Chapter 06

KATE

Impatiently, he lifted me, placing my legs around his hips effortlessly. I gazed into his large blue eyes, gripping his neck as he carried me to the bed. Laying me on the bed, he climbed on top of me, supporting himself with his arms to avoid crushing me due to his size.

"Are you okay?" 

I couldn't form a word. I was trying to relax. I'm wondering if I should tell him or just let it happen. Damn it. 

"Is something wrong?" 

My expression was surely giving me away.

"I... " Would he find it strange? Of course, he would. I could just let him go on without telling him. But I had to say it.

"You don't want to?"

"I... I'm... It's my... I never..." Saying that felt so pathetic, no matter how I tried to say it.

"Never?" He frowned. I closed my eyes, squeezing them tightly, wishing to disappear.

Ten out of ten for embarrassing yourself, Katherine. My face must have been redder than a tomato. I tried to breathe. When I opened my eyes, he was looking at me with wide eyes.

"Shit. No?" He shook his head, closing his eyes. "You must be kidding..." 

I mentally thanked, for him understanding and avoiding the need for me to say the embarrassing phrase.

"Are you...?"

I spoke too soon.

"Virgin." It was strange and ridiculous the way the word sounded. But somehow, saying it helped me relax. And the nervousness almost disappeared.

He got up, running his hands through his face and hair. I sat on the bed. He smiled, nervously or incredulously.

"Is this a joke?"

"No."

"I can't believe it. Damn it. You should have told me!" His expression transformed from incredulous to angry and thoughtful.

"Sorry. It didn't seem that important." I tried to downplay it.

"Not important? Damn, it... Why didn't you tell me?"

"I..."

"Did you let me bring you here?" He was exaggerating. "You're a virgin," he said, trying to convince himself of the fact. I got up.

"Don't you think you're overreacting?"

"You should have told me... damn it."

"Am I too inexperienced for you?"

I was afraid of his answer. It was obvious.

"I can't do this."

Was he rejecting me? Damn it.

"Why not?"

"I'm not the kind of guy for you. Not for this."

"Right. I didn't know there was an ideal type of guy for virgins." I crossed my arms, rolling my eyes at him.

"Damn it. I mean..." He stared at my breasts and looked away before continuing as if the sight caused him pain. He moaned. "You should do this with a boyfriend or something... What I mean is that I can't offer you more... more than tonight."

"I know what you want, and I'm here because I want it too."

"I can't. Tell me to take you home."

"Are you rejecting me?"

"Please... I can barely hold back now."

"You don't have to." I placed my hands on his broad shoulders and pushed him back onto the bed, making him sit on the edge, and I straddled him.

"Don't do this."

"Shhh. I know you want it. I can see it." I pressed my lips against his, so soft and delicious. "I just want to feel you, that's all," I whispered in his ear. My hands reached for his pants, and I freed his erection.

"This is a terrible idea." 

I ignored him and took off his shirt slowly, over his head. He was big, with well-defined and firm muscles; he must have spent a lot of time exercising. I kissed his lips, moving down to his chin and neck. His skin was warm.

He turned our bodies on the bed, lying on top of me. I watched him, transfixed, as he took off the rest of his clothes. I saw his erection for the first time. Better than any other I've seen, would be a good definition.

I was fascinated and a little scared by its size. I crawled to the headboard, supporting myself on my elbows, watching his every move. I could hardly take my eyes off his dick. I wanted to touch every part of his body and suck and lick it, maybe one more than the others.

He crawled back on the bed until he was on top of me. 

"Are you sure?"

I nodded. It was all I wanted at that moment.

"I hope it doesn't hurt too much." 

This really shouldn't have come out of my mouth. Damn it. I had already lost control of the connection between my brain and my mouth. But I confess, I was a little scared. He was... the type who seemed like he would never fit inside me, but desire outweighed fear.

"I'll try to go slow." 

I nodded, trying to ignore the almost smile on his face. 

"Believe me, it will hurt me more than you."

"Don't laugh."

"I was thinking... that it's also my first time with a virgin."

"Can we stop saying that word?" 

He smiled. If he was trying to make me relax, it wasn't working.

"You're a big surprise. I never imagined..." I put my fingers on his mouth to prevent him from continuing; he smiled before sucking my lip and scraping his teeth on my chin.

His hand slid over my breasts and down my belly until it brushed over my clit. Yes. Right there... Damn it. Just the brushing almost made me lose my mind. His eyes were fixed on my face. But his hand disappeared. 

I closed my eyes, wanting to immediately feel him bury himself inside me, my muscles pleading within me. I felt his wet and warm tongue on one of my nipples, sliding gently, and then his fingers in a slow and torturous touch around it.

I arched my body on the bed, moaning. I felt his fingers sink into my thighs. I heard him groan, satisfied, with his mouth still on one breast. His fingers grazed my thighs, teasing me, slowly moving up to my groin. I wanted to scream and beg, but I felt my breath escape as his fingers slid over the bundle of nerves. He was driving me crazy with that teasing.

"Damn it. You're so wet..." He whispered, studying my face. 

I felt his mouth on my neck again, giving soft kisses, sliding his lips, and gently biting my ear. "Tell me..." His voice was hoarse, almost inaudible. I opened my eyes to look at him. "Has anyone ever gone down on you?" 

Damn it! He's going to... I squirmed on the bed, just imagining it. I shook my head in denial, and I saw a satisfied smile on his face. He growled softly. "I'll be the first to taste you." His fingers circled my entrance. 

"Please..." 

He moistened his fingers, sliding over my clitoris. I threw my head back; nothing could be so incredible. It felt so good that it hurt.

His fingers disappeared again. Please, stop torturing me. I lifted my head to see him. His weight had vanished from the mattress. I saw him bend down and pick something up from his pants on the floor. He tore open the small package with his teeth and held the base of his dick to roll it on with skill. 

He came back to me, kissing me while spreading my legs apart. His mouth was driving me crazy.

"Do you want to orgasm first?"

"Please." I could hardly imagine what it would be like, but it was all I wanted.

"Have you ever climaxed in your life? Alone?"

I shook my head. I didn't know what he was thinking. He just smiled before kissing me again. Leaving me wanting, he crawled on the bed, grabbing my breasts and licking my belly until he had his head between my legs.