[Kayden's POV]
I have never loved a woman to the point of losing myself. Since I started to recognize my feelings for her, she was the only one that I care about. I put her on a pedestal, taking away my pride, swallowing every ton of hurt that I feel whenever I don't hear a comeback I love you from her, giving her every favor though I feel like she had only kept me for her use. Kinaya kong lahat ng iyon because I was determined that eventually, I will have her heart.
And I thought I did. But I just thought.
Sinubukan kong gumalaw but I couldn't move a muscle. My head hurts from taking in over a dose of alcohol. I tried to move my hands but they hurt the same too. I might have broken every knuckle I have from beating the wall of this room. Ni hindi ko na kinayang umabot sa kama. I wasn't able to make it to bed last night because I've passed out when I've drained all my force of beating the wall. Ang natatandaan ko, hinatid ako ni Dino dito para m
[Fia's POV]Myshoulders were shaking and my eyes were blinded with tears as Kayden sauntered to my side, his moistened eyes fixed on mine. His eyes that always know what I feel. His eyes that speak to me now of how much he loves me."Kay-den..."I muttered softly, my voice shaking.Though I was weak and strictly in complete bed rest ay sinikap ko na bumangon agad. I was about to jump into his arms when he caught me with his and shut me into a tight embrace. Sobrang mahigpit na mahigpit ko rin siyang niyakap at tuluyan na akong napahagulhol. I hardly buried my face against his chest, taking into my senses his homey and incomparable warmth, his subtle comfort, his all too familiar scent, his heavy breathing, his erratic heartb
[Fia's POV] "Daddy I want a pigtail hairstyle! I don't want this lousy braided ponytail!"My little girl pouted while she removed the pink band her daddy tied on her copper curly hair. A smile broke on my lips. Our little girl looked so cute with her crinkled round chocolate brown eyes and pouted red little lips. She was already three years old and she had grown so pretty and adorable. Only, she could get a handful at times. Kasalanan rin ng daddy niya dahil masyado niyang ini-spoil ang anak namin. Her daddy sighed and took the pink band on her hand."I thought you liked the pony. You've been asking me to do that hairstyle for so long. You said it's your favorite."
[Fia's POV]My Baby,I've always dreamed of giving you a letter ever since we were kids but failed. I've lost count how many letters I've written just to express how sorry I am for making you cry every time I pissed you off. I tried handing them to you, all of it, but I fall short of bravery. I was afraid that you won't take them or you won't read them like how you'd read the letters of my brother. I've watched how your beautiful eyes glow and glimmer with sheer delight every time he hands you his letters. I was scared that I won't see the same vibe from your eyes once you read mine. There were even times that I would only look at you from afar while you read his letters and I couldn't help but envy. How I wished I could also put a smile on your cute little lips or could arouse a gi
[Fia's POV]I'M SCHEDULEDfor an elective cesarean section tomorrow and everything wouldn't sink into me still. Ayaw kong magkaroon ng hiwa ang tiyan ko but Kayden do not want to put my life on risk. My baby boy (turned out opposite from my vision) abruptly increased on my third trimester and became a macro baby weighing almost 9.5 pounds now at my 38th week. Can you imagine how small I am carrying a big baby inside my tummy? My amniotic fluid abruptly increased too and I've developed gestational diabetes along the way. My extremities are swelling and I looked like an ugly bloated fat panda. The worst, umitim ang ilang parte ng katawan ko--my neck, my underarm, my bikini line.My self-esteem is at its lowest and I don't know if I can still get back into shape at kung maibabalik ko pa ang dating kul
"ARE you sure that he's already inside?"I asked the woman who just came out from the room.She had a glittering mask covering half of her face. I cocked an eyebrow as I surveyed her outfit. I didn't know she was to dress this skimpily. Halos lumuwa na ang dibdib niya sa suot na corsette. She even had a lacy stocking on. And wait...was she wearing a thong? Naningkit agad ang mga mata ko. Tinalbugan pa niya ang nightie na suot ko ngayon. Did she..."Yes Ma'am nasa loob na po,"she answered."At huwag kayong mag-alala, sinuot ko lang po 'to para mapapaniwala siya sa plano po ninyo," she said as if reading my mind. Well, good thing. I won't let her have a taste of my merchandise first."O-kay,
