STACY
I did feel new, everything about today and every day after the night I spent with Jerome made me feel new and maybe I wouldn’t have thought about it until Lisa had pointed out in his living room that something about me had changed.
On one side, I felt confident, I strutted with my nose in the air, back straight, and chin up. No one could make me feel less than myself in these moments and I hoped to God that it continued to stay that way for a very long time. On the other hand, I felt like everyone could see all the times that my mind dragged back an image from the past.I would feel those shifts so well, would feel my body softly vibrate when I remembered the feeling of him and me, the feeling of us and it was so powerful, so close to being real that I feared everyone else felt it or at least saw me feel it.All the times my cheeks turned red, all the times I had to bite my tongue and focus on someone’s face, voice, hands, hoping that they wouJEROME“Fridays are good but you’re a college student, you want to have your Friday evenings to yourself.”She sighed, nodding subtly. “I mean, I wouldn’t mind spending my Fridays with you if we will be alone.”“Sta—”“I’m just saying,” she added, lifting her shoulders and shrugging it away.“Fridays are off the list. I like Monday, Wednesday and… pick the last day yourself.”Stacy thought for a long moment. We were trying to create a schedule around the days we would be meeting up. She had asked me about Nattie, and I tried to keep the answers minimal, to give away nothing while also making sure I wouldn’t hurt her.It was hard to read her thoughts. I couldn’t tell if she didn’t care or if she was angry that I gave her nothing. After I had slammed the question away without an okay answer, she didn’t go back to it.Now we were t
STACYAfter classes today, I decided to stay back and go through some of my notes. I had this thing where I took random pictures and jotted things down during lectures. It was supposed to help me when time for studying came but the problem was, I wasn’t arranging these things. They were becoming too much, jumbled up, just random notes and information that didn’t go anywhere.For a while, I told myself that I could do it at the end of the week. I wanted to use a day of the weekend to sit down, read through all of it, arrange them where they were supposed to be and just clean the ideas out, but I had planned this for weeks now and I was still forgetting to do it.I always forgot and would only remember when the new week would start again. The more I was keeping it, the more work I was accumulating on that end.I didn’t know how it would be when I would have the time to sort it all out, I wasn’t even trying to bother myself with that anymore.
JEROMEIt took ten minutes after Stacy’s call for me to remember that she had not paid on her end of the bargain.I quickly typed a message to her.Jerome: Bring your laptop tonight. I wanna read your book.Then I put my phone away and faced my laptop.After I got the call from Chase, Lisa was the first person I called, then I sent Dylan a short message and Dad was next. Thankfully, I had caught him at the right time because they were both getting ready to go out.I wasn’t going to have to call him and then call Mum.As soon as Dad answered the call, he announced to Mum that I was on the line and her face came into the screen. I had told them, and they had congratulated me, rushing it though because they were running late. Stacy was the next on my to-call list, but I kept her call for later this afternoon.Honestly, I had no reason for doing that. She would have been the first person that I called but I purposely kept it away, tr
STACY“Why don’t you bring your bike to school?”“I do. Sometimes. Now.” We crossed the road on Jerome’s count and I did it without checking if any cars were coming.I was only looking at him, only paying attention to him.I wanted him to do the same. Anyways, someone had to keep their eyes on the road for us. Someone had to hold my hand and lead me through safely, making sure that we made it to our destination, his home, in one piece.“Okay. Why don’t you use it often?”“Because it doesn’t look responsible. I don’t know how to explain it but I’m sure you get it.”“I guess so.” Tired of waiting for him to hold my hands and intertwine our fingers, I started to check my finger nails, fighting with the hands that were supposed to be clasped beautifully in his.He was playing the role of a ‘family’ figure. I don’t know if that even m
JEROMEShe sighed heavily and rolled over in bed until she was staring at the ceiling. Her lips spread into a bright smile, eyes twinkling because of how much joy that was being pumped through her. We were both silent yet noises came from us, from our ragged breathing.They tried to slow down, tried to return to normal.We had found ourselves here again, I had let it happen. For a moment, I wanted to stop regretting. My heart, my mind, and my soul. Every part of me loved every moment of it, every second that we spent together. This thing I felt for Stacy scared the crap out of me as it was as real as the day was, as real as this life and this moment.Stacy moved in bed and I turned to, lying on my side. Her head nestled on her hands and her hair fell across the bed, being the halo to the angel that she was.My heart rate had slowed down to normal, my mind was at peace, it had found a comfortable silence that settled with the moment. She was breathing softl
