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From this angle I could see the pain etched in Jake’s face. His eyes locked on the door and I watched as the cogs churned in his head. The emotions he was going through were so obvious. He took one step toward the door and I held my breath as he contemplated going after her. He closed his eyes and his hands curled into fists. He turned his back to the door and froze as his eyes flashed yellow. His wolf was fighting him.Was it fighting to run home?Or was it telling him to turn around and go to Clara?Viktor linked me but I ignored him as I kept my eyes on my other mate. Jake turned toward the door and broke into a run. He opened the door and slammed it behind him. A pained cry escaped past my lips as I stared at the closed door. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I willed him to run back out. I don’t know how long I waited there for him to come out. The moon was high in the sky and the night time animals woke up. He wasn’t coming back out tonight.I was stuck between waiting out here f
Viktor hooked his fingers beneath my clothing and ripped it from my body. I lay beneath my mate naked. I felt so small, so vulnerable. I reached for him but he didn’t budge. He scoot lower on the bed and pressed kisses to my thighs. I sighed as his hands caressed and grabbed me. His soft lips made their way up and my pussy clenched. My mate chuckled as he pressed a kiss to my sensitive center. I opened my legs for him and he inhaled sharply as my lips spread for him. I could almost see his restraint snap. My mate wrapped his mouth around my pussy lips and sucked. My hips bucked and I threw my head back. My hands flew to the back of his head. I ran my fingers through his hair and grabbed handfuls of hair. He growled approvingly and my thighs quivered. His hands curved beneath my backside and he lifted me up. I looked down at Viktor as he made a suction sound with his mouth. “Viktor,” I moaned. “Baby, please.” “Mmm… keep begging. It’s so fucking hot, Kacie,” Viktor whispered. He lic
Kacie I tossed and turned in bed. I couldn’t find a comfortable position and kept waking up. It wasn’t until Viktor wrapped me in his arms and I slept on my side while cuddling into his side that I could drift back to sleep. With him by my side I felt safe, I felt loved, I felt cared for. The sound of the door clicking closed stirred me from sleep. I’m surrounded by darkness, beneath a blanket, my source of heat by my side. Cautious footsteps made their way closer and closer. The bed dipped beside me and the warmth whooshed out as cold air rushed in. My skin pebbled and I groaned as I reached for him. I blinked as an angry voice filled the room. “Come back to bed,” I pleaded. “I can’t right now. I know you need rest but Jake just got home,” Viktor said. I’m instantly awake and sit up in bed. The light flipped on as Viktor turned the dial. The blanket pooled at my waist and Jake’s eye took me in. I hated the way heat pooled between my legs. I hated him right now. “What are you doi
Jake’s words stung and teared filled my eyes to the brim. My vision blurred as Jake glared back at me. I wasn’t prepared for the hate or anguish in his eyes. I wasn’t expecting to hear about his pain or that he was in mourning. I didn’t want to think about his wanting to be with her. He had us and maybe it was selfish but I didn’t want him to want her. I didn’t want him to want anyone else. I swayed back and dropped my hands to the bed in an attempt to hold myself upright. Jake moved forward but stopped when tears streamed down my cheeks. Viktor was up on his feet and by my side in an instant. I felt drained. I just wanted to sleep. The bed dipped as he sat by my side. I leaned against him and rested my head on his shoulder. “If you cared about us at all you would have at least let us know that you were okay. You would have let us know that something came up and you were going to be late. That way we wouldn’t worry. Do you regret choosing us? Is that why you’re angry? Maybe you think
KacieJake pulled himself to his feet and I watched him as he walked out with his head down. He took a piece of my heart with him as he went. Viktor wrapped me up in his arms and I snuggled into his embrace as sobs wracked my body. My mate soothed me and rubbed my back as I let go of everything. I know I’ve been all over the place but I didn’t want to lose Jake.He should have been honest with us from the beginning. Keeping secrets and sneaking around was suspicious. Jake was a walking talking red flag and I wasn’t going to ignore them. I considered Jake my mate but that didn’t mean that I was going to let him walk all over me. And that’s what it felt like knowing that he had been with Clara all night.Especially since a part of me told me it wasn’t their first night together. A gnawing feeling in my gut told me there were more secrets that Jake had to reveal to me. I couldn’t help but think back to the day Jade trained me because Clara couldn’t make it in.Is that when it all started
“The Moon Goddess made you for me and I didn’t damn her for it. I thanked her for blessing me with someone so amazing,” Viktor said sweetly.“You still think so after seeing all of my crazy colors?” I asked.“Always,” Viktor said. “Do you love Jake?”“Yes,” I whimpered.“Do you think of him any differently now that we know who his fated mate is?” Viktor asked.“No,” I whispered. “But… I couldn’t forgive him if he’s slept with her. Could you?” I asked.“I love him Kacie. I love him as much as I love you. I would be hurt if we found out that he’d been with her. But…”“But?” I asked.“Yes. But. I would forgive him if he officially rejected her. If he still chose us after finding her I wouldn’t turn him away,” Viktor said.“I-I don’t know, Vik…”“However, if you don’t want him to stay by our side… I will respect your decision. If you want to end our relationship with him… It would break me but I would do as you say, My Queen,” Viktor murmured.“I don’t know. I don’t want to talk about thi