[Fia's POV]"GIRLS, is there any drug that can erase a particular memory?"I said and drank my nth glass of vodka. Pareho kaming lahat na nakasalampak sa sahig ng mga kaibigan ko habang ipinangpupulutan ang chocolate at ilang tsitsirya. Hindi ko na matandaan kung nakailang baso na ako dahil dalawang bote na ng grey goose ang nakataob.That night still haunts me, and I couldn't even get his face out of my head. That jerk, I hated him with a passion ever since when we were kids! Bakit siya pa of all people?!"Fia, ano ba talaga ang problema?Aba, dinaig pa natin ang mga sunog baga at araw-araw tayong nag se-session ng inom dito sa bahay niyo? Hinahayaan ka lang namin dahil akala namin na -miss mo kami at trip mo lang 'to. But I could sense na
[Fia's POV]EVERSINCEmga bata pa kami madalas na talaga niya akong iniinis. Cassy, her sister, used to be my closest girl friend way back in grade school. Kapag naabutan ko si Kayden sa bahay nila lalo na at wala si Elijah ay expected ko nang may gagawin siyang kalokohan.Kahit ngayon, tandang-tanda ko parin ang isa sa mga kahayupang ginawa niya sakin nun. I started to hate him because of that. Halos mamatay ako sa takot nun ng sinabuyan niya ako ng live na cockroach which I later found out na laruan lang pala. Takot-takot ako sa cockroach kaya halos nagka nervous breakdown ako. Balde-balde pang luha ang iniyak ko nun na kahit mommy ko ay nahirapan akong patahanin.Hindi ko nga alam kung saan siya nagmana. Sobrang ibang iba ang ugali nila ni Elij
[Kayden's POV]"I hate you..."Fia faintly said when she recovered from her trance.I guess her emotion had died down. Medyo kalmado na ang paghinga niya. She took a swig of the water that she pulled out from the fridge at naupo sa kaharap kong sofa."Careful, babe. You might end up liking me,"I retorted with a grin.Thankfully, my boner showed some mercy on me too. I should probably get this buddy to good use later. Probably with Ally. My flavor of the month."Why are you smiling? Hindi kana nakakatuwa, ha!Unggoy ka talaga! At anong sabi mo? Ikaw magugustuhan ko? Kahit na ikaw nalang siguro ang nag-iisang lalaki s
[Fia's POV]I'M SCHEDULEDfor an elective cesarean section tomorrow and everything wouldn't sink into me still. Ayaw kong magkaroon ng hiwa ang tiyan ko but Kayden do not want to put my life on risk. My baby boy (turned out opposite from my vision) abruptly increased on my third trimester and became a macro baby weighing almost 9.5 pounds now at my 38th week. Can you imagine how small I am carrying a big baby inside my tummy? My amniotic fluid abruptly increased too and I've developed gestational diabetes along the way. My extremities are swelling and I looked like an ugly bloated fat panda. The worst, umitim ang ilang parte ng katawan ko--my neck, my underarm, my bikini line.My self-esteem is at its lowest and I don't know if I can still get back into shape at kung maibabalik ko pa ang dating kul
[Fia's POV]My Baby,I've always dreamed of giving you a letter ever since we were kids but failed. I've lost count how many letters I've written just to express how sorry I am for making you cry every time I pissed you off. I tried handing them to you, all of it, but I fall short of bravery. I was afraid that you won't take them or you won't read them like how you'd read the letters of my brother. I've watched how your beautiful eyes glow and glimmer with sheer delight every time he hands you his letters. I was scared that I won't see the same vibe from your eyes once you read mine. There were even times that I would only look at you from afar while you read his letters and I couldn't help but envy. How I wished I could also put a smile on your cute little lips or could arouse a gi
[Fia's POV] "Daddy I want a pigtail hairstyle! I don't want this lousy braided ponytail!"My little girl pouted while she removed the pink band her daddy tied on her copper curly hair. A smile broke on my lips. Our little girl looked so cute with her crinkled round chocolate brown eyes and pouted red little lips. She was already three years old and she had grown so pretty and adorable. Only, she could get a handful at times. Kasalanan rin ng daddy niya dahil masyado niyang ini-spoil ang anak namin. Her daddy sighed and took the pink band on her hand."I thought you liked the pony. You've been asking me to do that hairstyle for so long. You said it's your favorite."