STACYThere was a knock before Jerome asked if he could come in. I blushed knowing he was still being a gentleman, announcing his presence before coming in.He had all the reasons to barge in. It was his house, we had just had sex in this room, I didn’t mind yet he chose knocking. As long as the door was closed, he would continue to choose knocking, continue to wait for my approval before he proceeded to do anything to me.“Come in.”He stuck his head in and kept his lower body outside. “Lisa just called; she’s outside the door. Are you good?”“Yeah.” I didn’t need to look around to be sure that I had kept everything in order.I’ve had about ten minutes since we both finally left the bed. I had rearranged it, showered, changed clothes and now I was just doing one last check of the area to be sure there was nothing that would give away what just went down between Jerome and I in here.&ld
STACYI got into the car, then Lisa followed, and she sighed heavily, throwing her head back.For the few seconds that we had before Jerome would be out of the restaurant, I knew we had to talk about what had happened between her and Bridget.Though their relationship was not smooth, I wasn’t expecting the breakup to happen so soon. Lisa seemed happy; she seemed like she was ready to accommodate Bridget. So if things had ended so soon, it made me more concerned.“Who ended things?”“I did.”“You?”Lisa’s face was devoid of a smile, devoid of anything that showed she was okay. She closed her eyes and nodded to my question, her lips pressed into a thin line. “I just couldn’t lie to myself that I wanted that. It started to feel like I was just an experiment, like she was drawing up theories and conclusions on the kind of person I was, seeing through me. It wasn’t going to work out.&rd
JEROMEThe place I went to when I woke up on Monday was my laptop. I had not gotten the email, which was very likely since it was still very early in the morning. The sun wasn’t up, and most people weren’t up either.I left my email tab open and walked around the house in my briefs, returning every ten minutes to refresh the page.By the time the sun was up, I had downed two cups of coffee, a plate of cereal and milk, and the full plate of chicken I had gotten last night.I could hear the bustling city outside my window when I sat down on the chair for the umpteenth time. I refreshed once again, and this time, it took longer than normal, revealing in the end that the contract had been sent. I opened the email and went straight to the attached file.It was here—my contract was here. Though I had been assured that it would come in today, I couldn’t believe my eyes. I was living my dream, right here in this moment.I started to re
STACYI still couldn’t believe I had agreed to this. A joint date with Lisa? Lisa and Kiera.The thought swirled in my mind as I stood in front of my mirror, staring at my reflection. My fingers traced the hem of the dress I had picked out—simple, yet flattering enough for what felt like one of the strangest nights of my life.Lisa had convinced me, somehow, to go along with this. I wasn’t even sure how it all happened. One minute, we were awkwardly avoiding each other, and the next, we were laughing about how ridiculous it was that we were going on this double date.I heard a knock on the door and glanced at my phone—Lisa, of course, right on time.“Come in!” I called, still fussing with my hair. The door swung open, and Lisa waltzed in, her usual confidence trailing behind her.
STACYI woke up slowly, the warmth of the blankets making it hard to tell where the bed ended and my body began. The sunlight trickled in through the thin curtains, casting soft streaks of light across the room. For a moment, everything felt serene, like I could stay in this cocoon of warmth and silence forever. Then I realized Jerome wasn’t next to me.I rolled over, blinking sleep from my eyes, and saw the empty space where he should have been. The sheets were crumpled on his side, still warm. I heard the faint sound of water running and figured he must be in the shower. I lay there for a minute, listening to the sound of the water and feeling a strange sense of distance. It was odd, waking up without him beside me. We’d spent the night together, but it hadn’t felt as close as it usually did.I swung my legs over the side of the bed and padded across the cool floor, feeling the chill against my bare feet. The bathroom door was slightly
JEROMEShooting that day had been intense. We were working on one of the final scenes, the kind that was supposed to be raw and emotional, but instead of saving it for later in the production schedule, the producers wanted to get it done early for promotional material. It was all part of the business. We had to sell the movie, and nothing sold better than a sneak peek of a climactic moment.The set was buzzing with activity. Lights were being adjusted, makeup artists hovered nearby, and the crew moved around, setting up equipment and whispering about the next shot. I felt the pressure building, but I was used to it by now. This wasn’t my first film, and it definitely wouldn’t be my last.Chase called for a break, and I seized the opportunity to step away for a bit. I’d been on set all day, and I needed a breather before getting back into the set. Besides, I had something else on my mind. I was supposed to meet up with Stacy after we
