In Lieu with Sexual FantasiesLolita placed her head on her open hands, her elbows on the table. She felt lightheaded from the wine he’d introduced in the beginning of their lunch. With her sort of hazy vision, she just looked at him and admired the planes of his face and the strong ink that bounced off the skin of his arms. Hayden pushed his plate aside and leaned in.“You look sort of dazed. Have you ever done drugs before?”She arched her brows at that question. “Hey, such a weird thing to ask someone on a hot afternoon.”“You just have the dazed look of someone who does drugs. It’s sexy.”“That’s because I’m high as a kite. I’ve never done drugs before.”He smiled seductively at her. “Well, do you wanna?”“No!”“Come on, it’ll be fun. I won’t let you have too much.” He lowered his voice. “Just enough to help you make bad decisions and let yourself go.”“I called my boyfriend and extended my stay just to be with you. Isn’t that enough for you?”He smiled. “Yes, that is enough for m
Hold back your Emotions.Lolita woke up slowly. There was a hand sunk in her head, massaging her scalp. She knew it was Hayden before she opened her eyes. He had a serious yet lost look on his face; she stared at him for a minute before he blinked and saw that her eyes were open.“You’re awake,” he mused. “Good. Wanna eat breakfast now?”Lolita smiled. Last night was the most ecstatic night of her life. After the intense sex at the balcony, they’d moved straight to bed to continue. Her series of orgasm was embarrassing, so was his continuous hunger for her.“You’re smiling,” he said, amused. “I must have done quite a number on you.”“You did.”“Shit. Now you feel ruined.”“I don't, actually.” She sat up and stretched. “I think I wanna make breakfast. Something light. You okay with scrambled eggs with toast and milk? Perhaps a hot chocolate drink. Ooh, I could make tomato sauce too. Wow. There’s like, so many things I could make for breakfast.”Hayden was naked under the sheets, but he
Jars of HopeHe waited for her at the airport. Jarrod won’t normally have done that, but recently his yearning for his girlfriend seemed to have gone over the notch. He thought about her at least twenty times a day. It took severe self control to be able to sit back and wait for her trip to be complete. It was essential to their relationship, after all. If she had her head cleared, then his brother won’t be able to meddle in it.She was standing at the waiting room with her bags beside her, staring blankly into space when he arrived. She looked lost and no worse than when she left, but that was fine. Travelling was hectic and he wasn’t with her, so there’s that. She was wearing a bean hoodie and her hair was wrapped inside it, but Jarrod could peak some red in there.When he reached her, he wrapped his arms around her and pressed her body to his.“Hi, babe.”She looked up and smiled sadly at him. “Jarrod, I…”“Shh. You look stressed. Let’s get moving ad you can relax at home, alright?
A Wedding to Plan“So, you’re getting married, huh?” Jessica Dane asked with a wide grin on her face. “That’s wonderful, Lolita. Have you told anyone yet?”Lolita chewed her food for a long while, letting the question pass by her. Jarrod laughed and poured his mother a drink. She was grateful that he did most of the talking; all she wanted to do was hide behind him and keep eating.“Mom, I only just proposed two days ago. She’s still in shock,” he said to Jessica.Lolita nodded quickly. “Yeah. I haven’t told anyone yet. My family and friends are unaware.”Issac Dane made a sound at the head of the table, but otherwise said nothing. His face was buried deep in fresh newspaper, which was usually the highlight of his day. Jessica eyed him for a minute and then smiled brightly. She was more enthusiastic than everyone in the room. “But you have to tell everyone, Lolita,” She continued to probe. “This is wonderful news. I didn’t expect you guys to get married so soon—”“Sure you do,” Isaac
You and IShe was bent beside Jarrod’s car, hurling her guts out. Lolita was hoping that her fear, anger and disgust would be able to leave in the thirty minutes she decided to dedicate to herself. She didn’t have to play that pregnancy card. Why did she do that? Was that the only escape route she could have used? Why does she really do anything? God, if only the ground would swallow her and never spit her out.She straightened and brushed her hair back. She wasn’t feeling any better, but at least the wind was in her air and she could pretend that she was back at the island, just enjoying the plain air.An arm struck out and handed her a bottle of water. She heaved a deep sigh and took it, grateful to have something that would wash out her emotions. She drank deeply and then pushed her hair back again.“Thanks, babe,” she said, closing the caps.There was no reply. Before she turned, she knew it was him. It was only him that would walk in the darkness and not a single sound would be h
Un-decisions.Samantha folded her arms on the table in surprise. “You’re getting married? Wow, that’s like… huge.”“I went to his parents house yesterday,” Lolita said. “We had a small talk. They like me. I mean, they’ve always liked me—”“You’re really doing this? I mean, I knew you would, but I just thought…” she shook her head. “I didn’t think it'd be this soon.”“We’re going small. I don’t want something lavish so I need only my friends there. My parents will fly in next week.”“Next week?!”“Wow,” Tessa laughed. “You’re really in a rush with this whole marriage thing.”“Yeah,” Samantha concurred. “Why are you in such a hurry? Did your little vacation open up your eyes to how much you really want him and how you wanna spend the rest of your life with him?”“That’s not it, Sam.”“No? Then what is? Lolita, marriage is forever.”“Stop trying to discourage her,” Tessa said to Samantha. “She’s supposed to do this. I’m kinda glad you’re going on with it, Lolita. After that experience wi
Brother’s Love.It was the erection in-between her ass cheeks that woke her up. She yawned slowly, her eyes adjusting to the darkness of the room. Jarrod pressed in close to her, breathing heavily on her neck. At first Lolita was lost, and then she remembered she was in bed with her fiancée and their wedding was fast approaching. Panic hit her and then she tried to shake him off but his arms were wrapped around her, holding her firmly in place.Lolita cleared her throat as she looked in front of her. “We can’t do this now, Jarrod.”“Sure we can,” he replied huskily. “We haven’t had sex in three weeks—if I add the additional vacation week you took, then we haven’t had sex in more than a month. I need you.”Lolita gulped. If only she had it in her to sleep with him as soon as she returned from her trip and not hide the stupid hickey from him all the time, then she would not feel boxed in this situation. All this was Hayden’s fault. He appeared in her car the last time to shake her resol
The Choices We MakeSamantha wore a long, flowery dress that had a deep plunge on the back, accentuating her curves and her black, flowing hair. Lolita had been amazed by her dark beauty the first day she saw her; and was even more flattered that she wanted to be her friend. Samantha was the widest of the three. She changed her hair at least three times a year, and she was the outgoing type. She was the one who made all the mistakes, who drove them crazy with their ideas. She could be smart sometimes, considerate even and non-judgmental. This was what Lolita liked the most about her; that she could take in your deepest, darkest secret and hold it within her, like a sponge absorbing water.Now, she poured hot chocolate drink for Lolita. They were in her yard, gazing into the blank space and the earthy ground that Samantha made last summer. Her feet were bare as she sunk her toes into the dirt, allowing the wind to caress her face and hair.“It’s hot enough to burn your throat,” she sai