“So Vincent gave you this?” El holds up the worn-out diary. I nod. She stares at it in shock. “Wow.”
“He wanted to see Brianna,” I explain.
“Because he’s her uncle,” she finishes for me. “I cannot believe this.” Neither did I at first.
She flips a few more pages and raises her head. “He has seen Brianna, right?” Another nod. Her curiosity is cute as she devours the content of Nicole’s diary, something I have not been able to bring myself to do. I know the most important bit already. “Do you need to seek his permission before adopting her?”
“Dunno.” But I will most likely not be doing that. El adjusts her legs on my lap and pushes herself up the pillow with one elbow. I don’t know why I’m reluctant to tell her the truth of his death. “Are you done?”
She raises the diary and shrieks. “Done?
Our first stop is Joshua’s house. El presses the horn so hard I have to plug my fingers in my ears. She’s one wild woman. My wild woman. The front door of Joshua’s house flies open. He doesn’t look happy.Why is he at home anyways?Joshua storms to our car. “What the fuck, El?”She opens the door for him. “Get in.”Joshua sends me a careful look. We don’t get to meet bossy El often. We don’t know how to handle her. Joshua slides into the backseat without a word, he fixes me a stern frown through the rearview mirror. I shrug. I have no idea what’s going on yet except for our location. Yeah, she is driving us home.We resume the drive, at intervals, El’s eyes dart to the GPS. I should be driving but the stubborn woman won’t let me. Joshua’s eyes bore holes into the back of my head but I’m uninterested in putting him out of his misery. He didn&r
El is quiet.She doesn’t tell me what Mother told her. I maintain my facade of ignorance throughout the ride home. Joshua spares me worried glances through the rearview mirror as El curls against me in the backseat. She’s in shock.On her order, Joshua stops at a supermarket for her to get some stuff. It takes only a few minutes and she returns to the car with a paper bag she makes both of us swear never to touch without her consent. Once Joshua drives into our compound, she shoots out of the car without so much as a backward glance.El’s not changing her mind about us making babies, is she? If she doesn’t want more kids, I can learn to live with it but I would appreciate it if she told me that. We need to communicate better. I’ll listen to her.Joshua gets out of the car at the same time as me. He hugs me tight. I hug him tighter.Questions linger in his eyes but he doesn’t voice any of them ou
El won’t stop squirming. Maybe because I am fingering her. Her eyelids flutter as she tries not to make a sound, the naughty part of me takes that as a challenge and I push another finger inside her vagina. She glares at me through the mirror, her nails sink into the drawer but I don’t stop. I don’t want to stop.We’re getting ready for the doctor’s appointment. We need to make sure before we announce it.El’s phone rings. Her mother. Mischief crawls into my eyes, my leg goes between hers to separate them. The warning in her eyes inspires me to be naughty, I unzip her skirt and drag her panties down her ass.“Pick,” I whisper into her ear. I cup her ass. “Pick, baby.” She moans in protest and I spank her. “Pick.”The phone stops ringing, El heaves a sigh. I chuckle when the phone begins ringing. My dick pokes her cunt, a whimper leaves her lips and she flattens her h
El’s stomach is covered in a clear gel. I wink when her head rolls to my side. The doctor runs a hand held object over her belly while paying attention to the screen. At first, there’s nothing on the screen, then I see it. A white blob on the black screen. His finger halts on the screen, directly above the blob. “Can you hear it?” he asks. I dart a glance at El. “No?” He moves that object on her stomach again and my hand tightens around hers. “If you listen closely, you can hear the heartbeats.” I nod at the screen, paying rapt attention to what he is trying to tell us. Then I hear it—the gentle sound of a thumping heart. El does too. I palm her hands between mine. Our baby. “Nails start to form at this point, see?” The image on the screen is a bit blurry like we are watching a movie on a black and white TV. I don’t see nails or hair or anything he talks about. I just see my boy or the tiny human that’s my boy. He looks big.
“Are you tired of me yet?” I tease.Ava doesn’t find the humour in my statement. Her face is void of emotions. It’s weird because this is my first time seeing her without a hint of a smile. She drops her notepad on the stool beside her couch.“A bit.”My expression dampens. It prompts her to sit up and offer me a small smile.“You missed my calls. Ignored my texts and emails.” Hearing her list them out makes me sound like an asshole. “We have discussed this before. If you need a break, it’s okay but you must inform me before going MIA. We were making such great progress and you disappeared without a word.” It feels like I am getting scolded by my favourite teacher. She lets out a small sigh. “I was worried.”I kick out my legs. “I’m sorry.”“It’s fine. How are you?”Perfect and living my best life. It has
El’s eyes are wide with joy. She throws her arms around my neck. “Congratulations.”Congratulations are in order but this is not the best part. I’m giddy with excitement but somewhat still calm. We get out of the car with our hands linked. The girls are not in sight. They should be ready to leave, if they haven’t already. I don’t want El to meet them at home or it will ruin our plans to leave.They will stay over at Joshua until the end of the week, then spend the weekend with their grandparents. I haven’t called Vincent yet to update him. We will meet later today to discuss the visiting arrangements. I’ll talk and he will listen. It’s the best he can do since nobody has talked about punishing him for his sins.To be fair, no one cares anymore. We are glad to move past that dark stage of our life. It’s like we don’t want to confront anything that might ruin this bubble of happiness. Mo
“I adopted Brianna,” I mutter. Vincent doesn’t react. He looks up from the table to stare at me, then El. Even his nod is polite. “You’re still allowed to visit her,” I add this for his sake. “But only on weekends.”El squeezes my hand under the table as the silence lingers. I don’t like Vincent’s mood.A thick air of sadness hovers over him. I want nothing to do with that. I am done feeling sad for myself. I am free from my supposed sins and the rest of my life will be me doing all I never allowed myself to do.“Okay.” He sweeps his overgrown hair out of his face. “What next?” El gives my hand another squeeze. I don’t hate him but I don’t completely trust him not to do something stupid. “No cops? No charges?”My lips twitch. Left to Joshua, he would have been arrested the day they found out. “None.”Vincent sags
I tilt the laptop and the girls’ faces occupy the screen. Wyn is on top of Bren but her twin doesn’t seem to mind. Brianna is on one side of the bed, smiling at the camera. They are all lying on their stomachs. El settles down beside me, I prop the laptop on my knees and slip my hand into her shirt from behind. She shoots me a warning look. I bat my lashes like the cute baby daddy I am.“I miss Mummy,” Wyn says.My back meets the headboard and El rests her head on my shoulder. “What about me?”Again, she and Bren are rocking the same gowns. Wyn frowns. “I miss you too, I guess.”El bellows out a laugh. Evil girls. In a few months, I’ll have my boys. She wraps an arm around my waist to soothe me. It works for only a second before my attention returns to the laptop. Bren is grinning.“How are you?” El asks.“Fine,” three of them chorus.&