait until we were inside to kiss me brutally.I already knew, that he was very excited and wanted our bodies to unite as soon as possible. I can already feel it from the hardness of it touching my butt or my stomach but he's holding it in because I still want to go for a walk. Enjoying the fresh air of Prague."Patience, Rhys. God, we just got here." I said after our kiss broke, we were still at the door with my back leaning against it, and he wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me into his hasty kiss.His face against my neck, nibbling lightly at my skin there, until a shiver throbbed in horror between my thighs. "I really want you.""We can't do it here, Rhys. Plus aren't you tired?""I never get tired."I chuckled. "Okay, fine, hero. Then we shoul
And that's it.. something seemed to change as if someone had snapped their thumbs, and then everything changed.My heart is free, like I really found freedom even though I was in his cage. My feelings feel like the rolling waves that continuously sweep the coast with a strong force. Like water that falls freely from a cliff and will not stop. A lot of nonsense goes through my head and I love it.And like a road deprived of hormones, I'm always receptive to whatever he does, craving his touch and all the attention. His love, and the affection he gave. I tried to repay him by giving my love to him in the form of action.I sat on his lap, his hands playing with my hair, while we watched the political debate on CNN. I couldn't even pretend to notice for a second with the hardness his butt pressed against me. Part of me knows what he's doing by denying me. I don't like it. Because it makes my chest feel tight and heavy.And that makes me nervous.And like a humiliating bitch, my lips went
My hand was pulled, into the bedroom area, and I'm still crying. My chest feels tight, and my head is throbbing in pain."Bastard! Fuck you! You're such an asshole" I screamed at him as soon as we got to the room. Rhysand tries to calm me down, taking me in his arms. But I rebelled, pushing him away."Amanda.. what's wrong? Tell me.""I am pregnant." I screamed hysterically. "You really are crazy. You got me pregnant? To trap me up again, to tie me up even more?! Are you dissatisfied at all? Depressing me like this?" I'm out of breath. "I tried to believe in you and trust you. Trying to live through this, dealing with all of this in a good way, not like this! But you tore it down! You made it into a weapon. You made this baby into your weapon!""Amanda, no. Listen.""Get me out of here. Let me go! Or I will kill this baby." My head is so filled withHis mask fell off, panic came over his expression. "No! God, don't do that. For God's sake! Don't kill them. They are not a mistake." he
I spent time in Prague lazing around and spoiling with Rhysand. I don't know what happened to me, but I really couldn't stay away from him. I always want him near me, hugging me or stroking my stomach.Something expands inside me.I am happy.Never before have I felt something like this when I looked at my stomach which was starting to show a small bulge. If previously it was only filled with fat, now it was filled with two lives. Babyboy and babygirl.My heart expanded until I was afraid that it would explode. I rubbed my stomach gently and smiled. My insides screamed with so much happiness, and I could have spent all my time staring at my stomach without doing anything. I read the guide for pregnant women, and how I shouldn't be stressed and depressed. I probably won't feel that anymore. Everything was gone when I rubbed my stomach or looked at it.This is a boon for me.A turning point that would change me completely."Forgive Mommy for what Mommy said earlier." I talked to the two
Husband and wife.I never thought that I would experience it so quickly. I didn't expect that my status had changed in two days. So short, and fast.A mother and a wife.My heart expands with happiness as I pull off this elaborate dress with Jade's help.He walked into the bedroom, and that was it.. it felt different and not different. He sat on the edge of the bed. He looked at me, with heat in his eyes, and a bright light in them. I drew closer to him. Stop, and stand between his legs. He hugged my waist, kissing my stomach that was under his shirt that I was wearing. I love wearing his t-shirt, I love his signature scent that never goes away, and it always makes me feel comfortable."I should take off your dress, Wife." he said.His other calls made me smile. Happiness exploded in my heart. "The dress is quite beautiful, and expensive. I will not let you mess it, husband."He looked up, his smile bright."Are you happy?" I stroked his face.He nodded. "Very happy."I sat astride hi
My blood rushed under my skin when I saw him.And those same green eyes as mine are adrift with me.His expression hardened, and he started walking towards me. I froze, not knowing what to do with his sudden presence."Are you all right, Amanda?"I shook my head.My heartbeat slowed down when my older brother had stopped right in front of me. That familiar musk scent came to my nose. His face hardened, and underneath it was the longing he had for me."Maven.""Amanda..." he said harshly. "You have no idea how much we flustered looking for you? How long we waited to meet you.""I'm fine." I said. I looked at Jade who was looking at us in confusion. "We'll talk for a bit. You don't need to worry, he's my brother."I know Jade already knows, but I just wanted to let her know that so there's no understanding at all. Jade nodded, and then left us.Maven catches the eye, and leads me to the other end of the room. Close to the exit."I'm fine. You don't need to worry, Maven." I gulped. "I'm
I don't trust other people.They are fickle, prone to errors, and don't know what they are doing often.They are useless, tasteless, and should not pollute the air with their breath. The disdain I have for these people has been ingrained in me ever since I grew up from the small child phase and gradually discovered what the world is all about.I don't believe in the chance system either. People don't get two or three chances with me. One mistake and they're out.Forever.Anyone who crossed the line once would do it again if given the chance. It's the forbidden fruit, the gratification deferred, and the glorification sought. If they get one taste, they will be compelled to taste another.Then another. And one more.Until they are reduced to animals pursuing their basic needs.Giving them the chance to get close to the line, let alone cross it, is the personification of stupidity.My zero-tolerance policy might describe me as cold-blooded and heartless, but it was better than being labe