Apart from the innate curiosity that occupied my brain to know what Parrish had been up to all these years, I couldn’t emphasize enough on the warmth that enveloped me when my eyes met his as I stepped out dressed in this wedding dress. He walked over to me, gently caressing the lace that adorned my shoulder. The touch sent a shiver down my spine and ignited a simmering passion within me and in that moment the world seemed to fade away, leaving just the two of us – lost in a intoxicating haze.“I can’t seem to pull my eyes off you Jessica.” Parrish’s touch lingered in every pose, his hand finding its way to the small of my back or fingertips lightly grazing my cheek, I could feel the chemistry crackling between us, my heart bursting, and my stomach fluttering. We giggled like children and held unto each other a little bit excessively.“Now look at her, like she’s the only person you’ll rather look at.” the photographer said and without hesitation Parrish turned to me, and I looked up
Jessica’s POVSome drunken years agoIt was Parrish’s birthday dinner and Parrish had invited me alongside his father and his estranged mother and after that he was throwing a party at some fancy hotel. At this time Parrish and I had been going out for exactly three months and somehow I could feel it in my guts that the honeymoon phase was slowly fading out, but yet I chose to ignore, to push it to the back of my head and not talk about it with Parrish.I was seated at the restaurant dressed in a red fancy dress that I had picked off a boutique even though it was slightly above my budget, Parrish was seated beside me but dressed casually in a black t shirt and some cargo pants with his eyes fixed on his phone, then there was his Mr. Holmes seated opposite us with an empty seat beside him because we were all still waiting for Parrish’s mother. As usual, Mr. Holmes always looked sharp, crisp suit with a bald shining head but seemed to even add more to his mysterious allure.“Nice to mee
Jessica’s POVThe car ride to the party venue was painfully quiet and Parrish had his jaw fixed the whole time and his eyes set on the road as he drove. I fiddled with my fingernails, my brain racking for something – anything at all to say to ease the tension that was already brewing within us and from my point of view, Parrish wasn’t making any effort at all.“Are you going to say something?” I managed to voice out but I was only met with silence, until some moments later and he said.“Not right now Jessica.”“Fine.” I agreed and soon enough we arrived at the location for his party which was already jam packed with people. There were people jumping in and out of the pool, staggering in and out of the house drunk and confused. I could already spot some couples way too freaky to be in public.The moment Parrish and I got down from the car, he had the largest smile plastered on his face like he wasn’t just upset and brooding. Immediately, everyone rallied around us wishing him happy bir
“Parrish, what the hell?!” I said walking behind Parrish as he tried to walk away from me, but there was no response from him, he kept walking away and I didn’t think I wanted to let him out of my sight one more time.“Parrish fucking talk me and don’t walk away.” I went after him desperately and immediately he stopped, turning around to face my crumbling self, my eyes bloodshot because of the alcohol alongside with the pool of tears forming at the corner of my eyes.“Talk to you about what?” he half yelled, “About how my family is a mess, and my mother hates me?”“Parrish– ”“About how my mother resents because I knew my father was cheating and I never told her” then he paused and ran his hands through his hair in frustration before looking back at me.“Or how I actually knew it was wrong but I didn’t tell my mother because for some fucked up reason I wanted to be on my father’s good side, I wanted him to respect me, I wanted him to like me - ”“You can talk to me about all those.” I
The hurt lingered, like a dull pain that refused to dissipate alongside with my refusal to believe that Parrish ignoring me was intentional. I stood on that podium trying with everything in me to avoid the blankness in Parrish’s eyes as I delivered my pitch. He looked at me, our eyes jammed countless of times but there was no emotion there and most times he would lean over to Celeste who was seated beside him, whispering in her ears and she’ll giggle with her hands over her mouth. My face heated up with rage and jealousy as I watched them and at the same time tried to stayed focused, and even when I rounded up my pitch, he hadn’t noticed, he was looking at her when he was supposed to be looking at me.I wrapped up the presentation followed by the applause of my colleagues and that was when Celeste looked up at me, indifference in her eyes and she smiled.“Lovely, just lovely – Jessica Peters is it?” she said, her Russian accent flowing smoothly on her tongue and smiling at me like she
I accepted my fate and in no time, I was packing my bags ready to leave for the Florida. I stared at my phone to find series of text messages trooping in from Parrish asking to talk, but that was the last thing I wanted to do – to talk, because it was never just talking with Parrish. I know that at some point my panties are going to be strewn across the room.The moment I stepped out of my house, I came face to face with Nathan standing just outside the door like he had been waiting for me. I stared at him in surprise, my eyebrows lifted in question “Nathan” I called and he kept my stare“Can we talk?” he asked and I looked at my watch, I had just less than an hour to get to the airport.“Now’s a little tight” I told him and he stared at the luggage I held in my hands and he looked back at me.“Are you travelling somewhere?”“Yes, to Florida. I bagged the deal so I have to go sign the contract”“Just you?"Yes just me, why?”Nathan shook his head and I saw a slight relief flash acros
