Stay Away

Ivanna Pov's

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It's easy to say I want to die but today I realised how difficult it is to face death. I would have lost my life if my lunatic stranger wouldn't have stopped me and if that thief hadn't stolen my car. Tears rolled from my eyes.

"Relax… Everything is fine." My stranger coed me. I look at him, only to find his eyes on me. He was staring at me with love filled his eyes. This mysterious man saved my life twice. He lovingly wiped my tears. 

Unknowingly he was doing everything that no one did for me except my parents. He was slowly ruining me with all his gestures. No.. I can't let this strange feeling enter my heart again. I don't want to get betrayed again in love. No... I pushed him away using all my strength.

"Stay away from me" I muttered and ran away from him as fast as I could. He was continuously calling my name from behind but I didn't stop and ran at a higher speed, knowing he couldn't chase me because of his leg injury. I was running as fast as I could until I bumped into a man's chest. My eyes widened when I looked up.

"Stefan" My breath hitched and my heartbeat increased when I saw my first love in front of my eyes. The person because of whom I hate love. I distance myself from him.

"What happened? Why are you running like this?" He asked and looked at my behind. I turned to look behind, only to realise I came far away from the hospital or say I came far away from that stranger.

"Ivanna" I looked back at Stefan who was looking at me with a worried expression. I wipe the sweat from my forehead, breathing heavily.

"Is someone following you?" He asked. I nod my head negatively.

"Then why were you running?"

"I got scared," I mumbled.

"Huh?" he scrunched his eyebrow.

"I got scared that a stranger will ruin my life like you ruined me," I replied looking into his eyes. I'm still not able to recover from the pain he gave me. His harsh words and the months I spent in the toxic relationship with him left a fear in me. fear of love… In fact, the word "LOVE" is enough to scare me from the core.

"About whom you're talking"

"It's none of your business" I replied and was about to cross him but he held my hand.

"How did this happen?" He asked and kept his other hand on my cheek. Tears brimmed in my eyes when I felt his touch after a long three years. I closed my eyes, trying to control my emotions, not wanting to show him how much I craved him and his touch.

"Is it hurting?" I opened my eyes and looked into his eyes which showed how worried he was for me.

"Don't worry… This pain is nothing in front of the pain you give me" I removed his hand from my cheek and released my other hand from his grip.

"Why have you come back?  What happened three years ago wasn't enough for you that you come back into my life to freshen my wounds?" I asked in a shaken voice. No matter how much I try to control my emotions I always break down in front of him.

"Shine"

"Don't" I interrupted him. "Don't call me by that name," I yelled, breaking down into tears.

"Stay away from me Stefan… Please." I turned to go away from him, knowing if I stayed there then I would fall in love with him again despite what he did to me and again he would play with my feelings after getting bored. I started walking towards my home.

I halted when I felt someone was following me. I turned only to find Stefan walking behind me.

"Didn't I tell you to stay away from me? why can't you leave me alone?" I yelled.

"I'm sorry, Ivanna.. Please forgive me. After you left I realised how much I love you and I lost a gem because of my stupidity. I'm sorry"

"Your sorry won't heal the wound you gave me, Stefan. so please leave me alone and let me live my life peacefully" I wiped my tears and again started walking. I stopped again when I felt he was again following me.

"Why are you following me?" I yelled and turned towards him but to my dismay, he wasn't following me. He was walking in another direction.

"I'm a stupid who thought he would follow me despite me yelling at him. He heard my words but didn't see in my eyes how much I wanted him." I thought.

"Aren't you sounding like a typical stupid woman?" my mind mocked, making me laugh.

"When it comes to him I lost my every sense. Even the power of thinking. Why do I love him so much? why? Why does my heart want him despite what he did to me? Why?" I yelled at myself and clutched my hair frustratingly.

"Relax Ivanna.. You're used to it… Remember how he left you in the room when you were shivering because of high fever ignoring your requests and pleas. you just asked him to stay with you when you needed him the most but he left you alone to go to some freaking party" I mocked myself and then started laughing like a maniac remembering one of the nights when he left me like today. The only difference is that day I pleaded with him to stay with me and today I asked him to stay away from me.

I wiped my tears and started walking towards my house, in the middle I took a lift to reach home as it was far away from my house. Stefan's words were echoing in my head.

"I'm sorry, Ivanna… Please forgive me. After you left I realised how much I love you and I lost a gem because of my stupidity. I'm sorry" My tears again betrayed my eyes. They started falling remembering how he was apologising to me. I wanted to hear his apology for so long but today when he apologised, I don't know why I didn't get relief. Maybe his sorry is nothing in front of the pain he gives me.

"Ma'am we reached the place you mentioned" I came to my senses upon hearing the cab driver. I wiped my tears and hopped down from the car then asked one of the guards to pay the cab driver.

I directly went to my room and opened the wardrobe to take out the box where I buried all the things which reminded me of Stefan. I sat on the ground and opened the box.

Tears fell from my eyes after seeing all the things inside the box. I took out Stefan's shirt which he made me wear after making love to me the whole night. I smell the shirt which still smells like him. All the memories of that special night started revolving in my mind.

"Stefan" I cried and wore his shirt, wanting to again smell like him. I took out the photos from the box which we clicked together as a memory. In some pictures, we were kissing each other and in some pictures, I was staring at him when he was looking at the camera. I remember how he yelled at me for spoiling the pictures by looking at him. My smile vanished remembering how yelled at me just because I was staring at him instead of looking at the camera, calling me a maniac and like a witless woman I ignored the insult and apologised to him.

I lay down on the ground crying remembering the moment I spent with him. The memories that are filled with love and pain. I started remembering my love story which slowly turned into a toxic relationship.

"Your love cages me, Ivanna. You suffocate me"

"Why do you always cling to me? Can't you give me a space"

"I wish I would have never said yes to you"

"How can you think, I can love a person like you? I was just using you like a whore you're. you only tell me where would I get a girl who is ready to spread her legs for me whenever I want to fulfil my lust"

I remember all the harsh words he said to me. Tears were continuously falling from my eyes. The wounds he gave me again freshened up.

"I can't forgive you, Stefan… I can't."