I paused and reached for my drink. With a frown, I stared at Taylor, a woman I'd known since high school, and tried to determine what to tell her. Having opened her home and heart to us, the last thing I wanted was to insult or offend her in any way. However, there was also no denying that Taylor had no idea what she was talking about.She didn't know what it was like to make mistakes.Or lose control for one night.As far as Taylor was concerned, there were rules for a reason, and coloring inside the lines all of her life had gotten her the life she wanted. She had a beautiful house in the suburbs, a job she loved, and the kind of financial stability most people craved. Although Taylor was generous and had not hesitated when I needed her, I knew she was never going to understand what it was like for me.Being forced to jump from one job to the next.Never being given a chance to prove myself.I didn't regret having Ron, and I was never going to.Yet, now and then, I found myself wond
BernardI threw the covers off and wandered into the kitchen. There, I rummaged around, using the pale light of the moon until I found a glass. After filling it up with water, I leaned against the counter and looked out at the balcony overlooking the Hollywood sign.Only I couldn't stop seeing Rachel's face.I saw her panic and confusion when I confronted her about her son.Had I pushed her too hard?Was there a better way I could've handled it?I couldn't tell for sure.All I knew was that I'd spent the past few hours tossing and turning while sleep eluded me. After our lunch, I had made my way back to the office and attended a litany of meetings followed by a steady barrage of phone calls. By the end of it all, I'd been exhausted but relieved.It had left me with very little time to stare at my phone.But Rachel hadn't left my thoughts, nor had the little boy with the familiar eyes.With a slight shake of my head, I finished the rest of my water and stared at the clock on the wall,
Rachel“I haven’t told, Ron,” I whispered into his ear. “I haven’t figured out how to tell him.”Bernard stirred and drew back to look at me. “We can tell him together when you’re comfortable and when you feel like it’s the right time.”I paused. “You’re really willing to wait?”“I’ve waited for five years. I can wait a little longer.”My heart pounded against my ears as I reached between us and cupped his face in my hands. “I can’t believe you left me a note.”Bernard gave me a soft smile. “Of course I did. I haven’t forgotten our night together, Rachel. How could I?”“I’m sorry I couldn’t find you.”Bernard shook his head and leaned into my touch. “There’s nothing to apologize for. The important thing is we found each other.”I cleared my throat and tried to pull back.But I couldn’t.Being with him again was bringing back all sorts of feelings, ones I’d tried to bury for the past five years and forget. Standing in front of him again, after all this time, was bringing them all to th
Bernard “Why aren’t you sleeping?” Rachel lifted her arms over her head and stretched. “I can’t sleep. I can’t believe I’m here.” Slowly, I reached between us and cupped her face in my hands. “I can’t believe it either.” Rachel flipped onto her side, so she was looking at me. She placed a hand on my chest, over the pounding of my heart, and the other underneath my chin. I saw the emotion dancing in the depth of her orbs, and it made my pulse quicken. Was I dreaming? Was Rachel really here after all this time? I’d spent so much time dreaming about what it would be like to see her again, to have her in my arms, that it no longer felt real. Yet, here she was, smelling like citrus and lemon and looking at me like I was the only man in the world. She shifted closer, and I could see every individual eyelash. Her lips lifted into a half smile, and a swell of emotion rose in my chest. I wanted to take care of her. I wanted to do everything for her. And our son. “I know
I waved her comment away. "I'll be there."Rachel nodded, mostly to herself. "I'm glad. I'm sure Ron will appreciate it someday.""I hope so. Thanks for asking me,"Rachel shifted and turned her back on me. She swung her legs over the side of the bed and stood up. In silence, I watched her search for her clothes while I admired her naked form parading around my room. Eventually, I stood up and helped her look under the bed, where we found her shirt. Her jeans were tossed over the back of my desk chair. Rachel grinned and waved her bra and underwear around when she found them in the doorway to the bathroom.Her smile vanished as she turned around to get dressed. "I wish I didn't have to leave, but I've never spent the night away from Ron."I pulled on my own clothes and cleared my throat. "Of course, I understand. It's too soon."Rachel tossed her hair over her shoulders and spun around to face me. "What are you doing?""I'm getting dressed too, so I can drop you off."Rachel tilted he
Rachel"I feel like I've hardly seen you lately," Taylor commented from her spot in the hallway. She piled her hair on top of her head before twisting to face me, a furrow appearing between her brows. "I take it things are still going well with Bernie.""A lot better than I thought they would," I admitted over the rim of my mug. "I can't believe how well things are going."Or how easily he fit into our lives.Over the past few weeks, we had fallen into a routine of sorts, with Bernie picking us up in the morning and dropping us off at his house in the afternoon. In the beginning, I was reluctant to change Ron's life so drastically, especially with very little warning, but having him with me while I cleaned and did the housework meant less stress and pressure on Taylor and her parents.Given everything they'd done for me, I was more than happy to give them a break. Knowing that Bernie looked forward to coming home to us helped too. In the evenings, when he came, looking exhausted but p
Rachel“We need to hang out tonight,” Taylor said in between puffs. “I hardly ever see you anymore since you’ve moved out.”“You come over every other day,” I reminded her. I set the phone down on the nightstand and set it to speaker. Then I unfolded the sheet and spread it over the bed. When I climbed onto the bed to smooth out the wrinkles, I imagined Bernard there, with a hungry look in his eyes, and blushed.I loved spending a few hours in his bed while Ron dozed off in the guest room.Every night, it got harder and harder to scoop Ron up into my arms and make my way down the dark hallway. And each morning, when I saw Bernard in our kitchen, bent over the stove or leaning over the counter while he checked his emails, my heart gave an odd little lurch.Months later, I still couldn’t get over the fact that he was in our lives.It still felt like a dream I’d landed in the middle of.And never wanted to wake up from.The three of us had fallen into a routine where we had breakfast in
Adapting to a new environment was hard enough, and I didn't want to add whispers and gossip to the list of things Ron had to contend with. With that in mind, I strode in the direction of Bernard's office, shoes squeaking steadily against the hardwood floors. Once I reached Mary's desk, situated outside his office, I stopped and gave her a bright smile. She looked up from the computer and did a double-take when she recognized me."Rachel, what are you doing here? Is everything okay?""Hi, Mary." I tucked my hair behind my ears and gave her a small smile. "Yeah, everything's fine. Mr. Shaw forgot a USBstick at home. It looked important, so I thought it would bring it by."Mary nodded and leaned back in her chair. "Why don't you sit down? He's in a meeting, so I'll let him know as soon as he's done."With one last smile in her direction, I took a seat on one of the plush leather chairs lined up against the wall. As soon as I did, I took the USB stick out of my pocket and turned it over a