Confession

"So your father and me got an invitation," My mother says, eyes expressionless. "A ceremony cointaining lead Alphas and their mates from all over the country."

I can't exactly pay attention to what she's saying, I'm thinking of something else. It has been a week since I sent that letter by our local raven. I can't really expect a reply from her, it's not like I wanted or asked something. But still the craving is there, I want to talk to her. I want to see her again. I want to get rid of this confusion and frustration. 

"You don't look well. Is something the matter with you?" my mother slightly frowns, apparently she didn't like the feeling showing my negligence to her speech. 

"No, I'm fine," I shake my body in a speedy motion, as if to show off how strong and light my body feels. "So you and father are going to attend this ceremony?" 

"It's not like an order from the King, but it might be a great experience since all the lead Alphas will be there, according to their will. I also came to know that some family members of the lead Alpha can also join, as long as it's appropriate and meets the requirements."

Suddenly I'm weary, listening earnestly to her though she continues to remain expressionless. Since all the lead Alphas will attend the ceremony, does that mean.... 

"You're not thinking about the Blood Moon girl, are ya?" Charles growls behind me, his expression tells that he's aware of the ceremony news. 

"She's not just some girls, an Alphaess. At least show some respect," I reply in a grumpy voice. It's clear that he still haven't accepted the rejection from Nyx quite well, but that doesn't excuse his behaviour. 

"Respect?" he scoffs, glancing at my mother. "Dear Mother, will you teach your stupid son a lesson? He's been going outta hands recently, forgetting how that girl humiliated our pack." 

"All she did was rejecting the marriage proposal with you," I shrug. "I don't see how that would consider the whole pack."

Charles is at a loss of words hearing this and leaves the room with a storm after giving me a vicious glare. And my mother lets out a soft sigh, saying nothing. 

Now this is my chance to see Nyx again, by attending the ceremony next week. 

~ 

"Welcome to the beginning of Alpha Pleasure ceremony," the man wearing suit coat announces it loudly by the mic, holding a neverending smile. Most of the crowd stops for a moment to hear what he has to say, some of the others continuing what they were doing. 

My eyes keep wandering among the crowd, looking for a familiar figure. Though I assume that she probably won't be here at the festival, since she's an Alphaess, she must have gotten handful of expensive private festivals or something like that. I stare at the dens decorations behind the stage, wondering if she would be there. Among the storm of countless wolves here, a certain person is pretty tough to find, I won't deny that. 

I walk to the massive tables full of foods after a while, asking myself if I'm in the mood for to eat. Since this is a national festival, there are also wolf meats, seems nicely cooked. But the sight of those meat pieces gross the hell outta me, I'd never be in a place where I take part in cannibalism, no matter how hard it gets. 

"Hungry?" a voice whispers behind me suddenly. 

I immediately recognise the voice, whose tone I've wanted and craved to hear for weeks. I slowly turn and see her smiling mischievously at me. She looks brighter and prettier than I could even imagine, her plain white outfit radiating beautiful aura. 

"Nyx, Alphaess Nyx," I breath heavily as I utter her name. 

She glances around the area and offers me her hand to hold, "Mind getting out of this place, Alpha Lorenzo?" 

~

We walk by the bank of a calm, small river near the festival area, our hands are almost touching. I wait for her confirmation with an excessively beating heart, wondering if that's too much. South wind breeze continues to bless our souls and Nyx lets me hold her hand with a soft chuckle.

"What's the nervousness for, Lorenzo?" she calls me by my name for the first time. 

I look into her eyes, wanting to tell her all the unspoken feelings and sentences I have been concealing.

"I can't help it, when I'm with you, Nyx."

She definitely knows. Psychology says that girls are good at getting hints like this, but in most of the cases, they act like they don't know anything. Honestly I can't blame her in this situation, it was just that day she rose to the throne. That event still feels hard to believe, the power this girl holds, and right now I'm holding her hand. 

"I don't really expect you to give me an answer right now," I say again, stopping my steps and experiencing boldness. "You can have all the time you want, but eventually I demand an answer." 

"Demand an answer of what, Alpha Lorenzo?" she looks at me softly, sunlight majestically radiating on her beautiful face and hair.

I take a deep breath, thinking what if there goes nothing and she rejects me without any second chance. I don't wanna imagine the outcome, but can't help denying that thought either. 

"The answer to the feelings that I have for you. You have taken over my mind the moment I first saw you and you're the first one. I want to be your mate, Alphaess Nyx, I want to take care of you till my last breath. I don't demand an answer from you right away, I'm sure this is sudden for you. I want to be a better man for you, a man you can brag about, and I'm ready to do anything for that."

"Are you sure you're not mistaking your feelings? Maybe those feelings are the signs of friendship?" Nyx blurts out awkwardly, her cheeks are blushing with embarrassment. 

"No, Alphaess, there's no mistake," I shake my head, feeling desperate to prove my emotions. "Man and woman can't be friends, and I don't intend to form a friendship with you either way. I wanna be your soulmate, want to love you and take care of you, protecting of from any kind of danger and stand by you at every situation."

Nyx slowly steps closer to me, pressing my hand to her chest. She looks into my eyes, eyes full of smile and affection. As she tiptoes on her feet and softly presses her moist lips to my cheek, my heart stops beating.

"Apparently we need time, Lorenzo. But I'll wait for you," she whispers to my ear, "As you'll wait for me."

"And then we'll be together forever," I take her into my arms, hugging her tightly. 

I'm so happy. But also determined to make the best of myself, for her. 

For us.