Chapter 4: Confusion

“You did WHAT??” Saira screamed in shock and I covered my ears in irritation.

“I told him to leave but when he hesitated, I had no choice but to kick him out of my place so I did it,” I repeated nonchalantly. Saira’s mouth is still wide open from shock.

“It’s nothing so surprising. Why are you behaving like this? I thought you’d praise me.” I raised my eyebrows and she cleared her throat.

“I would suggest you stop assuming things and focus on what you could lose if you didn’t stop acting like a fool.” She addressed me with sarcasm and I rolled my eyes.

“Excuse me! And what is it?”

“A man you love came back to you, apologized to you, gave you three best fucking orgasms in 30 minutes of the night and you kicked him out after it rather than cuddling his warm, naked and sexy body in your bed.” She argued back and I looked away to hide my embarrassment.

“Will you stop making me awkward!” I murmured and she threw a cushion at me which I caught.

“No. I want you to give him, and most importantly; give yourself a second chance.” She advised softly this time and my eyes filled with tears.

“I can’t do this.” I looked away.

“You can’t or you don’t want to?” She insisted and I sighed.

“I….. I love him and it frustrates me. I thought that I moved on after all this time, but yesterday when he showed up, kissed me, said sweet things to me, confessed his love to me, it was like I’m back to square one. It scared the shit out of me so I had no choice but to push him away, so that I could think more logically. To decide through my brain rather than my emotions or my heart because in the end I know he’ll break me again, he’ll leave me again, he’ll hurt me again and next time I’ll break to never be mend again!” Saira sat down beside me and hugged me while I cried, taking all out that I was feeling.

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I was busy in completing a complicated design of the basement of a library which would be located in the upcoming project of a university. It took a lot of my time as the investors were really keen on bringing out something unique. I was pretty sure that they wanted the institute to be well-known; but not because of the academic performances or excellence of management but for the unique structure and design of the underground library along with a basement.

A knock on my office door startled me and I looked up just in time to see the last person I expected at my workspace.

“Hello, dolcezza (sweetness). How’s your day going?” He invited himself in without asking me anything as I knew he rendered me speechless from the unexpected appearance he made of himself at my office. He settled down comfortably on the couch and smiled softly at me like we were in a healthy, happy relationship and he just came here to give his lover a surprise visit! Damn him…

“What the hell are you doing here?” I asked coldly and he shook his head in amusement.

“Last time after you asked the same question, I made love to you on your couch!” He winked at me.

“Fucked. We FUCKED and that’s just it. Because YOU came to my place just for a tight pus** to satisfy your insatiable co**.” I said while gritting my teeth in annoyance.

“As for it; you forgot to mention how much that tight pus** loves this insatiable co**!” He smirked and I rolled my eyes.

“If your dirty joke has ended, you may leave now so that I can work without any unwanted disturbances.” I pointed towards the exit dismissively.

“It’s not a joke but a simple reality. By the way, your receptionist is very sweet and humble. Two opposites under the same roof!” He commented with a naughty grin but I didn’t even try to put up a fake smile.

“It’s really informative. I didn’t know that!” I replied dryly.

“Well, well, well.. But just so you know: I love to fuck only one specific arrogant and stubborn pus**, if that information could satisfy your ego, babe!” He smirked, making my blood boil.

“Leave before I strangle you!” I spoke coldly and then resumed my work.

I worked with so much concentration that I completely forgot about him in the same room as me. I looked up again when Saira entered the room with a single knock on the door but halted there when she saw that I had a company. Then I remembered him as well and it took me great amount of willpower to not murder him right there in my office, looking like he owned the place, although it’s the other way around!

“Oh hello! I didn’t know you had a company as I ordered our usual lunch.” Saira explained apologetically to both of us after a moment of awkward silence.

“Actually, Mr. Alexander is just leaving as he has a lot to do. Right?” I spoke sweetly to Saira while glaring at his calm demeanor.

“Actually, I’m afraid to tell you that you’re so wrong as I’m not leaving and most specifically, I have nothing to do anything important other than eating lunch with you…..alone!” He stood up and adjusted his suit, then eyed Saira pointedly at the end of his speech. She cleared her throat awkwardly and then looked at me, questionably.

“Alexander!” I said in a warning tone. He was definitely in the mood to test my patience today.

“Isabella!” He spoke back with a challenge and I gritted my teeth in frustration. I narrowed my eyes at him.

“What should I do?” Saira butted in our staring contest.

“Let’s do one thing; cancel the order & let’s eat out. I’ll come to your office after finishing up one last thing,” I replied to her with a soft smile. I decided to treat him like a decor in the room. She moved her eyes towards him, questioning me about him silently and I replied to her with a slight nod. She left the place, after understanding my motive.

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