Lexi’s POVThe sound of the knock on my car window jolted me out of my thoughts and I lifted my head from the steering wheel to check who it was.Groaning, I prayed that I wouldn’t be getting a ticket and for the first time in my life something I prayed for actually happened, except I didn’t quite want to see the face that was outside my window.“Roll the window down.” Camille mouthed to me but I only rolled my eyes.What was she doing here when she was the one who ruined all of my chances with Ivan?Turning my head back to look at her, her eyes pleaded for me to just roll down my car window and listen to what she has to say but I was too mad to do that.I was too angry to listen to her talk because if I actually did roll my window down and start hearing my best friend talk, I might have to spend the rest of my life in jail because I wouldn’t be able to hold myself back.Igniting the car engine with my eyes still fixed on Camille, I placed my hand on the gear and before she could blin
Ivan’s POVI’d tried really hard to get the thought of the girl, Lexi, that came to the hospital to see me, apparently, out of my head but it seemed like the more I tried, the more I set the ground up for failure.She looked familiar to me without a doubt, her eyes were ones that I knew damn well that I’ve seen before, her beautiful brown hair was so mesmerizing and I knew that I definitely must’ve seen it somewhere.But where and how?The smell of her perfume, the way her lips turned to her pout when Celine insulted her, everything was so familiar but the more I tried to remember the more my head aches and all I ever get was a blur.Who is this girl and why does her presence bother yet comforts me so much?Shaking my head, I couldn’t believe that I was thinking about a stranger like this so I just shrugged it off and decided to convince myself.“She’s probably one of those girls you’ve fucked, don’t think too much about her; she’s not special.” I told myself but I knew that it was a
Lexi’s POVThe hatred I saw in his eyes was intense and I knew that I was fighting a lost battle but I couldn’t just give up even if I tried.Ivan is mine. We promised each other forever and walking away without even trying to make him remember will make me feel nothing less than a coward.“Did you not hear me?” He asked, jolting me out of my thoughts as I lifted my gaze to meet him. The pain from my accident still surged through me but it’s nothing compared to the pain of the man I love completely forgetting about me.My arm was bandaged and he didn’t even care to ask me what was wrong with me. I knew that I'd lost my husband but I also knew that it wasn’t completely.Behind this big jerk is the Ivan I spent most nights with wishing everything we had would be forever.“Lexi!” He yelled and my head snapped up at once with widened eyes as I looked at him, my heart leapt for joy at the way he called my name but the joy soon shattered.“Or whatever it is you’re called, you have exactly 3
Lexi’s POV“I’m sorry,” I hiccuped, I felt defeated like there was no more hope for me. The last flicker of light that brought hope to me had died and there was nothing I could do about it anymore.“I’ll leave and never disturb Ivan or you anymore.” I muttered as I turned to leave but questions ran through my mind.Questions about why Ivan managed to remember everyone else in his life but forgot every single detail of the time we spent together.He doesn’t even remember as little as that first night even though I was a stranger then.He’s probably doing this on purpose, he probably remembers me and he’s just intentionally ignoring me so that I’m going to stay far away from him like the text message mentioned.But if he was really trying to protect me he should've given me a sign, he should’ve at least said something that would put my mind at ease knowing that he remembers but is just trying his best to protect me but none of this was the case.He’d completely forgotten me, I knew it.
Lexi’s POVONE MONTH LATER.“You can’t keep stressing and obsessing over him, Lexi,” Camille’s voice jolted me out of my thoughts. My eyes were itchy and I felt pains all over my body.“You have something else to stress about, your baby keeps growing and with each day that you keep brooding, you’re harming your child.” She explained and I sighed as I dropped the fork on my plate.It’s been a month and there has still been no words from Ivan. I knew that there’s a possibility that he was never going to call me but a part of me was still holding out hope.I miss him so much and everyday, I’d cry and wish he was here to see my belly bulging even though the pregnancy isn’t that visible yet.“I just miss him.” I sighed, sniffling and holding back tears because I knew what Camille was going to say if I cried again.The doctor had already advised me against crying because of my eyesight and she’d also recommended drugs and foods to take for the growth of my baby.“It’s okay to miss him, it’s
Lexi’s POVMy chest hurt as I left Reece’s office, her voice telling me that Ivan was getting engaged kept replaying in my head and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t let it go.Getting into my car, I yelled as loud as my lungs could, hitting the steering wheel and also jamming my head right into it in hopes that I was going to suffer a concussion that’ll make me lose my memory too.I really needed to forget all of this, it was causing me so much pain and I’ve gotten to my threshold. I can’t have myself thinking about it anymore but I also can’t seem to stop thinking about it.“Why is this happening to me? Why?” I questioned no one in particular, I resented my life and now I feel like I’d actually die.Clutching the steering wheel tightly, I drove off with nowhere in particular in mind. I didn’t want to go back to Camille’s apartment just yet because I’m going to be the only one home so I just decided to drive around.My phone chimed and I picked it up to see that it was a message
Lexi’s POV‘Crazy lady.’ Ivan’s words kept ringing in my head and there was nothing I could do about it. My chest hurt so much and my entire being was broken but he already made his choice.Whether consciously or not, he already chose who he wants to be with now and that person isn’t me. Dejected, I walked back to my car with lots of thoughts running through my mind.Maybe it won’t be such a terrible idea to leave the city like Andrei and Reece had suggested.My drive back to Camille’s apartment was a silent one and not because there was no one I could talk to in the car with me but because I was lost in my own head.“Where have you been? I was so worried about you.” Camille’s voice jolted me out of my thoughts as soon as I stepped inside the apartment,Jumping, I clutched my chest out of fear, I really wasn’t expecting her to get off work so early but she already told me that she was going to.Shrugging, I made my way to my room with Camille following closely behind me. I honestly co
Lexi’s POVThe flight was exhausting despite the fact that I slept throughout the flight, my body felt like it was going to shut down anytime soon and the worms in my stomach didn't seem too happy with me.Checking into the hotel the cab driver recommended to me because it’s affordable and also nice. I ordered dinner when my stomach wouldn’t stop growling and I laid on the bed while I waited for my food to come.Curling up like a wet cat, I thought about Ivan again but the tears that always dropped whenever I thought about him didn’t even do as little as well up in my eyes.I was exhausted, my body ached and my heart was in my stomach. I felt cold despite the fact that the heater in the room was working perfectly.How is he doing now? Does he at-least try to remember who I am and why I’m so persistent.Questions ran through my mind but soon came to a halt when I heard a soft knock on the door, sniffling, I did my robe and went to answer the door.The aroma of the food was so alluring