[Kayden's POV]
WHAT'S the use in fighting it back? I have been denying my body to her like a saint. I knew this was wrong and I knew that I shouldn't have her. But I'm already stuck with this shit. And before hell could take its turn, I will make sure that she was already mine. I will make sure that just as what she did to me since she gave me that head, she will never forget this night and that she would always be reminded of me. I will make sure that all she would remember tomorrow is me. My touch, my kiss, the feel of me inside of her... it would even be difficult for her to remember her feelings for my brother.
"Kayden..." she groaned when I slip my hand at the softness of her legs, my other hand ran at her back to unzip her dress and unhook her bra. I was spooning her. Sh
[ Fia's POV]I WOKEup with a hot breath fanning against my neck. May kamay ring nakadagan sa bewang ko at legs na nakadantay sa mga binti ko. I opened my eyes and saw Kayden's sleeping face. I bit my bottom lip. Ito ang pinaka ebidensiya ng isa na naman sa kagagahan ko kagabi. I'd like to thud at myself for being so stupid again pero ang nakakaloka ay wala akong nakakapang panghihinayang sa dibdib ko. Today was actually a lot better than yesterday. Being snuggled inside his arms felt like the most normal thing to do.Napalunok ako at matamang pinagmasdan ang mukha niya. How could he still look so good in the morning? He was so beautiful in his sleep. His face looked so serene tsaka bahagya pang nakapout ang lips niya habang nakabaon ang kalahati ng mukha niya sa leeg ko. Hiyang hiya naman ako sa m
[Kayden's POV]"SAANka ba talaga galing nung isang gabi? Naghatid ka lang kay Fia hindi kana nakabalik? At hindi ka pumunta sa sarili mong party sa bar. Mukhang sira ang mga bisitang pumunta doon na wala ang celebrant."I took the can of energy drink on my desk and gulped a shot before my eyes went back to the monitor. I pretended to be working with the cuts and variations of my film and ignored Bleeze. I had too much headache from the drink I had last night at wala ako sa mood makinig ulit ng sermon. I had a dose of it from my own mother yesterday."Sige lang. Prentend that you're working. Mukha kang sira. You've been playing with that scene for good old thirty minutes already."Nilapag niya ang kopya ng gi
[Fia's POV]"ANONG kailangan mo?"Kayden asked me with a tinge of coldness and indifference in his voice. Sandali lang niya akong tiningnan then his eyes were back on the papers at the table.Contrary to what he was showing me, I had the urge na lapitan siya at yakapinngayon. I wasn't sure that I actually missed him, until now. Na mi-miss ko nga siyaat masakit nabalewalain niya ako ng ganito.I bit my bottom lip while fidgeting my fingers."Uhm...natanggap mo ba yung text ko?""Yeah. Thanks,"he answered in a monosyllabic tone saka siya nagtaas ng tingin. His eyes bore coldness too."'Yan lang ba ang pinunta mo dito?"
[Fia's POV]"Fia, you're spacing out. Kanina ka pa. Sino ba 'yang iniisip mo?"si Alice na sinusubuan si Violet ng chicken joy."Kanina kapa tingin ng tingin diyan sa phone mo. Nakikinig ka ba?""Huh? Ah yes... I'm listening..."napalunok ako at napatingin kay Alice."Ano nga ulit yun?"Alice rolled her eyeballs."Sabi ko, I'll set you up on a date tomorrow. Kaya please lang, kundi kapa nakaka move on diyan kay Elj, pagkakataon mo na ngayon. He's Marco's cousin. He's a lawyer. Twenty-nine years old. Mula sa magandang pamilya. Gwapo, at higit sa lahat mabait. I'm sure he could level your standard kung si Elijah ang pamantayan mo."
