Lucas held onto me for a while, no words were spoken between us. I didn't mind since LuLu smelt nice and was warm but, I was starting to cramp so I was ready to disengage. ''Lucas,'' I said but it was muffled and sounded like I said Mucas. When he didn't answer I assumed he didn't hear me so I tried again. ''Lucas, can you let me go now, please?'' He didn't. Instead, he rocked me side to side like you would a baby who wouldn't stop crying. Perhaps he was doing this to comfort himself because I wasn't feeling sad in the slightest. In fact, I didn't feel anything, except maybe just tired. Then I felt the wetness on my shoulder; he was crying. I patted his head and held onto him as I tried to comfort him. Why was I making everyone upset recently? Because you're a failure. ''Lucas, don't worry I'm fine, I promise,'' I said quietly. He shook his head and he sniffled, '' I'm sorry,'' ''Why are you sorry?'' I asked. ''I should have been there for you,'' he said, ''If I had known,''
Dr Marsha left after a while, I'd say twenty minutes after she sat down. My guess is that she finally figured out that I wasn't in the mood to talk and there was no way that I was going to do something I didn't want to do. Call me stubborn if you will because stubborn I am. ''Do you want to skip school tomorrow?'' Lucas asked as he came into my room and sat on the edge of my bed. He's been very doting since last night and while I would normally appreciate it, I wasn't feeling very appreciative right now. I didn't even remember the last time I was absent. I felt like I should go because I don't want people to ask me why I wasn't there. What people? You don't have friends. I assure you no one would realise. I can always count on the voice in my head to keep me humble. Always. ''Hello? You still there?'' Lucas asked as he waved his hand way too close to my face. I felt the itches of irritation creep up my spine. I really want to smack him. ''Yeah, I'm fine. I just want to sleep
I rubbed my eyes, leaned against the headboard and stretched obnoxiously. I enjoyed the satisfying sounds of various cracks and pops of my bones. I looked over at the clock I had on my nightstand, its glowing red numbers showed me that I had twenty minutes to get ready. If it weren't for melatonin, I would have probably been late. The noise from downstairs would have also woken me up, just then a pot crashed onto the floor. ''What the hell are you doing?'' ''Obviously, I'm starting a marching band. What the hell do you think I'm doing dumbass?'' ''Are you sassing me in my own home? Only you would have the audacity,'' ''Nooo, I would never,'' It didn't take a genius to guess who the noise bunch were. Honestly, I would be more worried if they weren't arguing. Their lover's spat was quite refreshing, almost as if it anchored me to a world that seemed to have spun out of control for the past few days. I decided to get out of bed when I heard more pots and pans crashing against the fl
I leaned against the headrest and closed my eyes. I took another bite of my apple and tried to chew quietly. The sound of my chewing in the otherwise silent vehicle was making me feel awkward. I felt like I was disturbing the peace which was crazy since I knew that beneath the silence was a turbulent sea of hellraising questions. Just thinking about made my stomach hurt and my palms felt sweaty and tingly. What if I was coming down with something? Can stress actually make you sick? I can't get sick now, the play was so close I could smell it. We drove in silence for about five minutes before Zack broke it. ''What happened to your phone? I tried calling and texting you all weekend,'' ''It's no longer with us,'' I said sorrowfully. I really liked that phone if I'm being honest. Yes, it was old and outdated and yes, the camera quality was ass and sometimes the touch didn't work but aside from all that it was nice. It served me well. ''What broke it? or should I say who?'' he asked me.
