What Trouble Did He Bring?

VIOLET'S POV

I entered my room and shut the door, falling to the floor. My fingers tingle as my heart races faster, pounding in my chest like a drum. I can feel the hot tears brimming behind my eyelids and as I take deep breaths to try and regain control of myself nothing seems to help.

I focus on trying not to alarm those around me but it feels impossible for all these overwhelming emotions be contained within one person. My vision starts closing in on itself and suddenly everything was spinning so fast that cannot comprehend what's happening anymore.

I want this feeling to go away so badly - the tightness in my throat; the way time moves differently when I was drowning in my own state of depression. I wondered what I was thinking all these while about Jason. Was it worth my fleeting emotions?

I tried taking in more breaths to control my emotional panic. You know the feeling of trying to sound fine when it was obvious you are probably having your own panic attacks - but end up feel