CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
JEROME
I picked up the pack of Top Ramen and checked it out. I was unsure if it was something Nattie would like. She had called me and asked me to grab some cooking items for her at the mall.
When I got the call, I was unsure if it was something I was willing to do. Minus the fact that it was weird for her to call me at early hours of the day to ask me to shop for her and bring to her house, I was also not looking forward to leaving my bed for the whole day.
For The whole weekend, I had stayed indoors, rotting and feeling even more sorry for my present life. The only productive thing I had done was get my laptop and make corrections to my script, have a video call with Mum and Dad so they believed I was okay and called Dylan too to talk about random stuff like what car his professor brought to school last week. But now that I’m thinking about it, the
STACYLife was funny and I also believed life liked to make jokes out of us, out of me, so that my life could be entirely funny. I felt like a joke. A sorry excuse of a joke.On Saturday, I was going to this party to have fun and hopefully, grow on whatever Max and I had. Who would have believed that a few days later, he would be telling me that our kiss meant nothing to him.It was so funny. The highest charting joke of the century because that kiss didn’t even feel like anything to me. I wanted it to be something. I tried my utmost best, God knows I did but when he kissed me, I wanted him to step back immediately. I wanted to be in bed, curled up, maybe cuddling him, maybe cuddling my pillow hut I knew for a fact that I didn’t want to be there with him.Now I wished he didn’t even kiss me because no matter how I tried to look at it, how I tried to see it differently, it felt like I had been a fool. I had dreamt and buil
JEROME“She looked okay.”I checked on Stacy again because the bartender’s words didn’t seem enough. Stacy looked disturbed, like she wanted him to leave her alone.One look at him and I knew I didn’t like him. Why did Stacy have to get herself into such a scene? Why did I have to protect her and still find a way to respect her?“And you are sure you told her to call you if she needs to leave.”“I did that too.”I sighed and drank from my cup. Since Stacy came in and I promised to take her home, I had stopped drinking anything intoxicating. My cup was now filled with just water, and I had been sipping it while watching form the corner of my eyes for everyone that dared look in her direction.She was the only lady in the club alone. Men were ogling at her skin, taking her clothes off with their eyes. It wasn’t comfortable for me to watch. I wondered how she could even be comfortable with
STACYMy back touched the wall behind me, and I sucked in air for my lungs, seeing as it wasn’t getting enough at the moment. I didn’t care. It completely felt like oxygen was hidden somewhere behind his lips, somewhere in his mouth. I just had to keep going. I wanted to keep going so bad.This was magical. It was everything I dreamt about and more, everything max couldn’t give me.My tears had dried up, my throat had stopped fucking hurting and even the alcohol on my tongue tasted like strawberries when he tasted me, when he matted himself against me, curling and sucking, teeth clashing.I sighed against his lips and tilted my head, seeing stars in the darkness behind my eyelids.I could not believe this was happening, that I was kissing Jerome Lewin, that he had kissed me.It was what I had wanted all this while and finally getting it now reassured me that I wasn’t wrong.I thought of the first day we met, of how my hear
JEROMEShe was showing visible signs of anger and frustration. She adjusted on the chair, then started tapping her fingers against the table and when she couldn’t hold it in anymore, she spat the question out.“Why can’t you ever be real with me?”“Because you don’t need me to.”“Urgh! What does that even mean?”“It means the less you know, the better for you.”She hissed loudly and moved again, turning away.Even when she wasn’t looking, when all I could see was her side profile, she was the most beautiful sight to behold. She brought the water to her lips and swallowed; face visibly drawn into a scowl.She was cute when she frowned, when she huffed and made a big deal. I liked her more when she was giggling, vibrating against my back, and laughing so close to me that her breath tickled my neck.If I said this to her, it would sound like a joke but really, it was a
STACYJerome seized my waist as our lips crushed together and I loved how carnal he got when he wasn’t restraining. I wanted him to stop holding back, to stop feeling like he had an obligation to take care of me.It was beautiful when he moved like I was fragile glass but for now, I wanted to be his woman and nothing else. Knowing him, this night was probably never going to repeat itself and I wanted to have enough to look back on. I wanted tonight to be that night; I wanted him to be the one.“Don’t stop kissing me, Jerome. Please don’t stop.” I wove my fingers through his hair and pulled him down.Our noses ran along each other, his hands grabbing a handful of my clothes, my stomach crushed against his. Our tongues moved in unison, exploring one another, reaching for territories that opened up our hearts and our soul.Everything he did was driving me insane, everything he wasn’t doing yet was driving me insane.He