STACYLisa had been gushing for weeks about how she was excited to introduce Jerome to Kiera. The way she talked about Kiera, with that glimmer in her eyes, made it impossible not to be happy for her.Everything was going to go fine today, I could already sense it.I was on shift that afternoon, taking orders and serving trays like usual. The restaurant wasn’t too packed, which gave me time to glance around, keep an eye on the door. Part of me was hoping they’d pick another spot, or maybe decide at the last minute that a fancy café was better suited for a first meeting like this. But, of course, that wasn’t Lisa’s style. She loved the casual vibe of Burger Trio, and it was one of the few places where she and Jerome could relax.The good thing was I missed my friends and wanted to see them, the bad thing was I missed my friends and wanted to see them.They made working but hard and pleasurable.I was
JEROMEStacy had been extra busy this period because she signed up for a few part-time jobs.I hated how busy she got most of the time but I was also glad for her that she was taking a responsible step towards her finances.That evening, after a game of snooker, I slipped into Burger’s Trio in hopes that I was early enough for her shift.Stacy had been extra busy this period because she signed up for a few part-time jobs. I hated how busy she got most of the time, but I was also glad for her. It was a responsible step toward her finances, even if it meant we had less time together.That evening, after a long day at work and a quick game of snooker with some friends, I decided to drop by Burger’s Trio, where Stacy worked one of her shifts. I’d been by a couple of times before, usually sneaking in to see her just as her shift ended. Tonight, I hoped I was early enough to catch her in action.As I walked through the door, the
STACYI knew I had to talk to Stacy when I was ten minutes into the lecture.The urge was so primal, so hungry that thee was no escaping it.The class had ended in a rush of students gathering their belongings and shuffling out of their seats. I stood at the front, gathering my notes and trying to maintain my composure.I was watching her pack her stuff, watching her move quickly with her hands.“Mr. Jerome!” one of the guys called out. “Do you have the syllabus handy? I think I missed a few details.”He was one of my students, blonde curly hair, a portion of if swooped across his forehead.“Of course,” I replied, pushing my thoughts of Stacy aside. I had to focus. “Here’s a copy for you.” I handed it to him.“Also, can y
STACYThe morning sun filtered through the curtain and pulled me out of my sleep.I stretched my arms above my head, blinking the sleep from my eyes as the day was about to start.Lisa was already up, rummaging through her drawers, her usual energy evident in the way she moved about. I could hear the faint sound of her humming to herself, a tune that was familiar but not quite memorable.“Morning,” I mumbled, pushing myself up and running a hand through my hair.Lisa turned around, her face lighting up with a smile. “Morning, sleepyhead! We’ve got to get a move on. First day back, remember?”I groaned softly, not quite ready to face the world just yet. The holiday had been a mix of relaxation and catching up on things we’d neglected during the semester, but the thought of diving back into classes already felt a bit overwhelming.Lisa, on the other hand, who was not an early riser, was rath
JEROMETime came and went by quickly, stealing through spaces, like a flash and somehow, it was the day for Stacy and Lisa to turn back to school.The day started off quietly, the kind of calm that usually precedes something big. I had to wake up earlier than usual, mostly because I wanted to get things done before picking them up.It was also hard to oversleep when you were seeing the love of your life.They were flying back today, and though I wasn’t exactly looking forward to the reunion, I wanted to at least make sure everything was in order before they got here.My apartment was a mess, and it didn’t take long to realize that cleaning up would take more effort than I had thought. Empty cups on the table, laundry that I had somehow forgotten to do all week, and the constant pile-up of papers and things I should have sorted ages ago. It was all there, waiting for me, mocking my attempts at getting my life together.The f
STACYWe touched down in Ohio some minutes ago, found our luggage and went in search for Lisa’s Mun who was waving at us with a bright smile and a placard that read, COLLEGE STARS.It was so embarrassing and if I didn’t have anyone to drive me to the city, I would have ditched Lies there and then.Sitting in the backseat of Lisa’s mom’s car, I stared out the window, watching as the city passed by in a blur. It was strange being back home, like slipping into a familiar jacket that somehow didn’t fit quite right anymore. Lisa was in the front passenger seat, rummaging through her Mum’s bag.I Could almost still sense Jerome sitting beside me. Almost.The more we drove into the city, the further everything that happened before felt like a dream. The affair between me and Jerome, the fallout with Lisa, the endless exams—it all felt like a dream now, like something that had happened to someone else.