[Kayden's POV]
"Fia?" I asked when her sobs had slowly died down.
She took a deep breath and moved her head from my neck to my chest, resting one cheek against it. My neck and the neckline of my shirt were soaked with her tears. She had probably cried for good old half an hour now. And I let her without saying anything. I'm scared that she'd say things about how hurt she is right now because of my brother again. As much as possible kapag magkasama kami ay iniwasan kong mapag-usapan si kuya o ang kung ano mang tungkol sa kanya. I might hurt her or I might hurt myself more.
She sniffed. "I'm sorry I was just too carried away. Nakita ko kasi yung album mo. Nainggit ako nung nakita ko si Cassy during her debut. I had this girlish dream of
[Kayden's POV] "I love you..." My heart pounded so hard, I could literally hear it drumming my ears. Was I too carried away with this make believe fairy tale at kung anu-ano na ang naririnig ko? She sobbed and tightened her arms around me. "I'm sorry..."she said with a cracked voice."I'm sorry if it took me just now to say na mahal kita..." Pakiramdam ko, bigla akong nanlamig. Even air failed to pass by my lungs. I stopped swaying and held her shoulders with my trembling hands. I gently pushed her body. "A-nong sinabi mo, b
[Fia's POV]HINDIko napigilang muling mapa-iyak ng mapagmasdan ko ang sonogram film. The sonogram indicates that my baby was seven weeks and four days already. My baby looks like a toad but it has a heartbeat.Halo-halong emosyon ang naramdaman ko ng marinig ang tibok puso niya kanina. I was worried and scared but apart from those feelings, I was also relieved kasi healthy siya. Parang hindi parin ako makapaniwala that a growing life is inside my womb right now. Masaya rin pala ang pakiramdam. Kahit hindi pa siya napapanganak at kahit unexpected ang pagdating niya ay mahal ko na siya. I guess, any loving future mother feels the same way as I do.Actually, I was so excited to do this ultrasound last week pero ngayon lang ako nagkapanahon. Nag leave kasi si Aya kaya naiwan sa akin ang steak house. Ka
[Fia's POV]"Cas..."I rested my face in my hands. D-did Kayden tell her? Who else knows?"Huwag kang mag-alala, Ate. I won't tell anyone,"she answered, reassuring me."Sinabi ba sa'yo ng Kuya mo?"Nagtaas ako ng tingin sa kanya. The door to the kitchen was closed so we couldn't hear what was going on outside.She shook her head and turned her back para kumuha ng baso sa cupboard."Walang sinabi si Kuya, "she sighed and faced me."Naalala mo nung birthday ni Kuya, Ate? I don't know but I felt something so strange when I saw the two of you. Lalo na si Kuya. I have never seen him look at someone else kagaya kung p
[Fia's POV]"BABE, wake up,"I felt Kayden whisper against my ear while his arms and legs were all wrapped up to my body."Uhmm..."I whined and decided to go on sleep mode again. But the jerk that he was tickled me with his kisses. He tauntingly brushed his lips to that sensitive skin of my ear. Naglakbay rin ang halik niya sa mga mata ko, sa ilong, sa pisngi, sa labi, sa leeg, sa dibdib..."Uhmm Kayden..."I tried to open my lids and raked my fingers to his hair." I'm tired..."inaantok kong sabi.He chuckled and raised his head para salubungin ang titig ko."You're one lazy lazy baby lately."He squeez
[Fia's POV] I woke up feeling sated. This morning is just one of the few beautiful mornings I have ever had. It always feels so wonderful to wake up next to him and to be shut inside his arms. There is no other place as perfect and as safe as his arms. He had the most incomparable warmth. Warmth that is more soothing than the best comfort blanket. I traced his stubbles with my fingertips and moved to plant a soft kiss on his lips."I love you, darling...more than you ever know..."I whispered and rested my face to his neck, my eyes turning misty. I snuggled closer to him, wanting more of his warmth. Nakayakap ang mga braso niya sa magkabila kong tagiliran habang nakadantay naman ang isa kong paa sa trunk niya. Wala sa loob akong napangiti.