JEROMELisa came around the next morning when she heard what happened. Stacy and I missed her first call because we were too stuck on each other’s bodies for the second time that morning, to get to the phone. This happened during the early hours of the morning.Stacy crossed the living room, dressed in just her orange shirt and nothing underneath it. I loved having her walk around my place like this. It was something I could get used to, her presence but it was something I wasn’t meant to get used to. It was something that was never going to happen again. At least, I had to make sure of it.Stacy picked up her phone and put Lisa on speaker.“You went to a club?” Lisa asked as soon as her voice came through. She was a mixture of offended and excited.Stacy glanced in my direction, and I shrugged. “I texted her last night that you were here.”“Yeah. That’s what happens when you let your best friend go talk
STACYI did feel new, everything about today and every day after the night I spent with Jerome made me feel new and maybe I wouldn’t have thought about it until Lisa had pointed out in his living room that something about me had changed.On one side, I felt confident, I strutted with my nose in the air, back straight, and chin up. No one could make me feel less than myself in these moments and I hoped to God that it continued to stay that way for a very long time. On the other hand, I felt like everyone could see all the times that my mind dragged back an image from the past.I would feel those shifts so well, would feel my body softly vibrate when I remembered the feeling of him and me, the feeling of us and it was so powerful, so close to being real that I feared everyone else felt it or at least saw me feel it.All the times my cheeks turned red, all the times I had to bite my tongue and focus on someone’s face, voice, hands, hoping that they wou
JEROME“Fridays are good but you’re a college student, you want to have your Friday evenings to yourself.”She sighed, nodding subtly. “I mean, I wouldn’t mind spending my Fridays with you if we will be alone.”“Sta—”“I’m just saying,” she added, lifting her shoulders and shrugging it away.“Fridays are off the list. I like Monday, Wednesday and… pick the last day yourself.”Stacy thought for a long moment. We were trying to create a schedule around the days we would be meeting up. She had asked me about Nattie, and I tried to keep the answers minimal, to give away nothing while also making sure I wouldn’t hurt her.It was hard to read her thoughts. I couldn’t tell if she didn’t care or if she was angry that I gave her nothing. After I had slammed the question away without an okay answer, she didn’t go back to it.Now we were t
STACYI still couldn’t believe I had agreed to this. A joint date with Lisa? Lisa and Kiera.The thought swirled in my mind as I stood in front of my mirror, staring at my reflection. My fingers traced the hem of the dress I had picked out—simple, yet flattering enough for what felt like one of the strangest nights of my life.Lisa had convinced me, somehow, to go along with this. I wasn’t even sure how it all happened. One minute, we were awkwardly avoiding each other, and the next, we were laughing about how ridiculous it was that we were going on this double date.I heard a knock on the door and glanced at my phone—Lisa, of course, right on time.“Come in!” I called, still fussing with my hair. The door swung open, and Lisa waltzed in, her usual confidence trailing behind her.
STACYI woke up slowly, the warmth of the blankets making it hard to tell where the bed ended and my body began. The sunlight trickled in through the thin curtains, casting soft streaks of light across the room. For a moment, everything felt serene, like I could stay in this cocoon of warmth and silence forever. Then I realized Jerome wasn’t next to me.I rolled over, blinking sleep from my eyes, and saw the empty space where he should have been. The sheets were crumpled on his side, still warm. I heard the faint sound of water running and figured he must be in the shower. I lay there for a minute, listening to the sound of the water and feeling a strange sense of distance. It was odd, waking up without him beside me. We’d spent the night together, but it hadn’t felt as close as it usually did.I swung my legs over the side of the bed and padded across the cool floor, feeling the chill against my bare feet. The bathroom door was slightly
JEROMEShooting that day had been intense. We were working on one of the final scenes, the kind that was supposed to be raw and emotional, but instead of saving it for later in the production schedule, the producers wanted to get it done early for promotional material. It was all part of the business. We had to sell the movie, and nothing sold better than a sneak peek of a climactic moment.The set was buzzing with activity. Lights were being adjusted, makeup artists hovered nearby, and the crew moved around, setting up equipment and whispering about the next shot. I felt the pressure building, but I was used to it by now. This wasn’t my first film, and it definitely wouldn’t be my last.Chase called for a break, and I seized the opportunity to step away for a bit. I’d been on set all day, and I needed a breather before getting back into the set. Besides, I had something else on my mind. I was supposed to meet up with Stacy after we