I opened my eyes wide and tried not to blink. I just know that if I do, I'll end up falling asleep. It felt like years since I'd entered the classroom. Mr Gooden's voice droned on and on; he was talking about something that I didn't understand. I was bored out of my skull and not understanding the work was not helping my mood. We've already been through the test and I passed, barely, but I know Zack would be proud of me when he saw my result. I am kind of proud of myself too. I plan to reward myself with a cookie after I leave gymnastics practice later. I also needed to speak to Ms Fiddleson about the missed rehearsals. While I planned my week in my head, the bell rang and students rushed out as if the classroom was on fire. I took my time packing up because I knew or at least hoped Zack would save a table for us in the cafeteria. I was so busy imagining the pizza I was going to get that I failed to notice Mr Gooden standing in front of my desk until I looked up. ''Yes sir?'' I aske
''Why do you look so scared?'' she laughed as she stood in front of me smiling. I was scared. I didn't think she would attack me, but she might bully me with her words and that was much worse in my opinion. ''I'm not scared,'' I said though I knew I wasn't convincing anyone. ''Don't worry,'' she said and lightly nudged me with her elbow, ''Just came to ask you how you are? The last time I saw you, you were crying,'' ''Oh, I'm doing fine. Thanks for asking,'' I said. I wasn't feeling as relaxed as Mindy seemed. ''That's good,'' Mindy said. Then there was an awkward silence with me avoiding eye contact and her shifting nervously from side to side. ''Well great catching up,'' I spoke and tried to leave, however, she had other ideas as she grabbed my upper arm. ''How's Zack?'' she asked and nervously chewing on her lower lip. I liked Mindy, well as much as you can like someone who you've never talked to, and while I, at times, made her out to be the villain she was actually nice-
''How was practise?'' Zack asked as soon as I buckled up.I felt bad about my blowup on Mindy so, I decided to leave early, but it was mainly to get away from her glaring friends. I didn't need that in my life right now.''It was fine, I was mean to Mindy though,'' I replied avoiding his eyesight.''That's not like you at all. Did something happen?'' he pulled out of the car park and headed in the opposite direction of our house.''Where are you going? I have to prepare for the debate tomorrow,''''I thought you went to debate last week,''''I did but we have this topic that I really like so I decided to forgo photojournalism this week,''''Aren't you the president? Can you just leave your club like that?''''I already told...'' I trailed off as we pull into the car park for some Indian restaurant. ''What's this?''''I ordered some food from this place. I thought you might be hungry after practice,''I smiled and
My eyes glanced back and forth between the two, shoving food in my mouth every now and again. It was during dinner, and Zack was arguing with his stepmother, this was a very rare occurrence as Zack loves Auntie Kris. To be fair most people loved her, she was really sweet. Zack wanted to invite Kayla to the dinner next week and Auntie Kris was heavily against it. Over the years I've noticed that she tended to ignore all of Zack's girlfriends. I never asked why, I was mostly concerned with how she was able to do so, maybe later I'll ask her for her technique.''Dad please talk to your wife, she's being unreasonable,'' Zack snapped turning his anger to his poor innocent dad.At this point they were both standing, it reminded me of when mountain goats would ram their heads together as they stood on their hind legs. Maybe we humans aren't so detached from other animals, after all. That's definitely some food for thought.Uncle Alex shook his head and told Zack
I listened to Kiara crunching on the bright red apple she grabbed on her way out the door. My eyes quickly took in the neon yellow numbers on the dashboard. According to it, I did not have enough time to stop by Starbucks to get Kiara some breakfast. Of all days I did not have food stashed away in my car, this was the day. Usually, I had at least a granola bar, but when I took my cousins on a joyride the other day Charlie gobbled it up. I don't blame her, they were delicious. Unfortunately, I forgot to replenish my stock. I tried to recall if I had any snacks in my backpack. What about the pack of nuts? No, I ate them one morning when I had to rush out with food. You had a bar of chocolate, where did that go? Oh right, I gave it to Kayla when she was feeling lightheaded. I was truly out of options. I feel so bad. Breakfast is the most important meal of the day. Kiara would get extremely crabby without proper nourishment. Plus, she would not focus in class and she really needed to focus
I stood outside Kiara's house and just stared. I left earlier than usual to enact my plan. I was going to sneak into her house and make her a feel-better breakfast. If she felt like talking I would listen, if not then I would simply share a meal with one of the most important women in my life. Yet, I could not seem to get myself to move. I was scared. Scared that she would turn me away, just like that night. I was terrified that she would blame me, but nothing made my heart ache more than the thought of never seeing Kiara again. Before I could turn away, my cousin's voice resonated in my head. When she was leaving yesterday she told me such simple words, something you could easily get off the internet, yet coming from her it made sense. "Just be there for her. It may not seem like you're doing much, but it would mean the world to her," Just be there for her. I could do that. I was great at cooking. I would be there for her while providing delicious food. Food made everything bett
I put down my textbook, accepting defeat. There was just too much noise for me to study. Can't a guy relax with some chemical equations in his own home anymore? Where was the humanity? The consideration? The house was extra packed today because my mum's side of the family is in for a visit. Mum has a younger sister named Auntie Abby. Auntie Abby is amazing, she has always made me feel like a part of the family even though I was not related by blood. Auntie Abby has two daughters, twin girls who are just as nice as their mother. Uncle Patrick, Abby's husband, and I also got on since we both loved science. In fact, Uncle Patrick was a scientist and last I heard he was researching a new bacteria that was found frozen in the Arctic. "Where's our little cousin?" Bernie asked from outside my door. "You do realise that I am older than you right," I opened the door and welcomed the bear hug from both Bernie and Charlie. "Shut up," Charlie laughed. They always said they were the older