After hours of tears, loving touches, and kisses Viktor and I lay snugged up in bed. Hours had passed since we had breakfast. It was either lunch or almost dinner time now. I should be get food, I should be hungry, but I wasn’t. My mind was reeling with what should and how should. I was now faced with a different feeling.I was pregnant and in just a few months I would be a mother. I would be responsible for another and would have my mates, or mate by my side. We didn’t have much time left before the baby would be here.We needed to figure out this issue with Jake and we needed to do it fast. I would not have this drag over months. I wouldn’t hope for him to choose us. I wouldn’t let months pass with uncertainty. We needed to know what he wanted, really wanted.Today we would need an answer. Time was ticking and we couldn’t just wait for it to figure itself out. If we were going to fix things than we needed to know today. We would need to work on it over the next few months but first,
We could have linked the kitchen for a meal to be brought up. It would have been easier and I could have stayed a in bed and been a gremlin. I wanted to stay comfy in bed and wait for Jake to come back. I wanted to stay in Viktor’s arms and have dinner in bed. I knew I needed to get up and walk around, so when he stood up and put me down on my feet I didn’t complain. When he offered me his hand, I ignored the instant need to whine and crawl back into bed. I grabbed his hand and he smiled knowingly. He turned without another word and I followed him toward the door. When we got downstairs we walked past pack members who were worried. Viktor hadn’t made an announcement to explain to our people so they didn’t know what happened. Some came up and wished me well and others thanked me for appearing okay. A few thanked the Moon Goddess, bowed, and said they were happy to see me. I needed to be better. I made a note to keep the pack members in the loop in the future. We would need to make an an
My heat aches as the thoughts flit through my mind one after the other. Tears prick the corners of my eyes before filling them. My chest pangs with the need to be wrapped up in his arms. I know without a shadow of a doubt that Jake would do all of those things. He would care for me as he had before. He would look after me as my Beta, my partner, and the father of our child.My soul wept for him, my heart broke for him, and my mind went mad for him. I curled into a ball on the bed and grasped at the sheets as the pain poured from my body. I screamed as it became unbearable and my vision went white. I cried out, my cry turning into a scream, as the door burst open. It slammed against the wall, but still my vision remained impaired.I couldn’t see anyone, but I heard voices. I felt the rush of people around me and hands checking me and prodding my belly. I froze when I felt the warmth of a hand on my shoulder and a familiar scent I didn’t think I would ever smell again. I threw my head ba
Kacie I want to bury my head into his chest but I can’t. I can’t bring myself to look away. I continue staring at him as Viktor lays down by his side. He props himself up and stares down at him. The love and sadness in his eyes blend into one. His gaze darts back and forth between the two of us. A sad smile pulling at the corners of his lips. “I love you,” I whisper. “I love you,” Viktor says quietly. We shared stories, we cried, we laughed. I told him about one of the mornings after my Luna Ceremony when I woke up and found Jake naked across from me. He flexed and tried to show off. Viktor chuckled and shared a precious memory from when they first kissed. It was sweet and I wished I could have seen the look in Jake’s eyes if he had heard Viktor tell the story. The next memory Viktor shared with me was the look on Jake’s face when I walked out that first day in Ken’s house. When he smelled me and knew I was his mate, he only trusted Jake to be alone with me. That’s why he let him
Kacie“I have one request,” I said.“Anything my love,” Viktor said.“I don’t want him in the lobby. I want him in our room. Can we do that?” I asked.“We can do whatever we want Kacie,” Viktor answered.In the olden days, it was common for our kind to spend the dead’s last night with them. It was like a ritual, we clean their bodies with a cloth, wash their hair, and clothe them in something loose. After the ritual the body is placed in the living room or the pack lobby if the dead was an alpha. The family would then bring their blankets and pillows to sleep in the front on the couch or the floor. It’s the last night you get with the dead. It’s a form of closure and was done away with one hundred years ago, or at least that’s what Viktor told me. When he told me about it I clung to the knowledge and asked him if we could do it too. He admitted that he mentioned it to gouge my reaction. We looked into each others eyes and knew without a doubt that we needed to do it.It may have been