[Fia's POV] "Assuming ka...hindi kaya..."I simply muttered, enough for both of us to hear. I was hardly trying to maintain a uniform breath kasi pakiramdam ko kinakapos na ako ng hininga. "Hindi nga?"he asked teasingly, lightly brushing his lips against the shell of my ear. What was he doing? Hindi ba niya alam na nandito si Cassy at Veronica? I took a backward stride at pasimpleng kumawala sa yakap niya but the jerk just gave me a soft chuckle. "Come on. Let's eat. I'm famished,"he said and attempted to take my hand but I was fast to place it behind my back. Goodness! Good thing Cassy was busy
[Fia's POV]ISTOODbehind his back fighting the urge to inch my body close to him and bury my face at the angle of his nape.This is another stupid thing to think of. I know I have no right to kiss him or do whatever that is my silly mind is urging me to do...But... I don't know. Kayden just had the power to awaken every nerve fiber inside my being.I bit my bottom lip."Hin-di ka pa ba tapos?""You should have waited for me outside,"he sighed and brought a hand to press his temple. So he knew na nandito ako? Ayaw lang siguro niyang magpa istorbo.
[Fia's POV]"Giniginaw ka pa ba?"Eric asked while he reached for my shoulder and covered it with his arm."I'm fine. You lent me your jacket. Okay lang ako,"I whispered and leaned against my seat.Mukhang nakuha naman ni Eric ang gusto kong sabihin kaya binaba na niya ang kamay niya. Though Eric was a perfect gentleman, I wasn't just comfortable na hinahawakan niya ako ngayon. I even felt so guilty that I came with him today. Niyaya akong mag dinner ni Kayden. He wants us to talk about the place in Ortigas kung saan plano ni mommy magpatayo ng resto but I did make an excuse na makikipagkita ako sa mga friends ko, which was so lame. Pero napaniwala ko naman siya. Nakakahiya naman din kay Eric. I already said yes to him the o
[Fia's POV]"Stay here,Fia. Kakausapin ko lang si Kayden,"said Eric while he turned off the power lock button."Eric... no!!!"I helplessly yelped but it was too late. Nakababa na siya.Nanginginig kong nasapo ang bibig ko.Kayden's temper is something you wouldn't want to mess with. He gets angry like a roaring beast. I knew Eric knows that. Nakita naman niya kung pa'no magalit si Kayden nung nasa shooting kami. And I presumed they almost had a brawl at the resort. Hindi ko naman kasi alam ang napag-usapan nila nun.Eric was nearing Kayden kaya hindi na ako nagdalawang isip pa na bumaba. From what I
[Fia's POV]I'M SCHEDULEDfor an elective cesarean section tomorrow and everything wouldn't sink into me still. Ayaw kong magkaroon ng hiwa ang tiyan ko but Kayden do not want to put my life on risk. My baby boy (turned out opposite from my vision) abruptly increased on my third trimester and became a macro baby weighing almost 9.5 pounds now at my 38th week. Can you imagine how small I am carrying a big baby inside my tummy? My amniotic fluid abruptly increased too and I've developed gestational diabetes along the way. My extremities are swelling and I looked like an ugly bloated fat panda. The worst, umitim ang ilang parte ng katawan ko--my neck, my underarm, my bikini line.My self-esteem is at its lowest and I don't know if I can still get back into shape at kung maibabalik ko pa ang dating kul
[Fia's POV]My Baby,I've always dreamed of giving you a letter ever since we were kids but failed. I've lost count how many letters I've written just to express how sorry I am for making you cry every time I pissed you off. I tried handing them to you, all of it, but I fall short of bravery. I was afraid that you won't take them or you won't read them like how you'd read the letters of my brother. I've watched how your beautiful eyes glow and glimmer with sheer delight every time he hands you his letters. I was scared that I won't see the same vibe from your eyes once you read mine. There were even times that I would only look at you from afar while you read his letters and I couldn't help but envy. How I wished I could also put a smile on your cute little lips or could arouse a gi
[Fia's POV] "Daddy I want a pigtail hairstyle! I don't want this lousy braided ponytail!"My little girl pouted while she removed the pink band her daddy tied on her copper curly hair. A smile broke on my lips. Our little girl looked so cute with her crinkled round chocolate brown eyes and pouted red little lips. She was already three years old and she had grown so pretty and adorable. Only, she could get a handful at times. Kasalanan rin ng daddy niya dahil masyado niyang ini-spoil ang anak namin. Her daddy sighed and took the pink band on her hand."I thought you liked the pony. You've been asking me to do that hairstyle for so long. You said it's your favorite."