PARRISH’S POV“You know, I really wish I could permanently move to California instead – ” Celeste was saying to me while we were seated having lunch together but I was barely listening even though I was staring intently at her. I was looking at her, but my thoughts were filled with Jessica. She must’ve left for Florida already, and I couldn’t help but think about her last words to me*I can’t do this with you**Maybe I do need this time away from you.I couldn’t think of anything else, I couldn’t do anything else because everywhere I turned something reminded me of her, and somehow I was sick of it – sick of missing her when in reality, I knew I should be staying away from her. My father’s words rang in my head, I hated that man but somehow he always seemed to slap reality back into me. I have a dark past that I had been trying to escape, to run away from, one that involved Jessica and part of the reason why we can never work out, and Jessica can never find out*How do you think she’
“I don’t give a bloody damn about the weather conditions Captain, I need to get to Florida” I said making sure to include the urgency in my tone and how quickly I need to get to Florida. I couldn’t bear the thoughts of Jessica in the hands of that sleazebag and each passing second I stood there with the phone plastered to ear trying to buttress the urgency of the situation, my anger doubled.I shouldn’t have let her out of sight, I shouldn’t have allowed her on trip. I should’ve told her to stay, that I wanted her stay, that I needed her and now she was in danger – and it’s my entire fault. Of course, the guilt settled in and clouded my senses mixed with a strong feeling of anxiety and trepidation slowly creeping up my stomach and reaching up to grab me by my throat that I almost gasped.“We can find an alternate route that we can take that avoids the worst of the weather – ”“I don’t care Captain, just get me to fucking Florida as quickly as possible, get the jet ready” I said immedi
PARRISH’S POV“Oh damn” I exclaimed as I peeked at my watch to find out I had drowned myself in work way too long this time, it was crawling late into the night but I was still seated at my desk pushing myself into files that didn’t need my attention at all. But it was the only way to keep her out of my mind – damn it was even harder to say her name. I fucked, I knew I had fucked up but I never thought she’d find out what happened all those years ago. When Sophie had called me with panic in her voice and all teary, I knew that it was over – I was going to lose her for good. When she texted that we were done, I figured that it’d be for the better. I had done so many things to hurt her, so many unexplainable things that were unforgivable. So I figured, maybe we weren’t meant to be, maybe I was just a passing figure in her life that was created to hurt her and that thought alone nearly drove me over the edge of insanity. But that was what I did – I let her go.I glanced at my phone for w
JESSICA’S POV“Stop” I said, looking into his eyes as his brows knotted in confusion and he pulled away for a bit “I’ll appreciate it if you don’t try to kiss me anymore”Matteo stayed quiet, he had a curious but surprised look on his face that somehow seemed to brighten the darkness in his eyes but only just a little bit.“I told you this changes everything, I’m not about to be in another scandal with my boss – I’m over it”Then he gave a low chuckle “And if it was Marvis?”“You’re messed up in the head” I threw him a dirty look and pushed past him but he held me back by my arm.“Don’t walk out on me, no one walks out me Jessica Peters” he had had his jaw fixed, some sort of annoyance festering in his eyes “Where I come from, that’s the last thing you’ll ever do”I felt instantly infuriated by his words, I wasn’t scared of him – yes, he towered over me, his upper body area was properly built and looked firm to touch even from his expensive looking tailored suit, and also he was my bo
MATTEO’S POVI felt Jessica’s stare burning a hole into the back of my neck as I revealed I was the CEO of this fine establishment and this was the last way I wanted her to find out that I wasn’t just a flimsy manager at a flimsy restaurant but I actually owned it.“Get him out of here” I signaled the doorman to excuse this gentleman away because the last thing I wanted was a pompous prude talking down on my employees. I turned back to face Jessica who still had her hands covering her mouth and her eyes wide with shock.“Come with me” I said immediately before she could dwell further in her theatrics, I walked out of the building to a covering at the side that could give us privacy and when he reached there, she spoke first.“You – ” was all she managed to let out, pointing her delicate fingers at me and I stood amused“Me?” I repeated“You’re – you lied about your identity, why did you lie?”Why did I lie? That was an interesting question that I had no answers to because why did I ac