Kacie “I’ve failed. I failed and lost him,” Viktor said. The weight on his shoulders was large enough to make anyone crumble beneath it. Still, my mate stood firm. My heart broke for the mate we’d lost, but it soared knowing that he was safe. Instead of keeping my thoughts to myself I would make sure he knew. I would make sure he knew every day how much I loved him, how much I needed him in my life. I would make sure he knew how loved he was, but first, he needed to face Jake. He needed to come to grips with it as I have. He needs to make peace with it, so he can move forward. We both needed this. “Come here,” I said. I watched as he mentally drew back, away from me as if he would hurt me. As if he thought he’d lose me too if he touched me. I reached for him, my outstretched hand open in offering for him to take it. He had to take it. Viktor stared at my hand for a moment before his eyes darted to Jake on the ground between us. Desperation clear in his eyes when he looked back at m
Kacie In an attempt to feel whatever warmth Jake had left I pushed my body as close as I could to his. I ignored the unevenness of his body, the difference between it now and what I remembered. Everything in me came flowing out as my hair flowed out all around me. My hands grasped at his muddy shirt and my heart broke for the second time today. Jake’s body was hard and the finality of it pulled the sheet from beneath my feet. I was no longer able to deny the crushing reality. The warmth was seeping out of him as quickly as the clouds had formed above us. Footsteps squelched behind me announcing Viktor’s presence. My pain vibrated in his chest as he stopped behind me. It was enough to pull him away from mourning his sister. The curiosity outweighing the fear led him to me. I could feel his pain as he felt mine. I knew when he saw who lay beneath me because he made an unintelligible sound behind me. Still, I couldn’t bring myself to lift my head. I couldn’t look back at him. I couldn’
KacieI’ll hurt you.I don’t want to hurt you.I don’t want to hurt him. I wouldn’t hurt him. The urge, no, the need to make sure I don’t hurt him runs through my veins as the idea of burning him strikes me hard in the chest. It’s like an ice cold bucket of water and I feel like I’ve jolted awake from a dream. The flames protest against my will as my mind refuses to hurt the man in front of me. For the first time since becoming aware I look at him. My eyes wander over black hair, a sharp jaw, and full lips. Dark tired eyes filled with worry stared down at me. My mate reaches for me a second time and this time I extinguish the flames with the flick of my wrist as realization dawned on me.My mate.He’s okay.He’s alive.If my mate is here than why am I so hurt?My does my heart bleed?I lean in toward him and his hand gently grazes over my cheek, his shoulders relaxed, and relief stared back at me. I was safe. I was in one piece. I had survived. If he hadn’t gotten my attention things
Kacie My father’s breathing is haggard and strained beneath me. At my words he roars angrily. He’s weak, useless below me, unable to get away. When I straighten my back, lift myself up, and stare down at him. I take a moment to look over the expression of fear and regret in his eyes. I don’t bother with emotion because right now, I feel nothing. There’s only a high, a haze of bliss from his acceptance. It’s settled over me as I hover over him. The power of taking what I want, getting the revenge I sent out for. I’m hurting him, torturing him, killing him. I focus on this as he stares up at me. “All of this will do nothing. You may have killed my friends and you may have won the fight between you and I, but there’s one you haven’t and can’t win. You can’t win against death,” Charles chokes. I don’t want to hear anymore. I don’t want to hear the truth drip from his lips like poisoned honey. I won’t let him win and I won’t let his words get to me. I won’t change my mind and I won’t hea
Charles yanked his arm back but I didn’t let go. I did the opposite, I dug my nails in as he pulled, my claws dug into his skin and ripped. Blood pooled and burned, he yanked again this time, ignoring the bite of my nails as they pierced deeper. He wrenched his arm free, or what was left of it. I could feel his skin under my claws, chunks of meat between my fingers, as he cried out in pain. I take a moment to enjoy my work. His once scorched pink skin had turned black, blood ran down his arm and dripped to the floor. Charles turned to glare at me, and for the first time since meeting him, fear stares back at me. He clutched his injured arm and I watch as his Adam’s apple bobs as he swallows nervously. Sweat pools on his temple and slides down his brow. I chuckle at this small victory. He must have thought that I would be an easy kill. The young girl he once knew died a long time ago. Did he think that his words would have weakened me? Did he think that his words would have an affect
KacieNow that I knew Viktor would be okay, I could give in to what I’ve wanted since seeing the devastation the Elders caused. Now that I knew that Clara would have Viktor, I felt the opposite of what I’ve before at the thought of them together alone. I felt relief. She would make sure he was safe. I turned from Clara and focused on that man I once called father.Answering to the call of my growing flames I dashed forward. I promised to give them what they wished soon. The need for blood, for sliced skin, and the smell of burning flesh drove me forward. I would have what I desired, I would have my vengeance, my revenge. My anger fanned the flames and they grew hotter than they ever have before. I screamed out in anguish as I rushed toward the man who should have been the father I deserved. He was nothing but a disappointment.Tears run down my cheeks before they dry up and evaporate. I don’t cry for him or what I’m going to do, no, I’ll revel in my father’s death. The tears continue