[Fia's POV]I HAILEDa taxi not knowing where to go. I just asked the driver not to stop driving. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. My mind wouldn't function well no matter how hard I tried. My insides felt like being squashed by a force and it's about to explode anytime. I felt like there was also a huge vacuum that clenches my chest. The pain in my throat and my chest is unbearable. I have never felt any pain like this before. Ni hindi ko naramdaman ang ganitong klase ng sakit nung nalaman ko ang tungkol kay Elijah at Veronica.This is too much.Ni laway hindi ko makuhang malunok dahil sa sikip ng lalamunan ko. Hirap na hirap akong lumanghap ng hangin para punuin ang baga ko. My body was still shaking and I have to rest my trembling hands to my stom
[Kayden's POV]I hit home in less than an hour, excited. I was hoping to see Fia. I was dying to claim the warm hug and the wet kiss that I wasn't able to have from her this morning. But the house lights were off when I got there. There was no sign of her. I heaved a sigh, trying to ease out the burden in my chest. Nagkatampuhan lang naman kami. I never thought she would take it as bad as it is right now. It was past eight and she should have been home by now. She was taking a day off and I wasn't sure if she was with her friends. Wala naman siyang sinabing gagawin ngayon.With a heavy heart, I headed to her room wishing to see her lying in bed with my clothes on. But I was just imagining. I knew she was never home.Baby, please where are you? Nanghihinang nap
[Kayden's POV]Mymind had completely shut off as soon as I stormed inside their hotel room. My vision was fixed on the bodies coiled and naked under the white sheet. I clenched my hands into a fist, almost breaking the bones of my fingers. I could feel a massive gush of combined heat and cold pounding against my head, making me see nothing but red. My insides were burning with a passion to kill, a savage rage that needs to be released.Without warning, I came up to the f*cker not giving a f*ck if he was asleep and defenseless. Neither did I look at the woman beside him, afraid to see what'd be written in her eyes if they will shoot open to me. Nothing I did next make sense to me anymore. I thrashed the f*cker's head and violently slammed his body off the floor creating a loud thud. It made his eye
[Fia's POV]I'M SCHEDULEDfor an elective cesarean section tomorrow and everything wouldn't sink into me still. Ayaw kong magkaroon ng hiwa ang tiyan ko but Kayden do not want to put my life on risk. My baby boy (turned out opposite from my vision) abruptly increased on my third trimester and became a macro baby weighing almost 9.5 pounds now at my 38th week. Can you imagine how small I am carrying a big baby inside my tummy? My amniotic fluid abruptly increased too and I've developed gestational diabetes along the way. My extremities are swelling and I looked like an ugly bloated fat panda. The worst, umitim ang ilang parte ng katawan ko--my neck, my underarm, my bikini line.My self-esteem is at its lowest and I don't know if I can still get back into shape at kung maibabalik ko pa ang dating kul
[Fia's POV]My Baby,I've always dreamed of giving you a letter ever since we were kids but failed. I've lost count how many letters I've written just to express how sorry I am for making you cry every time I pissed you off. I tried handing them to you, all of it, but I fall short of bravery. I was afraid that you won't take them or you won't read them like how you'd read the letters of my brother. I've watched how your beautiful eyes glow and glimmer with sheer delight every time he hands you his letters. I was scared that I won't see the same vibe from your eyes once you read mine. There were even times that I would only look at you from afar while you read his letters and I couldn't help but envy. How I wished I could also put a smile on your cute little lips or could arouse a gi
[Fia's POV] "Daddy I want a pigtail hairstyle! I don't want this lousy braided ponytail!"My little girl pouted while she removed the pink band her daddy tied on her copper curly hair. A smile broke on my lips. Our little girl looked so cute with her crinkled round chocolate brown eyes and pouted red little lips. She was already three years old and she had grown so pretty and adorable. Only, she could get a handful at times. Kasalanan rin ng daddy niya dahil masyado niyang ini-spoil ang anak namin. Her daddy sighed and took the pink band on her hand."I thought you liked the pony. You've been asking me to do that hairstyle for so long. You said it's your favorite."