I looked back at my mum who sat on a bench to the side, naturally, she chose to be seated in the shade. She was texting someone on her phone. It should be anyone, but the one person I really hoped it was not was Uncle Lionel. My parents tried to hide what happened between them from me, but I hear things. Today was supposed to be a good day, I should focus only on good things. With that mentality, I turned towards the beauty. If all the girls at my new school were this pretty then I definitely would not mind moving. Initially, my dad lived close to his family which meant I got to visit my aunts and cousins whenever I wanted. They were the only ones who kept me company when Dad had to travel or be at the office until two in the morning. I also loved our old apartment. It was big enough for me, him and Roger, the dog. It was our only little cosy place. Before my dad got married, he told me that we would have to move somewhere else since the apartment was not big enough for all of us. I
I puffed out my cheek, using a finger I poked each one. In my head, I figured I looked exactly like a chipmunk so what better thing to do than chirp like one. I barely paid attention to my stepmum as she hushed my little brother. He cried a lot. He also slept a lot, but I figured if you spend half of the day screaming you'd spend the other half sleeping. My stepmum, who I call mum, says babies cry because they miss being around us. I do not think I believe her but babies did stop crying when you gave them atention so she could be right. "Hey honey. Are you excited to spend the day with your mother?" she sat beside me on the couch. Daniel's fat little arms reached up to grab her hair. The day he was born I felt so happy because I finally had someone who I could spend time with. My dad sad I'd have to wait a bit longer befoe I could actually spend time with him. "I guess. It'll be nice to see her again after four or so months. What time is she supposed to get here?" I held my brothe
"How long is the cake going to take?" I whined. The sweet scent of the cake permeated the house. This was not helping my craving. Kiara checked her imaginary watch, and with a look of concentration, she told me that the cake had ten minutes left. I had no reason to call her bluff. I would be satisfied as long as the cake was not burnt, I would eat it. After all, Kiara took time out of her day to bake a cake with me. Who was I to disregard her efforts? "Can you turn off the lights?" Kiki asked as she finished straightening the bedsheets. From where I was standing I could already see her pulling up the movie. It did not take long to find it since the page was already bookmarked on her laptop and mine. I turned off the lights as she requested and slid into my usual spot- on the left side of her bed. Within seconds her attention was glued to the opening scene. The very same scene we had seen so many times that I could rewrite the entire script from memory alone. I knew the exact sce
I gathered as many ingredients as I could while Kiara got the bowls and cake pan. I took a backseat while Kiara measured and mixed everything. There was something mesmerising about watching her move around the kitchen so naturally. For someone who did not like Maths and Chemistry, she did really well at creating recipes. I would suggest becoming a food scientist if she were not such a natural actress. "Am I going to need to add vanilla?" Kiara shouted over the sound of the pastel blue stand mixer I got her a few years ago. "What?" I called. "I know you heard me!" she jabbed me in the side with a spoon. "Yes, you are going to need to add vanilla," I smiled at her while she rolled her eyes at me. I dipped a finger into the batter after Kiki had mixed the flour and sugar with the other ingredients. I would risk salmonella any day just for some raw batter. Kiki, on the other hand, was cautious and complaining. She complained about the butter being too cold and the eggs not being warm
I wanted cake. Carrot cake to be specific. Actually, any cake would do. Perhaps it was because I was truly craving something sweet or perhaps it was because I was currently smelling Kiara's shampoo or it might have been one of the products she used religiously. It smelt sweet, yet I couldn't pinpoint exactly what I was smelling but I liked it. It reminded me of cake. I was about to angle my head so I could get another whiff of Kiara's hair when she spoke up. ''Why do you think we're friends?'' she started. She looked up at me with her beautiful big caramel-coloured eyes. She blinked her long dark lashes as she waited for my answer. I wonder if she could hear my heart race as she rested her head on my chest. I prayed my shirt could somehow muffle the sound. I glanced at her laptop which was playing a sitcom we found. I guess we both decided to use it as background noise. I thought about her question. We were friends because I fell in love with her the moment I saw her and wanted to
I glanced over at Kiara. Her eyes were closed. Her hand moved along to the beat of Alicia Keys. Did she know she was humming along? I doubt that she did. I have found that Kiara lacked awareness from time to time, I didn't mind nine times out of ten. I found it cute how she would sing louder at the parts she was sure of and mumble along to the parts she forgot. With Kiara's singing, my mind went back to what happened when I was dragged away that morning. I ended up missing the first session of the day. I would need to ask Kiara and the teacher for the notes because if I knew my best friend I knew she had mostly doodles with a sprinkling of words in her book. I locked the meeting room as Kiki and I watched towards our lockers. I tried to get her to talk about the game, but Kiara preferred to ignore things. That was one thing I wanted to change about her. Discussing what upsets you is a good thing, we don't have to do it the second a misfortune happens, but it needs to be done.Since