STACYLisa had been gushing for weeks about how she was excited to introduce Jerome to Kiera. The way she talked about Kiera, with that glimmer in her eyes, made it impossible not to be happy for her.Everything was going to go fine today, I could already sense it.I was on shift that afternoon, taking orders and serving trays like usual. The restaurant wasn’t too packed, which gave me time to glance around, keep an eye on the door. Part of me was hoping they’d pick another spot, or maybe decide at the last minute that a fancy café was better suited for a first meeting like this. But, of course, that wasn’t Lisa’s style. She loved the casual vibe of Burger Trio, and it was one of the few places where she and Jerome could relax.The good thing was I missed my friends and wanted to see them, the bad thing was I missed my friends and wanted to see them.They made working but hard and pleasurable.I was
JEROMEStacy had been extra busy this period because she signed up for a few part-time jobs.I hated how busy she got most of the time but I was also glad for her that she was taking a responsible step towards her finances.That evening, after a game of snooker, I slipped into Burger’s Trio in hopes that I was early enough for her shift.Stacy had been extra busy this period because she signed up for a few part-time jobs. I hated how busy she got most of the time, but I was also glad for her. It was a responsible step toward her finances, even if it meant we had less time together.That evening, after a long day at work and a quick game of snooker with some friends, I decided to drop by Burger’s Trio, where Stacy worked one of her shifts. I’d been by a couple of times before, usually sneaking in to see her just as her shift ended. Tonight, I hoped I was early enough to catch her in action.As I walked through the door, the
STACYI knew I had to talk to Stacy when I was ten minutes into the lecture.The urge was so primal, so hungry that thee was no escaping it.The class had ended in a rush of students gathering their belongings and shuffling out of their seats. I stood at the front, gathering my notes and trying to maintain my composure.I was watching her pack her stuff, watching her move quickly with her hands.“Mr. Jerome!” one of the guys called out. “Do you have the syllabus handy? I think I missed a few details.”He was one of my students, blonde curly hair, a portion of if swooped across his forehead.“Of course,” I replied, pushing my thoughts of Stacy aside. I had to focus. “Here’s a copy for you.” I handed it to him.“Also, can y
STACYThe morning sun filtered through the curtain and pulled me out of my sleep.I stretched my arms above my head, blinking the sleep from my eyes as the day was about to start.Lisa was already up, rummaging through her drawers, her usual energy evident in the way she moved about. I could hear the faint sound of her humming to herself, a tune that was familiar but not quite memorable.“Morning,” I mumbled, pushing myself up and running a hand through my hair.Lisa turned around, her face lighting up with a smile. “Morning, sleepyhead! We’ve got to get a move on. First day back, remember?”I groaned softly, not quite ready to face the world just yet. The holiday had been a mix of relaxation and catching up on things we’d neglected during the semester, but the thought of diving back into classes already felt a bit overwhelming.Lisa, on the other hand, who was not an early riser, was rath
JEROMETime came and went by quickly, stealing through spaces, like a flash and somehow, it was the day for Stacy and Lisa to turn back to school.The day started off quietly, the kind of calm that usually precedes something big. I had to wake up earlier than usual, mostly because I wanted to get things done before picking them up.It was also hard to oversleep when you were seeing the love of your life.They were flying back today, and though I wasn’t exactly looking forward to the reunion, I wanted to at least make sure everything was in order before they got here.My apartment was a mess, and it didn’t take long to realize that cleaning up would take more effort than I had thought. Empty cups on the table, laundry that I had somehow forgotten to do all week, and the constant pile-up of papers and things I should have sorted ages ago. It was all there, waiting for me, mocking my attempts at getting my life together.The f
STACYWe touched down in Ohio some minutes ago, found our luggage and went in search for Lisa’s Mun who was waving at us with a bright smile and a placard that read, COLLEGE STARS.It was so embarrassing and if I didn’t have anyone to drive me to the city, I would have ditched Lies there and then.Sitting in the backseat of Lisa’s mom’s car, I stared out the window, watching as the city passed by in a blur. It was strange being back home, like slipping into a familiar jacket that somehow didn’t fit quite right anymore. Lisa was in the front passenger seat, rummaging through her Mum’s bag.I Could almost still sense Jerome sitting beside me. Almost.The more we drove into the city, the further everything that happened before felt like a dream. The affair between me and Jerome, the fallout with Lisa, the endless exams—it all felt like a dream now, like something that had happened to someone else.