JESSICA’s POV“Why are you not picking, I’ve been trying to call” I heard Parrish’s voice from outside the door while I remained quiet in the house and hearing knock tirelessly.“Jess – please open up, I know you’re in there” he went on but I stayed quiet and watching him quietly with my chest silently hurting and tears rolling down my eyes but I couldn’t bring myself to actually talk to him, to set my eyes on him and raise in the conflictions in my chest.“Jessica – I talked to Sophie, just me hear out, talk to me please”My heart only sped but still I refused to move from where I stood because talking to him meant I had to see his face, meant I had to let him use my weakness for him to earn my forgiveness, it meant letting him seduce me with his eyes and taunting me with his buttery voice.“Jessica – ” he kept knocking “I won’t stop trying to get you to speak to me”Then he retreated to leave, I watched him walk away while I sent him a text that embodied my emotions“We’re done”I w
PRESENTJESSICA’S POVThe evening sun dipped below in the horizon, casting a warm glow over the tranquil lake where Marvis and I sat. I had just finished narrating everything to him from how it happened from my end and point of view, from losing my pregnancy to how Parrish eventually broke up with me and for the love of Christ, I couldn’t figure out at what point Sophie had come in. Had she always been sleeping with him behind my back and smiling in my face after or had it been a one night of irrestible desire, I wasn’t sure if I actually wanted to know because either ways I knew I wouldn’t be able to forgive both answers.“So that’s what happened” I said finally and Marvis sighed not taking his eyes off me as I narrated the whole ordeal.“Wow!” he finally murmured, breaking the silence that settled within us “That’s crazy”I nodded, staring out at the water rippling softly in the fading light, then he asked me “So about Parrish, are you going to confront him about it at all?”I let t
SOME DRUNKEN YEARS AGOJESSICA’S POVIt was the week after my father had died and had been buried already. It had been the longest and most agonizing week of my life and it didn’t help much that I was beginning to feel like Parrish was being distant even as we were living together at that point. He couldn’t meet my eyes when he managed to speak to me, he claimed he was giving me the space I needed to grieve my father but I felt like it was something else, I knew it was something else but I just couldn’t place my finger on itJust until that fateful night, I woke up in the middle of the night, my entire body gripped by a sudden sharp pain. At first I thought it might have been another bout of morning sickness that usually chose to attack me in the middle of the night or perhaps the stress of losing my father finally catching up with me. I was merely three months gone and sometimes it was better to ignore that I was pregnant at all to kill the overwhelming that plagued me of not taking
“You” Marvis pointed surprisingly at me, like I was the last person he expected to be crouched down in a random parking lot and crying my eyes out. Immediately, I wiped my tears and stood up to his height, well half his height judging from how well he towered above me. He was still dressed in the same suit as he had on earlier, which was at all not surprising just the fact that he was standing before me now with a curious look on his face.“You’re crying” he said as a matter of fact.“Well no shit Sherlock”“Why?”I gave him a strange look, dragging my sleeves across my nose wiping the snot that threatened to drip “Do you just expect me to tell you why I’m crying?”He returned my look with an equal strangeness in his gaze “I mean you got the job you wanted, I’m wondering what else could be making you cry especially in public like this”“So you’re trying to say there could be absolutely nothing else going on in my life except my desperate need for a job?”He shrugged nonchalantly, and
“I need to get out of here” I said immediately, standing up from the chair and ready to dash out of her office but she stopped me immediately.“Jess – wait” she stepped in front of me immediately, grabbing my arm. The guilt was plastered boldly allover her face followed by the glossy look in her eyes which looked like her eyes getting clouded with tears and I rolled my eyes.“You have got to be kidding me” I scoffed “I thought Nathan was just being jealous, I thought he was trying to sow a seed of doubt in my mind so I could go back to him but oh my God, it’s a full grown tree – ”“Shit Nathan!” she smacked her forehead “You were not supposed to find out this way – ”“Or at all?” I cut through. “You were never going to tell me, weren’t you?”“I was going to tell you okay, I was going to tell you. I told Nathan about it on the night of the engagement party but I didn’t think he was going to tell you” her gestures screamed exasperation and she had a tone of urgency like she desperately
“What the hell!” I gasped looking at him in horror with a pounding heart “Are you following me now?”“I was peacefully enjoying my meal when I saw you walk in to meet him. What are you trying to prove? How do you think that makes me feel huh? It’s barely been a week and you’re rubbing it in my face, gallivanting your new boyfriend around –”“It’s not like that Nathan, how was I supposed to know you were here at this particular time?”“Bullshit” he spat, still backing me up on the wall and leaving no space for me to breathe but I managed to push him away the amount he was willing to budge which wasn’t very much.“You know what Nathan? You’re going to have to find a way to deal with this and stop – stop this”The look he gave me after that statement was murderous, like something had ticked inside him giving his eyes a weird kind of glaze that I wouldn’t lie scared the shit out of me.“I’m going to have to find a way?” he scoffed, then pushed back unto the wall with my back slamming hard