[Fia's POV]Myshoulders were shaking and my eyes were blinded with tears as Kayden sauntered to my side, his moistened eyes fixed on mine. His eyes that always know what I feel. His eyes that speak to me now of how much he loves me."Kay-den..."I muttered softly, my voice shaking.Though I was weak and strictly in complete bed rest ay sinikap ko na bumangon agad. I was about to jump into his arms when he caught me with his and shut me into a tight embrace. Sobrang mahigpit na mahigpit ko rin siyang niyakap at tuluyan na akong napahagulhol. I hardly buried my face against his chest, taking into my senses his homey and incomparable warmth, his subtle comfort, his all too familiar scent, his heavy breathing, his erratic heartb
[Kayden's POV]I have never loved a woman to the point of losing myself. Since I started to recognize my feelings for her, she was the only one that I care about. I put her on a pedestal, taking away my pride, swallowing every ton of hurt that I feel whenever I don't hear a comeback I love you from her, giving her every favor though I feel like she had only kept me for her use. Kinaya kong lahat ng iyon because I was determined that eventually, I will have her heart.And I thought I did. But I just thought.Sinubukan kong gumalaw but I couldn't move a muscle. My head hurts from taking in over a dose of alcohol. I tried to move my hands but they hurt the same too. I might have broken every knuckle I have from beating the wall of this room. Ni hindi ko na kinayang umabot sa kama. I wasn't able to make it to bed last night because I've passed out when I've drained all my force of beating the wall. Ang natatandaan ko, hinatid ako ni Dino dito para m
[Fia's POV] "UHMMM..."I moaned to a slight pain that I feel in my tummy. The weird smell of medicine and antiseptic automatically filled my nostril. Binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at napatitig sa kabuoan ng silid. Agad ko namang nakita ang mga kaibigan ko. Alice was sitting in a stool beside my bed. Si Louise at si Mikaela naman ay sa isang couch malapit sa pinto. Kinutuban na agad ako ng masama. I put a hand in my tummy at pinakiramdaman ang baby ko. "Fia?! Thank God, you're awake!"Alice stood up from her stool at lumapit sa'kin."Kamusta na ang pakiramdam mo? May masakit ba sa'yo?"She framed a hand to my cheek. Napatango ako at nag iinit ang mga matang napatitig sa kanya."
[Kayden's POV]Mymind had completely shut off as soon as I stormed inside their hotel room. My vision was fixed on the bodies coiled and naked under the white sheet. I clenched my hands into a fist, almost breaking the bones of my fingers. I could feel a massive gush of combined heat and cold pounding against my head, making me see nothing but red. My insides were burning with a passion to kill, a savage rage that needs to be released.Without warning, I came up to the f*cker not giving a f*ck if he was asleep and defenseless. Neither did I look at the woman beside him, afraid to see what'd be written in her eyes if they will shoot open to me. Nothing I did next make sense to me anymore. I thrashed the f*cker's head and violently slammed his body off the floor creating a loud thud. It made his eye
[Kayden's POV]I hit home in less than an hour, excited. I was hoping to see Fia. I was dying to claim the warm hug and the wet kiss that I wasn't able to have from her this morning. But the house lights were off when I got there. There was no sign of her. I heaved a sigh, trying to ease out the burden in my chest. Nagkatampuhan lang naman kami. I never thought she would take it as bad as it is right now. It was past eight and she should have been home by now. She was taking a day off and I wasn't sure if she was with her friends. Wala naman siyang sinabing gagawin ngayon.With a heavy heart, I headed to her room wishing to see her lying in bed with my clothes on. But I was just imagining. I knew she was never home.Baby, please where are you? Nanghihinang nap
[Fia's POV]I HAILEDa taxi not knowing where to go. I just asked the driver not to stop driving. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. My mind wouldn't function well no matter how hard I tried. My insides felt like being squashed by a force and it's about to explode anytime. I felt like there was also a huge vacuum that clenches my chest. The pain in my throat and my chest is unbearable. I have never felt any pain like this before. Ni hindi ko naramdaman ang ganitong klase ng sakit nung nalaman ko ang tungkol kay Elijah at Veronica.This is too much.Ni laway hindi ko makuhang malunok dahil sa sikip ng lalamunan ko. Hirap na hirap akong lumanghap ng hangin para punuin ang baga ko. My body was still shaking and I have to rest my trembling hands to my stom