[Fia's POV]Myshoulders were shaking and my eyes were blinded with tears as Kayden sauntered to my side, his moistened eyes fixed on mine. His eyes that always know what I feel. His eyes that speak to me now of how much he loves me."Kay-den..."I muttered softly, my voice shaking.Though I was weak and strictly in complete bed rest ay sinikap ko na bumangon agad. I was about to jump into his arms when he caught me with his and shut me into a tight embrace. Sobrang mahigpit na mahigpit ko rin siyang niyakap at tuluyan na akong napahagulhol. I hardly buried my face against his chest, taking into my senses his homey and incomparable warmth, his subtle comfort, his all too familiar scent, his heavy breathing, his erratic heartb
[Kayden's POV]I have never loved a woman to the point of losing myself. Since I started to recognize my feelings for her, she was the only one that I care about. I put her on a pedestal, taking away my pride, swallowing every ton of hurt that I feel whenever I don't hear a comeback I love you from her, giving her every favor though I feel like she had only kept me for her use. Kinaya kong lahat ng iyon because I was determined that eventually, I will have her heart.And I thought I did. But I just thought.Sinubukan kong gumalaw but I couldn't move a muscle. My head hurts from taking in over a dose of alcohol. I tried to move my hands but they hurt the same too. I might have broken every knuckle I have from beating the wall of this room. Ni hindi ko na kinayang umabot sa kama. I wasn't able to make it to bed last night because I've passed out when I've drained all my force of beating the wall. Ang natatandaan ko, hinatid ako ni Dino dito para m
[Fia's POV] "UHMMM..."I moaned to a slight pain that I feel in my tummy. The weird smell of medicine and antiseptic automatically filled my nostril. Binuksan ko ang mga mata ko at napatitig sa kabuoan ng silid. Agad ko namang nakita ang mga kaibigan ko. Alice was sitting in a stool beside my bed. Si Louise at si Mikaela naman ay sa isang couch malapit sa pinto. Kinutuban na agad ako ng masama. I put a hand in my tummy at pinakiramdaman ang baby ko. "Fia?! Thank God, you're awake!"Alice stood up from her stool at lumapit sa'kin."Kamusta na ang pakiramdam mo? May masakit ba sa'yo?"She framed a hand to my cheek. Napatango ako at nag iinit ang mga matang napatitig sa kanya."
[Kayden's POV]Mymind had completely shut off as soon as I stormed inside their hotel room. My vision was fixed on the bodies coiled and naked under the white sheet. I clenched my hands into a fist, almost breaking the bones of my fingers. I could feel a massive gush of combined heat and cold pounding against my head, making me see nothing but red. My insides were burning with a passion to kill, a savage rage that needs to be released.Without warning, I came up to the f*cker not giving a f*ck if he was asleep and defenseless. Neither did I look at the woman beside him, afraid to see what'd be written in her eyes if they will shoot open to me. Nothing I did next make sense to me anymore. I thrashed the f*cker's head and violently slammed his body off the floor creating a loud thud. It made his eye
[Kayden's POV]I hit home in less than an hour, excited. I was hoping to see Fia. I was dying to claim the warm hug and the wet kiss that I wasn't able to have from her this morning. But the house lights were off when I got there. There was no sign of her. I heaved a sigh, trying to ease out the burden in my chest. Nagkatampuhan lang naman kami. I never thought she would take it as bad as it is right now. It was past eight and she should have been home by now. She was taking a day off and I wasn't sure if she was with her friends. Wala naman siyang sinabing gagawin ngayon.With a heavy heart, I headed to her room wishing to see her lying in bed with my clothes on. But I was just imagining. I knew she was never home.Baby, please where are you? Nanghihinang nap
[Fia's POV]I HAILEDa taxi not knowing where to go. I just asked the driver not to stop driving. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. My mind wouldn't function well no matter how hard I tried. My insides felt like being squashed by a force and it's about to explode anytime. I felt like there was also a huge vacuum that clenches my chest. The pain in my throat and my chest is unbearable. I have never felt any pain like this before. Ni hindi ko naramdaman ang ganitong klase ng sakit nung nalaman ko ang tungkol kay Elijah at Veronica.This is too much.Ni laway hindi ko makuhang malunok dahil sa sikip ng lalamunan ko. Hirap na hirap akong lumanghap ng hangin para punuin ang baga ko. My body was still shaking and I have to rest my trembling hands to my stom