[Fia's POV]Myshoulders were shaking and my eyes were blinded with tears as Kayden sauntered to my side, his moistened eyes fixed on mine. His eyes that always know what I feel. His eyes that speak to me now of how much he loves me."Kay-den..."I muttered softly, my voice shaking.Though I was weak and strictly in complete bed rest ay sinikap ko na bumangon agad. I was about to jump into his arms when he caught me with his and shut me into a tight embrace. Sobrang mahigpit na mahigpit ko rin siyang niyakap at tuluyan na akong napahagulhol. I hardly buried my face against his chest, taking into my senses his homey and incomparable warmth, his subtle comfort, his all too familiar scent, his heavy breathing, his erratic heartb
[Kayden's POV]I have never loved a woman to the point of losing myself. Since I started to recognize my feelings for her, she was the only one that I care about. I put her on a pedestal, taking away my pride, swallowing every ton of hurt that I feel whenever I don't hear a comeback I love you from her, giving her every favor though I feel like she had only kept me for her use. Kinaya kong lahat ng iyon because I was determined that eventually, I will have her heart.And I thought I did. But I just thought.Sinubukan kong gumalaw but I couldn't move a muscle. My head hurts from taking in over a dose of alcohol. I tried to move my hands but they hurt the same too. I might have broken every knuckle I have from beating the wall of this room. Ni hindi ko na kinayang umabot sa kama. I wasn't able to make it to bed last night because I've passed out when I've drained all my force of beating the wall. Ang natatandaan ko, hinatid ako ni Dino dito para m
[Fia's POV] "UHMMM..."I moaned to a slight pain that I feel in my tummy. The weird smell of medicine and antiseptic automatically filled my nostril. Binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at napatitig sa kabuoan ng silid. Agad ko namang nakita ang mga kaibigan ko. Alice was sitting in a stool beside my bed. Si Louise at si Mikaela naman ay sa isang couch malapit sa pinto. Kinutuban na agad ako ng masama. I put a hand in my tummy at pinakiramdaman ang baby ko. "Fia?! Thank God, you're awake!"Alice stood up from her stool at lumapit sa'kin."Kamusta na ang pakiramdam mo? May masakit ba sa'yo?"She framed a hand to my cheek. Napatango ako at nag iinit ang mga matang napatitig sa kanya."
[Kayden's POV]Mymind had completely shut off as soon as I stormed inside their hotel room. My vision was fixed on the bodies coiled and naked under the white sheet. I clenched my hands into a fist, almost breaking the bones of my fingers. I could feel a massive gush of combined heat and cold pounding against my head, making me see nothing but red. My insides were burning with a passion to kill, a savage rage that needs to be released.Without warning, I came up to the f*cker not giving a f*ck if he was asleep and defenseless. Neither did I look at the woman beside him, afraid to see what'd be written in her eyes if they will shoot open to me. Nothing I did next make sense to me anymore. I thrashed the f*cker's head and violently slammed his body off the floor creating a loud thud. It made his eye
[Kayden's POV]I hit home in less than an hour, excited. I was hoping to see Fia. I was dying to claim the warm hug and the wet kiss that I wasn't able to have from her this morning. But the house lights were off when I got there. There was no sign of her. I heaved a sigh, trying to ease out the burden in my chest. Nagkatampuhan lang naman kami. I never thought she would take it as bad as it is right now. It was past eight and she should have been home by now. She was taking a day off and I wasn't sure if she was with her friends. Wala naman siyang sinabing gagawin ngayon.With a heavy heart, I headed to her room wishing to see her lying in bed with my clothes on. But I was just imagining. I knew she was never home.Baby, please where are you? Nanghihinang nap
[Fia's POV]I HAILEDa taxi not knowing where to go. I just asked the driver not to stop driving. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. My mind wouldn't function well no matter how hard I tried. My insides felt like being squashed by a force and it's about to explode anytime. I felt like there was also a huge vacuum that clenches my chest. The pain in my throat and my chest is unbearable. I have never felt any pain like this before. Ni hindi ko naramdaman ang ganitong klase ng sakit nung nalaman ko ang tungkol kay Elijah at Veronica.This is too much.Ni laway hindi ko makuhang malunok dahil sa sikip ng lalamunan ko. Hirap na hirap akong lumanghap ng hangin para punuin ang baga ko. My body was still shaking and I have to rest my trembling hands to my stom